she is guilty of loving you

Xu Qinrou sneered, as if hearing some joke, she turned her head away.

I don't want to look at that person, let alone let that person see my vulnerable side.

Jiang Yun couldn't see her intention, so she stretched out her hand and gently placed it on the man's hand, "I'm afraid, Xu Qinrou."

In a word, it is soft and pleasant to say, this sentence is not uncommon, it is rare that it comes from Jiang Yun's mouth.

Xu Qinrou's body trembled, and kept moving sideways for a while.

After all, he couldn't hold back, paused, and turned back, his face was covered with wet marks, and the corners of his eyes were slightly red.

"Jiang Yun, why didn't I realize that you are so good at taking the lead, are you afraid? What are you afraid of?"

"I just woke up at that time, you clearly know what I want most, you clearly know that I most want you by my side..."

"Are you here? Are you here... Heh... Well, it doesn't matter if you don't come, I think you are too busy, I can understand, I'm not such an unreasonable person. "

"What's the result? I made so many hard phone calls, and you just told me to stop? Do you think you've explained the cause and effect well? Do you think your excuses are perfect? ​​How can you be so selfish? ah……"

As she spoke, Xu Qinrou's voice changed from the soft accusation at the beginning to hoarse and choked. She looked at the person on the bed in embarrassment, and quickly wiped away the moisture on both cheeks with her hands.

Jiang Yun was no better than her, her eye sockets were astonishingly red, she moved her lips, all the words were on her lips, but she just couldn't say a word.

Xu Qinrou saw her struggling, but she didn't intend to let the person on the bed speak. She finally woke up, and she couldn't talk too much, it would hurt her vitality, so she let herself speak.

Thinking of this, she rolled her eyes and glared at Jiang Yun aggressively: "Don't talk, just listen to me."

What you are talking about is high-spirited, don't interrupt yourself, if you lose this opportunity, you won't have the chance to play it so recklessly in the future.

She took another deep breath secretly, and then looked at the person on the bed.

"Don't look at me like that, it's useless for you to cry, and crying can't change your selfish nature, you are selfish, and you Jiang Yun are selfish.

Why do you always have to make all the decisions by yourself?Obviously, I can also make choices inside, can't I?Why do you have to put me in a position where I always need to be protected by you? "

"I'm not that fragile, I'm not that innocent, I just let others decide, I also know what to do and what not to do, why can't you trust me a little more and treat me on an equal footing with you."

"Do you have to do those things alone? Do you have to push me away to do those things? Are you Jiang Yun? Tell me."

As she said that, Xu Qinrou lowered her head and looked at Jiang Yun, not knowing what she thought of, her eyes were heavy with faint pressure.

Xu Qinrou thought of the scene that day, Jiang Yun was covered in blood, her breath was scattered, like a windless summer, a long period of stillness, and the occasional momentary breathing made her shudder.

I am afraid that the wind will pass without a trace, and I am even more afraid that the wind will stop and things will stop...

Her words of questioning were like a summer rainstorm, coming fast and violently, hitting Jiang Yun's heart without stopping.

Stuffy, with visible pain, but not entirely for himself, but for the person who still has red eyes and accuses himself.

What Xu Qinrou said was right, he just imposed his own thoughts and ideas on her, and made all the choices without asking her at all.

Ask her Xu Qinrou, would you like to?

I have always disregarded her wishes, told her the result directly, and finally let her bear the result, no matter whether it is good or bad, whether she wants it or not.

When things come to an end, Xu Qinrou has always been the only one who suffers.

It was as if she had never accepted Xu Qinrou's visits in the past three years. Jiang Yun thought it was good for her, but how did that person feel every time she was rejected?

I'm afraid it's doubly guilty, self-blaming, sad...

After returning, I wanted to leave her world on my own, without telling her the reason, but all the menstruation clearly indicated that.

Xu Qinrou is sensitive and intelligent, and she sees clearly what she does, so she tells her fears in advance, and gradually dispels her worries about quitting her world.

At that time, I still didn't consider her mood, didn't know what she wanted, didn't know what she longed for, but I still made the decision to leave on my own.

After Xu Qinrou's accident, he clearly knew that that person needed him the most, but he still left, broke off contact, and decided against him in the name of doing her best...

Everything is done with ease.

But it shouldn't be like that, that person was reborn after the catastrophe, longing for his own comfort, longing for his own embrace, longing for the love he blurted out.

But I didn't, how did I do it?

It seemed as if someone else was perfunctory for her, and it seemed that the friendship was mercilessly cut off on the phone, as if he had hurt that person over and over again.

She intended to protect this person, but in the end, she hurt her the most, each and every one of them seemed to be entirely her own handwriting.

Even this time, although she finally lost consciousness, Jiang Yun knew that this person must be terrified these days.

Otherwise, how could I have lost so much weight? Even though I was accusing myself, I still suppressed my emotions.

But what to do?She is still selfish, even so, she still wants Xu Qinrou to overturn her past decision, she still wants it.

Jiang Yun stretched out her hand, and gently landed on Xu Qinrou's hand that was tightly grasping the edge of the bed, her tone was light and hoarse.

"Do you still want me?"

Xu Qinrou was still immersed in the previous impassioned accusation and hadn't recovered, but suddenly heard a very pitiful and cautious sentence.

She lowered her head, met the man's gaze, and blinked her eyes in a daze.

This, isn't this an accusation?How did she change so fast? Did she not keep up?How did it become whether you want her or not?

"Do you...do you still want me? Do you want this selfish, ruthless, Jiang Yun who treats you badly?"

As if afraid that Xu Qinrou would not hear, Jiang Yun repeated it softly, quite consciously, but also listed some shortcomings.

Xu Qinrou had never seen such a soft and waxy side of her, her eyes lit up immediately, the corners of her mouth raised uncontrollably, and she secretly suppressed her again.

Then he stood up, gently pulled out his hand, and turned around to stop looking at her.

"You take a good rest first, I'll go shopping."

After speaking, he walked straight out, leaving in one go, and the door was gently closed.

At this time, Xu Qinrou let go of the corner of her mouth that she had suppressed so hard, allowing it to curve wantonly.

She turned her head and glanced at the man lying there peacefully, thinking that she just came out without answering the man's question, Jiang Yun must be scratching her head.

I must be unhappy in my heart, I must be itchy, but, yes!You should suffer a lot.

Thinking of this, Xu Qinrou went out. She had to buy some food for that person. When she was not awake, she could only use an IV to maintain her body's functions and supplement substances. When she woke up, she had to supplement her nutrition.

The doctor told me not to eat raw, cold or spicy food, but also to be nutritious. I'm in a hurry today, so let's buy some things first, and then I can make something myself and take it with me.

Jiang Yun was lying on the bed, except that her hands could move with some strength, but her whole body was still soft. She turned her head and looked towards the window.

A shallow light came in, and the gardenia in the bottle was printed, which was a kind of clear and bright beauty.

A gentle gust of wind blew by, bringing with it a seemingly indistinct fragrance of flowers. It was an ordinary scene, but Jiang Yun's heart ached.

It's good that she's still alive.

Thinking of the strong and calm man just now, and the appearance of accusing herself with reason and evidence, Jiang Yun's eyes flickered with a faint light.

It's good to be able to accuse her, at least he is willing to lose his temper with her, and he still has some weight.

After the accusation is over, Xu Qinrou can vent a lot of grievances in her heart, and pour out the grievances in her heart...

Compared with my own practice, this is much better. I can intuitively know her emotions, know what she wants and fears, that person is so stupid, no matter when he was a child or when he grows up, he always cuts the whole person in front of him. .

Good or bad, happy or sad... I should learn from her.

Thinking of the last question he asked just now, although Xu Qinrou didn't answer her, Jiang Yun already knew her answer.

She didn't answer, but Jiang Yun knew, not only knew, but was sure of the man's answer.

Xu Qinrou wants her, only her.

She doesn't have to talk, she can see the friendship flowing in her eyes, and the shallow water can't hide the deep affection.

The man... wants hers.

There was another gust of wind, bringing a scent of flowers, and the white curtains were rustling by the wind.

After the heavy rain in summer, the sky is clear after the rain, and the rainbow cannot be seen, but the rainbow is in everyone's heart again.