paranoid dependence

Shen Nian didn't go home for the past two days and has been living at Liang Qiu's house. Regarding Shen Chongshan's matter, Liang Qiu didn't mention it again, even Su Xiaoxiao and Liang Chunchao who came back home the next day didn't ask any questions. , as if it was Shen Nian who came to stay at home as before, and didn't ask about the injury on his hand, but just prepared good food and drink, so that he can live well without any psychological burden.

Shen Nian admits that he likes Liang Qiu's house very much, it makes him feel warm and at ease, but no matter how much he likes it, it's not his own, he has already lived here for two days, he has adjusted his mood, and it's time to go.

When school was over, Shen Nian didn't go with Liang Qiu as usual, Liang Qiu looked at Shen Nian, and knew what he was going to say before he opened his mouth:

"want to go home?"

Shen Nian smiled: "I can't live in your house forever."

"How many times have I said it?" Liang Qiu looked at him unhappy: "My home is your home."

"Teacher Song has already given me the application form for living in school. I have to take it back and ask my dad to sign it." Shen Nian said, "I have to go back."

Shen Nian made a decision to live on campus within the past two days. He has no choice but to stay at Liang Qiu's house all the time, but he also doesn't want to get involved with Gu Zhi and Shen Chongshan, so he can only live on campus. It's not like he didn't think about it before. , I just feel that even if I am alone at home, it is still home, and Shen Chongshan doesn't have to be so deserted when he comes back, but now Shen Chongshan doesn't go out anymore, and Gu Zhi is with him.

He is not needed.

"I'll accompany you back." Liang Qiu said.

"No need." Shen Nian smiled: "It's too late, I don't worry if you come back again, wait until the weekend, you go and help me carry my luggage."

Liang Qiu was still worried, but Shen Nian had already turned around and left, waiting for the bus outside the school.

His bicycle was completely useless in that stubborn and deliberate car accident, and he doesn't need to ride it anymore. He lives in school and can't use it anymore.

When Shen Nian returned home, the sky had already darkened, there was no one at home, and it was deserted, and it didn't seem like there were people living in the past two days, probably because he hadn't come back from the hospital, Shen Nian didn't care, and walked to his own The room was tidied up a bit, and when I felt a little hungry, I went to the kitchen again. There was no food in the refrigerator, and Shen Nian was too lazy to buy it, so I wanted to heat up two steamed buns to eat, but before turning on the fire, Grandma Qin opened the The curtain went into the kitchen.

"Grandma." Shen Nian greeted.

"I heard there was some movement, and I just wanted to see if you're back." Grandma Qin frowned dissatisfied when she saw the steamed buns in Shen Nian's hand: "What are you doing to eat this? Let's go home with grandma. Grandma is cooking today." I ordered braised pork, just out of the pot, go eat some with grandma."

Shen Nian was also polite, nodded: "Okay."

Grandma Qin dragged Shen Nian home, carefully avoiding the wound on his hand:

"A car accident?"

Shen Nian was not at all curious about Grandma Qin knowing that Shen Nian and Gu Zhi were in a car accident. Shen Nian and Gu Zhi hadn't shown up for a few days, so there must be something rumored about it. Shen Chongshan must have been back during this period, alley Li must have known.

"En." Shen Nian replied, "But everything is getting better soon, it's fine."

"It's so badly bandaged, it doesn't look like it's about to heal." Grandma Qin dragged Shen Nian into the small yard: "I can't do my homework these two days, right?"

"The teacher said that you don't need to write." Shen Nian smiled: "I'm still relaxed."

Grandma Qin didn't say anything else, and went into the room with Shen Nian. As soon as she entered the room, she smelled the smell of meat. Shen Nian's already hungry stomach couldn't help screaming. Grandma Qin was very happy about it: " Sit down, grandma will serve you a meal."

Shen Nian wanted to help, but Grandma Qin stopped him as soon as she saw him approaching:

"Don't let grandma hate you, let you sit down, how polite are you with grandma?"

Shen Nian knew that Grandma Qin was worried that she would hurt the wound again by helping, so she didn't insist anymore, and sat down obediently, and asked Grandma Qin to bring the meal in front of her:

"Thank you grandma."

"You're welcome." Grandma Qin said with a smile: "Eat quickly."

Grandma Qin's cooking skills are very good. The braised pork is fat but not greasy, and it melts in the mouth. Shen Nian likes it very much. After eating an extra bowl of rice, Grandma Qin is very happy to see that he eats a lot. For Grandma Qin at her age, There is nothing more fulfilling than watching the younger generation enjoy eating the meals they cooked.

"If you like to eat, come to grandma every day in the future, and grandma will make it for you."

Shen Nian paused for a moment, seeing that Grandma Qin didn't speak, she hesitated to speak, Grandma Qin noticed the change in Shen Nian's mood, after watching him for a while, she understood:

"Will Xiao Nian not be able to come back often in the future?"

Shen Nian was a little bit reluctant, but sooner or later he had to talk about it, even if he didn't come to Grandma Qin's house for dinner today, he still had to say it when he left: "Grandma, I have applied to live in school."

It can be seen that Grandma Qin is a little bit disappointed and reluctant, but she still nodded without any hesitation: "It's good, Xiao Nian is unhappy at home, it's a good thing if you can be happier living in school, grandma Support you."

Shen Nian moved the stool closer to Grandma Qin, and held her rough and thin hand:

"After I live in school, I won't be able to visit you every day. Grandma must take good care of herself when she is alone at home. I will leave a phone number for you. If you have anything to do, call this number, and I will come back to see you."

"No need." Grandma Qin smiled and patted Shen Nian's face: "Grandma is fine by herself, as long as Xiao Nian is fine, grandma can't be fine, don't worry about me, there are so many people in the neighborhood, I'm fine, You also have to be good at school, and when you want to come back, you can come to grandma, and grandma will make delicious food for you."

"Okay." Shen Nian said.

Shen Nian originally wanted to help wash the dishes, but Grandma Qin didn't let him move because of the wound on his hand, Shen Nian didn't insist, she just sat on the stool and talked to Grandma Qin, then remembered something, got up and walked to the TV took a look.

There is a vcd player in front of the TV. Shen Nian moved it from home for Grandma Qin to use. Shen Chongshan is not at home all year round, and Shen Nian doesn't use it. On the contrary, Grandma Qin lives alone all year round. Shen Nian has been there for almost three years. The children who haven't seen Grandma Qin for a long time have come back. Apart from talking to her neighbors occasionally, Grandma Qin's life is mostly quiet.

One time when Shen Nian came to look for Grandma Qin, she saw her sitting by the wall alone and staring at the sparrows on the tree in a daze. Shen Nian called her two or three times but did not get any response. Shen Nian brought over the unused VCD player at home, connected it to Grandma Qin's TV, went to the video store to rent several sets of drama CDs for her, and taught Grandma Qin painstakingly.

Grandma Qin loves to listen to operas. In the past, the village would invite the troupe to sing a few performances every year. Grandma Qin was always the first to go and the last to return. The troupe hadn't come again in the past two or three years, so Grandma Qin rarely listened to it again. When the vcd was brought over, there was some movement in Grandma Qin's house, and she no longer had to look at the sun for hours.

Shen Nian flipped through the DVDs: "Grandma finished watching these? Do you want me to change another batch?"

"No need." Grandma Qin said: "The grandma you brought back this time likes to listen to it, so let's listen to it for a while longer."

"Okay." Shen Nian said, "Then I'll help you get a new one when I come back."

The old man went to bed early, Shen Nian didn't want to disturb Grandma Qin's rest, so she left after not staying long at the former house, Grandma Qin sent him to the door, watched him enter the house before returning home.

Because of Grandma Qin, Shen Nian was in a good mood today. He originally thought that when he came back, it was so late. When we arrived at the north room, the lights were on, and the figures of Shen Chongshan and Gu Zhi could still be seen through the window.

They were still so happy to get along, Shen Nian could hear their talking and laughing while standing in the yard.

The weather in October was much colder at night. Shen Nian stood for a while and stepped into the house. Shen Chongshan just came out of Gu Zhi's room. He probably didn't expect to meet Shen Nian, so he froze at the door. It was Shen Nian who had no special reaction, and greeted him calmly:

"dad."

Shen Chongshan was brought back to his senses by the call of 'Dad', and hurriedly responded: "Hey, why is it so late?"

"At Grandma Qin's house." After finishing speaking, Shen Nian walked back to his room, not looking at Shen Chongshan's expression, nor paying attention to the eyes looking at him through the door.

Shen Nian returned to the room, took off his coat, accidentally touched the wound again when he took it off from the cuff, Shen Nian frowned slightly, but didn't even make a sound, hung up the clothes, went to Take the clothes out of the closet, it is impossible to apply for the dormitory in one day, but the teacher also said that there should be no problem with the dormitory next week, so he should pack it in advance.

Shen Nian hadn't traveled much, so he didn't have a suitcase, but Liang Qiu said that he could borrow it, and he would bring it when the weekend came.

Shen Nian took out all the clothes that he was going to bring to school, folded them one by one and put them on the desk. He couldn't do his homework in the last two days, so the clothes are just right here, but he only packed a few, and the door of the room was closed. Someone knocked, Shen Nian walked over to open the door, saw Shen Chongshan, and unexpectedly saw Gu Zhi.

He had a plaster cast on his arm and hung it around his neck. He looked pitiful, but no one knew better than Shen Nian what kind of horror was hidden under this pitifulness.

He is not even afraid of death.

"Xiao Nian..." Shen Chongshan said unnaturally, "Xiao Zhi and I came here to..."

Shen Chongshan's words were stuck in his mouth. He saw the clothes on Shen Nian's bed and desk, and was a little surprised: "Xiao Nian, why did you pack up the clothes? Do you want to wash? Just put it there, I'll be at home tomorrow. Cleaned up for you."

Shen Nian didn't know what Shen Chongshan wanted to say to him, but it wasn't hard to hear from his cautious and flattering tone that he wanted to apologize, but Shen Nian didn't need it, he didn't even want to hear it.

Shen Nian didn't answer Shen Chongshan's doubts, he stood by the door silently for a few seconds, turned around and walked into the room, unzipped the schoolbag and took out a piece of paper and a pen from the pencil case, and walked over Standing in front of Shen Chongshan again:

"Dad, please sign this."

Shen Chongshan took it over and looked at it. He could recognize those characters, but he still asked, "What is this?"

Gu Zhi also saw that piece of paper, and Shen Nian clearly saw his eyes light up, it was the joy that no matter how much he pretended, it was the joy that he naturally had after the goal was achieved, it was the joy that he had used even to die. Not afraid of the result of crazy exchange.

He should be happy.

Shen Nian withdrew his gaze from Gu Zhi's face and looked at Shen Chongshan: "I have applied to live in school, and I need my parents' signature."

Of course Shen Chongshan knew what it was, but looking at this application form, telling Shen Nian himself that he wanted to do this still had different effects.

"I'm different..."

"Dad." Shen Nian interrupted him: "Sign it."

Shen Chongshan didn't speak, looked at Shen Nian, and spoke again after a while:

"Xiao Nian, Dad apologizes to you. Dad was wrong that day. I shouldn't have blamed you before I figured it out, and I shouldn't... I shouldn't have done anything to you. Dad made a mistake. Dad will change it later. Xiaozhi also knows it's wrong. , he also came to apologize to you."

Gu Zhi took a step forward from behind Shen Chongshan, and drew closer to Shen Nian. He looked at Shen Nian and said:

"Brother Nian Nian, I did not do well before, I'm sorry."

Shen Nian's expression was untouched, he looked at Gu Zhi for a few seconds, then looked at Shen Chongshan again:

"What does Dad mean by asking him to apologize to me?"

Shen Chongshan glanced at Gu Zhi: "I asked Xiao Zhi, and he admitted that he did something bad to you and bullied you. What you told me was true, and Xiao Zhi also admitted it, including The injury this time was done on purpose by him, but this kid was also afraid that I would not want him, and that you would drive him away if you didn't like him, so he did these things, and I won't do it in the future, I told him Yes, it will be fine in the future."

Shen Nian never thought that Gu Zhi would admit it like this. He didn't know what Gu Zhi said, but he admitted it. Shen Chongshan's reaction seemed to be similar to what he guessed. All right, maybe in the future I will care more about him, so that he won't be short of love any more.

Whatever is good, Shen Nian really doesn't want to get involved.

"That's fine." Shen Nian said.

Shen Chongshan smiled when he heard the words: "Then this accommodation..."

"Dad." Shen Nian looked at him: "I want to live outside."

The smile on Shen Chongshan's face froze for a moment, and then he seemed a little dissatisfied: "Xiao Nian, Xiao Zhi and I have already realized our mistakes, and we have promised to correct them. Isn't it good to live as a family? You Do you have to move out?"

Gu Zhi didn't know when he took another step back, and stood behind Shen Chongshan, a place that Shen Chongshan couldn't see, but he could see clearly, so Shen Nian also saw that he looked forward and had a pitiful expression, as if he was looking forward to Said, if you don't insist on leaving, I will still bully you.

Shen Nian just looked at Gu Zhi like that:

"Dad, if it wasn't for you, I would have lived on campus in the first grade of junior high school. It would be much more convenient for me to live on campus. I am alone at home, and there are classmates in the dormitory. I have always been worried that you will come back alone, but now I have to worry about it." I'm here to accompany you, and I'm about to take the high school entrance examination, so I don't want to waste all my time on the road."

"Sign it." Shen Nian said, "I will still be back on Saturday and Sunday."

Shen Chongshan looked at Shen Nian for a while, and suddenly felt that he really didn't understand this son, but even if he didn't, anyone could see Shen Nian's insistence that he must leave, regardless of whether he signed it or not.

His eyes lingered on Gu Zhi's body for a moment, thinking about what Gu Zhi was honest with him that day, he suddenly felt that it might not be a bad thing to separate the two of them.

After all, Shen Chongshan signed his name on the parents' signature on the application form, handed it to Shen Nian, Shen Nian took it, and when he opened his mouth to say thank you, Shen Chongshan grabbed Shen Nian's right wrist:

"What happened to your hand? When did you get hurt?"

Shen Nian lowered his eyes to glance at the wound, then pulled out his hand, and naturally hung it by his side, and said as if nothing had happened:

"I accidentally hit it, it's already fixed."

-

Even if Shen Chongshan signed the consent form, it is impossible for Shen Nian to go to the accommodation immediately, he still has to stay here for a few days.

Shen Nian always wakes up very early, and is usually the first one to wake up at home, but Shen Chongshan and Gu Zhi were already up when he woke up this day, Shen Chongshan was not in the north room, but Gu Zhi moved a pony to sit Looking outside the door of the house, I don't know what I'm doing.

Shen Nian glanced at him and went to the bathroom to wash up.

The wound on his hand still hasn't healed. Liang Qiu's countless reminders every day made Shen Nian almost have a psychological shadow. He felt that if his hand touched water, his limb would be amputated in a second. It was him who helped him, and now he can only adapt himself

Shen Nian turned on the faucet and brushed his teeth. When he was awkwardly washing his face with one hand, Gu Zhi walked in. Shen Nian felt it but ignored it. When he finished washing his face and went to pull the towel, Gu Zhi handed it to him first. Gave it to himself, Shen Nian took it and wiped his face.

"Thank you." Gu Zhi said, "Uncle Shen belongs to me alone."

Shen Nian put the towel back on the towel rack after wiping his face, looked at himself in the mirror, and asked Gu Zhi:

"Are you satisfied with the result?"

"I thought you would ask me, how did I admit to Uncle Shen what I did." Gu Zhi smiled: "I'm not very satisfied, but it's already pretty good, I can accept it."

Shen Nian turned around to look at Gu Zhi:

"Then I congratulate you for getting what you want and recover soon."

Shen Nian wanted to leave, but Gu Zhi stopped him by taking a wrong position: "It doesn't sound like real congratulations."

"Do you care?" He was two years younger than himself, only reaching the position of his chest, Shen Nian looked down at him in front of him: "You don't care."

Gu Zhi stared at Shen Nian for a few seconds, then suddenly smiled:

"What should I do, Brother Nian Nian, I suddenly feel a little bit reluctant to part with you. I find that among all the people I know, you know me best, and being with you is also the most fun."

Shen Nian ignored him and left the bathroom.