Attempted first love

I don't know if it was an illusion, but when Xia Yan woke up, he found that Lou Rui and Lu Zhouyu seemed to be very familiar with each other.

Xia Yan and Lu Zhouyu sat on the same side of the dining table, and Lou Rui sat opposite them, across the table, the two chatted smoothly at the dining table.

Before dinner, Lou Rui took out the bottle of wine that Lu Zhouyu brought from Dunhuang, opened the lid, and poured it into the cup.Xia Yan had never seen her drink since she was a child, so she was busy trying to stop her, but she smiled and hid her, saying that it is rare for you to bring friends, so treat them well.

Luckily, she didn’t drink much. Lou Rui said that she went to Dunhuang on a business trip more than ten years ago. It snowed heavily and the sand was completely white. It was there that I drank this wine brewed from the spring water of the sandbar.

Pretty sweet, she remarked.

The alcohol content is not low, Xia Yan found that her face did not change after drinking, and said jokingly: "Excellent."

The meal was easier than expected. While Xia Yan was gnawing on the ribs, Lou Rui asked about Lu Zhouyu's work in Dunhuang. Knowing that it was related to humanities, he took the initiative to tell him about the local customs.

Lou Rui has worked and lived in Northwest China for nearly 20 years and can be counted as half a local.

Talking about the Buddha Bathing Festival on the eighth day of the fourth lunar month in the local lunar calendar, a week-long temple fair will be held from the first day of April. Pilgrims and tourists will visit one after another. The scene is very grand.

Lou Rui has no religious beliefs, but she will still be moved by piety. She took out the photos on her mobile phone and showed them to Lu Zhouyu.

Xia Yan ate half a plate of pork ribs by himself, and listening to the discussion between the two, he found it novel, so he didn't insert into their topic as before.At first, he was afraid of embarrassment for both parties, and he was still trying to act as a bridge of communication, but now he felt that it was really unnecessary.

Lu Zhouyu sat on Xia Yan's left. He took off his denim jacket and put it on the back of the chair. Inside was a white short sleeve with a drop of brown stain on the edge of the cuff, which seemed to be splashed during cooking.

Xia Yan stared at him for two seconds, and then moved his gaze up to his face. He could clearly feel that Lu Zhouyu's posture was much more relaxed at the moment. It was completely different from the nervousness when he first entered the house and saw Lou Rui. I don't know what happened. , it may be that the communication was enhanced when cooking together, Xia Yan guessed, and couldn't help but secretly rejoiced.

After listening silently for a while, Xia Yan felt more and more that the dining table had become a conference table. Lou Rui and Lu Zhouyu had already talked about the secondary development and interaction design of IP, and only he was eating seriously.

After drinking for three rounds, Lou Rui still believes that traditional cultural aesthetics is on the decline. She said how many people are willing to travel so far to see those dark murals in Mogao Grottoes, and how many people can understand them. Feel beautiful inside?Most of them follow suit.

Lu Zhouyu said that it is precisely because of this that new nutrients should be injected into Dunhuang culture, and modern technology should be used to transmit it to the outside world, so that traditional aesthetics will no longer be dusty and revitalize.

Like an academic exchange, Xia Yan is also very interested in Dunhuang culture, but at the moment he is more willing to keep himself out of the matter, to be a bystander without using his brain, and only observe the beautiful scenery.

I have to admit that when Lu Zhouyu seriously talked about the topic of interest, his whole person had a pleasing temperament, calm but not lacking in vitality, like a rough stone sunken in a clear stream, which only became warm and glowing despite the water washing away , but stood still.

They continued to discuss, and Xia Yan listened with her chin resting on her chin. Lou Rui didn't have high demands on Xia Yan, but it didn't prevent her from admiring more outstanding young people. Xia Yan had heard her praise the new interns in the institute many times. , talented and willing to work hard.

If he was nervous at the beginning, based on Lou Rui's reaction, Xia Yan can be sure that Lou Rui's affection for Lu Zhouyu has skyrocketed.

It's not that she doesn't want to confess to her mother that she is bringing someone she likes home, but based on what she knows about Lou Rui, no matter who Xia Yan brings back, whether it's a man or a woman, tall, short, fat, or thin, there is a high probability that she will feel guilty, out of The compensatory mentality makes compromises, acceptance and blessings.

Xia Yan didn't want Lu Zhouyu to be the one who was compromised, he wanted Lou Rui to discover Lu Zhouyu's goodness first, and then accept and bless him.

Although the result is the same, the process is more important to him.

In the middle, he got up and went to the yard to pick a bunch of grapes, washed them and placed them in the center of the dining table, replacing the ribs. Xia Yan said, "Teachers, let's take a break at halftime."

Lou Rui paused, pulled out a grape, and got up, "I'll call your dad and ask how the procedures are going, and he said he'll be back tomorrow."

As soon as she left, Lu Zhouyu adjusted her sitting posture, Xia Yan supported her head and jokingly asked, "Are you still nervous? It feels like you know my mother better than me."

Lu Zhouyu also turned his head sideways, took a grape, did not speak, and looked at Xia Yan seriously, with deep and serious eyes, as if he didn't listen to his joke at all.

The feeling of being watched wholeheartedly is very strange, like being hooked in the heart, light and itchy, Xia Yan swallowed silently, I don't know how many times, but still said firmly: "Don't be nervous, my mother is very satisfied with you , I like it very much."

Lu Zhouyu said "hmm", put the grape in his hand between his lips, and tapped his fingertips on his lower lip, as if knocking on the door. He didn't let go until Xia Yan opened his mouth to bite, and asked him in a low voice. : "What about you, do you like it?"

Xia Yan bit the grape, and the juice gushed out of his mouth. He thought for a while, leaned into Lu Zhouyu's ear, and said in a low voice, "I only bring home the people I like."

It seemed that admitting it wasn't that difficult, after Xia Yan finished speaking, his heart jumped twice for no reason.He has never been a timid person. Although he said that he needs to calm down, it seems that he has not been able to calm down and think about this relationship during the days of separation. Instead, he misses it all the time.

Liking may always be contrary to reason, and he is willing to admit defeat.

Besides, the person in front of him just came here just to see him, and he seemed to be far away from the winner.

Then let them all lose to each other.

Lu Zhouyu turned her head and kissed him lightly under the eyes, but the degree to which her lips touched the skin was inexplicably devout.Like the wind wrinkling the surface of the water, causing ripples, Xia Yan was itched by his movements, his eyelids trembled for a while, he didn't dodge, and returned the kiss.

Like two newborn animals, they rubbed together sticky, absorbing warmth from each other, and separated after a long time.

The heartbeat gradually calmed down, Lou Rui was still on the phone in the garden outside the door, his voice was muffled, Xia Yan glanced out the window, and boldly moved closer, with his knees pressed together, he said: "It's a bit exciting."

The refreshing sweetness of the grapes filled his breath, and Lu Zhouyu also followed his gaze and looked out the window, and could see the people under the grape vines, shadowy and shadowy, hidden by the vines.

Seeing that Lu Zhouyu was not moving, Xia Yan bumped his leg under the table, thinking that this serious look was very interesting, suddenly, his knee was held, and he squeezed it like a warning, and a piece of cartilage connected to the nerve was crushed. With a sore press, the whole leg began to go numb.

He snorted and wanted to move his soft legs away, but he didn't move his hands on his knees. Instead, he moved upwards more vigorously, grasping the soft flesh on his thighs, and kept kneading and pinching them.

In fact, the strength was not strong, but Xia Yan couldn't dodge it, his legs were heavy and sore, his whole body was shaking, his eyes were also sore, a layer of water was aroused, and he begged for mercy, "Don't do it..." He said , went to break the hand on the knee again, "My leg is numb."

The troublesome hand was easily taken away, but the left leg hadn't regained consciousness for a while, and the water in his eyes couldn't be taken back, it squeezed out and hung on the eyelashes, Xia Yan wanted to raise his hand to wipe it off, but was grabbed Hold your wrist and press it under the table.

Lu Zhouyu lowered her head and kissed him. It was no longer a gentle touch. The tip of her tongue penetrated and hooked together softly and wetly. Everything happens out of sight.

After they parted panting, Lu Zhouyu first wiped off the water from the corners of Xia Yan's eyes, then from the corners of his mouth, and finally took out a tissue to dry himself.

"It's exciting like this." He finished talking in Xia Yan's ear, sat down again, and within a minute, Lou Rui came back from the phone call.

In the second half of the journey, Xia Yan still didn't speak much, just listened, occasionally rubbing his knee on the outside of Lu Zhouyu's thigh in retaliation, once or twice, and immediately dodged far away.

Lou Rui said that there was something wrong with Xia Zhengyang's documents, and she needed to cooperate to make up for it. She would go to Linshi first in the afternoon and return tomorrow morning.

After drinking, he couldn't drive. Xia Yan took Lou Rui to the station by electric scooter and turned back. Halfway through, his phone rang. He thought it was a message from Lu Zhouyu. He stopped by the side of the road and took it out to see that it was a celestial forecast. , the long-awaited Perseid meteor shower is expected to fall tonight.

After returning home, I took a long nap and didn't get up until almost five o'clock. The two of them cleaned up and made dinner. They didn't ride the electric bicycle until it was dark.

There is an undeveloped sandy land not far from home, and there are usually no tourists, so it is a good place for stargazing.

The meteorological forecast said that the meteor shower would appear in the early morning. When they found a relatively flat sandy place, they set up a small tent, lit a lamp, and brought along with them a small half bottle of wine, a thick blanket, and a box of grapes.

"It's very similar to elementary school students camping." Xia Yan commented while nestling in the tent.

The door curtains were lifted on both sides, and the warm orange light was not as bright as the starlight outside. Lu Zhouyu pulled his hand and asked if he wanted to go outside. Xia Yan nodded and stood up. They got out of the tent, spread the blanket on the sand, and stood side by side. sit together.

The temperature dropped sharply at night, Lu Zhouyu asked if it was cold, and Xia Yan said it was not, so he looked at the time and said, "Then wait outside."

Xia Yan naturally has no objection, but the clouds are a bit thick tonight, "I might not be able to see it." He was a little frustrated.

"It will be fine when the wind blows up in a while." Lu Zhouyu said, as if he was very experienced. Xia Yan asked him, and he said that during the few days in Dunhuang, he couldn't sleep at night and observed the stars in the hotel.

"I wish." Xia Yan zipped up the windbreaker, "When I was a child, I watched TV saying that wishing on a shooting star was very effective. I wanted to watch it every time I came here, but I never encountered it once."

Lu Zhouyu looked at him, smiled slightly, and asked, "What wish did you want to make when you were young?"

"Too much," Xia Yan also laughed, "Every time I think about it for a long time in advance, I trade it back and forth. I was very greedy when I was young."

"Have you thought about it this time?"

"Not yet."

"Why don't you want to?"

It seems that there is no particularly sincere wish, Xia Yan said: "The moment the meteor comes, you will know what you really want. I will wait."

"And you," he asked again, "what wish do you want to make?"

"No more." Lu Zhouyu's eyes were still on his face, and he shook his hand hard.

After eating a box of grapes, each drank a sip of wine to warm up. It was already 11:30 in the middle of the night. Xia Yan's mobile phone was connected to a weak signal. He took out a few photos and replied to some work news.

While typing, Lu Zhouyu leaned closer, pressed his chin on his shoulder, and his breathing made Xia Yan's ears very hot, as if he mentioned it unintentionally, he said, "You were talking in your sleep during your afternoon nap."

"Ah," Xia Yan tilted his head, "What did you say?"

"I didn't hear clearly before," Lu Zhouyu paused, "I asked why I didn't tell you later. What did you dream about?"

"Don't tell me?" Xia Yan repeated. After thinking for a while, he remembered the photo that was placed on the table ten years ago. ,never mind."

Perhaps the expression showed some clues, Lu Zhouyu continued to ask, exhaling into his ears, there was a smell of grapes and wine, Xia Yan couldn't hide it, so he had to say vaguely: "I dreamed that you were on the mountain at that time, and you left suddenly without telling me, But we didn’t know each other well at the time.”

After listening, Lu Zhouyu was silent for a moment, then sat upright, and said, "It's my fault."

"It's okay." Xia Yan quickly waved his hand, "I forgot, maybe because I saw the photo today, I dreamed ten years ago. It's really okay."

"At that time, my mother attempted suicide," Lu Zhouyu said in a calm tone. "I left after receiving the call in the morning."

Xia Yan was stunned for a moment, but he couldn't make a sound when he opened his mouth. He didn't know what to say, Lu Zhouyu patted him emotionally, "There was nothing wrong that time, she passed away a few years later."

It didn't have a consoling effect, Xia Yan was still guilty and regretted bringing up this topic, he held Lu Zhouyu's hand back, rubbed his fingertips on his tiger's mouth, and said "I'm sorry" repeatedly as if healing a scar.

"I'm not telling you to forgive you, and that's not a reason." Lu Zhouyu said, "My mother has some influence on me, but it's me who really escapes. I can't blame anyone or anything."

"It won't happen in the future," he raised Xia Yan's hand, kissed his cold knuckles, and said as if there was nothing he could do, "But maybe I'm used to avoiding, and sometimes I'm not very good at expressing directly. learning."

After meeting again, Xia Yan searched many of Lu Zhouyu's works on the Internet, and read them one by one and repeatedly. He indeed has a more roundabout style of expression, but it does not hinder the sincerity and abundance of emotion.

If you can't express it, you can't express it. Anyway, Xia Yan's job is to discover, understand and feel.

"I will cooperate well, Mr. Lu." He replied with a smile.

The temperature dropped a bit, Xia Yan simply held the wine bottle in his hand, took a few sips, and lay on his back on the blanket. The clouds had been blown away a lot, revealing the entire starry sky. Thinking of the night before, Lu Zhouyu also Lying on the sand in Dunhuang, and thinking of him through the screen, Xia Yan couldn't help but praise, "I think you've improved a lot."

Lu Zhouyu looked down at him for a while, and honestly said that a local senior he knew was teaching on the spot, and he followed suit.

Xia Yan became interested and asked him: "What else have you learned?"

"Selling badly."

Xia Yan laughed loudly, eager to try: "Come and show it."

Lu Zhouyu stepped back a little, resisting silently, and ignored Xia Yan's efforts, he looked at his watch and said, "The time is coming, you should make a wish first."

He took the bottle, raised his head and took a sip.Seeing his Adam's apple sliding up and down, Xia Yan couldn't help swallowing, moved to the edge of the blanket to make room, and invited: "You can lie down too."

The blankets are big enough, and after laying them side by side, they can be folded halfway to cover the body. After drinking, his whole body started to feel hot after a while. Although it was far from being drunk, Xia Yan was still worried, "Riding an electric car for a while will count." Drunk driving?"

"Then sleep here." Lu Zhouyu said.

"Okay." Xia Yan looked around, "Will we be buried in the sand and be dug out by the search and rescue team tomorrow?"

Lu Zhouyu rubbed under the blanket and clasped his fingers tightly, "Well, don't miss one when digging."

The surroundings were so quiet that only the sound of the wind remained, the clouds were really blown away, and the night sky was a deep blue, like a fluffy curtain, covered with stars.

Such vast beauty can frighten the soul. It seems that something must happen under such a beautiful scenery. I can't tell who got closer first. When I regained my senses, the two embraced and kissed, and then rolled around on the carpet indiscriminately. It ended up covered in sand.

Worried about missing the shooting star, Xia Yan pulled Lu Zhouyu up, patted the sand off his head, dusted off the blanket, re-rolled it, and sat cross-legged on it.After waiting for the predicted time, the meteor still did not appear. The stars hung there, like a handful of crushed ice, a handful of snow, scattered in all directions, shining brightly, so beautifully real.

They looked shoulder to shoulder for a long time, as if it didn't matter whether there were meteors or not.

After the last sip of wine was shared, Xia Yan said, "I used to think that the plots in movies where we watched the sea and stars together, and confessed on the Ferris wheel were very vulgar."

After thinking about it, he changed his words again: "It's really vulgar, but I'm also a vulgar person."

Lu Zhouyu didn't answer, just looked at him and smiled, the stars were reflected in his eyes, which were surprisingly bright.

"What are you laughing at, great artist?" Xia Yan stopped his movements and pushed his shoulder. Suddenly he wanted to know the answer, so he asked, "What about you? Where would you choose if you confessed?"

"Nowhere." Lu Zhouyu said.

"It's too boring." Xia Yan deliberately laughed at him, Lu Zhouyu wrapped his arms around his waist with one hand, stretched his palm with the other hand, and put a handful of sand into the palm.

"I might send a ticket," he said.

"What ticket?"

"My ticket to the exhibition."

"This?" Xia Yan raised his arm, half of the sand in his palm was shaken off, and he didn't dare to move again.

"No," Lu Zhouyu said, "but it can be replaced temporarily."

It was clearly just a handful of sand, but Xia Yan felt that the meaning was far from that, more like a promise.As soon as he held his hand, the sand flowed faster, rushing down from between his fingers, and he raised his head helplessly, "I can't hold it."

Lu Zhouyu laughed again, "Aren't you in the desert, why can't you catch it?"

It seems to be said casually, but if you listen carefully, there is also certainty.He held Xia Yan's hand to relax, and sketched on the gravel, the rough and thick touch was more real than the starry sky.

Xia Yan couldn't grasp it, whether it was Sha or the person in front of him, he once felt that Lu Zhouyu was far away, unfeeling, and untouchable, so he wandered for many years because of this, but at this moment he suddenly realized that he had already obtained the key to him. Tickets, standing in the middle of the desert, arriving at the end without knowing it.

With sore eyes, Xia Yan turned over and hugged Lu Zhouyu's shoulders tightly, buried his head in the socket of his neck, and after a long time, he raised his head and said sullenly, "Let's go home."

Suddenly, a huge red-green fireball, much brighter than the stars, flashed across the sky, and then flew into the vast desert.

"Meteor!" Xia Yan raised his voice, got up from Lu Zhouyu, turned around with his shoulders, but did not wait for the second one.Bolide itself is a kind of occasional meteor lure, very rare, Xia Yan can't help but feel regretful.

"Did you make a wish?" Lu Zhouyu asked him.

Xia Yan shook his head and said no.The moment the shooting star came, he knew what he really wanted, he said: "But I told it one thing."

"what's up?"

Not in a hurry to leave, they sat back down again, side by side.

In front of you, the Milky Way is low and visible, like a soft yarn, a handful of misty fog, like a soft wound in the sky scalded by meteors, enveloping everything.

"I told it," Xia Yan grabbed a handful of sand and shouted to the sky, "I'm in love——"