God said I would meet you

"..."

What is more frightening than lying is telling a lie that you think the circle is over and then being suddenly exposed.

Lin Jinyu's back was like a light, he turned his back to his parents, his expression was stiff, he winked and said, "What nonsense are you talking about."

However, Zhao Wujie seemed not very smart enough to understand his hint, and said in surprise: "It's the one who lives with you, what, you two are arguing?"

Lin Jinyu was speechless. His parents were beside him and had already heard their conversation. Mother Lin said, "Xiaoyu, are you co-renting? Why didn't you tell us?"

For some reason, Lin Huainan thought of more things. Unless he was very, very familiar with each other, usually only couples would rent a single room with one bed together. His expression changed, and he said, "Who do you live with? Girlfriend?"

"I didn't..." Lin Jinyu was a little indisputable, Lin Huainan stared at him for a while, then looked at Zhao Wujie: "Student, who do you think he lives with?"

"A friend of mine," said Zhao Wujie, "my teammate who plays basketball asked me to borrow this jersey."

It is self-evident whether the teammates of the basketball team are male or female. Mother Lin said to Lin Jinyu, "Didn't you say that you borrowed this dress yourself?"

His father asked again: "Who is living with you?"

Lin Jinyu's palms started to sweat. He wanted to continue making up a lie. For example, he did share the rent with a certain classmate, but... But there was no trace of another person in the room, and there was no explanation for the trash can in the bathroom. Condoms...Damn it, why did he ask Zhang Xinli to pack up and leave in such a hurry?

Either pretended to have a normal shared roommate from the beginning, or pretended to live alone from the beginning to the end, and now he changed his mind halfway, isn't it strange and suspicious?

Lin Jinyu couldn't get it back even if he wanted to. His father asked, "You didn't borrow the clothes, and you didn't live in the house alone. Lin Jinyu, what's going on?"

His parents, husband and wife followed closely, approaching noon, the already sweltering weather became more and more sweltering, and the still grass leaves under the flower beds were already baked to wilt, but at this time Zhao Wujie saw the atmosphere gradually tense, and suddenly realized He said, "So your parents didn't know... They came to see you so openly, I thought..." He seemed to realize that he had made a mistake when he was speaking, and changed his words: "Uh...Uncle Auntie, it’s like this, actually I don’t know, I just saw my teammate borrow clothes and he came to guess randomly, I should have made a mistake, made a mistake.”

Now it’s useless to say that you made a mistake, and the previous sentence was so firm, and you used the word "fair and fair", it seems that Lin Jinyu does have some "shady" little secret behind her parents that her parents don't know. There is no silver 300 taels here.

Lin Jinyu didn't know if this person was really out of his mind or if he had a high fever and burned his head when he was a child, but it didn't matter to Lin Huainan.

He pondered for a moment, temporarily suppressed the deep suspicion and anger in his heart, and said to Zhao Wujie: "...classmate, thank you for borrowing Xiaoyu's clothes. We have something to do now, you just... just leave it like this for the time being, okay."

Zhao Wujie followed him and said, "You're welcome, Uncle, Xiaoyu is fine, I made a mistake haha."

Lin Jinyu felt a strong sense of discomfort hearing him call her nickname, Lin Huainan bid farewell to Zhao Wujie on his behalf, and signaled Lin Jinyu to go back.

There was a lot of traffic at the gate of the school, and the smell of all kinds of scorpions wafted from the street, as well as the unique spicy aroma of oily spicy peppers. It was already lunch time, but no one thought about eating anymore.

His father took care of his face and didn't say anything for the time being, but his face was gloomy and faintly blue, which looked like a harbinger of a storm.

Mother Lin didn't understand the situation, she just felt puzzled, plus she was dissatisfied with her son's lying. She didn't understand why Lin Jinyu would lie about this kind of thing. Although she was extremely dissatisfied with the living conditions of this cheap rental house, if Lin Jinyu really If someone is renting with others to save money or don't want to listen to nagging, then it can be said, there is no need to lie.

"Xiaoyu, have you been lying the whole time?" Her beautiful eyebrows were frowned, and her voice still carried a typical Shanghainese femininity—not whiny, but a kind of gentleness and elegance just right, just like Bai Xianyong's Those women who are full of beauty but still pungent: "Are you talking about your girlfriend secretly with your dad without telling me, and then you are sharing the rent?"

The son's girlfriend who was suddenly exposed, the unspeakable items in the toilet, the jersey he lied about borrowing, the man who lived with his friend...too many random information piled up, and she tried to find out from the chaotic information. A barely plausible explanation.

"I don't, I just..." Lin Jinyu was also wrapped in twine-like information, which things his parents already knew, which things he didn't know, which ones could be exploited, and the loopholes he had exposed now. What?

"That's why you shared a room with your roommate, but you had a fight?" Mama Lin continued to guess. She mobilized all the brain cells of a mother, trying to restore her son's life when he was studying abroad, but she suddenly discovered the information she knew is that little.

... I don't know when, she no longer knows as much about her son as she did when she was a child, those days and nights of countless business trips, clean but empty houses, vacations without parents, a lot of pocket money However, the phone calls became less and less, and she suddenly discovered that she actually knew very little about Lin Jinyu's life.

She made every guess a mother could make except "my son is gay".

During the process of Lin's mother asking Lin Jinyu, Lin Huainan remained silent.

All the residents went to eat at noon, and the landlord’s family was also cooking in the kitchen. The sound of the kitchen knife chopping on the cutting board was loud, plain, daily, and full of rhythm. There was no one in the corridor. A rose is like a smear of fiery blood.

"I..." Lin Jinyu's heart contracted and relaxed, and the bright red blood rushed through his whole body along the blood vessels with the faster and faster drumbeat. He was fed up with hiding, those secrets that he had to think about hiding when making love, people who hid and couldn't bring home during the Spring Festival reunion, and those who dared not hold hands when there were more people on the street...

He didn't want to be like this anymore, he didn't want to pretend to be single when he was clearly in love with someone, he didn't want to be happy but still seemed to be waiting, he didn't want to have the most beautiful rose but pretend it belonged to someone else.

Everyone has the right to say love out loud.

Just like that year on the playground, when the crowds were surging, he walked past group after group of people, leaving behind a piece of piano music expressing love. love is always the same.

He is who he is, and he doesn't have to be ashamed of loving someone.

Lin Jinyu's erratic eyes slowly froze, and the bright sun at noon shone in through the bright window panes at the entrance of the corridor—the earth was like a baked steamer. It was a muggy day, but it was also sunny and clear.

His eyes sank down, and his heart sank together. Lin Jinyu looked at his mother, the person who gave him life and brought him into this world to love, hate, and perceive. He said: " mom……"

No matter how much Lin Jinyu tried to keep calm, his voice was still a little dry: "I don't have a girlfriend, the person who lives with me is not my roommate, he is..."

Lin Huainan's eyelids began to twitch wildly. Those "adolescent children's ignorance" that he sneered at had already been vaguely noticed many years ago... He had a premonition of what his son was going to say, although he was not sure yet.

"Lin Jinyu!" His father called his name loudly: "I'll talk about it later, let mom go upstairs first, and you and I can go downstairs and buy some food together..." His hand hanging by his side clenched unconsciously, With sweat dripping from the palms of his hands, Lin Huainan said, "Later, later... let's talk."

However, this urgent reaction aroused even greater suspicion on the part of Lin's mother. She glanced at Lin Huainan, then turned her head back, and the butterfly's earrings flashed a silver light in the sunlight.

Confessions had come to her throat, and it was exhausting to hide herself. Lin Jinyu felt that she was really exhausted.

Under his father's gaze, he said slowly: "Mom, I don't have a girlfriend, and the person I like is a boy... I'm gay."

Lin Jinyu has never felt so difficult at that moment... Maybe it is the same for his parents.

There was a sound of chopping vegetables on the knife board downstairs, like the rattling of a mallet.

Just like the moment of silence when the "fat man" and "little boy" landed on the ground, the corridor fell into a deathly silence as soon as this news, which was no less than an atomic bomb explosion for a family, came out.

After a long time...maybe it's not so long after all the time from the past to the present, Mother Lin opened her mouth in astonishment and said "...what?"

Lin Jinyu repeated the sentence just now slowly but firmly.

Lin Huainan said in a deep voice, "Enough!" He said, "Lin Jinyu, why did you say that in front of mother?"

Any pair of parents who have a gay son must not be happy at the first time. Mother Lin was stunned by this unexpected news. The son had seen such a solemn expression on his face.

She said: "...it shouldn't be," Lin's mother's eyes turned to the left, as if she was recalling the details that she had neglected in the past 20 years since his birth: "You have never...never shown that you have such a tendency , do you remember, when you were in kindergarten... no, it wasn’t kindergarten, it was elementary school.” She was immersed in the long memory, as if she was a little incoherent: “You came back and said that the girl who was at the same table as you was beautiful, and you liked her. she……"

Lin Jinyu said, "I've already forgotten."

"How could it be..." Mother Lin didn't look at him, but just repeated in a murmur, "How could it be..."

Lin Huainan went over and put his arms around his wife's shoulders, frowning deeply. He looked at Lin Jinyu and said, "Stop talking nonsense! You are not gay, and your sexual orientation will show up at a very young age. You are not like that at all!"

At this moment, Lin Jinyu calmed down instead. He said, "So what, same or double, does it matter... Anyway, I love a man."

Lin Huainan stared at him and said, "Who is it?"

"It's not who, I'm just telling you that I really like men now." After thinking about it, Lin Jinyu didn't say Zhang Xinli's name. The scene four years ago was vivid in his memory. They knew what they would do if Zhang Xinli was unprepared.

He won't say the name until his parents accept the truth...he wants to protect him.

Lin Huainan looked at him, and Lin Jinyu also looked at him. There was no warmth in the eyes of the father and son, but a sense of seesaw.

Under the pressure of his father, Lin Jinyu remained unmoved.After a while, Lin Huainan looked away distractedly. He hadn't thought about who the man his son was talking about, or whether this man actually existed... For a very short moment, he suspected that the man in the diary many years ago that name, but was rejected again.

In his impression, the eldest son of the Zhang family is normal and does not show homosexuality, and the two of them have been separated for many years since nothing happened. This is the other side of the distant motherland, thousands of miles away from Sichuan, and there is nowhere to meet again. There is nowhere to breed deformed love.

But he forgot that his son looked normal too, they were normal.

He wanted to figure out this question, which was very important to Lin Jinyu himself and their family. Lin Huainan took out his mobile phone and looked at it. It was the middle and late August, and it was very convenient to go back to Shanghai from here. After a few hours, sit for a while, and then come home.

"Lin Jinyu," his father looked away from the screen, and said in an irrefutable tone, "Go up and pack your things, and come home with me."

"Dad," Lin Jinyu said incredulously, "School starts in just over ten days!"

"I know," Lin Huainan's clean glasses flashed a cold light: "Go back first, the problem must be clarified, so as not to delay your schooling... If you are delayed, you will naturally ask for leave, you don't have to worry about it."

This is Lin Jinyu's 21st birthday. There is no cake, no flowers, and no blessings, just a thunderclap.

At this time, on the other side, Zhang Xinli was on his way back to school. He was getting farther and farther away from Lin Jinyu, unaware of what was about to happen.