God said I would meet you

In September, Lin Jinyu started school as scheduled.

Life has entered a new stage, but the warm atmosphere does not seem to have changed much. Although living in a dormitory would be much more convenient, Lin Jinyu has a very boring boyfriend. After the two discussed it, Lin Jinyu submitted an application to live in a dormitory, As a matter of course, continue to live with your partner.

Because his class time is earlier than Zhang Xinli's time for work, Lin Jinyu always gets up first every morning and makes breakfast—it's usually not too complicated, maybe he goes downstairs to buy some steamed buns or fried dough sticks, and he eats one for himself, and the other Put it on the table.When Zhang Xinli woke up and went to the bathroom with his upper body bare to wash, Lin Jinyu was usually already fully dressed and ready to go out with a book.

They would get bored for a while, such as kissing or hugging. Lin Jinyu liked to use Zhang Xinli's laziness and lack of energy to do some bad things during the time when Zhang Xinli just woke up, and then slipped away immediately after finishing.At noon, everyone settled their own lunch, Lin Jinyu stayed at school, Zhang Xinli went home to feed the dog, and in the evening, whoever went home first made dinner first, then cleaned up after digesting food, and lay down on the bed after a day of work and study. Something to do... Usually it will be a sequel to Lin Jinyu's bad things in the morning. Zhang Xinli's "the kindness of a drop of water will be repaid by the spring" often makes Lin Jinyu complain for a while, regretting the mess in the morning. God - he's still the same.

There are no messy people in life. They work from [-] to [-], and have fixed courses every week. They work separately from Monday to Friday. They will go out to find free places to play golf together on weekends. The schedule, income, and expenses are generally stable. Almost no waves.

Lin Jinyu is very satisfied with this kind of life. This is almost how he imagined his future life with Zhang Xinli would look like. It is peaceful and warm, each has its own independent career and study, but some parts can be perfectly integrated together.

Although the novelty is less, he believes that the near future will be better—when the economic situation is better, they can make an appointment to go to the movies once a week, go on a trip during the holidays, and so on. There are many, even if you experience it with the same person, you can't finish it.

However, Zhang Xinli is still not satisfied for the time being, and there is still one last big stone in his heart that has not yet fallen.

"Jinyu..." Another Friday, when the two of them were getting tired after dinner, Zhang Xinli suddenly said, "Let's... go for a walk today."

"Okay." Lin Jinyu lay on his lap, without thinking at all at this moment, and said, "I'm going to walk the dog, isn't it every day?"

Before school started, Zhang Xinli was quite busy with work. Sometimes Lin Jinyu had nothing to do in the morning, so he would take the dog for a walk alone while going out for breakfast. After school started, both of them got busy, so they would go out for a walk together after dinner.

"No... the same," Zhang Xinli said, "It's a little farther away today. Because it is getting bigger and bigger, and the amount of exercise it needs is also increasing. The time for walking recently is the same as before, but it always bites the cage, and it is special when it sees people. excited."

Raising dogs in the city is no better than in the countryside, just throw them on the ground and grow them.In this square sky, in a narrow building, a dog is like a child who needs to be watched, supervised, and educated all the time. He eats, drinks, sleeps, and says hello to everything.

At a glance, it has been ten months. This dog, which had its own name very late, is a large dog. Now it has changed from a small black and yellow fur ball that could fit into Lin Jinyu's arms to a height of half a meter at the shoulder, weighing He is a big guy who weighs almost 60 pounds. His fluffy ears stand straight and he looks majestic, but he is not yet an adult. He has a very rambunctious personality and often makes small troubles at home.

Lin Jinyu was a little strange. Zhang Xinli's words were always quite decisive, so why did he feel a little vague at the moment, but out of habitual trust, he didn't think about it carefully, and only felt that what he said made sense.

"Okay," he agreed, "take a break today, take your time, two o'clock and one line every day, it's like being in a prison, it's good to go to a new place."

"Okay." Zhang Xinli agreed, touched his face and went inside to lead the dog.

The first step of the plan was successful, but he didn't feel relaxed at all, because Zhang Xinli clearly knew that this might be a big project, and if he took one step, there were still 99 steps to follow.

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Although the end of summer is approaching, the hot air in the air shows no signs of receding. The last round of loud and clear cicadas this year can be heard among the dense leaves outside the old community. Lin Jinyu leads the dog, Zhang Xinli leads Lin Jinyu, and changes direction. Started walking along a road that didn't know where it was going.

When someone leads the way, Lin Jinyu is always happy to be the shopkeeper.The nine-and-a-half months of a big dog is roughly equivalent to about 12 years old for a human being. When he is curious about everything and makes a fuss, Lin Jinyu basically puts all his energy into tug-of-war with him in the first half of the journey. It was more than an hour before I felt something was wrong.

"This road... this direction..." After turning the last corner that needed to be turned, Lin Jinyu didn't leave.

Shanghai is changing with each passing day. Except for the landmark buildings, almost every street and every store is changing. Old buildings are demolished and new overpasses are erected. However, some things remain the same.Lin Jinyu grew up in this city. Although he hadn't been here for two or three years, when he came back to his senses, he immediately smelled a familiar smell.

It was hot, and Yiyi was a little thirsty, so she stopped rushing and stopped in the shade of a tree, shaking her hair with her tongue out on one side.Zhang Xinli knew in his heart that it was impossible to hide it from him, but he still wanted to let him move forward as much as possible, so he said, "What's wrong?"

"This road..." Lin Jinyu was a little dazed, and said, "It leads to my house."

Zhang Xinli brought him here on purpose. He has thought about it a lot these days. No matter how long you leave the thorn wound, it will not heal itself. To heal, you can only remove the thorn with your own hands. Pull out the thorn.

The process may be painful, and may be accompanied by blame, rants, and even hysteria, but Zhang Xinli doesn't care.Just like the time when Lin Jinyu was forcibly sent to the hospital, he must make Lin Jinyu recover.

"Really," he said lightly, "I'll just go."

Just go, really?Lin Jinyu wanted to believe it emotionally, but he was smart and not so easily fooled.

He didn't speak, just looked at Zhang Xinli in the hot evening wind.

"...I just think that you have to face where this road leads to," Zhang Xinli was defeated by that look, and it was not a good choice to fool Lin Jinyu: "Remember what I told you? No matter what, you have to go go forward."

It doesn't matter if you can't walk for a while, take your time, take a step before you reach the end, and take a half step if you can't walk a step, no matter what, you have to go forward.

If he doesn't leave, Zhang Xinli will force him to leave.

Lin Jinyu didn't forget, but he thought he had already passed by.

"I... think it's alright," he began to avoid Zhang Xinli's sight: "The hardest time is over, isn't it? Compared to that time, I'm almost recovered."

Zhang Xinli repeated his words during that period of time that was so depressing that people didn't even want to look back: "'almost' is considered recovered."

Lin Jinyu didn't speak, Zhang Xinli continued: "I don't want to be close. Jinyu, I don't want to worry about it every day, dreaming that you will suddenly feel bad again someday."

When they broke up at the beginning, lack of money was one reason, various inevitable or accidental events followed one after another, misunderstanding caused by personality differences was one reason, and the long-term depression created by Lin Jinyu's illness was also a reason.

Living in that atmosphere is really too suffocating. Zhang Xinli has a deep understanding of this. They can't live in the possibility of an attack forever with luck. If they want to live in peace, they must pull out this thorn and let the wound heal completely.

Murphy's Law is never absent. The last time Zhang Xinli was lucky, Lin Jinyu really fell ill.

Lin Jinyu was still silent, Zhang Xinli's words were circling in his mind repeatedly, he felt sorry for him, but it was really difficult, walking down, approaching there, he felt really, really difficult.

"I..." He said slowly: "I don't know if I can do it. You said don't hide it from you, okay, I won't hide it from you, as long as you don't mention those, I really have nothing to do, but forcing me to contact It's different, I will definitely lose control of myself..."

He seemed to be a little broken, almost squatting on the side of the road.Lin Jinyu murmured: "...Maintain the status quo, we can live happily, isn't it good?"

Try to move forward, although it is possible to reach the end, it is also possible to die halfway.Lin Jinyu was very afraid that if he broke the calm, he would get nothing.

Facing his question, Zhang Xinli gave a clean answer: "Not good."

He said resolutely, as if cold-blooded and ruthless, without the slightest nostalgia: "Go forward, I will accompany you."

Zhang Xinli doesn't want to live a peaceful life with turbulent undercurrents inside. He wants Lin Jinyu to really get better.

Lin Jinyu raised his head, Zhang Xinli looked at him, the coldness in his eyes faded a bit, and his eyes gradually softened again: "...I said that I brought you home, you just treat it for me, okay? If you are here It's better to live by my side than by your dad's side, so your dad can accept me. Today is just the first step, we won't see him, just try to go to that place, you can't even be afraid of a house. "

Although Lin Jinyu has been trying to pretend that it doesn't matter, trying to prove that it is good to have no parents, but Zhang Xinli knows that his connection with his original family is much closer than his own. He still remembers the rustling of leaves that year. In the sound, he told himself the scene of Tagore's "Flying Birds", which was the initial enlightenment of poetry given to him by his father.

Although that family failed to give him everything, Lin Jinyu still got too many things from his family that Zhang Xinli never got.

Lin Huainan destroyed him, but also nurtured and molded him.

"Let me take you back," Zhang Xinli said again: "Xiaoyu, don't hide, just try, I will be behind you."

At this moment, even though only a second passed, Lin Jinyu experienced thousands of struggles.When the traffic lights at the intersection changed three times, and the people around him came and went for several rounds, he swallowed his saliva very hard—as if the saliva prevented him from making a sound, and said, "...OK."

Lin Jinyu said with difficulty: "...I will try, but I...can't guarantee that I can do it."