Little Madman's Guide to Acting Good

The sound of the rain outside seemed to be getting louder. Chen Qizhao put his hand on Shen Yuhuai's shoulder unconsciously. After saying 'no', the atmosphere between the two seemed to fall into a long silence. It seemed that a long time had passed. For a long time, it seemed that it was only a few seconds in the past.

Chen Qizhao lowered his eyes slightly, rubbed his fingertips on Shen Yuhuai's shoulder, and touched Shen Yuhuai's collarbone through his clothes.When he calmed down, he seemed to be able to feel the powerful and lively beating sound of the other party one after another from the subtle vibration of the chest cavity.

Hot and fervent.

The man didn't do anything else, just let him touch it, and looked at him calmly.

When his movements were slow, he asked, "Come down? We've been here for a long time."

Chen Qizhao looked at Shen Yuhuai, and suddenly said, "My clothes are wet."

Shen Yuhuai's eyes froze, and he noticed the wet countertop by the washstand and the water stains on Chen Qizhao's clothes.

Outside the ward, Chen Shiming finished his phone call. When he first entered the ward, he suddenly saw the door of the bathroom not far away opened. Shen Yuhuai walked out, but he didn't see Chen Qizhao.He was a little surprised when he saw this situation, and his probing eyes stopped on Shen Yuhuai for a while, always feeling something strange.

The glass window can see a limited position, and you can't see the bathroom.

He remembered that when he answered the phone just now, he didn't seem to see Shen Yuhuai much.

"Where are his clothes?" Shen Yuhuai said in the usual tone, "He wants to take a bath."

Hearing the words, Chen Shiming had no choice but to go over and get a change of clothes, went to the bathroom door and knocked, and soon Chen Qizhao reached out to get it.He suppressed the feeling of surprise in his heart, and when he turned around, he happened to see Zhang Yazhi coming back, walked over and said a word or two.

The sound of water soon came from the bathroom. Seeing Zhang Yazhi staying in the ward, his eyes lingered on Shen Yuhuai for a moment.

Shen Yuhuai noticed his eyes and saw him walking out, "Aunt Zhang, I'll go out first."

Zhang Yazhi replied: "It's okay, you go, I'll just watch here."

The corridors at night are quieter, and there are fewer doctors and nurses walking around.

There is only a nurse's station in the distance outside the advanced ward. After Chen Shiming called the person out, he couldn't help but lower his tone: "When you went to the doctor just now, did the doctor say anything more?"

"No." Shen Yuhuai went to the doctor's office with Zhang Yazhi not long ago. The doctor mentioned Chen Qizhao's reaction to medication and emotional changes during this period. He obviously cooperated with the medication for a period of time, but Chen Qizhao's performance was no different from the beginning. Instead, it was the drug. The side effects began to change significantly.

Shen Yuhuai thought of Chen Qizhao's eyes in the bathroom just now, and when he was about to speak, he heard Chen Shiming say.

"He seems to be afraid that something will happen to us." Chen Shiming's eyes stopped on the chair resting opposite, "It's a bit unbelievable to say, but he really cares about it."

Chen Shiming thought about the reason for Chen Qizhao's anxiety. Originally, the biggest reason they considered should be the matter between Lin's medical care and the Gu family. Chen Qizhao put too much energy into those matters, so he brought some relevant news to Chen Qizhao as much as possible. Alleviating his worries about these things doesn't actually make it much better.Until Chen Qizhao's sudden reaction today, he thought of some details that he had overlooked before.

"He was very worried that I would have a car accident and be paralyzed. He was also worried that my dad would have a cerebral hemorrhage and a cerebral infarction." Chen Shiming's tone was a bit hesitant, but at this moment he seemed to be stripping away these details bit by bit Drilling down, "Several times, he made these assumptions when he got emotional."

Chen Shiming recalled the situation at that time. In Chen Qizhao's mouth, a matter that had settled down seemed like an uncertain factor that might happen at any time. He would always imagine the problem in an extreme or terrible direction, so as to give an answer to the matter. The results are qualitatively the most extreme outcomes.Chen Qizhao imagined the situation where he was paralyzed in a car accident, he also imagined the irreparable ending of his father's cerebral hemorrhage, and even imagined that the Chen Group would eventually go bankrupt under the oppression of Lin and the Gu family.

While they were still thinking about the solution, Chen Qizhao had already imagined the most terrible result, and adopted a more extreme method in order to prevent this result from happening. He seemed to be experiencing that terrible and absurd dream and was working hard. Reversing the ending of that dream.

Shen Yuhuai lowered his eyes slightly, thinking of Chen Qizhao's abrupt question in the bathroom, he replied: "Maybe what he's worried about isn't Lin's business, it may be your safety."

Chen Shiming's heart sank, "I'll talk to the doctor."

The doctor was still on duty tonight. After listening to Chen Shiming's words, he was silent for a moment, and then he said: "Then his situation is a bit different from the patients I have been in contact with before. Most of the patients I have contacted have anxiety. The reasons are all on their own, such as the topic of death, some patients may be very anxious about their own death, and fear all the suspicious factors that lead to their own death. Like him, he will be anxious because he is not sure about the safety of others. To be honest, he is not sure. Sex will be greater."

"His current condition is actually not serious. At least with the treatment, he can suppress some emotions through drugs." Seeing the two people in front of him, the doctor had no choice but to say: "But you also know that drugs control the symptoms but not the root cause. If we want to solve this problem, we can only say that we can find the reasons for his main anxiety and depression, and find ways to alleviate his worries and fears in this regard.”

Doctors have seen many difficult patients, and even more uncooperative patients.

But patients who cooperate like Chen Qizhao are actually very rare. On the surface, they seem to be cooperating. In fact, the other party has a strong sense of vigilance and desire to control. Cooperating is just a means for the other party to control the treatment. The side effects of the drugs have inspired his deeper dark side.

It was raining lightly outside, and the sound of the pattering rain was like the sound of water flowing in the bathroom.

The driveway next to the private hospital was relatively quiet. With a beep of the parking lot fee sign, Shen Yuhuai slowly drove away from the hospital. The surrounding street scene receded.

After a while, he stopped the car.

There were other cars driving on the side of the road before going out. Shen Yuhuai sat in the driver's seat and remained silent for a long time. Without passing through the storage compartment by the joystick, he found his wallet.He paused, and when he opened his wallet, he saw a photo in the middle.

Fireworks by the sea, and Chen Qizhao.

Shen Yuhuai looked at it for a while, and then took out the photo in the interlayer. Below it was a photo of a younger child.The young Chen Qizhao was sitting next to him, and when he smiled at the camera, he showed a beautiful little canine tooth. The photo was found a while ago, and he printed a new size and put it in his wallet.

There was a beep in the distance, and someone honked the car horn.Shen Yuhuai came back to his senses, and when he looked up, he saw a convenience store two stores away from him. Someone went into the convenience store to buy things in the rain, and rushed into the car when they came out.

The car door opened, and Shen Yuhuai walked into the convenience store holding an umbrella.

There weren't many things in the roadside shop, but there were everything he should have. He walked around aimlessly, and finally stopped at the shelf near the door.He took a pack of mints and paid at the counter.

"Do you have empty glass bottles for sale?" Shen Yuhuai asked.

The teller stopped and took a glass bottle from under the counter, "It's not for sale, do you want this kind of glass bottle? It's left over from the last event."

It was ninety o'clock at night, and the whole hospital was quiet.

After Chen Qizhao came out of the shower, he didn't see Shen Yuhuai, and he also felt sleepy, and he fell asleep after lying on the bed for a long time.The environment in the dream is intricate, sometimes it is endless black water, and sometimes it is a variety of messy scenes. When the scene freezes in a certain frame, Chen Qizhao suddenly wakes up. Only when he opened his eyes did he notice that he was full of With cold sweat all over his body, his eyes stopped on the warm orange light not far away.

Chen Qizhao lay on the bed without moving, his eyes mechanically looked at the surroundings, until his heartbeat gradually calmed down, he heard a slight knocking sound not far away.He turned his eyes to the side, and saw Chen Shiming sitting on the sofa, a small desk lamp he found somewhere, only illuminating that area, and at this moment he was frowning and working on the laptop.

Before finishing the work, Chen Shiming asked Zhang Yazhi to rest, and stayed here to work while watching Chen Qizhao.

It’s just that tonight, I don’t know what happened. Not long after I started working, the notebook was a little non-stop, and now it’s even crashed.He was thinking about how to solve this situation, but suddenly heard a voice not far away.

"what are you doing?"

Chen Shiming raised his head and saw that Chen Qizhao had sat up at some point and was looking in his direction, "No, do you want some water?"

"No need." Chen Qizhao's eyes stopped slightly, "What's wrong with the notebook?"

"It's dead." Chen Shiming still stood up, and walked over to pour Chen Qizhao a glass of water. When he approached, he noticed that Chen Qizhao's forehead hair was a little wet, and his face seemed to be a little pale. He frowned slightly: "I'm having a nightmare." ?”

Chen Qizhao didn't answer, he took a sip of water, glanced at Chen Shiming's notebook from the corner of his eye, and said in a flat voice, "Bring it here."

Chen Shiming: "What?"

"Notebook." Chen Qizhao glanced at him, "It crashed, are you planning to ask your assistant to send you another one overnight?"

Chen Shiming's words choked up. He did not bring any work with him when he came. The main reason was that Chen Qizhao didn't like them bringing their work here to deal with at night. The notebook was indeed sent by Xiao Xu later.He went over and brought the computer over, handed it to Chen Qizhao and explained the situation.

Chen Qizhao looked at it, "Didn't you take computer courses in college? Why didn't you solve this problem?"

"Do you have to be able to repair computers if you know how to use computers? I learned software." Chen Shiming paused slightly, "How do you know that I have taken computer courses in college?"

Chen Qizhao said in the usual tone, "You mentioned it before."

Chen Shiming didn't remember mentioning this matter to Chen Qizhao. The relationship between the two brothers was not good before, and there were only a handful of things they talked about. Chen Qizhao was not curious about his university affairs.He suppressed the doubts in his heart and continued: "There was something wrong with this one yesterday. I just tried to fix it, but it didn't work."

"It may be a hardware problem. The all-in-one machine... Go to the doctor and nurse outside to get a screwdriver." Chen Qizhao turned the computer over and showed him the screw bayonet on the back of the notebook. "For this port, just take a small one."

The doctors and nurses didn't know what they were using the screwdriver for. After following them, they found out that it was for repairing the computer. She gave the screwdriver to Chen Shiming and said that it would be fine to put it at the front desk after use.As soon as the screwdriver was handed over to Chen Qizhao, the latter smoothly removed the back cover of the notebook, "Turn on the light."

Chen Shiming went over to turn on the light, and then stood by and watched Chen Qizhao skillfully disassemble the notebook.

The boy was sitting cross-legged in a hospital gown, and when he was working on the computer with his head down, the slightly protruding bones on his back were very obvious. He seemed to be very good at this. Check the rear parts.

This kind of scene made Chen Shiming recall Chen Qizhao when he was in junior high school. At that time, the relationship between the brothers had just started to be bad, and occasionally they reconciled. What he most often saw was Chen Qizhao sitting on the computer and playing.His younger brother's interest in artificial intelligence is not a whim. He has been interested in smart products since he was a child. He can play with a computer for a long time, but later he became a little addicted to games. He had quarreled with Chen Qizhao a few times because of restraint.

His thoughts in his youth were difficult to figure out, he was just afraid that the naughty child would go astray.

But thinking about it now, sometimes he held his own opinion and tried to suppress Chen Qizhao's temper with his elder brother's majesty, but in the end he just made certain relationships go further and further away.

A click.

The back panel of the notebook was pushed back by Chen Qizhao, he screwed the screw back, and said: "The heat dissipation of your computer is not good enough, back up the data on the disk as soon as possible, or it will be too late to restore the data when it is really broken. Data restoration I can't, you have to find a professional, it should be able to make do with it tonight, don't open too many backstages."

Chen Shiming didn't answer, and suddenly asked, "Are you only planning to study finance as an undergraduate?"

Chen Qizhao paused slightly, "Otherwise, I've read it all."

He looked at Chen Shiming: "What?"

"It is possible to cross the exam, and the computer-related majors of S University are also among the best in China."

Chen Shiming took the notebook, "Graduate students can study, or take a second degree, if you are really interested, go for it."

Chen Qizhao averted his gaze, "Let's talk."

He added: "Busy you to work, don't disturb my sleep next time."

"You asked me a question this afternoon, but I didn't answer you at that time."

Chen Shiming didn't leave, "At that time, there was a possibility that no one would find the locator, and we couldn't pay attention to every problem. If the car accident really happened, I was really paralyzed, and I don't think anything happened. irresolvable."

"How do you know it won't?" Chen Qizhao looked at him, feeling very calm, "It's hard to control the emotions of a person who is sick, paralyzed, a waste, and unable to stand up. He can only sit in a wheelchair for the rest of his life. Everyone They will look at you with strange eyes."

When people assume a situation, they see everything as perfect, and so does Chen Shiming. He should stand in front of everyone with confidence and pride. He is the pride of the Chen family, and he is also the one who can support everything on his own.But the torment of illness is not that simple, no matter how proud a person is, one day his edges and corners will be smoothed out. He has seen Chen Shiming's scenery, and he has also seen him decadent into a sick dog...

"There are always times when people can't hold on. If you think of yourself so confidently, what will happen?" Chen Qizhao stared into Chen Shiming's eyes, and asked step by step, "What if one day you can't hold on and commit suicide?"

Some things are difficult to determine. The last suicide of Chen Shiming in his previous life seems to be hanging by a needle. Even if Chen Qizhao thinks that Chen Shiming has no possibility of committing suicide, the ending like that in his previous life is likely to be caused by the Gu family. But once there is a certain possibility, Chen Qizhao will Think paranoid about the consequences.If it wasn't because of the Gu family in the previous life, why did Chen Shiming die because of other reasons?What if he really committed suicide?

In the ward, only Chen Qizhao's voice seemed to be left. He had lost weight recently, his chest would rise and fall slightly when he was emotional, and his eyes looked fierce and harsh.Chen Shiming saw Chen Qizhao questioning his father hoarsely in the lounge that day, and he saw Chen Qizhao's more agitated appearance.

After that day, he actually hoped that Chen Qizhao could vent it in this way, be it dissatisfaction or pain, but Chen Qizhao didn't. All his outbursts seemed to be completely resolved after that day. There is only peace that is completely at odds with him.He is like a calm and rational adult who knows the impact of negative emotions, tries his best to control what, and keeps everything in his heart.

But his younger brother is not a calm person, he has been naughty and arrogant, and more of an arrogance and pampering.That kind of arrogance seems to have become a mask on Chen Qizhao's face since that day, and when he no longer needs to wear this mask, all he can see is the calm and stagnant silence underneath.

Chen Qizhao was worried about them, so he used a tough and stubborn tone to take Zhang Yazhi to the medical examination. He was worried about Chen Jianhong's health, so he would keep an electronic blood pressure monitor at home, and even worried about him, so he would pay attention to the details of the vehicle and find out Some conspiracy behind it.

He may have shown it a long time ago, but they never paid attention to it, thinking that it was just the end of his long rebellious period and ushered in a gratifying and sensible.

Chen Shiming used to be proud of his younger brother's sensibility, but now he would rather not have this sensibility.

At least in front of his family, he didn't want Chen Qizhao to live with a burden.

After Chen Qizhao finished speaking, Chen Shiming didn't answer.

After a long time, Chen Qizhao's emotions calmed down, and he thought that he would never receive a reply again.

Chen Shiming spoke.

"I won't commit suicide." Chen Shiming said with a straight face, just like the seriousness he inherited from Chen Jianhong, but what he said seemed to be carefully considered and very serious.

Chen Qizhao looked at him, "The words you say are so confident, how do you know things you haven't experienced?"

Chen Shiming's voice was very steady, and he said it without any hesitation: "In the situation where the situation you assumed may happen, if I am really paralyzed in a car accident to an unsolvable place, I really have that idea...even if it goes to the extreme, Nor will it."

"If my relationship with you is not good, my parents are gone, and I quarrel with you every day and nothing will be achieved, and the Chen family will not get up." Chen Qizhao's tone fluctuated slightly, "You have nowhere to go, the Chen family is gone."

Chen Shiming asked: "Isn't there still you?"

Chen Qizhao's eyes stopped: "...what's good about me, you're not bad if you don't get mad."

Chen Shiming frowned slightly, and corrected his statement: "If I really don't care about you, then I won't say a word. It's because I'm worried about you that I always care about you."

Chen Qizhao looked at him.

"Suicide is an irresponsible act."

Chen Shiming: "I'm your elder brother. Under such extreme circumstances, I really became a waste..."

"I won't say good things, but I won't ignore you either."

Chen Qizhao avoided Chen Shiming's gaze, as if recalling that every time he returned to the small apartment drunk, Chen Shiming was waiting for him in the entrance with a stern face in a wheelchair.

"These are the extreme situations you assume. And there is no such extreme thing happening now, and neither I nor anyone else will allow the situation to evolve into the situation you assume."

After Chen Shiming finished speaking, he paused, "Maybe it could have happened in the past, but it was just in the past. Mom listened to you and was already doing a good physical examination. I asked my assistant to keep an eye on Dad's medicine. Whoever changed the medicine and which doctor I have a record of everything I have done, and as for car accidents, I will not speed, and I will also arrange for regular health checkups for drivers."

"you do not need to worry."

Chen Qizhao didn't speak anymore, Chen Shiming stood holding the computer for a while, "I'm going to work, I won't disturb you."

"Working all day and not having a car accident, sooner or later you're going to have something wrong with overwork."

Chen Qizhao suddenly said: "Is the money all earned? Have you thought about what will happen after you turn 30?"

"I haven't thought about it, and I don't want to think about it." Chen Shiming turned on the computer, and his tone was a little lighter, "I will rest before 12 o'clock, don't worry."

Chen Qizhao didn't speak anymore, he simply ignored Chen Shiming and turned around to sleep with Chen Shiming on his back.

The feeling of sleepiness weighed on his heart, but he didn't feel sleepy at all.

The indoor lighting was replaced with a warm orange light suitable for sleeping, and there was no too dazzling light behind it. The small desk lamp for work was steadily shining in the corner where it should be.Chen Qizhao opened his eyes, looking at his hands on the white quilt.

The afterglow of the light slightly folded the light on his hand, and a small shadow fell on the quilt.

After a while, he closed his eyes and listened to the deliberately low sound of typing on the keyboard in the distance.

He thought it was really noisy, and he had no dreams until dawn the last night.

Rainy night, sunny day.

The sun shines into the ward, and it feels a little warm in the early morning.

In the morning, the doctor rounded the room as usual. When asking questions after measuring the blood sugar, the attending doctor noticed that there was an open book on the bedside table, and one side was rolled up. It can be seen that someone was still flipping the book just now.

The doctor's eyes showed a bit of tenderness, and he was surprised to find that the answers to today's questions were richer than before.

Chen Qizhao looked around, and his gaze stopped at the folding desk lamp on the small table beside the sofa.

The shape of the hamburger, the material is still plastic, it is a student desk lamp that Chen Qizhao has seen in the stationery store of the university.

"Who bought that little table lamp?"

After breakfast, Zhang Yazhi packed up the rubbish and said, "What are you talking about? Xiao Xu bought it. There is a small grocery store next to the hospital."

After she finished speaking, she paused, "Is this light too bright?"

"No, it's pretty good."

Chen Qizhao commented casually, and suddenly heard a knock on the door.

Through the transparent glass on the door, he saw Shen Yu Huai's eyes outside the door.

After a while, the door opened, and Shen Yuhuai came in with a bag.

"Yu Huai, it's so early today?" Zhang Yazhi was a little surprised.

"Today is Saturday, a day off."

Shen Yuhuai put the bag on the table, and took out a small potted plant from it. There was a small succulent on the potted plant.

Zhang Yazhi looked over, "Meaty? This plant is growing really well."

Chen Qizhao was startled, and stopped at Shen Yuhuai's movements.When Shen Yuhuai was chatting with him, he would occasionally post pictures of succulents, and the potted plant in his hand was the latest photo he received when he woke up in the morning. He had praised this succulent plant an hour ago nice.

The potted plant is small, no bigger than a man's palm, with a small succulent ball in the middle, a transparent plastic bag under it, and a pink rubber band tied around the edge.

The color is also relatively bright. When the sunlight from outside the window shines in, the leaves seem to reflect a little light.

Chen Qizhao thought to himself, such a small one could fall all over the ground if not careful.

Shen Yuhuai put the potted plants on the window cabinet nearer to Chen Qizhao.

The sun seemed to be brighter, and it was inexplicably dazzling.

"I don't know how to raise it." Chen Qizhao said, "It will spoil it."

Shen Yuhuai: "It's okay, I'll teach you."

Zhang Yazhi liked this succulent very much. After Shen Yuhuai finished releasing it, she went over to take a look.

When Shen Yuhuai returned to the hospital bed, he saw Chen Qizhao with his head down and a magazine on his bent legs.

The hair seems to be a little long, so long that it covers the eyes, and the corners of the eyes are a little red.

Chen Qizhao noticed that Shen Yuhuai was coming, and when he raised his head, he blinked involuntarily, and then shook his head slightly.

Shen Yuhuai: "Hair seems to have grown."

"Pricking eyes." Chen Qizhao also noticed this problem when he was reading today. He wanted to find a pair of scissors to cut off his forehead hair, but there were none in the cabinet by the bed, nor in the drawer beside the sofa. I don't know where Zhang Yazhi took it. , he said: "Just cut it off later."

At this moment, Shen Yu Huai turned to his side, leaned towards him, and his eyes stopped on his forehead.

Then his hair was moved, and a few strands of hair were pulled aside, Shen Yuhuai moved forward a little, "Don't move."

The man put his hand on his forehead, his thumb felt a little cold, and it seemed to be mixed with the smell of soil.

Fresh, like the smell of the field.Pressing the cold fingertips on his forehead, he saw Shen Yuhuai's face close at hand through his fingers. He didn't wear glasses today, and his eyes seemed to have a little more sunshine, which was extraordinarily bright.

The forehead hair was slightly gathered, and the man's fingers circled it meticulously, but there was no follow-up movement, as if he was leaning over to hold something in the pocket of his coat.

Chen Qizhao didn't move, but followed his movements to look at his pockets, he couldn't help leaning forward, "What are you taking?"

"Don't move." The cold fingers were replaced by warm palms, and they pressed lightly on the forehead, holding him down immediately, "It will be fine soon."

Chen Qizhao no longer had that disturbing hair in front of his eyes, he said: "I'll cut it later, okay?"

As he was speaking, he suddenly saw a glass bottle that had been placed on the bedside table at some point.

The glass bottle is full of light blue candies, as if they were brought along with the potted plants.

Chen Qizhao's eyes slanted slightly, "You bought it?"

Shen Yuhuai's words paused a bit, and the movements of his hands moved a little faster, "After taking the medicine, your mouth will be dry. You have a taboo recently, and sugar can relieve the pain."

"Yu Huai, you are so meaty..."

Zhang Yazhi was halfway through speaking, and when she turned around, she saw the scene by the hospital bed.

The boy was sitting cross-legged, with the magazines on his legs casually placed. At this moment, he lowered his head slightly, and the man sitting on the edge of the hospital bed picked up his messy forehead hair, tied up the slightly curly forehead hair that covered his eyes, and formed a The slightly upturned forehead was exposed, revealing a smooth forehead.

"When I asked the doctor for rubber bands, she gave me a few more."

Shen Yuhuai let go of his hand, "That's all right, don't hurt your eyes."

Chen Qizhao touched his forehead, and couldn't help but take a look at his phone.

"...?"

pink? !