paranoid dependence

Liang Qiu was worried that Shen Nian's heart would soften because of a piece of clothing, but Shen Nian seemed to be more rational than he imagined.

Perhaps it was Shen Chongshan's slap that was raised but not falling, which hit his heart after all, so even when Shen Chongshan took the initiative to ask for peace, he still sensibly did not turn back immediately, any wound must have a healing period, and the invisible scar in his heart Only slower.

From Gu Zhi's accident to New Year's Day, almost two months later, Shen Nian never went back.

But Jianjia Lane is his home after all, and it is impossible not to go back forever.

During the New Year's Day holiday, Shen Nian decided to go back. Even if it wasn't for seeing Shen Chongshan, it was time to go back and see Grandma Qin. , what he has to face has nothing to do with Liang Qiu's company or not.

It's all his own business, some things, no matter how good Liang Qiu is for himself, he can't help much.

Naturally, the purpose of going home is not to quarrel, if they can get along well, Shen Nian will not resist, so on the day of going back, Shen Nian deliberately put on the clothes that Shen Chongshan bought for herself, wanting to tell Shen Chongshan that his heart is always good keep it.

The factory was also on holiday. Shen Chongshan was sweeping the yard when Shen Nian came in. He probably didn't expect Shen Nian to come back. Seeing him entering the yard, he was stunned for a while, with a surprised expression and happy, but when he saw that Shen Nian was wearing the clothes he gave him. When I was wearing a down jacket in the past, there was only a smile in my eyes.

Shen Chongshan was originally worried that Shen Nian would not accept it, but now he was relieved: "Xiao Nian is back? Is the clothes still fit? Is it warm?"

Shen Nian looked at Shen Chongshan and smiled: "It's very warm, thank you Dad."

Maybe it was the previous quarrel that hurt each other too much, but this time they met, both of them intentionally approached the good side, so the intention of showing good intentions was obvious, especially Shen Chongshan, urging Shen Nian to go into the room:

"Go and rest for a while, the heater is on, it's warm inside, tell me what you want for lunch, I'll cook, or we can go to the restaurant, it's all up to you."

Such an enthusiastic Shen Chongshan made Shen Nian a little uncomfortable, and Shen Chongshan probably felt that it was too deliberate, which instead made the atmosphere awkward, and hurriedly took it back:

"I asked you all of a sudden, don't worry, it's still early, you think about it slowly, and just tell me when you think about it."

"it is good."

Shen Nian originally wanted to help Shen Chongshan clean the small courtyard together, but the atmosphere just now was neither awkward nor awkward, and he didn't know what to say to save the atmosphere, so he went directly into the house.

As soon as he walked into the north room, he saw Gu Zhi. The plaster cast on his hand had been removed, and he was standing at the door of his own room looking at him. His expression and posture seemed to be from Shen Nian stepping into this small courtyard. Been paying attention to him from the start.

Since Shen Nian moved to school, this was the first time they met.

Shen Nian thought that after such a long time, even if Gu Zhi was unfriendly to him, he shouldn't be hostile. After all, he really wouldn't affect him anymore, but when Shen Nian saw the look in Gu Zhi's eyes, he knew that he Not welcoming myself back, not at all.

He looked at himself, as if he wanted to see clearly the difference between Shen Nian after two months of absence.It's just that no one would like such a look, and Shen Nian was no exception, so he took the initiative to say:

"Gu Zhi, I'm leaving tomorrow."

Gu Zhi smiled when he heard the words, but there was a bit of happiness in the smile Gu Zhi knew it himself, and Shen Nian could see it clearly.

"So what? Brother Nian Nian wants to say something to me?" Gu Zhi tilted his head to look at him.

"I want to live this day well." Shen Nian looked at Gu Zhi: "I can't affect you, and you don't have to be on guard against me like an enemy."

Gu Zhi's eyes fell on Shen Nian's clothes. He has been paying attention to this clothes since Shen Nian entered the door. Shen Nian didn't understand what he meant, so Gu Zhi looked at his clothes and said to him:

"Brother Nian Nian said this as if I was going to do something to you. Don't worry, I won't. If you don't come back for two months, I miss you too."

Think about yourself?It is impossible for Shen Nian to believe this sentence, he has suffered too much from Gu Zhi.But he didn't say anything else, he just hoped that he would do what he said, that he could really live in peace.

I haven't come back for almost two months, the room is full of dust, in the past when Shen Nian was at home, she would take time to clean it every day, but Shen Chongshan was too busy, Gu Zhi didn't care about it, the room didn't look like a living place, Shen Nian Thinking of being idle is also idle, so I started to pack it up.

It's not because of any other reasons, but Shen Nian himself is probably a bit of a clean freak, living in such an environment would make him feel awkward.

When Shen Nian tidied up the room, Shen Chongshan also tidied up the small courtyard. He entered the room and looked at the brand-new room, and smiled embarrassedly: "It's hard to come back once, why did I ask you to do it? I was going to finish cleaning The yard will be tidied up."

"It's fine." Shen Nian said, "I have nothing else to do."

Shen Chongshan smiled: "Actually, Xiaozhi can also clean up, and he is usually very diligent, but his hands are just right now, so I dare not let him touch them."

Their conversation seems to be intimate, but in fact it looks like relatives whom they haven't seen for a long time.But Shen Chongshan's words were like praising his sensible son.

Shen Nian didn't think much of it, but he also understood Shen Chongshan's meaning from this sentence, he still wanted to get along well with Gu Zhi, but Shen Chongshan probably didn't understand, it was impossible.Not to mention whether Gu Zhi would get along well with him, as far as Shen Nian was concerned, he was not willing either.

He just doesn't fight or grab, but he can't laugh off all injuries.

Maybe he won't get back with revenge, but he definitely doesn't want to reconcile.

Shen Nian didn't speak, Shen Chongshan seemed to understand something, and changed the subject with a smile: "It's almost dinner time, are you two going to a restaurant or at home? If I'm at home, I'll go buy some ingredients, there's nothing left at home."

Gu Zhi sat on the sofa and watched the cartoon without making a sound.

Shen Nian didn't want to make a fuss, and thought it was unnecessary, he just didn't come back for two months, so he couldn't be regarded as a relative: "Let's eat at home."

Shen Chongshan asked Gu Zhi again: "Where is Xiao Zhi?"

"I listen to Brother Nian." Gu Zhi said.

"Okay." Shen Chongshan smiled: "Then I'll go shopping."

Shen Chongshan wanted to bring Shen Nian and Gu Zhi together, Gu Zhi readily agreed, but Shen Nian refused, not because of Gu Zhi, but because of this kind of parent-child time, he was looking forward to it but also felt a lot of discomfort:

"I want to go see Grandma Qin first."

Shen Chongshan knew that Shen Nian and Grandma Qin had a good relationship, so he responded with a smile: "Okay, then do you have any food you want? Dad bought it back."

"It's fine." Shen Nian said, "I'm not picky about food."

When Gu Zhi went to his room to get dressed and came out, Shen Nian saw it and suddenly understood the reason why he had been staring at his clothes before. It turned out that Shen Chongshan also bought one for Gu Zhi, and the style was exactly the same.

Gu Zhi wouldn't like it.This was Shen Nian's first reaction.

As if feeling Shen Nian's gaze on him, Gu Zhi also looked over and smiled at Shen Nian:

"Brother Nian Nian, the clothes of the two of us are the same."

Shen Chongshan seemed very happy: "Yes, I chose it on purpose, the two brothers have to wear the same clothes."

Shen Nian didn't speak, neither did Gu Zhi, they looked at each other, the emotion and meaning in their eyes probably only they could understand.

Shen Chongshan and Gu Zhi went out together, and Shen Nian also went to see Grandma Qin, and unexpectedly saw Grandpa Zhang come out of Grandma Qin's house, his expression was not very good, as if he had just had a quarrel.

Grandma Qin and Grandpa Zhang are known to be at odds in the alley, but no matter how they are at odds, no matter how angry they are, they are still in front of people in the alley, and they have never been to each other's house before. Shen Nian was a little surprised and worried , but Grandpa Zhang probably didn't expect to see Shen Nian at this time, and he was stunned for a moment, the embarrassment on his face couldn't be concealed no matter what.

"Xiao Nian is back?"

Shen Nian responded: "Grandpa Zhang, do you have something to do with Grandma Qin?"

Grandpa Zhang's face that was smiling at Shen Nian suddenly turned back, and he snorted coldly: "What can I do with her, you misread, you went to the wrong door."

After saying this, Shen Nian left without looking back. Shen Nian looked at Grandpa Zhang's back, and didn't quite understand the reason for his sudden change of face, but he didn't think too much about it, so he went directly into the house to find Grandma Qin.

Maybe it was too cold in winter, Grandma Qin was sitting on the bed, her favorite song "Drunken and Beating the Golden Branches" was playing on the TV, and she was singing Guo Ziyi tied Guo Yan to the palace. This was Grandma Qin's favorite aria. But at this moment, Grandma Qin was looking out the window, not watching the TV, she didn't even know that Shen Nian had entered the room.

It wasn't until Shen Nian was sitting by the bed that Grandma Qin came back to her senses. She was stunned when she saw Shen Nian who suddenly appeared, and then smiled:

"Xiao Nian is back."

"Grandma, are you not feeling well?"

"No." Grandma Qin smiled: "It's just that it's too cold, grandma is lazy and doesn't want to move."

As long as it's okay, Shen Nian is relieved to see that Grandma Qin is in good spirits, but when talking to Grandma Qin, she can always feel that she is absent-minded. Shen Nian feels that she may disturb Grandma Qin, thinking that she will go back first At that time, Grandma Qin took his hand:

"Xiao Nian, grandma has something to tell you."

Shen Nian suddenly felt that this might not be a good thing, but she still nodded: "Grandma, tell me."

"Grandma is going to live with her daughter, she left years ago." Grandma Qin stroked Shen Nian's hand: "Grandma is gone, Xiao Nian will have one less person to hurt."

Shen Nian was a little surprised, but still happy, maybe because Shen Nian was alone, so probably no one in this alley knew how lonely Grandma Qin was, how much she wanted her children to be by her side, and why they didn't get together before Shen Nian didn't know about life, but he knew that Grandma Qin had been waiting for this day for a long time. She was old and should have relatives by her side.

"Grandma should be happy." Shen Nian smiled: "Isn't this what grandma has been looking forward to?"

"Yes, grandma has been waiting for this day. It's just that I'm leaving. If Xiao Nian is wronged in the future, there will be no knees for you to lie on." Grandma Qin stroked his hair: "Then what should I do?"

"Grandma." Shen Nian shook her knee and said, "I've grown up, don't worry about me."

Staying at Grandma Qin's house until it was close to noon, Shen Nian wanted to confirm with Grandma Qin when she would leave so that she could come back to see her off, but Grandma Qin didn't want him to run away, and kept saying that the date of her departure had not yet been set After coming down, Shen Nian couldn't hold back Grandma Qin, and didn't insist anymore.

When he got home, Shen Chongshan was busy in the kitchen, Gu Zhi was sitting on the steps at the door of the north house, the warm sun was shining on him, he was reading a comic book, when he came back, he raised his head and looked at him.

Shen Nian ignored Gu Zhi, took off his clothes and went into the kitchen to help. Although Shen Chongshan didn't even say a few words, it can be seen that Shen Nian insisted on staying and was still happy. When the sound of firecrackers suddenly sounded outside, Shen Nian was startled. Shen Chongshan comforted him with a smile:

"I bought some cannons for Xiaozhi two days ago, and I like to play with them recently."

Shen Nian responded without saying anything, accompanied by the occasional sound of firecrackers outside, Shen Chongshan asked him about his study and accommodation, Shen Nian told him everything, Shen Chongshan could see that he was very happy.

"I bought a lot of snacks just now, and I will take them back when I go back to school this time, share them with my roommates, and build a good relationship."

This was Shen Chongshan's concern for Shen Nian that he had never shown before, so that it made Shen Nian a little uncomfortable, Shen Chongshan probably noticed something, and smiled: "In the future, Dad will do better."

Shen Nian was happy when he heard this sentence, but in the end he just answered without saying anything else.

He admitted that he began to have illusions about Shen Chongshan's love and affection again, but he also carefully left a way out for himself, telling himself that it doesn't matter if he can't do it.

But business as usual.

At the dinner table, it was not harmonious, but it was not awkward at all. Shen Chongshan still did not give up on getting Shen Nian and Gu Zhi back together. Now, not only Shen Nian, but even Gu Zhi didn't accept Shen Chongshan's kindness very much. His dislike for Shen Nian became less and less concealed, even in front of Shen Chongshan.

Shen Chongshan probably also felt bored, so he didn't say anything, and finished the meal quietly.

Even though Gu Zhi didn't express his good intentions, but as he said, he didn't do anything, and Shen Nian relaxed a little, thinking that it wouldn't be too difficult after today, if he didn't smell a smell when he returned to the north room. Burnt words.

As if something was on fire, Shen Chongshan came in behind and also smelled it: "What is this thing on fire? Could it be that the circuit went off?"

Shen Chongshan went to check the wiring in the room, Shen Nian also wanted to help, but before he could move, he saw a black hole burned in the down jacket he put on the sofa, he walked over to pick it up and took a look, Almost immediately, he turned his head to look at Gu Zhi.

"You did it?" Shen Nian asked him.

Shen Chongshan came out of the room when he heard the sound, and was stunned when he saw the clothes in Shen Nian's hands. After taking a look in his hands, he also looked at Gu Zhi. Gu Zhi was standing at the door, looking at them, as if Unaware of everything.

"Maybe I didn't pay attention when I was playing with the cannon, and the sparks hit the clothes." Shen Chongshan said indifferently: "It's okay, one piece of clothes, Dad will buy you another one."

Shen Nian didn't move, looked at Gu Zhi, Shen Chongshan took a look at Shen Nian, and walked to Gu Zhi's side: "Xiao Zhi, I apologize to your brother Xiao Nian, and said that I won't do this next time."

Gu Zhi had no expression, and looked at Shen Nian without any reaction:

"I said I didn't mean it, do you believe it?"

Shen Nian didn't speak, but the meaning was already obvious, he didn't believe Gu Zhi's 'not intentional'.

Gu Zhi shrugged his shoulders, and fell silent as if he didn't care.

"It's just a piece of clothing." Shen Chongshan smoothed things over with a smile: "Don't hurt your friendship."

"Does Dad know why he did this?" Shen Nian looked at Shen Chongshan: "It's because you bought this dress for me, and he doesn't like it."

"Xiao Nian." Shen Chongshan didn't seem to like what he said, and his face darkened a little: "Xiao Zhi said that he didn't do it on purpose, and I also said that I will buy you another one. It's not a big deal, don't catch it. Don't let it go, it won't happen! You are an older brother."

Shen Nian looked at Shen Chongshan upon hearing the words, and suddenly didn't know what to say.He only said a few words, how did he become a persistent and aggressive person?

In fact, what Shen Chongshan said is correct, it's just a piece of clothing, it's not a big deal, it's not that he has no clothes to wear, and it's not that he has to argue with Gu Zhi, he just thinks that this is the first piece of clothing that Shen Chongshan bought for him, and he personally delivered it to the school He cherished it very much, and he didn't even wear it a few times in school.

It's a pity.

But Shen Chongshan didn't feel anything.In his eyes, it's just a piece of clothing, and it's not even worth arguing with Gu Zhi.

Are you uncomfortable?Actually... not bad.

He came back with kindness and harmony, and he was prepared for hostility and grievances, but he didn't expect it to be so fast, so fast that he hadn't felt the harmony with Shen Chongshan well before it became what it is now.

Shen Nian's silence made Shen Chongshan realize something, and he wanted to say something to make it up, but Shen Nian didn't give him this chance, he suddenly wanted to know a question, a question that he couldn't figure out and couldn't figure out. He looked at Shen Chongshan:

"Dad, what is the relationship between you and Gu Zhi's family?"

This time Shen Chongshan directly changed his face, it was an embarrassing look of embarrassment, Shen Nian knew that this question was not easy to answer, or that he would not hear the answer at all, but if he had something to ask, he should ask In the end, otherwise even this question would be in vain.

"Gu Zhi..." Shen Nian wanted to find a slightly more euphemistic excuse, but couldn't find it for a while, so he said directly: "Is it your son?"

This time, not only Shen Chongshan, but even Gu Zhi looked up, his eyes were very surprised, as if he couldn't understand why Shen Nian asked such a question.

"Xiao Nian, what are you thinking? Gu Zhi is not my child, he is my... my good friend's son." Shen Chongshan almost panicked and explained: "I'm just... Xiao Zhi, he just had a bad life before. , I want to treat him better..."

Shen Nian believed what Shen Chongshan said at this moment, but it was because of his belief that he was a little disappointed. If Gu Zhi was Shen Chongshan's son, he should and must be so kind to Gu Zhi. Even Shen Nian I will eliminate all the unfairness that I feel.

After all, Shen Nian is not his own.

But Gu Zhi isn't either, but isn't there a big difference between the two?Shen Nian couldn't figure out why, just because he couldn't cry, didn't he deserve a candy?

"Xiao Nian." Shen Chongshan's tone was a little anxious: "Dad just said something serious, don't forget to take it to heart, Dad is also in a hurry..."

"Dad..." Shen Nian interrupted Shen Chongshan's apology, but after he interrupted, he didn't know what to say. He didn't want to say anything, but he remembered the sentence Shen Chongshan said in the kitchen just now "Dad will do better in the future", suddenly felt ridiculous, he looked up at Shen Chongshan: "Dad, I would rather you never gave me hope."