East Berlin's June Boat Song

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He said that watching the sunset on the top of the mountain together was a promise he had made to that person, but time has passed, things have changed, people have changed, the mountain is still that mountain, the setting sun is still that round of setting sun, he is still him, but that person is no longer .

So he climbed alone every day and watched the sunset alone.

The light of sunset spreads all over the valley, the Elbe River seems to be flowing with gold in the midst of the clouds, and the orange-red glow pours down on the mountains, complementing the dark mountain shadows.

He said that the sunset is a kind of falling beauty.

His eyes were far away, and his pupils were transparent.Tian Ran's smile brought back all the memories in my heart as always in the twilight, and I couldn't help holding his hand.

The sun sinks slowly into the distant horizon, the sunset glow spreads, and then is enveloped by the gradually encroaching night behind us.A few white storks flapped their wings and flew from the bright place to the deep mountain forest, singing and floating in the valley, dreamy and light.

We stood there for a long time, until the moon was bright and the stars were sparse, and the mountain wind became cold.

He was silent, he was beautiful and sad when he was silent, and I kissed him again.

In the evening we went back to the wooden house together. He started the stove and was preparing to make dinner when several villagers came to the door with steaming food.

"Doctor Alexander, this is a little thought from us. Seeing that you have a guest, you can accept it."

Sasha blushed like a shy child and accepted it. It seemed that he got along well with the villagers here.Simple people tend to have accurate intuitions. Many times, their innocent eyes can inadvertently see through the soul of a person who has tried so hard to hide.

So that night we ate local sauerkraut trotters and smoked sausage around the stove, and even some sweet cloudberry wine.The night temperature in the mountains is very low, but the room is very warm. We are silent most of the time, because whenever I want to ask some questions, he will skillfully leave the topic to the sky, and I often can’t react. Sometimes I even forgot what I wanted to ask.

Then we slept together, just like we did all those years ago.But this time I will hug him very tightly, he was teased by me, pinched my nose and said: "Are you still afraid that I will run away?"

I shook my head and said, "I just want to hug you."

"You don't want to sleep with me?"

I propped myself up: "Honestly speaking, it would be impossible without this willingness, you are so attractive."

I slid one hand over his body, and the delicate touch of his skin made me feel refreshed.

He raised his eyebrows and put his arms around my waist: "Don't listen to Julian now? Didn't you still show your loyalty before?"

I grinned and kissed his eyes: "I was too innocent at that time. Now that I think about it, it's better to face my own desires directly. You are so beautiful and the room is so warm. I feel a little sorry if I don't do something." Such an ambiguous atmosphere."

"Rhein, you don't know how to coax people at all, you know that such words will not make me happy."

The loving rebuke made my heart hurt again, and he can always see everything at a glance.

"What I want is your love, your sincere heart, your body makes me obsessed, but without love, everything is meaningless to me." He stretched out his index finger to touch my lips, smiling like a girl : "You just need to kiss me with joy, as usual."

My heart ached unbearably, and I hurriedly kissed him, very lingering, not daring to let go easily, for fear that he would see my cowardly tears again.

I dare not sleep very deeply at night, he is right, I am indeed afraid that he will run away.I held him all the time, and the next morning my hands were so numb that I had cramps.He sat on the edge of the bed and rubbed me helplessly, scolding me softly: "Why are you still acting like a child?"

I proudly puffed up my chest: "Nonsense! You see, I am stronger than you now."

He pursed his lips and chuckled, lowered his head, I twisted his jaw with the other hand, and looked at him carefully.

"Sasha, you've lost a lot of weight, and now you look more and more like a girl. I'll call you Katyusha from now on, okay?"

He shook his head lightly, and tapped me on the head: "You must know that I was the only one who could fight Julian a few moves before, Rhine, when it comes to fighting skills, you are not my opponent."

I smiled and said: "That's not necessarily true, do you know? Before I came to you, I had a fight with Julian! At that time, I pressed him on the ground and rubbed him hard. Didn't you see The way he sticks to the ground with his pretty face and stares at me hatefully! It's wonderful!"

I talked about my past with gusto, but of course I didn't mention the slaps I slapped on the face.

"Then I have to be careful of you. If you hit Julian, maybe it will be my turn soon." Sasha stood up with a smile, put on a white coat and was ready to go to the consulting room.

"No!" I quickly got up and took his hand: "I will never hit you, I will protect you, I will take good care of you and take care of you."

Sasha pinched my nose: "You will be punished for lying."

"What punishment?" I hugged him: "You are not by my side is the biggest punishment for me."

"You're so nasty." Sasha pushed me away with some disgust: "I just had breakfast, don't let me waste food."

He was walking towards the consulting room under the oak tree in the early morning sunlight. I stood at the door watching him, but suddenly he stopped and turned to look at me.

"Rhein, you know that."

"Everything is beautiful here, and I like it very much."

"But I don't love."

"Because I only love you, or—"

"Loving the self who is in love with you."

When he said this, the wind passed by the crown of the oak tree, countless leaves rustled, and a few fell around him like butterflies.The cornflowers under my feet rippled with blue-purple ripples.He stood under the tree, his gaze fell on me tenderly, the hem of his immaculate white clothes fluttered, and his figure was blurred in the pale golden halo of the morning.

Unreal, like a phantom.

I watched him, and for a moment, it seemed to me that the world couldn't keep him.

After he turned and left, my tears could no longer be held back, and I bent over the door and cried bitterly.

I spent the next two days helping him at the village clinic.Time seemed to go back many years ago, in the consulting room next to Gussamank Church, sunlight slanted through the shutters into the blue-toned ward, and the reassuring smell of disinfectant floated in the air.He was Dr. Kopaczki and I was Nurse Mueller.I dreamed that one day I could stand beside him and hand him the scalpel, and that one day his gentle hands could hold my face affectionately.

But now that everything has come true, I don't have any joy.

I stood beside him and handed him the hemostat. A little girl naughtyly climbed a tree with two boys, but she broke her leg. A shocking gash was cut by a sharp stone on the white and tender calf. The boys were nervous Standing uneasy at the door of the consulting room, tearfully twisting the corner of his clothes with his fingers.

Sasha smiled at them knowingly, as if reassuring them.He handled the girl's wound carefully, with clear distress in his eyes.I helped from the side, and we cooperated very well. The girl's injury was quickly treated, and she didn't suffer much.

Sasha lifted her off the table, wiped the sweat from her brow, gave her some anti-inflammatory medicine, and handed her over to the boys.

"Is it your sister?"

The two boys nodded, tears pattering down their cheeks.

"Since you are my younger sister, you must protect her well. Don't cry, there is still some medicine here, and I will give her some medicine at night."

"Thank you, Dr. Alexander."

The boys bowed to Sasha and helped the girl away.Sasha stood at the door of the consulting room, watching the three small figures gradually go away on the country road, with clear and distant eyes.He always does.

"I also had a wound like this on my leg when I was 13 years old."

He suddenly said: "I jumped off the train, and I was cut by a stone on the track for a long time, and my pants were stained with blood. At that time, Julian carried me on his back and walked a long, long way. Weeping while walking, the cold wind in Siberia froze his tears, he said, Sasha, I can't see the way, can you help me lick my eyes?"

"My teeth were trembling with pain, I broke his face, and started to help him lick the frozen tears. The bitter taste of those tears is still unforgettable to me. Later, he was finally able to see it. He said, Sasha, I can't Crying, please make me laugh, you are the only one in this world who can make me laugh. So I made faces at him, and tickled him behind me... We came to a farm like this, hid in a shack, he secretly He came to sew my wound with a needle and thread. Without anesthesia, I almost passed out from the pain. But he told me to persevere. He said that this kind of pain can make us grow. He encouraged me like this, but his heart hurt so badly, I had to tease him. Said that you sewed me too ugly..."

"It was so cold that night. We huddled in the straw, hugging each other. In the second half of the night, I started to have a fever. He went to steal water for me to drink, but even the water froze, so he had to swallow it. Feed me..."

He looked into the distance and wept silently, but I stood behind him and watched him weep.

I dare not speak.

"Tell me, why am I willing to make Julian hurt?"

He suddenly looked back at me: "I didn't hate myself for a moment...but...I don't regret it."

"Why don't you regret it? Your heart hurts so much?" I walked over and wiped his tears: "What are you trying to do, Sasha, I don't understand..."

He kissed me gently: "You will understand, but do you believe it? Julian must have understood the moment he guessed me, he is so smart."

I kept shaking my head: "You are torturing us and yourself... What should you do now? Well? It will be a matter of time before they find you. How long can you hide here? When they come... come... ..."

I was sobbing so hard that I couldn't even say the rest.

Because that's something I can't even think about.

Sasha wiped away my tears, as if to comfort me, and said angrily, "If you keep on crying like this, crying every day, I will run away tomorrow."

"Where are you going? Go to the United States, okay?" I started to say some unrealistic things without thinking.

Sasha pinched my nose and said, "As I get older, my character doesn't grow."

"Julian said the same thing about me, and then I beat him up."

Sasha smiled happily: "Then I really have to guard against you."

He took my hand and said, "Come on, let me show you something, so you don't worry about it all the time."

I followed him in a daze, bypassing the wooden house, behind was a rock, with some wet moss attached, hidden behind the clumps of dead vines.

Sasha smiled slyly at me, her eyes rolling.

"Do you see any difference here?"

I took a closer look and said, "It's no different!"

"Knock, knock."

I stepped forward and knocked a few times, first there were a few dull sounds, and then when I knocked somewhere, there was an empty sound.I looked back at Sasha suspiciously, he nodded at me and said, "Push."

I forcefully pushed open a hidden door!

"It was originally a place where the villagers stored food, but I have remodeled it. From the outside, it is completely integrated with the surrounding rocks, but you can come in and take a look."

I followed Sasha into this low secret door, which seemed to be a small space where a set of tables and chairs could be placed. You can see clearly through the wide windows!

I ran outside, and I couldn't see the window from the outside, let alone the space inside.

"This is a window that can see the outside from the inside, but the outside can't see the inside. In fact, a layer of film is pasted on the ordinary window. The film has a certain light reflection effect. It is a thing made by the Americans. .”

Sasha explained sweetly, but I was still in the dark.

Hey, to think I'm still Randall's son!The father has gone to make atomic bombs, and the son doesn't even know the principle of the reflection of light!

Seeing my confused face, Sasha smiled and said: "It's not important, what's important is that this camouflage can provide a good cover, isn't it? Say, I'll hide here when they find it... "

"This is too risky..."

To put it mildly, what I want to say is that Sasha, you are too naive. If the KGB can't find you, they will dig up the whole Geheimnis!Not to mention this secret door, even this mountain will be leveled for you!

But when I saw Sasha's faintly smug look, I couldn't bear to expose it for a while.He is the deputy director of the Second General Bureau and the most powerful agent in Lubyanka. Since he is so confident, it is not certain that this will work.

I probably developed a capacity for self-deception in places of despair.

I grinned and said to him, "Then I'll hide here with you when the time comes, okay?"

Sasha raised his eyebrows and said with a smile: "Okay, then we will hide inside together, and see those people outside are running around in a hurry, and we can't be found anywhere."

"Surely stupid!" I laughed.

"That's right!" Sasha climbed onto my shoulder: "Let's go, the sun is about to set, I have to go to the mountain, and it will take an hour or two to climb up. Are you still going?"

"Of course! I will watch every sunset with you!"

I still remember that day, Sasha and I were playing in the mountains and forests like two children. We picked berries at will, threw them into our own or each other’s mouths, and then held each other’s face and kissed, hugged and rolled on the grass come and go.It was rare for him to be so excited. That evening he laughed happily, his voice wafting through the mountains and forests clearly, jumping in the bushes like an elf-like deer.

We climbed along the mountain road and caught up with the last moment of sunset. In the cloudy sky, Sasha called Alan's name loudly.

He yelled over and over again, and I yelled along with him. Our voices intertwined and collided in the deep valley, and there were echoes. In the end, we all stared at the sunset in the distance, and we burst into tears.