God said I would meet you

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Time seemed to stand still for a second, and Lin Jinyu casually looked at Xiaojie who had Zhang Xinli's shoulders on his shoulders, as if he had just exchanged a normal greeting, "Have you eaten today?"

Zhang Xinli himself didn't seem to realize that he would talk about their relationship so casually and calmly, so he froze for a moment.

The noisy voices on the playground behind were still going on, but they were silent here. A second later, Xiaojie recovered from the surprise and shock, rolled his eyes half a circle, and said, "Ah...you..." He said in a very surprised and strange tone: "Why are you gay?"

This reaction surprised Lin Jinyu a bit. The reason why he said this was because he suspected that the other party was doing the same.

Xiaojie looked at Zhang Xinli with this strange look, and deliberately said: "He is your partner? You are joking, and why did you say it casually without your consent? I should respect you."

Zhang Xinli didn't speak, his originally calm eyes began to dodge under this kind of gaze, which obviously made him very uneasy.

Lin Jinyu asked himself every day these years, and was also asked by others. He was numb when he heard "gay" in various tones. Although he was a little surprised that he didn't get the expected reaction, he didn't think there was anything wrong, and continued: "Yeah, why?"

"It's...it's nothing." Xiaojie smiled brightly. He squeezed his hands together as if "Brothers are good", and said: "Hey, is it true? Your friend is talking nonsense. Damn you, are you gay?"

This kind of frivolous tone combined with this slightly derogatory word made people feel extremely uncomfortable. Zhang Xinli frowned slightly, and shook his hand away uneasily, unexpectedly, he didn't answer immediately.

Xiaojie's bushy eyebrows moved. He observed Zhang Xinli's reaction and began to apply some kind of psychological pressure: "Is this person your girlfriend? I don't think so."

Lin Jinyu also stared at Zhang Xinli, thinking: If you say no, you will die.

Their two eyes with different meanings made Zhang Xinli more and more anxious, about three to five seconds later, he bent his elbows, pushed Xiaojie who was standing too close to him, frowned and said, "It's none of your business. "

"Is it true?" Xiaojie asked, but looked at Lin Jinyu: "If you say yes, I think it's too disrespectful to you. Can you say this casually? No, I won't do that. I listen to my partner in everything."

A sentence that fell on Lin Jinyu's ears was as harsh as it was harsh. Normally, no matter who he quarreled with, everyone would confront each other face to face. When did he suffer from this kind of teasing and teasing? , gradually became angry, and said to Zhang Xinli: "Speak up, people ask you, what does 'it's none of your business' mean?"

Under the pressure of many parties, Zhang Xinli finally said: "...Yes." His pronunciation was not real, a little vague, as if he wanted to skip this immediately, and said: "That's it, don't ask."

The performance was very reluctant, and it probably passed the pass line in Lin Jinyu's heart. Xiaojie didn't think of a new move for a while, and didn't say anything for the time being. Patrol back and forth.

"I don't have time to tease you," Lin Jinyu maintained his superficial peace, showing a half-hearted smile, and said, "We're going to eat, do you want to come together?"

"Ah..." Xiaojie quickly waved his hand and said, "Well, no, you can do whatever you want, I won't go, I won't go."

This reaction is somewhere between "the light bulb is wrong" and "Oh my god, they are gay, stay away." Lin Jinyu and Zhang Xinli received different emotions in different moods.

Lin Jinyu put her hands in her pockets, raised her chin towards him, and greeted Zhang Xinli, "Let's go."

Xiaojie showed two canine teeth, with sweat on his chest, he waved goodbye to them from behind, and said loudly: "If you like the jersey, you can wear it for a few more days. I'm not in a hurry."

Lin Jinyu was very upset when she heard that, and took Zhang Xinli away.

Before reaching the school gate, Zhang Xinli asked, "Is it necessary?"

"Why is it necessary?" Lin Jinyu said, "What did I do?"

"It's just a teammate who has played together a few times. Why do you say this to everyone you see?"

"What did I say?" Lin Jinyu said: "I said I am your boyfriend, and I am indeed your boyfriend. I am just stating a fact. Why are you so repulsive?"

"Yes, you are right," Zhang Xinli said, "You are all right, but can you ask for my opinion before you speak?"

"Didn't you ask for my opinion when you told Wang Xiu? Did I say something? Why are you so sensitive in front of that so-and-so?"

"Wang Xiu is different, he already knew you were," Zhang Xinli said, "Xiaojie doesn't need it."

"OK, if you know me, you can do whatever you want, if you know you, you can't do it, you're breaking the law, after a few days of knowing each other, Xiaojie called me up," Lin Jinyu recalled what Xiaojie said on purpose just now, and said, "... Do you feel like him that I don't respect you?"

Zhang Xinli did not speak.

Lin Jinyu knew that he generally didn't want to say harsh words to him, and the meaning of not speaking was that he really felt that way.

"Okay, I don't respect you," he nodded, looked away, and touched his forehead: "I left my own parents and ran over to discuss things with you. I don't respect you in your eyes." , I'm fucking full." Lin Jinyu turned around and wanted to leave.

"I didn't say that," Zhang Xinli didn't know what to say: "The point is that there is no need to say it just now... I just hope you can ask for my opinion!"

Just now... what can Lin Jinyu say, he is not so stupid as to shout that they are a couple with a loudspeaker when he sees everyone, the reason why he said that is because he suspects that Xiaojie is also gay, and he is beating his boyfriend It was just an idea, but everything was his suspicion, and the behavior of that person afterwards was a bit beyond his expectation, how could he tell Zhang Xinli?There's no evidence, so I'm going to add suspicion to "disrespect" later, right?

"I didn't ask for your opinion," Lin Jinyu said, "I'm here to ask for your opinion! I don't know why you lose your temper with me over this kind of thing, who the hell is that? Isn't it just someone along the way? Even if he finds out, how will it affect you? People asked, so I just said it casually. If I didn’t look at you, would you just answer "no" to others? ?”

Zhang Xinli said: "There is no need to answer this question at all, why is it necessary?"

"Yes, it's not necessary," Lin Jinyu said sadly: "You always think it's unnecessary, what an idiot I am, I want others to know that you are in charge, and others can't make up your mind, you think it's unnecessary, yes, I'm unnecessary , I'm an idiot."

He couldn't continue talking, he came here to talk to Zhang Xinli about his parents and coming out of the closet, but Zhang Xinli's behavior made him feel that there was no need to talk about it.

"Here's the card," Lin Jinyu took out her meal card from her pocket and threw it to him: "You can eat by yourself, I'll go find my mother, after you finish eating, go back and play your ball to find your teammates, do whatever you like, If you have something to do, send a message on your mobile phone, don't call." Then he turned and left.

"Jinyu," Zhang Xinli looked at his obviously angry back, and instead of leaving, he quickly walked a few steps to catch up with him, and dragged him, "That's not what I meant..."

Lin Jinyu shook his hand away: "Don't, keep a distance, lest passers-by will misunderstand that we are a couple later."

Zhang Xinli wasn't very good at coaxing people, so he said helplessly, "Don't do that."

"What?" Lin Jinyu didn't give him the corner of his eyes: "I'm following your will, I can't say it, I can't keep my distance, you are quite difficult to serve."

It was lunch time, and there were many students on the way to the school gate. Lin Jinyu rushed forward, Zhang Xinli followed him all the way, no matter what he said, Lin Jinyu just ignored him.

Finally, when turning around an intersection that was closer to the library, there were far fewer students around. Zhang Xinli ran a few steps to catch up, grabbed him, and said, "Okay..."

Lin Jinyu raised her head, the silver triangular earring on her right ear was shining brightly: "Leave it alone," he said, "Don't blame me for not reminding you, later people will misunderstand that you are gay."

Perhaps people really have to be forced to make breakthroughs. The two of them were together in the first place, largely thanks to the pressure Lin Jinyu put on him. Zhang Xinli dragged him and finally said: "...I was originally That's right."

"Oh, you finally know." Lin Jinyu said blankly, "It's not easy, congratulations."

"...Don't be angry with me," Zhang Xinli said, "Indeed, it's just a passer-by. You can say what you say."

Zhang Xinli gave in. As soon as he said "Don't be angry with me", Lin Jinyu actually stopped being angry. He pushed Zhang Xinli's hand away without saying anything, and then walked forward, leaving Zhang Xinli alone in place with a naked expression. Visible helplessness and bewilderment.

After walking for a while, Lin Jinyu turned around and said to him nonchalantly, "Let's go, let's eat. Neither of us ate two bowls of noodles. Are you hungry?"

……

Lin Jinyu was nowhere to be seen at noon, and he didn't even go back to eat dinner. He turned off his mobile phone, and didn't even check to see if his parents called him. He explained later that there were too many things in the group, and his phone was dead. He vowed to kill the ostrich. Carry out Dafa to the end.

The two spent the whole afternoon, and when night fell, they took a walk in the park together.

This place is relatively prosperous, and the night scene project is well done. There are couples walking hand in hand everywhere. Not far away, there are a group of children selling roses with a lot of roses. Deng Xia hesitated for a long time, and finally decided to tell him everything.

Zhang Xinli was a little caught off guard, and said, "You mean to tell your parents right now?"

"No," Lin Jinyu said, "I'm asking for your opinion! I'll say later that I don't respect you!"

"I haven't, can you not mention this," Zhang Xinli said, "Everyone says I was wrong."

"I'm also in a daze," Lin Jinyu said, "I'm not prepared, do you think I should say it?"

"I..." Zhang Xinli never thought that this question would come up so quickly. He was actually a bit of an ostrich.

"To be honest," Zhang Xinli said slowly but without hesitation, "I don't want to say...not at all."

Lin Jinyu was a little disappointed by the expected answer, but he wasn't surprised. Although he himself couldn't make up his mind, he said it with his eyes closed. To accommodate him, he said: "My dad thought I had a girlfriend, and asked you to come to my house for dinner next time you are on vacation."

"..." Zhang Xinli said, "Can we...can we hide it?"

"How do I know?" Lin Jinyu said, "This is my parents. I'm more afraid than you. How long do you want to pretend?"

"At least not now..." Zhang Xinli said, "The family is not someone else, Jinyu, this is a big deal."

Lin Jinyu thought of Wang Xiu: It's really a big deal, I don't know what kind of hysterical reaction his parents will give...Will this family never have peace, will his parents kick him out, say that from now on? No more his son?The refraining from the same place should not... His father said that he would not be locked up.

Zhang Xinli said, "Give me some time."

"I know...but, you have to say it, do you want to be with me secretly for the rest of your life?"

Zhang Xinli did not speak.

"..." Lin Jinyu was a little annoyed. He lit a cigarette, calmed down, and said, "Since you don't say anything, the fox's tail must be hidden. My parents can't sleep at my place. They will definitely take me to a hotel tonight. Give the landlord the keys, and you'll have to go up and collect things when we're gone."

Lin Jinyu's parents would knock on the door when they entered his room, and they wouldn't rummage through his things when he was away, but if Lin Jinyu was there, it wouldn't be so. When his mother said to open the cabinet to pack his things, Lin Jinyu couldn't say no, could she?There is no reason, Zhang Xinli had to find a chance to take all his things away before his mother saw something was wrong, sneaking around, like a transparent person who died at the sight of light.

"When they leave, there is a chance..."

Before Lin Jinyu finished speaking, Zhang Xinli said, "No need," he said, "I'll pack up and leave."

Lin Jinyu didn't react, and subconsciously said, "Go? Where are you going?"

"Go back to school," Zhang Xinli said, "I'm here to celebrate your birthday with you, but Jinyu, I can't accompany you when your parents are here."

That's right, if you don't say that he can't accompany you anymore, if you don't say it forever, it will always be like this.

Lin Jinyu suddenly felt uncomfortable. How long has it been since Zhang Xinli is leaving again? He really felt the feeling of reluctance: "It's so fast, I thought I could spare some time...wait a little longer I can't do it..."

"I have to go back and look for a job," Zhang Xinli said. "Although my tuition fees are covered by student loans, Zhang Xin and repeat studies also need money, and my parents are not at home."

Lin Jinyu understood him. Speaking of which, since he fell in love, Zhang Xinli's monthly bus fare must have increased by hundreds of dollars.

He stopped talking, and Zhang Xinli walked slowly along the road with him. They were not very happy when they remembered the places they couldn't go to together and the birthdays they had planned. Lin Jinyu wanted to ease the atmosphere, so she joked: "It feels like the two of us are dating each other. Every time we meet, we do that, and we leave the next day."

Zhang Xinli didn't smile, he looked at Lin Jinyu and said, "It will be fine."

Mom and Dad will be fine, the long distance between them will be fine, everything will be fine.

Lin Jinyu recalled the quarrel just now, and it was a loss. If it was a different place, Nima would definitely have another three or five days of cold war.

He went through the arrangements for the next semester in his mind, and suddenly remembered something, and said, "Did you also have an internship next semester?"

Zhang Xinli said, "Yes, what's the matter?"

Lin Jinyu is also an intern next semester, he said: "Are you assigned by the school or are you looking for it yourself?"

"There are quotas for scattered internships," Zhang Xinli didn't understand why he asked this: "What's wrong?"

"Although our majors are different, we are in the same category." Lin Jinyu felt a light bulb suddenly light up on his forehead: "If you look for it yourself, we can find one." He slapped his thigh: "I'll go, I can Enough of long-distance relationships, just like 419."

Theoretically speaking, it is really feasible, Zhang Xinli thought for a while: "...is it possible?"

"You can just get the quota," Lin Jinyu said, "Anyway, it's coming out this semester, let's see then... and my dad, will you come during the holiday?"

"Are there any other options besides coming?" Zhang Xinli said, "I don't want my uncle to think that I'm blaming him for something."

...my dad invited my boyfriend over for dinner pretending to be just a friend?I'll go, this is really messy, Lin Jinyu shuddered just thinking about it.

In short, there is no better way. Lin Jinyu thought about all the things along the way. Zhang Xinli went from completely evading at the beginning to establishing a relationship with him, from keeping silent to taking the initiative to tell Wang Xiu, and then just now... maybe like what he said Yes, they need a little time.

"I hope it will be fine..." He said to himself, "Is it really going to be fine?"

The two of them stopped here for a while, and the flower sellers only wanted to sell flowers. When they saw the young people walking together, they called out to them as brothers and sisters, regardless of whether they were lovers or not. Lin Jinyu teased one of the children jokingly, a little distracted.

Zhang Xinli suddenly called him, "Jinyu."

Lin Jinyu turned her head in a daze, and what caught her eyes was a bright red streak. Under the night, those children surrounded Zhang Xinli. He did not know when he secretly bought a rose.

There was crystal dew on the dark red petals, and he said under the gorgeous neon lights: "For you."

Lin Jinyu didn't expect this at all, and her eyes widened for a moment.

Zhang Xinli bought it when he saw that he was not very happy, and said, "Send it to you, to make up for the regret of not being able to spend your birthday with you, or?"

"..." Lin Jinyu looked around, the other young couples were busy dating, no one paid attention to them, the group of children were busy selling flowers, just looked at them and smiled.

He hesitated for a moment, took it over, and said, "Don't want it for nothing, I said... You don't plan to use this as a birthday present to fool you."

Zhang Xinli's remaining money in the past few months has basically been put into the ticket. Lin Jinyu didn't notice that he hasn't even smoked a cigarette in the past few months.

When Lin Jinyu asked him this question, he hesitated for a moment, and said, "Jinyu, I... I really don't have as good a family as you. If I only had one rose, would you still..."

That was the worry hidden deep in his heart. Every time, when Lin Jinyu went to visit him, when Lin Jinyu gave him some expensive little things, even when Lin Jinyu bought ice cream, this concern deeply existed in his heart. Deep in Zhang Xinli's heart.

However, before he finished asking, Lin Jinyu pretended to be impatient and said: "Yes, yes, yes, or I will record it with a tape recorder and play it next to your ear every day. Don't talk about roses, you just have Just a stick, and I'm still your boyfriend."

He was just teasing Zhang Xinli at first, but he didn't expect it to make him think about this question, so he immediately took Zhang Xinli's hand with the hand that wasn't holding the rose: "Come on, I'll be back at eight o'clock, and you're still here in a few minutes." Don't hurry up and get bored with me for a while."

Zhang Xinli looked at him, and silently squeezed his tightly held hand. At that time, Lin Jinyu had no concept of money or not, and he was never short of money.

It's eight o'clock, just like Cinderella's magic will disappear. Lin Jinyu said goodbye to Zhang Xinli at eight o'clock. He didn't dare to take the rose that made him happy to his room, but put it in the landlord's vase downstairs. .

The rose had lost all its thorns, and stood alone in a porcelain white vase waiting to wither.

When he came back the next day, Zhang Xinli's things were gone. The dirty clothes that Lin Jinyu took off that day, including his jersey, were all left to dry outside—Zhang Xinli helped him wash his clothes before he left.

They thought that everything was planned, that they would go through internships and graduates smoothly, and then wait until they were fully prepared, and then confess everything between them to their parents... But accidents always come suddenly.

It is called an accident precisely because it was not in the plan and no one could have predicted it.

Lin Jinyu swore that if he could go back to this morning, he would definitely beat that Xiaojie up until his nose bleeds and he was half dead.