God said I would meet you

The moment Zhang Xinli saw the caller ID, he was both shocked and annoyed.

From mid-to-late August, he went back to school overnight at Lin Jinyu's request until the start of school. There was no news from the other party for more than a month-except for the text message saying that he was very busy recently and told him not to contact him.

At first, Zhang Xinli was afraid of disturbing him, so he really didn’t send any messages for a long time, even a QQ or a WeChat. Later, as time went on, he gradually became uneasy... In this place where young people generally eat and sleep with their mobile phones In modern society, how can someone be so busy for a whole month that they don't have a little time to look at their mobile phones?

He began to try to send Lin Jinyu messages, text messages, and phone calls, but all of them were useless. Lin Jinyu seemed to have evaporated from the world, QQ and WeChat were almost offline, text messages disappeared, and calls always showed "the other party is in a call."

The long-term loss of contact brought him growing anxiety, and he was originally an insecure person.

When Lin Jinyu called him, he was in class: "Jinyu?" He was surprised, delighted and annoyed, ignoring the countless students in the classroom waiting for the second class, he left the classroom and stood directly at the door and said: "You still know to call?"

"Well," Lin Jinyu said without any ups and downs, "I'm sorry, I've been...very busy recently."

Anyone who is left alone by their boyfriend for a month will inevitably get angry. Zhang Xinli's temper is not very good. At this time, he endured it and adjusted himself. After a few seconds of silence, he said in a low voice: "How busy you are, even give me a call Don't you have time?"

There was an imperceptible grievance in his tone, Lin Jinyu felt the evening wind blowing on his face, holding the mobile phone in one hand, and clutching the railing in the other, said: "...Yeah, there are many things, it's not that I didn't call you on purpose .”

He said: "...I'm so tired, please don't be angry with me."

Zhang Xinli felt that there was something wrong with him, even though Lin Jinyu usually talked to him when he called him, and would complain to him about his roommate playing games after turning off the lights, how annoying the presentation was, how bald the head of the essay was, and so on. things, but rarely so... so dead.

It was like the river stagnated suddenly, the pond had no running water, the raindrops on the eaves condensed into ice, and the last trace of fire on the wasteland was extinguished. Although Lin Jinyu spoke in a normal tone, it may be a kind of connection between the world. Zhang Xinli, as the world's only Those closest to him other than his parents felt that he was different from usual.

"Jinyu," he softened his tone a lot, and said, "The subject is not going well? Did the teacher make things difficult for you?"

Lin Jinyu was silent for a while, and said, "No, the teacher is very good."

"That's because the classmates don't get along well?" Zhang Xinli guessed slowly and one by one. He patiently wanted to explore Lin Jinyu's heart at the moment, just like when Lin Jinyu called him in the first year of high school.

Lin Jinyu sniffed, but still said: "No, they are fine," he said, "All... are fine."

"Jinyu," Zhang Xinli called him for the third time, "If you are unhappy in any way, you can tell me."

Thousands of miles away, they maintain the only remaining connection by the fragile electromagnetic waves that shuttle between the various base stations. In front of Lin Jinyu is the sporadic lights of the tall building opposite, behind him is his family, and on the coffee table in the living room are his medical records and handkerchiefs. Roxetine tablets, but he said, "No, I'm fine at school, but... suddenly I'm tired and want to talk to you."

The feeling that something was wrong came back. In the past, even when Lin Jinyu complained to him about the unhappiness in life, he was always full of energy. From the first day Zhang Xinli saw him, he was always full of energy.

It was that kind of light that made Zhang Xinli unable to take his eyes off him. He would never say that he was tired in such a tone.

Zhang Xinli asked, "Where are you, do you still live alone?" He said, "I heard the wind and the sound of cars passing by."

The window of Lin Jinyu's rented room faced a road in the community where cars couldn't drive in. He paused for a moment and said, "I—— I'm at school." Lin Jinyu said, "I went back to the dormitory door for the convenience of class. Squat down and call you."

"Is it hot?" Zhang Xinli said, "Go back and turn on the air conditioner first, I'm not in a hurry here."

The class bell rang, but instead of entering the classroom, he glanced left and right, went downstairs against the flow of people entering the classroom, and skipped the class.

"It's a bit..." Summer in Shanghai is like a cloth that has been steamed hot, wrapping people tightly. Lin Jinyu turned around and took a few steps, opened the door and went back indoors, pretending to have entered the dormitory door: "I I'm back."

There was arguing outside the door. Through the solid wooden door, I couldn't hear what was arguing. I could only vaguely hear the sharp tone like arrow clusters. When arguing with my parents, it exploded like beans, but Lin Jinyu pulled back the chair Sitting at the table, he said, "Oh...it's nothing, it's people from other dormitories who are talking."

There are stacks of neatly stacked books and notebooks on the table in front of him. Lin Jinyu sat blankly, his eyes aimlessly scanning the stack of books one by one. In fact, he didn't know exactly what he wanted to talk to Zhang Xinli about. I just want to hear his voice, and hope that I can draw the strength to get through this illusory call.

Many of the stacks of books were given to him by his father. When he was a child, he gave his son flashcards and comic books, and when he was older, he gave Tang poetry and Song Ci, Neruda and Tolstoy.

On the top is a copy of "Fu Lei's Family Letter", which was a birthday present from Lin Huainan when he was 18 years old when he took the college entrance examination.

Fu Lei is a very strict father, even too strict, and seems to run counter to Lin Huainan's "free" educational philosophy. His father gave him this book, probably because he wanted him to read some of the music, In addition to discussing life and literature, I also want to tell him that he has always loved and cared for him.

Lin Jinyu didn't speak for a long time, until Zhang Xinli asked him again: "Is there really nothing?" He said, "That day... did your parents ask anything later?"

They asked a lot, just like the police interrogating prisoners, they kept asking and asking, endlessly repeated treatment and treatment, corrected and corrected, and then kept taking Lin Jinyu to the hospital, making those densely printed forms, There are also some physical examinations.

The voices of parents arguing outside the door became more and more agitated, and there was a faint sound of things smashing on the ground. They blamed each other and each other, and Lin Jinyu opened the book his father gave him while talking on the phone. "Fu Lei's Family Letter", seeing his father's familiar handwriting on the title page, every stroke is very solemn.

The moment she saw it clearly, Lin Jinyu almost burst into tears.

Lin Huainan wrote when he was 18 years old: Only art and knowledge never disappoint people.Xiaoyu, I hope you can read and walk properly, be happy forever, and daddy will always love you.

Amid the crisp sound of shattering glass, he swallowed hard and said, "No, I didn't ask anything."

Zhang Xinli read doubts from his long pause: "Really?" He was also silent for a moment, and said: "Don't lie to me."

Don't want to lie to you, but you don't know it will be a lot easier.

The long consultation made Lin Jinyu tired, his father's distant message made his eyes sour, and at the same time, the quarrel outside the door made him suffocate.Lin Jinyu covered her eye sockets with one hand, lingered on the table for a long time, finally looked up at the family portrait hanging on the wall when she was a child, and said in the usual tone: "I won't lie to you," he said, "I never lie to you Yes, right?"

He chose to face all this alone.

"But I remember that there were many loopholes in that room," Zhang Xinli said, "Your parents didn't find anything?"

"I've already dealt with the conspicuous ones," Lin Jinyu said, "We didn't stay long, they didn't pay attention."

No matter what Zhang Xinli asked, he always said "very good" and "nothing happened", and kept passing on information that everything was normal.There was a rapid and heavy knock on the door of the room, as if urging his life... Probably the war between the parents finally returned to him, the protagonist, Lin Huainan may have heard some voices in the room at the door , he said loudly: "Lin Jinyu? Open the door! What are you talking about? Are you on the phone?"

The charging time should be over, and it's time for him to face the world outside the room again.

Lin Jinyu stuck very close, barely concealing his father's questioning with his own voice, and quickly said: "My roommate has something to do with me, so I'm leaving first."

Without waiting for Zhang Xinli to reply, he said, "Goodbye...I love you."

——Outside the door, Lin Huainan held the fragile handle tightly and kept shaking it, as if about to break it. Lin Jinyu quickly deleted the login record, walked to the door, and opened the door coldly. There was a shocking bloodstain on the golden handle.

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the other side.

Zhang Xinli stared at the hangup screen for a long time. Lin Jinyu clearly said that he was fine and that everything was normal, but he always felt uneasy for no reason.

Unreal noises in the background, abnormal pauses, those details that seem to have something and nothing seem to be always lingering in his mind... Is it really because he is busy?For a whole month, there was no news. Is it too busy, or is it controlled by someone?

Uneasiness surrounds him. Zhang Xinli is really afraid of coming out. He is uneasy about Zhao Wujie's surprised, mocking, freak-like eyes. His parents looked disappointed, but what made him feel even more uneasy and frightened was the loss of Lin Jinyu.

Just like what he overheard under the window that day, Chen Hui said: "It's easy to get married, but it's hard to fall in love."

Love is ordinary but the rarest thing, many people don't even have the chance to meet someone who is purely in love, let alone be lucky enough to be together.

He was restless and anxious, as if he had to do something to relieve the tension that came from nowhere. Zhang Xinli stood there for more than ten seconds, and finally picked up his mobile phone and began to look through the class schedule.

He was going to take a look to find out what happened.

The author says:

"Only art and knowledge never disappoint people." From "Fu Lei's Family Letter".