God said I would meet you

"What?" The moment Lin Jinyu entered the bathroom, he didn't realize how difficult the situation was. He was still thinking about the dirty clothes, and walked to his father's side in a daze. Lin Huainan kept a secret, Glancing at Mother Lin, she pulled him into the bathroom.

"Dad, what are you doing?" Lin Jinyu said, "How do you act like a thief?"

Lin Huainan closed the door behind him. Lin Jinyu saw his father's thieves-like demeanor, and felt that if he was not afraid that the clicking sound of the door would alarm his mother, he would even lock the door.

"Xiao Yu," the expression on Lin Huainan's face was somewhat similar to the time when he ran into Lin Jinyu coming out of the bathroom with no clothes on in high school, he said, "You..."

His expression carried the embarrassment and hesitation of parents looking at adolescent children, which made Lin Jinyu stare in embarrassment. Lin Jinyu thought to himself: What's the situation... It's like the first time I ran into my nocturnal emission and stained my pants. How many years have passed puberty.

"Xiaoyu," Lin Huainan called his name again: "Are you..."

"I...why..." Lin Jinyu was infected by his father's stealthy and solemn look, and suddenly became nervous, her mind turned, and she crazily slandered behind her back: No, no, could it be... found out that I was in a relationship with Zhang Xinli up.

His father also seemed to find it a bit abrupt to ask directly, so he stopped talking halfway, only beckoned him to come over, led him to the trash can, and said, "Can you tell Dad, why is there this in your trash can?"

What this... which one is this?

Lin Jinyu was still thinking about the dirty clothes, he lowered his head and looked into the trash can in the toilet with a dazed expression... In just one glance, he suddenly felt that the blood in his whole body was congealed inch by inch from the top of his head.

In the messy garbage basket in the bathroom, a corner of something is exposed under the messy paper towels... The transparent material is not too conspicuous, but any adult who has been educated in integrity can tell what it is at first glance.

Yesterday... when he and Zhang Xinli were having sex, the foreplay was outside on the bed, and the last time... was in... the bathroom...

Lin Jinyu realized later that he had made a big mistake. He was too tired after finishing work yesterday, so he went to bed and fell asleep. The follow-up cleaning was done by Zhang Xinli. When throwing out the trash just now, Lin Jinyu found a condom from the corner of his eye. The packaging followed the habit of thinking that he had already thrown away the toy. He forgot that there was a trash can in the bathroom, and he also forgot that according to the principle of convenience, Zhang Xinli probably threw the toy in the bathroom.

...he lacks the experience to do 1.

This time, he wasn't infected by his father, a real embarrassment welled up in Lin Jinyu's heart, besides, there was the panic like the end of the world and the sense of fear that almost made his fingertips tremble.

That secret...that secret that he wasn't ready to reveal to the public...After so many years, Lin Huainan's impression of him and Zhang Xinli was already very shallow. Adults always have a lot of things to do, not to mention his father is one of them. The one that is particularly busy, in his mind, his son’s diary is just a childish illusion caused by the lack of contact with the opposite sex during adolescence, which cannot be reflected in reality, let alone last for a long time.

He is so confident and determined, examining his son's "abnormal first love" like a child's play with the usual contempt of his parents.

Lin Jinyu opened her mouth, but felt as if she had lost her voice, too nervous to make a sound.

Lin Huainan looked at him, and he misunderstood Lin Jinyu's nervousness from another angle. Lin Huainan hesitated for a moment, and asked tentatively, "You... have a girlfriend?"

"..."

With a thud, half of Lin Jinyu's hanging heart dropped, but he didn't feel happy at all.

No wonder his father's first reaction was this. He has been acting "normal" at home these years, being a son like other children, never mentioning that diary, that period of surveillance, and never even taking the initiative to call Zhang Xinli once name...his dad probably thought he had become normal.

Lin Jinyu really wanted to put on a face and say that he used it when he was masturbating, but no, that's too unreasonable. Who would wear a condom when masturbating by himself? Why is it necessary? It's not cheap, okay? what...

He could only say ambiguously: "Ah...uh...um..."

Lin Huainan's expression suddenly became more serious: "Xiao Yu, why didn't you tell the family about such a big matter?"

Falling in love with a boy is indeed a big deal, but having a girlfriend... is it a big deal?Lin Jinyu was a little confused. It's normal for college students to fall in love, and it's not like they have two girlfriends at the same time. It's not as important as his father said, right?

His father should have seen from the expression on his face that he didn't think it was a big deal, and then said: "Don't think it's a trivial matter, you are all adults, falling in love is not just a play," Lin Huainan said: " As a father, I want to tell you, no matter whether you are serious or not, how far the relationship between you has progressed, whether the relationship is good or there are conflicts, there is one thing you have to remember, if... I mean, if you want to have anything with that girl, you have to get her consent, you know?"

He said: "Even...it seems that you have..."

Lin Jinyu didn't know what to say, he didn't disrespect any girl, and he didn't have a relationship with any girl... He wasn't even a 1, but he couldn't explain anything.

Lin Huainan lowered his voice and said, "Who is the other party? How old is he? Does your mother know? Does his mother know?"

"I..." Lin Jinyu's mind was full of messy threads, and finally he said, "I... don't know."

"You are quite courageous," Lin Huainan said, "When your mother told me that you kept asking for money recently, I thought it was strange, so it turned out to be like this."

His father began to ask him some questions one after another. It was nothing more than who the girl was, where she was from, how old she was, etc. Lin Jinyu couldn't remember what he answered. He remembered Zhang Xinli and the appointment they had made. Let's have this breakfast together.

He thought that at this time they should sit together and eat comfortably. It doesn't matter if the parents come or not, he and Zhang Xinli are both lovers. If the family comes, two more people will eat. eat.

But now he wanted to tell clumsy lies in front of his father. Zhang Xinli was walking alone on the street, full of dust and dust, but he couldn't look back because both of them were men.

Lin Jinyu answered casually, and watched his father go out to tell his mother that his son was in love after he was basically sure that it was a normal relationship. His mother's surprised exclamation suddenly sounded outside the door, and there were two husbands and wives whispers.

This feeling of hiding is really terrible. He wants to express himself and his love to the outside world, but he hesitates for various reasons. Lin Jinyu is very annoyed and feels bored, but there is nothing he can do.

After a while, his mother probably finished communicating with his father, called him out, and chatted with him here and there... probably some random sex education, and repeatedly emphasized like his father Always respect the girl's wishes before something happens.

Lin Huainan seemed a little relieved, and while chatting with his mother, he said: "You are a college student in your 20s, it's normal to fall in love, and you've rented a house and what are you doing without telling the family, your parents must still respect your wishes."

Lin Jinyu said in her heart: You have never respected my wishes.

He denied the cohabitation, and only said that he rented the house in order to stay in school during the summer vacation. There was nothing in the house that belonged to the girl, including underwear, lipstick, cosmetics, and even a box of sanitary napkins. Sprinkle a panic that can't be rounded back.

Probably this explosive news attracted his mother's full attention. His mother didn't rummage through the boxes and cabinets to review his living conditions. Lin Jinyu was relieved. Very careful, if you look closely, you will definitely see something strange.

"Okay, don't ask any more," Lin Jinyu said, "We haven't talked for long, and we haven't written a word yet, so we asked so many questions." He said, "It's already noon, can we eat first?"

Mum Lin might think that his evasive attitude stemmed from the shyness of first love, Dad Lin said: "Fortunately, fortunately... your grandpa was talking about you two a few days ago, now that you have a girlfriend, I feel relieved. "

"What about the two of us?" Lin Jinyu said, "I don't understand."

"Just you and Xiao Zhang," Lin's father glanced at Lin's mother, and said, "I don't remember, right? Also, you probably haven't contacted each other for three or four years. Grandpa, you also know that when you get old, you will remember such things." A few things, always remember."

As the saying goes, the three deepest friendships in the world are being in the same window together, going to the countryside together, and carrying a gun together. Lin Jinyu has no way of knowing the yellowing years of the older generation in the past. His grandfather is not a talkative old man, but He could still vaguely feel the comradeship as strong as blood from his grandfather's attitude towards Zhang Xinli.

His father said: "I just said that you kids didn't understand anything at that time... Now I feel relieved, do you know which school he transferred to later?"

Lin Jinyu said blankly, "I don't know."

His father may feel that this page has been turned, and that the past that was hidden from his mother is no longer a closely guarded and sensitive secret, so he wants to have a casual chat with him, and give him a message in an atmosphere of "no big deal". The son's youth and ignorance have come to a perfect end, but for Lin Jinyu, it will always be a thorn in his heart.

His father will never know how he felt on the day he went to the station to give Zhang Xinli off. He will never know that he learned to smoke because of Zhang Xinli. How he ended his high school days in numbing study day after day.

"It's really hard to transfer into a good school, and the decision was made hastily at that time..." Lin Huainan had an expression of recalling the past as a child, and smiled while talking, "...Fortunately, Xiao Zhang can fight on his own. You have to work hard like your brother and play less, maybe you will be in Xiamen University now."

Lin Jinyu recalled that night many years ago, when Zhang Xinli held him tightly for the first time, and said in his arms that he would never have the chance to return to Shanghai, and that everything had to start all over again... Who knows what happened to him in those years Those who came here, the most golden years and sweat of a person, only the four words "I strive for myself" are left in his father's mouth.

"...You haven't seen each other for many years. Both of you are only children. It's good to get in touch with each other. Dad will go back later and ask his contact information at home. You can talk and ask your brother to come to have dinner at home during the holidays. , it’s hard to find a sincere friend now, and after they get married and have children normally, the two families can keep in touch, your brother…”

Brother, can you give me a hug?

Even if he can only be his younger brother, it's better than being nobody.

Those sharp memories were like sharpened crosses, piercing his heart, and Lin Jinyu felt like returning to the days of self-doubt and self-struggle, such as normality, marriage, children... He seemed to be trudging through the quagmire .

"Okay, can you stop talking?" He said irritably, "It's already been said that I don't have a brother, why do you always fail to understand?"

He reacted a bit, Lin Huainan paused, and Lin's mother said, "Xiao Yu, what's wrong with you?"

Lin Jinyu was distraught, this was originally his closest family, but instead they made him feel suffocated.

He glanced at his phone and said, "My teacher sent me a message saying something happened suddenly in the group. I'll go to the teacher's house. You can eat the meal. You also have the key. I'll be back when I'm done." Without waiting for my parents to ask any more questions, I pointed them to a few restaurants with good taste, and then I pretended to be in a hurry, turned around and left.

His mother called him from behind, and Lin Jinyu walked through the traffic without looking back.

……

Nothing happened in the Sunday group, of course Lin Jinyu didn't go to the teacher's house, he spared a long way, walked half a circle around the street from the main entrance, went around to the door farthest from the front door, and sneaked into the school.

As Zhang Xinli said, he doesn't know anyone here, and he has nowhere to go. When Lin Jinyu walked up the steps to the basketball court, he saw that in the noisy arena, he was playing in a team with a group of men from and outside the school. Clothes and water bottles were placed under the shelves. There are two bowls of noodles that are no longer edible, one with chili peppers and one without.

Their two teams were full of ten people, occupying two frames, and they were playing a game. Lin Jinyu saw that the battle was in full swing, so she didn't go up to disturb her. She leaned on the barbed wire to watch and waited for them to finish.

There was a circle of big men around the field, as well as sporadic freshmen, freshmen, and sophomores. Zhang Xinli's movements were chic and smooth, and he scored goals again and again. Every time he entered a crowd of onlookers, there was a burst of applause.

One of his teammates on the court also looked good, and he always cooperated with Zhang Xinli. Lin Jinyu stood on the sidelines for a while, and saw him high-five Zhang Xinli after several goals, and even reached out to pat his shoulder.

It doesn't matter once or twice, every time like this, Lin Jinyu stared at it for a while, feeling that the other party seemed to be making physical contact on purpose.

This guy is wearing a very familiar Lakers jersey, the number is Kobe Bryant's exclusive No. 06 after 24... and the one that Zhang Xinli wore back that day was No. 8. Lin Jinyu found the rather proud jersey owner without a teacher. But... Zhang Xinli has only been here to play for two days. As a temporary teammate, he seems a little too enthusiastic.

There was never a quiet time in the stadium. Lin Jinyu leaned on the barbed wire to watch for more than ten minutes, and finally waited until the end of halftime.

Lin Jinyu walked towards Zhang Xinli, and halfway saw the player and Zhang Xinli chatting and laughing to go to the basket to rest, as if he wanted to give Zhang Xinli his own water.

Lin Jinyu yelled, "Hey!"

Zhang Xinli turned his head and saw him, Lin Jinyu said as he walked, "Come here."

The teammate who played basketball was about the same height as Zhang Xinli, and he should also be a student in their school. He originally unscrewed the lid to pass his water to Zhang Xinli, but now he was a little surprised when someone called him, and the smile on his face faded a little. Ask: "Is that... your friend?"

Zhang Xinli heard Lin Jinyu call him over, but didn't hear what he said. Lin Jinyu called him, and he passed. The teammate in the jersey followed him with a water bottle, and followed him naturally.

"Jinyu?" Zhang Xinli was a little surprised: "Why did you come here when you have time, your parents..."

"I took time out," Lin Jinyu said, "Let's have dinner together after you finish playing."

Talk while eating.

Zhang Xinli said, "Okay..."

Before he finished speaking, the teammate standing next to him suddenly said, "Is this the friend you mentioned?" He wiped the sweat off his face, and said, "Hello, my name is Xiaojie, from the Sports Academy." .”

Lin Jinyu looked at him. The man was tall and thin, with a short cropped head and thick eyebrows. He looked like a gymnasium at first glance. He said, "Hello, my name is..."

But Xiaojie said directly: "It's okay, I know it, his friend is from our school." He naturally put his hand on Zhang Xinli's shoulder, and said, "We talked about it when we were chatting."

Lin Jinyu can now finally understand Zhang Xinli's feelings when he sees him staying with Lin Ye and Wang Xiu... It's really not a taste, it's a bit like a full-blown balloon that has been knotted and exploded with anger. Not really, but it's really uncomfortable to hold your breath.

And...he vaguely felt that this person looked familiar, but he really didn't know him.

Xiaojie smiled, and said: "It's time for the second half, and I don't know whether to fight or not, why don't we have dinner together?"

Originally, it was fine to have a meal together. Lin Jinyu wanted to say something to Zhang Xinli, but this meal was not too short of time. At most, they would finish the meal early and get rid of them, and the two of them would find another milk tea shop or coffee shop to sit together. You can also speak.

Out of polite considerations, Lin Jinyu didn't want to reject Zhang Xinli's teammates at first, but at this moment, Xiaojie took out his mobile phone to check the time, and said to himself: "It's almost twelve o'clock, I definitely won't call anymore, Go to the cafeteria or go off-campus?"

A rainbow flag with a heart is printed on his phone case.

Thousands of dollars in jerseys, actions on the field, details of drinking water, plus this phone case... Lin Jinyu felt a little suspicious, Xiaojie still put one hand on Zhang Xinli's shoulder, and even squeezed it quietly , moved a bit, and changed to wrap his arms around his shoulders.

"We had home-made grilled fish for dinner yesterday in our dormitory. It was not bad. Shall I take you there?"

Zhang Xinli didn't shake his hand away, just said: "Change it, he doesn't eat fish."

Xiaojie paused for a moment, the smile on his face was a little stiff, but it only stayed stiff for half a second before returning to normal. He said to Lin Jinyu, "Your friend really understands you."

Lin Jinyu looked at him expressionlessly, and Xiaojie's sharp-edged face was reflected in his eyes... That face always made him feel familiar, as if he had seen it in a very short moment.

Those flashing photos, the constantly refreshed profile pictures, the secret words of greeting each other... Lin Jinyu wanted to talk to Zhang Xinli, about his family, about a certain decision, and all kinds of future, all decisions, they cannot avoid open to the gaze of others.

"Oh, he knows me quite well." Lin Jinyu thought for a moment and made a unilateral decision.

He said lightly: "Because I'm not his friend, I'm his object."