God said I would meet you

"What are you talking about?" Lin Jinyu first denied what he said, and then changed the topic: "...It's clearly an affair."

His tone was playful and humorous, and Zhang Xinli's emotions were misled by him, and he said leisurely, "I stole you, or did you steal me?"

"Let's steal from each other," Lin Jinyu said, "Which of us is with whom? It's too polite to distinguish so clearly."

Zhang Xinli couldn't help being amused by him, and after a while, he asked, "Are you... planning to tell your family?"

"What are you talking about, our business?" Lin Jinyu pondered for a while, and said, "Now, it seems a little anxious."

"Not now," Zhang Xinli said, "Just asking about the plan."

He always likes to have a plan when doing things, just like making a schedule, filling in the blank "to-do items" with the things he is going to do by category, and then finish them one by one in an orderly and step-by-step manner.

Lin Jinyu doesn't like this. He thinks that he just needs to be happy, live his life well, and don't make too many rules and add some troubles that are too far away.

But this matter is related to the future of the two of them. He has witnessed the situation of the little cousin at the New Year's dinner table. Lin Jinyu has not yet graduated, and there is not much talk about marriage at home, but he will graduate soon. However, it is impossible for him and Zhang Xinli to hide in the small rental house forever, not facing the light and rain outside.

"You..." Lin Jinyu thought for a moment and asked, "Do you want me to tell you?"

Zhang Xinli is actually very contradictory. On the one hand, he hopes that Lin Jinyu will not have to act like an affair when he is with him. On the other hand, he really hasn't had the courage to face Lin Huainan and his wife—the one who helped his father, Their family, and the family that sponsored him to go to school, he owed them too much, and what did he do to repay Lin Huainan... Nothing, but turned his only son into a man who likes men, a "no normal" people.

"You..." Zhang Xinli hesitated for a moment, and said, "Jinyu, you are the only child."

"Yeah," Lin Jinyu didn't understand why he suddenly said this: "Didn't you know that earlier?"

Of course, Zhang Xinli knew it long ago, and when he repeated this sentence at this time, there were more heavy meanings behind it.

Coincidentally, he was an only child himself.

This may make their future road more difficult.

"What nonsense are you thinking again?" Lin Jinyu sensed something from his gradually becoming heavy expression: "I told you last time to let you trust me, why did you start thinking about something yourself again?"

"I believe in you, Jinyu," Zhang Xinli said, "I believe in you."

He believed that Lin Jinyu loved him as much as he loved him, but he just couldn't bear to force him to face the thorns.

"That's it," Lin Jinyu said, "To be honest, actually...I'm also afraid of coming out, I'm not ready yet...but that's only temporary," he said, "Lin...uh, a friend of mine told me For me, if I want to come out of the closet, I must first be able to support myself, and only those who are independent are qualified to break away from the will of their guardians and decide their own lifestyle completely according to their own wishes."

Zhang Xinli said, "Your friend is right."

"So... let's solve the problem of food and clothing first," Lin Jinyu said, "I really don't have the idea of ​​coming out now, but I assure you, one day I won't hide it and I won't get married, okay? ?”

The expression on Zhang Xinli's face was still slightly heavy, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything.

After a brief silence, he changed the subject: "Then you still need to spend [-] yuan to eat ice cream today."

Lin Jinyu didn't expect him to remember this, and said, "Why are you still struggling with this, isn't it delicious?"

It's really delicious. Natural cocoa butter and cocoa butter substitutes have a different taste, but Zhang Xinli obviously didn't want to talk about this. He said, "It's not a struggle, I'm worried." He said, "Jinyu, you Have you ever thought about how your family will react after you say it?"

Lin Jinyu thought about it a little bit, but he couldn't quite imagine it. Surely his father wouldn't be happy, maybe he would throw a tantrum?His mother doesn't know...Lin Jinyu usually thinks that his mother loves him very much, but if it involves such a thing...I really can't imagine it.

"The possibility of accepting it from the beginning should be very small," Lin Jinyu said: "I feel that it may be a protracted battle."

Zhang Xinli said: "I think so too, it means that we may have a difficult time to live."

In Lin Jinyu's impression, "difficult days" are nothing more than seeing-saw with his parents, quarreling, not being allowed to enter the house, enduring the lack of family affection and mental torture... He is very concerned about the daily necessities of life, the chicken feathers all over the place. There is no specific experience yet.

Zhang Xinli said: "We have to prepare early."

Lin Jinyu agreed, but he didn't fully understand Zhang Xinli's meaning. He only thought that he had been doing psychological construction all the time, including the rhetoric and logic of thinking when facing his father. He rehearsed the calculation in his heart over and over again.

"I know it in my heart," Lin Jinyu said, "There must be a way for the car to reach the mountain. As long as you don't change your mind, you can pass any hurdle."

"Why did you change your mind and not change your mind? What are you talking about?" Zhang Xinli said, "I'm thinking wildly again."

Lin Jinyu just felt that the atmosphere was too heavy, so he joked casually and deliberately stimulated him: "Then who knows, who told some people to be handsome and attractive, maybe one day..."

His voice fell silent, Zhang Xinli saw that he was in need of a beating, stretched out his hand to tease him, and said, "Stop talking nonsense?"

Lin Jinyu wrestled with him: "I said 'certain people', why are you so eager to check in, do you mean you when you hear 'handsome and attractive'? Hey, I said, why are you so narcissistic? ah."

He talked nonsense, and Zhang Xinli didn't talk nonsense with him, and directly threw him to the ground, and the two pushed and shoved and quarreled, and continued to do what they had just interrupted. Those slightly heavy topics and joking words were quickly replaced by light exhortations and shallow groans.

……

In the morning of the next day, Lin Jinyu went to the station to deliver Zhang Xinli. He saw the men and women who were pushing suitcases and started pouring out of the station sporadically, as well as the lovers who were about to say goodbye. He realized belatedly that he should have had a very long five years. The holiday is just over.

What lies between them is another separation that does not know whether it will be long or short. They always seem to be separated.

After May [-]st, I will probably start to be busy. In the second half of the year, there will be six exams, two subjects, three subjects and four subjects, as well as this certificate and that certificate... just thinking about it is a headache, and I probably don’t have so much time to sit every week. I drove to the other party's school all day.

Holding the ticket in his hand, Zhang Xinli glanced at the time. It seemed that it was still early, so he didn't check the ticket and went in immediately. Instead, he stood at the entrance and talked to Lin Jinyu for a while: "I'm going to start preparing for the English test next month," he said. Said: "...I haven't passed the fourth grade."

Lin Jinyu was not surprised by this. Zhang Xinli's English has always been poor. Although he took him by the hand to make up for it for a while, but after being separated for so long, I am afraid that he has lost that little knowledge to the sky.

"I know, don't come here if you're really busy," Lin Jinyu said, "You study hard, the fourth grade is not difficult, your high school background is enough, if you don't know anything, you can ask me, free tutoring."

Zhang Xinli nodded. The square was crowded with people and the light was bright. They were exposed to countless gazes. Lin Jinyu wanted to kiss him at first, but after hesitating for a long time, he still didn't dare. In the end, the two just hugged each other, and Zhang Xinli waved to him. , turned around and entered the station.

When returning to school, Lin Jinyu received a message from the landlord urging her to pay the rent. The renting chain around the school is a small business without an intermediary. Although it is not so formal, the process is also simple. You can talk to the landlord directly about many things, deposit one payment, one month Pay rent once.

The rent is not too expensive, only a few hundred yuan per month. Lin Jinyu opened WeChat, entered the password, and prepared to transfer this month's rent directly - but as soon as he entered the last number, the phone screen shook , a prompt pops up, telling him that the balance is insufficient.

???

Lin Jinyu was stunned for three seconds before realizing... What's going on?He remembered that his mother only transferred 3000 yuan to him at the end of last month, and then he bought a pair of sneakers newly released in the season, smoked for a few days, ate a few meals, invited the dormitory to a dinner, and bought whatever he wanted. I ordered some snacks, drinks, and bought a few round-trip train tickets... It's only the beginning of the month, and I don't even have 600 yuan left?

...Sure enough, falling in love is equivalent to falling into the gold-selling cave. Lin Jinyu bought a pack of cigarettes and went back to the dormitory, thinking about what to do.

Living in someone else's house, the rent can't be delayed, but it's only the beginning of the month, isn't it too abnormal to ask the family for money again now?

Lin Jinyu glanced at the card, and found that there was 400 yuan left...not much difference, but a penny beats a hero.

Borrowing money from classmates should be able to make up for it, but Lin Jinyu is not used to asking others to borrow money. .

After much deliberation, Lin Jinyu finally felt that it would be better to borrow money from her roommate than from her family.After making up his mind, he sent a message to his mother, saying that in the second half of the year, the sixth grade and that certificate, and the make-up exam for the second grade, asked if he could support it.

This statement is half-true, half-truth, he passed the second subject once, and there is no need to make up the exam at all. As for the sixth-level certificate and this certificate, there is still some time before registration, so there is no need to ask for money now.

Mother Lin received the news and quickly called.

Lin Jinyu held her breath and connected the phone: "Hello, Mom."

Mother Lin said from the other side: "Xiaoyu, what's the matter, there's no money left?"

"No." Lin Jinyu pretended to be calm, and he hadn't found a reason to spend 3000 yuan in ten days: "Oh, I'll just say it casually, I'll tease you like my roommate, Mom, it's okay, just say it casually. "

Mother Lin said: "I thought it was a liar. You never asked me for this money."

It is true that Lin Jinyu rarely asks his family for money. Usually, his mother or father will call him directly when he thinks about giving him money. Never take the initiative to ask the family for money.

But this time... Lin Jinyu thought about it, and said: "Hey, what happened, my roommate asked his father for exam funds, and teased his father to ask if he could invest in it. I thought it was interesting, so I followed him... Isn't this... No. [-] bought a new pair of shoes..."

"I said," Mother Lin said, "the registration fee is not expensive. I said why did you ask me for it?"

The sum of seven seven eight eight is only five or six hundred yuan, which is really not a lot. Mother Lin then asked, "How much did you spend on the shoes?"

Lin Jinyu said, "One thousand and two..."

Mother Lin said: "Then I will transfer you one thousand and two, and it will be your mother's gift."

Ah, this... is more than what he thought at first, Lin Jinyu said, "Thank you, Mom."

Mother Lin said: "Look at you, if you don't come back on May Day, come back to shoot on the Dragon Boat Festival? If you don't come back on the Dragon Boat Festival, you will always come back on the National Day."

A mother always misses her child all the time. Lin Jinyu doesn't really want to go back to face his father. He said in the summer vacation that he would do a project with his tutor to pave the way for the postgraduate entrance examination, so he won't go back, especially now that he has talked with Zhang Xinli. Falling in love, when he saw his father, he thought of bad things again, and every sentence he said was thorny, and the atmosphere of the whole family would be very depressed if he said less than three sentences.

But it's impossible for him to pretend to be an ostrich all the time, Lin Jinyu said: "Well, Mom...I'm going to review next month, let's just go on National Day, the National Day holiday is long."

Mother Lin was very happy when she heard that her son was coming back. She asked a lot of questions, saying that a new store opened on Huaihai Road, and Xujiahui had a discount again. to do.

Lin Jinyu has been outside for a long time, but he really misses Shanghai cuisine. The streets here are full of noodles, and the taste of places to eat is also very different from the taste of the southeast coast. He chatted with his mother for a while, and when he hung up the phone I found out that his mother hadn't said a word, and the 200 yuan had already arrived in the account.

This was the first time that Lin Jinyu lied to his family in order to ask for money. Now that the rent is paid, he should be able to spend the month with the remaining money, but he always felt uncomfortable when he looked at the number in the card.