God said I would meet you

"Oh, the due date..." Lin Jinyu casually stuffed a few shrimps into her mouth, and suddenly froze, even raising her voice an octave: "You said the due date?! Pre-delivery"

Zhang Xinli sat with his job bowl in his hand, and said very calmly: "Yes, my mother is pregnant, and she has been calling me to get money back because they want to go for a physical examination to see if she can still conceive, and to start a pregnancy." Some medicines and supplements to take to prepare for pregnancy."

It turned out to be like this...it turned out to be like this!It would be a lie to say that I am not surprised. Father Zhang and mother Zhang are both fifty this year. Can they still conceive at this time?Lin Jinyu didn't even care about eating, and said, "Damn it, I thought they had some kind of sudden illness, so I left you a lot of money in a hurry."

The big money was the big money for them at that time, and he is still paying back this money.

Zhang Xinli ate with his eyebrows down, and said, "For my sake, you still worry about my parents."

"..." Lin Jinyu said, "Who cares for you, they treated me well when I went to your house, and they should care about you."

"Oh," Zhang Xinli said, "At that time, I really couldn't afford more than a cent. Thanks to you for saving the money. Thank you, Xiaoyu."

Lin Jinyu frowned and said, "Who told you to call me that?"

Zhang Xinli immediately became obedient and said, "Okay, Jinyu."

"..."

You can't quarrel with an ex who suddenly says everything you say.After Lin Jinyu finished dinner with him, she still felt that the news she heard at the dinner table was like a dream.

"Are you sure your mother is pregnant?"

"Bright Sword" was playing on TV, and Zhang Xinli was about to clean up the dishes, but Lin Jinyu took him away and told him to sit on the sofa—after all, he was the host, and there was no reason to ask the guests to work.

Zhang Xinli sat on the sofa, teasing the dog with his feet, and said, "Otherwise, he could still be my father?"

Lin Jinyu was puzzled, why didn't he find out that he was so good at telling cold jokes before.

The dishes made a crisp sound as they collided in the water. Lin Jinyu rinsed off the dish soap, and suddenly remembered the trouble, and hesitated, "Did your mother have a prenatal checkup?"

It's not that he looks down on people, it's just that... the elders who are not well-educated and who are a little older sometimes really don't have a strong sense of science.

"I'm going to do it recently," Zhang Xinli replied, "Many people in our area don't have the conditions to do it. If they have the conditions, they usually do it for the first time in three or four months. I think it's useless to do it if the months are too young to tell."

Will this be of no use?Lin Jinyu has never eaten pork or seen a pig walk, so she doesn't understand this, but she feels that something is wrong, so it shouldn't be useless.

"Your parents are so old, you have to be careful." How can you care about the matter of human life? If you don't break up, you should say a few more words. Lin Jinyu put the dishes and chopsticks away, walked to the living room, and said seriously: "Talk about science, this might end up killing two people... Bah, I'm not cursing."

"I know," Zhang Xinli patted his side and said, "Sit."

Lin Jinyu didn't move, Zhang Xinli understood in seconds, he picked up the dog calmly, put it on the sofa, and put something between Lin Jinyu and himself.

The TV show was nearing the end, and Li Yunlong confessed his love to Tian Yu in a posture that he didn't know whether it was an aggressive speech or a battle mobilization. After that, the two finally got married.Lin Jinyu has watched it many times, and she will memorize the lines. Later, teacher Li Youbin will read a very "little bourgeois" "My Nong Ci" in an extremely low and magnetic voice, following the flowery Oda.

He saw that there was a dog between him and Zhang Xinli, and the two of them were sitting next to each other and became three "human" buddies. He felt that there was no more ambiguous atmosphere, so he sat down on his buttocks—exhausted, and rested for a while.

"You wash the dishes much faster." Zhang Xinli put his hand on the dog's head, pretending to pet the dog, and turned to Lin Jinyu: "It used to take half a day to wash."

"What's the matter?" Lin Jinyu looked at the TV: "In the past, I was only a sophomore in college, and I only went to high school before that, and I only graduated from junior high school before that."

One of the great things about human beings is that they are constantly becoming complete. They are born without knowing anything, and die after experiencing it. It seems that it takes a long time to grow up, and it seems that it is just a moment.He always felt that he was very young, but the fact was that they, who had graduated from seniors like them, often called themselves old people in school.

"Well, after graduating from junior high school," Zhang Xinli said, "the first time I saw you, you were just a child. You were suspenseful. You used my house as a nursery school and asked me to take care of the children on vacation."

"What child? They're teenagers. Didn't I explain it already? I didn't talk to you with earphones on purpose," Lin Jinyu was annoyed. "It's not me, but my dad who uses your house as a nursery."

Zhang Xinli deliberately said: "Anyway, I can't do anything, I can only eat and sleep, it's very annoying. I don't like to take care of children."

"There's no need to repeat it, I know I'm annoying." Lin Jinyu said, "I also know you don't like children anymore."

"So..." Zhang Xinli continued, "I really don't care if I don't have children."

?

The topic changed a little too quickly, Lin Jinyu thought to himself: Why does it feel like a drunkard doesn't care about drinking?

Zhang Xinli fully understood what is meant by side-pointing music and what is meant by overtones. Lin Ye's advice is true.Lin Jinyu said: "It's up to you, your family's eternal mission is going to be handed over to your cousin or your unborn brother? Oh, I don't know if it's my brother or my sister."

Zhang Xinli imitated him and said, "Who are you going to entrust with the mission of your family for generations to come?"

"I won't leave it to anyone," Lin Jinyu said, "I won't abandon my love just because of survival. I want to live the life I choose. The world will be destroyed, human beings will perish, the sun will become the dust of the universe, and all generations will be nothing. .”

Zhang Xinli would never be able to say such a thing. Every word in that sentence is the imprint of Lin Jinyu as a person, ego, fearlessness, stubbornness, and bravery. He has his own views on himself and the world.

"Isn't it a bit too negative?" Zhang Xinli said: "The attitude should be more positive."

"Don't be negative," Lin Jinyu said: "The end of life is nothingness, but Zang Kejia's composition is good."

Zhang Xinli said, "Who is the Zang Ke family?"

Lin Jinyu said: "Wen Yiduo's students scored zero in the math test."

Zhang Xinli didn't ask who Wen Yiduo was.He glanced around and said, "I'm going to the toilet."

Lin Jinyu found it strange that he was in a hurry to urinate at this time, and he said, "Oh, let's go."

Zhang Xinli got up and went into the bathroom. Lin Jinyu waited for a second, then walked around to the other side of the wall, and secretly opened the window of the bathroom. The window of the bathroom in this house is opposite to the entrance, and most boys are not so careful to lock the window when they go to the bathroom.

In the bathroom, Zhang Xinli was standing and fiddling with his mobile phone. He had no intention of taking off his pants to go to the bathroom. Lin Jinyu's 5.3 eyesight finally came into play.

He stood by the window and saw Zhang Xinli type in Baidu: Wen Yiduo, Zang Kejia.

The results came out, and the bold characters on the search page were written with anecdotes about Zang Kejia’s application for the Qingdao University a few years ago. The poet who scored zero in mathematics wrote on the test paper: Life is always chasing magic light, but who sees magic light? Whoever acts as phantom light will sink into the bottomless sea of ​​suffering.

Lin Jinyu folded his arms, watched Zhang Xinli finish reading with great seriousness, pondered for a while, and then opened the doorknob... He immediately squatted down, bent over and pretended to be changing shoes.

"Why did you come here?" Zhang Xinli thought he was still in the living room, stunned for a moment, and said, "Going out?"

Lin Jinyu began to make up nonsense: "Well, there is still a part-time job at night, otherwise how can I pay back the money?"

It's true that he hasn't paid back the money, but because of turning grief and anger into the motivation to make money after a broken relationship, now there is only a small tail left. He said very apologetically, "I'll pay back the rest, I used it in the first place."

"No need," Lin Jinyu pretended to put on his shoes, then pretended to look at the time, and said, "Huh, is it the weekend?"

Zhang Xinli said, "Yes."

So Lin Jinyu calmly and calmly took off the shoes she had just put on: "Oh, I said, I remembered the wrong date, it is closed on weekends, and I don't have to go to work."

What shop will be closed on weekends...Zhang Xinli can't think of it at all.Lin Jinyu walked back to the living room, sat down on the sofa again, poured a glass of water, and asked, "Have you finished using the toilet?"

Zhang Xinli came back to his senses, recalled the previous topic, walked back and sat down, and said, "Yes. Just now you said that Wen Yiduo and Zang Kejia..."

Lin Jinyu looked at him pretending to be calm, but carefully recounted the story and the three-sentence composition for fear of misremembering. She wanted to laugh and held back.

"You actually know this," he pretended to be surprised and admired, and said, "It's amazing."

Zhang Xinli heaved a sigh of relief visibly, like a primary school teacher reporting final grades, and he found that he had passed.Lin Jinyu almost died laughing in her heart.

"I didn't expect you to know, since this is the case..." He looked at Zhang Xinli, restrained his surprise, showed a look of anticipation, and then said, "I have a question to ask. The three phantom lights in this sentence have two meanings. How do you think it should be solved?"

Zhang Xinli: "..."

He can only think of 'solution: given x=...'.

Lin Jinyu looked at his expression, and laughed in her heart until she pounded the ground.

However, just when he thought that his silly ex-boyfriend hadn't cheated on Baidu and would be speechless, Zhang Xinli spoke up.

He seemed to have gone through serious and lengthy thinking, and he said with some hesitation: "There are several interpretations. Apart from the superficial meaning, the first phantom can also be interpreted as an abstract, formless thing? But it doesn't represent neutrality." The abstraction is more positive. Just like Maugham’s moon is not a moon, Wilde’s starry sky is not a real starry sky.”

He said: "I can't express it. The meaning is already in that sentence. When I read it, I understand it in my heart. Any tangible explanation is superfluous."

Lin Jinyu stopped smiling.

On TV, "Bright Sword" was playing the part that Lin Jinyu could recite before, and the background voice said with righteous thoughts: "Take a piece of clay, knead a you, and mold a me... break the two of us together, and reconcile them with water. Then Twist one you, and then mold another me... I have you in my mud... You have me in your mud."

Zhang Xinli turned his head to look at him, and said, "Jinyu, it feels like you have changed, but you don't seem to have changed."

Lin Jinyu was quiet for a moment, and said, "You have changed."

He said: "Became gay."

"Change" into gay.

"When we parted, I thought a lot." As the night darkened and the atmosphere was quiet, Zhang Xinli looked at him, then looked away, as if talking to himself: "I think about the past, and I also think about the future."

In the past, he was still a child, growing up in a barren and barren mountain, and he couldn't even write smoothly. He didn't know how many continents there were in the world, how many oceans the earth had, how to write the word ideal, and didn't know how to play the violin. What is the sound.

He is more proficient at holding cigarettes than pens. Like all the children of the same ethnic group who lack education, he can't reason, thinking that violence is the only way to solve problems.

In the past, a friend of my grandfather went to see him. His hair was already grey, but his spirit was hale and hearty.He showed Zhang Xinli a photo of his grandson. The kid playing the violin was neatly dressed, unlike him, just like the black dog at home that was always covered in mud.

That was the first time he knew that there were people living like that, and it turned out that people could live like that.

In the past, the boy who had grown into a teenager came to his house, they met, parted, reunited, and fell in love.

They make love every silent night.

Then they separated.

Zhang Xinli suffered from insomnia for countless late nights, and he felt that he had returned to the time when he repeatedly dreamed of dark alleys, and "later" became lonely, dull, and meaningless.Life without Lin Jinyu seemed to be missing something.

He said: "People only live this time...I want to live the life I choose."