East Berlin's June Boat Song

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Afterwards we smoked a lot, and we were silent most of the time. I occasionally asked a few questions, and Allen answered them truthfully.

"So, why did you deliberately want to be caught by the Stasi?"

He chuckled and said, "It's just a mission. Do you remember the Levi who knocked me out? Yes, the one who was executed for betraying me later."

I widened my eyes in surprise: "There is a connection between you?"

"Well." He nodded honestly: "But the relationship is not deep. He said he would give it to me, and I would give it to the British. In addition, at that time, the British asked me to go to the Stasi to install bugs. You can go and see. Look, maybe there are a lot of bugs in your interrogation room..."

"Why are bugs installed there?"

"That way they would know who had defected, and even if the traitors had made it out of the Stasi alive, they would have died."

"Oh." I smiled wryly and shook my head helplessly.

"I didn't expect you to fish me out, Rhine. In fact, it should be Levi who did this."

I suddenly thought of the scene when I first met Milk that day.

"Maybe, maybe it's not me, but Milk." I carefully pondered some of the conversations at that time: "At that time, I wanted to take you away, and Philip agreed, but thinking about it later, maybe he got some kind of tacit approval from Milk." .”

"Oh, that's true. I have already guessed, but there is no evidence." Allen took a breath: "After all, I just met Natasha at that time."

Whenever Natasha is mentioned, Allen always becomes very sad.

"I really don't know whether our meeting was accidental or destined... Do you know? She died in my arms."

Allen trembled and choked a little, holding his forehead and weeping.

"Then when did you discover Natasha's identity?"

"It was the half a year when you went out... At that time, I was so shocked that I felt so stupid. I said Natasha don't continue to investigate me, because behind me... Oh, Rhine, you can't know, because As long as you know, you will have the same ending as Natasha."

Allen covered his face in grief: "Even at this point, I can't completely confess to you. This world is really terrible, Rhine..."

I hugged him: "So, you have to leave, find a place where no one knows you, and return to your hometown of Dresden. When the time you mentioned passes, maybe everything can start again."

"What about you?" Allen looked at me heartbroken: "What do you do? You have such a deep relationship with me?"

I smiled slightly: "Alan, I have always faced this choice over the years, but I have never regretted it once. Really, if I really have to pay for this, I will accept it frankly."

Allen's eyes flickered, and he didn't know what he was thinking. Suddenly his eyes flickered a little, and then he hugged me: "You won't, you still have him."

"He'll protect you, I know."

"Julian? That's not necessarily..."

Allen didn't answer, just hugged me tightly.I found out later that Allen had made more decisions than me that night. He was such a decisive person.

That night, Allen simply packed his bags and left the house, and I have lost all traces of him since then.

Before leaving, he kissed me repeatedly and begged me not to hate him.I just smiled and assured him that I never hated him, but hoped that he could live a good life and looked forward to our next meeting.

"At that time, just hope we are not the enemy."

Allen grinned sadly: "I hope so."

He walked to the door, stopped suddenly, turned to me and said, "Rhein, these years I have few happy moments, but when I'm with you, it's my only happy time."

"No matter where we stand, you are my best friend."

He took off his hat to greet me and disappeared down the dark corridor.

I sat alone on the sofa and wept silently until dawn. Later, when I thought of this night, I admired my boldness and hated my weakness and cowardice.In fact, after going through this night, I still know very little, I just figured out Alan's identity, and I still don't know anything about why he became a spy for the British, when he became a spy for the British, and what he did.

I instinctively avoid these problems and use evasion to protect myself.And I know that these answers must be clear to the big shots behind me.And I've been kept in the dark, and maybe, taken advantage of.

In retrospect, I joined the Stasi counterintelligence service in 1951, how ironic, it turned out that it took so many years before I found out that there was a spy with me...

Hehe, thinking of Milke's appearance when he made fun of my position not long ago, I just find it funny now.I'm a clown, no doubt, a clown through and through.

I stumbled downstairs, the sky was already white, I took a deep breath and tried to pretend that everything was as usual.Can't let anyone know the fact that Allen has left, I have to keep calm and buy him time.After briefly sorting out the equipment at the headquarters, I led a group of teams out to perform tasks.

I really don't want to meet Milk that person.

One warm afternoon in March, I got a call from a border checkpoint in East and West Berlin saying that my people were in critical condition there.After hanging up the phone, I hurried to the checkpoint at the Brandenburg Gate, where I saw Dunn, bloodied and dying.

Kyle, the team member I sent to look for him, was not much better. He looked at me pitifully, holding Dunn in his arms. I was shocked and couldn't hide my heartache, so I quickly arranged the two of them into the Stasi hospital.

After a night of rescue, Du En was finally out of danger. Kyle was not seriously injured, but still needed treatment.I sat in the corridor of the hospital and stayed up all night, feeling extremely guilty and terrified. What made my two agents who are top elites in the whole country hurt like this.

Ask Kyle, he can't tell why, he just said that the process of finding Dunn was not smooth, but it seems that someone has been helping and guiding him.

"Always, I can feel that when I found Du En, we were hunted down. At that time, Du En refused to tell me who was chasing us. I understand that this is a secret he needs to tell you. But He was already in a bad situation at the time, we couldn't run far, so that person appeared, although I had felt it before, but it was the first time I saw him."

Kyle smiled helplessly: "He doesn't look strong, and even looks a bit feminine. But his strength is much higher than ours, and we can come back smoothly under his cover... I don't know anything about him ,but I know--"

He looked up at me: "But I know he knows you."

"Because he covered us to the checkpoint and said to me 'tell your sheriff I'll be there for him, forever!'"

I took a deep breath and saw George's mischievous smile, but why?

Why did George know about my investigation and still help me?

I was too puzzled, and soon after Du En woke up, he looked at me who was sitting by the bed guarding him, grinned, and then frowned because of the pain.

"Dune..." I fed him a sip of water: "You hurt very badly...I'm really...sorry, really."

"No, boss, it's worth it." Dunn said with a smile: "You know what? We're fishing for a big fish."

Seeing that I was puzzled, he added thoughtfully: "Richard Helms, he is the dean of the Liberty University School of Medicine, but his other identity is that he is the behind-the-scenes boss of the CIA Berlin Operations Base. "

"Boss, he controls the CIA throughout Western Europe. He's a big shot."

I was speechless from ear to ear. I thought Richard would be a spy or an agent, but I didn't expect him to have such a huge background.In fact, if I hadn’t had a special relationship with Julian, I would have never been able to get in touch with high-level KGB officials like Yevgeny and Sasha with my position in the Stasi.Therefore, a character at the level of Richard is something we don't dare to touch at all.

So Du En was hunted down by the top agents of the CIA and almost died.And my previous doubts can also be explained.

It turned out that it was not Colonel Victor that Julian wanted me to see, but Richard!

But why did he want me to see Richard? !

Could it be by chance?Maybe he didn't know Richard's identity, it was just a coincidence... With this in mind, I called Colonel Victor, and after asking about my doubts, I heard a suffocating voice from over there. silence.

He took a deep breath and continued: "I did doubt Richard, because he came to see you too often at that time, beyond the care of ordinary patients, but he told me that he and your father A dear friend, so I was relieved. So why are you suddenly asking about this now? Is there a problem with Richard?"

Out of protection for Colonel Victor, I lied: "No, no, it's just that I haven't met him for a long time, and I want to ask something about my father..."

Major Victor thoughtfully did not expose this clumsy lie, he just smiled and said: "He said that he would like to see you again. Really, that's what he said the day he sent me away. He said he would definitely see you again."

I was dumbfounded, and after a few more pleasantries with the major, I hung up the phone.

The air has never been so cold, I sit in the empty and dark corridor, I feel that life is like a cloud of fog, and I keep descending in this fog, and the tip of my toe touches a puddle of softness.

It turned out to be a swamp... first the toes, then the ankles, and then the legs, waist, abdomen, shoulders, and head...

The whole person is submerged in this filthy mud, with no direction and no breath.

I replayed the whole process, that is to say, maybe Richard wanted to see me, and Julian knew that Richard wanted to see me, so he arranged for George to let me meet the major...

I remember Richard mentioning my father, was it because of Randall?No, would a CIA executive want to see him as the enemy's son because of his nostalgia for the old teacher?And Julian, why did you ask me to meet him? He must know Richard's true identity. Could it be that he is testing me?

I am someone close to him and know many of his secrets. He is testing whether I will betray him?

Thinking of the turmoil in 53, some of my actions did cause them to lose part of their trust in me to a certain extent. Perhaps because of Alan, he had always been suspicious of me in his heart. After knowing that Richard wanted to see me, Under the circumstances, he deliberately sent me there to test my reaction...

But has he reached a conclusion?

I felt like I couldn't breathe, as if a boulder was pressing on my heart.I kept telling myself that this suspicion was only in the past, maybe everything has changed now.

Didn't he say that he believes in me the most now?Is it only me that he believes in?

I laughed at myself and finished my cigarette silently. The sky was getting dark, and there were always no bright stars in the sky of East Berlin.