God said I would meet you

"Uncle, you are here." Lin Jinyu drove all the way to the hospital, and then parked the car. The eldest and younger cousins ​​came up to greet her. It seemed that they had been waiting for a long time: "ICU only has one visit a day, let's go in together."

The eldest brother also brought his daughter here, and her daughter is five years old this year and is in kindergarten.She was a little shy of strangers, but she really liked that they were his cousin in name, but they were actually more like brothers. She was very happy to see Lin Jinyu and her little cousin.

It's really dreamy, Lin Jinyu touched his niece's face and thought: I'm already an uncle, uh, I feel like I'm getting old all at once.

"Cousin, aunt and the others didn't come back this year?" In fact, according to the traditional seniority, Lin Jinyu should call him cousin, but their family doesn't care much about the distinction between cousin and aunt, and Lin Jinyu still calls him cousin since childhood. Cousin, grandpa said it was so close.

"My mother is back. Although they are getting busier as the Chinese New Year comes, grandpa has been ill for so long, so she asked for leave and said she would come back to have a look anyway."

The eldest brother was far behind them in age, and when he got married and started a business a long time ago, his aunt and uncle didn't worry too much.It was rare for relatives to meet each other, so he looked at Lin Jinyu and his little cousin, and said, "Oh, you've both graduated, time flies, and you're about to start a family."

Hey, I never expected that Lin Jinyu would be forced to come on after the first meeting. Lin Jinyu couldn't laugh or cry.

"Yo, are you here too?"

While they were talking, Lin Jinyu's aunt, her second uncle and his wife appeared in the direction of the hospital building, together with their three brothers and the three brothers' daughter, a rare big family was present.

The three Lin Huainan siblings grew up together when they were young, and their relatives are connected by blood. Even if they are not together at work, they are not unfamiliar at all, and they greet each other warmly.Among the people surnamed Lin in an empty space was a person surnamed Zhang. The lobby brother first spotted Zhang Xinli and asked, "Who is this?"

"Uh..." The little cousin of the insider wanted to smooth things over for his cousin, saying, "He's... that..."

As an engineering talent, he really can't lie, and nothing came out after a long time.The aunt said: "Oh, I know, he is that one, Dad's comrade-in-arms, his grandson, right?"

As the saying goes, the three strongest relationships in the world are serving as soldiers together, going to the countryside together, and squatting together. The three brothers and sisters of Lin Huainan's generation all heard their father mention that mysterious comrade-in-arms. The descendants of people themselves.

The little cousin immediately said: "Ah, yes, yes, yes."

It seemed funny that Zhang Xinli and Lin Jinyu were more flustered than Zhang Xinli. Zhang Xinli still had the vocabulary book in his pocket, so he didn't show any abnormality when he was tense.

Lin Jinyu pinched him secretly, reminding him to behave better, these people are all members of his family, and he will have to deal with them frequently in the future.Zhang Xinli sorted out his emotions and greeted each of them in a very serious manner.

The morning visit time was approaching, and the whole family walked into the hospital together.

"How is grandpa?" Lin Jinyu consciously walked next to Zhang Xinli, so that he would not feel uncomfortable being an "outsider" among the family: "I was not in a good state when I visited him last time, so I didn't have time to ask him. ask."

Lin Huainan asked: "When did you read it? Dad thought you didn't know about Grandpa."

The youngest in a family is often the most favored. Lin Jinyu, as the youngest of the youngest, has been the grandson of his grandfather's favorite since he was a child, so he has been home for so long, and Lin's father has not thought about how to speak.After all, Lin Jinyu managed to stop taking the medicine, so it would be really annoying if he was in a bad mood because of grandpa's affairs during the half-year observation period.

Lin Jinyu said simply: "In the past."

The little cousin didn't seem to be very competent as a spy, so he only reported what Lin Huainan asked him to report, and didn't mention the trivial things.

Everyone is concerned about Grandpa Lin's situation, including Zhang Xinli. Lin Huainan replied: "It's been repeated. You were admitted to the ICU once in your third year of high school, and then you came out again. We all thought it was over, but we didn't expect to have to ride a bike one day." Go out and buy some of your favorite dishes, and when you come back..."

Lin Jinyu had already heard it from her little cousin, but listening to it now, it feels different from what it was then.

"... I have been treated for more than a year one after another. The doctor said that the hope of improvement is very slim, and we can only control it so that it does not deteriorate." Lin's mother took her husband's words: "I didn't know many people when I was just admitted to the hospital, and now I am sick again. It's a little bit better."

Pulmonary fibrosis is indeed irreversible. My aunt and uncle said: "As long as the person is still alive, as long as the person is still alive."

The trachea has been cut, and Grandpa Lin is now breathing entirely on a ventilator, and he will never be able to leave the ICU for the rest of his life. This kind of life seems to have no quality at all. When Lin Jinyu was in a bad mood, she just thought it would be better to have a good time like Grandpa, but now I understand the mood at that moment when my aunt and uncle said, "It's good that I'm still alive".

The corridors of the hospital are bright and noisy, and the walls are whiter than those of any church or temple. In principle, the ICU is not allowed to visit, and can only talk to patients through videophones outside, but in practice, hospitals often It won't be so unreasonable, all the children and grandchildren of Mr. Lin have arrived, and the doctor on duty disinfected them and let them go.

People at different ages will have different feelings when experiencing the same thing. Lin Jinyu smelled the disinfectant smell of hand sanitizer, surrounded by a sterilized gown, and experienced what is called "life and death" more clearly than when she was in high school.

"The old man is still sleeping. Wait a moment. I'll go in and call him." The attending doctor is a former military doctor who is about to retire. He told Lin Huainan and the others to wait for a few seconds before going to Grandpa Lin's side, and said, "Old Lin Ah, your son and grandson have come to see you!"

Lin Jinyu was very familiar with a phlegm-like cough in the ward, which was so quiet that only the beeping sound of the instrument was heard, but it was not as loud as ordinary coughs. It was hissing, like wind leaking from the surface of a broken drum.A large group of people headed by Aunt Lin Jinyu filed in and said, "Dad."

"grandfather."

There is a small hole in Grandpa Lin's throat. The silicone tracheal intubation tube is inserted into the human body, which looks very hideous, but it is through this hideous hole that precious oxygen can enter the human body.

There are only doctors, nurses and nurses in the ICU all the year round. Grandpa Lin, who heard the familiar voice, struggled to open his eyes, looked at his children and grandchildren, tremblingly raised a hand on drip, and pointed to his eldest daughter.

"Dad, I'm back." Due to work reasons, my aunt seldom returns to Shanghai. At this time, seeing her father, who has always been dignified, has turned into this, she burst into tears: "We are all fine, and there is no difficulty at work. It’s just that you have to take care of yourself.”

The hall brother also said: "Grandpa, my daughter is here to see you too." After speaking, he called his daughter, "Quick, go and see grandpa."

Grandpa Lin is connected to countless instruments. After the tracheotomy, the air no longer flows through the glottis, so he can no longer speak. He can only open his mouth wide and make gestures, trying to convey his meaning with his body.Nannan was too young, she was a little scared, and her steps forward were very slow.

The kind of fear that belongs to children is not out of disgust or alienation from relatives, but the ignorant, young life's fear of death.

Dread the festival that must come.

Grandpa Lin's physical strength was weak, and he couldn't breathe for a while after waking up. Before he could wait for a long time, the big hall brother pushed her back in a hurry, so hard that he almost pushed his daughter to the ground.Just when her niece was wronged and everyone was anxious, Lin Jinyu stood up from behind her father, stepped forward quickly, took the hand of her cousin niece, and together with her held the skinny hand of grandpa.

"Don't be afraid, baby girl," he said patiently and tenderly while squatting half-hugging his niece, "Grandpa is sick and not feeling well, let's hold Grandpa's hand and pass on the energy to Grandpa, and Grandpa will get better. "

The little girl's hands were white and small, while the old man's hands were black and withered.Lin Jinyu held them in the middle with warm and strong hands.

"Really?" Nanna clung to him and asked in a childish voice, "Are you lying to me?"

Grandpa Lin, who was leaning against the head of the bed weakly, suddenly struggled to stand up the moment Lin Jinyu approached the bed, trying to sit up. His other hand, which was also full of instruments, was raised high and pointed at Lin Jinyu, as if he had a lot to say want to say.

"Ouch, grandpa, don't get excited, speak slowly if you have something to say," the nurse girl hurriedly put a pillow on him, and stroked her chest vigorously: "You can't be tired, you won't be able to breathe later."

Grandpa Lin still looked at Lin Jinyu, who was the most disobedient since he was a child, his favorite and most worried grandson.

The nurse came over with a pen and paper. Grandpa Lin let go of her daughter's hand, took the pen tremblingly, and wrote on the paper: Xiaoyu is back.

The smooth ballpoint pen looks so stagnant at the moment, and Grandpa Lin's strokes are crooked, making it impossible to see that this old man used to write good calligraphy.

He wrote stroke by stroke: I bought your favorite dish, but unfortunately I was hospitalized before I could make it.

The liquid in the infusion bag was dripping regularly, and the ripples on the electrocardiogram were sharp, like clusters of sharp knives. Lin Jinyu thought that she had changed a lot, no matter her personality or appearance.But those cloudy eyes still seemed to be looking at him at the age of 15.

Suddenly burst into tears.

He remembered that when he was a child, his father had no time to take him with him when he just resigned to start a business, so he sent him to his grandfather. On sunny afternoons, his grandfather always took Uncle Zhao and sat in his arms under the pine tree in the courtyard to watch Ant moved, and asked him in middle school if he felt lonely at home alone, and if he wanted a brother.

He was the one who brought Zhang Xinli to him.

In the blink of an eye, he was in the prime of his youth, and his grandfather was in his dying years.

Farewell to life and death is always the most tear-jerking. Although it has not really reached that point at this moment, it is actually close.When Lin Jinyu entered this place in high school, Grandpa Lin only wore a breathing mask, and when he sneaked in in his junior year through thick glass, it was not like this moment. He directly, closely and nakedly watched his originally energetic relatives become Dying, his throat tightened for a while, and he couldn't control himself.

"Grandpa, Xiaoyu is now in the first year of graduate school. He is fine...we are all fine."

Zhang Xinli's voice suddenly sounded, and Lin Jinyu felt a familiar figure standing behind her, holding her hand between the curtains around the hospital bed: "...I also stayed in Shanghai, and I haven't been able to see you for some reason these years ,sorry."

Grandpa Lin, who had just calmed down, became excited again the moment he saw him. Zhang Xinli reached out and held his hand with Lin Jinyu.

"We... now rent a house together, take care of each other, support each other, I remember I promised." Zhang Xinli said: "Xiaoyu is my relative, for the rest of my life."

It was indeed a lifetime, Lin Huainan, his wife and the little cousin coughed at the same time.

Grandpa Lin's hand was trembling, and he shook Zhang Xinli's hand with all his remaining strength.

Before he got sick, he often asked about Zhang Xinli. In the long time ago when both Lin Jinyu and Zhang Xinli were unknown, no one knew what kind of story happened between Grandpa Lin and Zhang Xinli's grandfather. A comrade-in-arms is a life-and-death friend, and the other party's grandson is his own grandson.

Lin Jinyu looked at Zhang Xinli, with a calm but firm expression in his accustomed black eyes, he held Zhang Xinli's hand tightly under his grandfather's watchful eyes.

Grandpa Lin twitched the corners of his mouth and smiled lightly, as if to say "that's good".

He had always hoped that Zhang Xinli and Lin Jinyu would become brothers who were not related by blood but were better than brothers, just like him and Zhang Yichuan.Those long and difficult years honed a friendship that has not faded after years of baptism. That friendship is so precious and worth keeping from generation to generation.

Lin Jinyu and Zhang Xinli stood side by side in front of him, knowing each other that they would stay together for the rest of their lives, but maybe it wasn't what grandpa expected.

This is also very good. Grandpa belongs to another era, so they will always be just brothers with good feelings in Grandpa's eyes.

Nannan didn't know when she hid behind Lin Jinyu. At this time, she grabbed Lin Jinyu's clothes and looked up at Zhang Xinli thoughtfully.

The palm of the hanging hand suddenly felt soft, Zhang Xinli looked down in surprise, and saw the little girl who hadn't had time to say a word to him, Lin Jinyu's niece was a little timid for some reason but still determined She took his hand with her small hand, then turned her head, and took her little cousin's again.

"My daughter testifies..." She whispered in a childish and crisp voice, "My daughter likes my uncle, this brother, you should treat your uncle as well as before, and you must keep your word."