God said I would meet you

When all Lin Jinyu's college roommates saw him for the first time, they thought he was very attractive.

It's the beginning of the school season, a lot of first-time freshmen who live independently away from their parents, with two parents who are like guardians of the law, are escorted by the seniors and sisters who come to pick them up, holding the admission notice The book follows the reporting process.

The prospective freshmen have just stepped out of the middle school campus with half a foot, and they are unfamiliar with the place. Everyone has more or less the shyness and curiosity of high school students on their faces.

Signing, paying, and receiving bedding, here are a few boys who came early and are busy under the management of their parents. Over there, Lin Jinyu is dragging a large silver-gray suitcase, wearing a Champion T-shirt, and wearing a baseball on her head With a cap and a necklace around his neck, he glanced blankly at the dormitory number several times at the door, reached out and knocked on the door three times with his middle finger knuckles.

The dormitory is full of chaos, like a market scene, everyone is busy with their own business, there are parcels everywhere, the mother is cleaning the fan on the table, and the father is laying the sheets on the bed... Loud voice Zizheng was roaring happily, but was suddenly interrupted by three gentle knocks on the door.

Everyone looked at the door in unison, and saw a boy in very fashionable and clean clothes standing at the door, raised the brim of his hat, and said expressionlessly, "Excuse me... is this X building of XX apartment?"

The roommates invariably said in their hearts: "My X, where did you get the cash?"

There are six people in a dormitory, some are from the provincial capital, some are from small third-tier cities, and some are from the countryside, but no matter whether their family background is good or not, at the moment when the dormitory is being cleaned, everyone is ashamed, with their sleeves and trousers rolled up, as if An uncle of a farmer who goes to the field to transplant rice seedlings in one bedroom.

But Lin Jinyu was different. This handsome and well-dressed boy walked in, glanced at the messy underground, pushed his suitcase sideways and carefully squeezed through the various utility rooms, without letting his clothes and suitcase touch anything. thing.

He looked around, walked to the last remaining bed, put his luggage aside, looked at the other people who were busy, and didn't say hello or rolled up his sleeves to work with them, but said nothing. Fa went to the balcony and lit a cigarette.

Good-looking people always have a bit of aloofness when they don't speak. Looking at Lin Jinyu's handsome back, the roommates complained silently in their hearts: What a damn...

In fact, it wasn't Lin Jinyu's deliberate pretending. The two children on the train were too loud, wow, wow, wow, day and night, and the middle-aged uncle was snoring one after another. It was like singing an opera. No one could fall asleep.

And on the big day when the university starts, everyone else has their parents to send them off and help them do this and that, but he doesn't.

He deserved it too, Lin's father and Lin's mother originally wanted to send him off, but Lin Jinyu resolutely refused.He doesn't want to be with his parents, he feels tired.

So he had to ride the car alone, check the ticket alone, carry the luggage alone, and report by himself.

This is the first time he has traveled far away from home alone. Lin Jinyu was actually panicked. He didn't dare to buy a plane ticket to change the boarding pass, check in the luggage, and board the plane by himself. Until... In the end, after more than ten hours of greasy pillows and the noise of children, I finally arrived at school.

He has been wearing a hat to cover his messy hair, he is too sleepy to go to the balcony to smoke without talking and needs to refresh himself.

It turned out that this was the feeling of driving and horse fatigue. Lin Jinyu stood on the balcony, looking out the window at the vast campus, several times or even ten times larger than the attached high school, thinking: I don’t know if it’s the same when Zhang Xinli came to his house full of travel and dust. a feeling of.

What about when you leave?What's it like again?

This time, no one specially asked for leave, hid beside the flower bed, under the shade of a tree, and came up after a phone call to help him with everything.After Lin Jinyu finished smoking a cigarette, she got up and borrowed a rag to wipe the bed.

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University life is busy but boring. There are many freshman classes, compulsory electives, professional public ones, interesting and boring ones, all of which have to be taken, and occasionally there are some messy activities. Sophomore seniors spare no effort to attract people , but asked you "Why did you join our department" in the department interview... Lin Jinyu has no interest in trivial student work, and just joined the skateboard club for fun.

But still boring.

As a social science major, there are quite a few girls in their school, and the dormitory has set a dormitory rule from the first day of school, and whoever leaves the single will be treated.

Except for Lin Jinyu herself, everyone else thought that Lin Jinyu must be the first one to treat guests. He also had an affair through fellow villagers, and only Lin Jinyu was still alone.

At a hometown party, Shanghai girls from different colleges wore mermaid lipstick with fine glitter, came over to clink glasses with him, and politely asked him where in Shanghai he was from, and when they could add a WeChat account and go home together, Lin Jinyu said that he No WeChat, no more; the 1.7-meter Northwestern girl in the skateboard club held a skateboard, and she came over straightforwardly and said, "Hey, you have good skills, do you have a girlfriend? We have known each other for so long, do you want to have a meal together?" ", Lin Jinyu said that she ate too much at noon and was not hungry at night.

Once, twice, three times, four times, from freshman to sophomore... All his roommates and brothers were surprised by his samadhi like an old monk.

Finally one day, Lin Jinyu was rushing to bed for the last half hour before turning off the lights to look at his mobile phone, while the others washed up and went to bed, the sleepover session suddenly started.

"Lin Jinyu," the roommates talked about the girls in the department for a while, and joked about each other's girlfriends, and then suddenly turned the topic to him: "When will I be able to eat the meal you invited?" They said: " Your vision is too high, so who is so cute, you won't go when I ask you to go to self-study."

No one would call him "Whale" now. The college student is calm and sophisticated, and he doesn't like to do childish things that make people call him a nickname.

"Ah..." Lin Jinyu closed the software with a guilty conscience: "I... have no such idea for now."

"What's the matter?" the roommates laughed at him, "I'm not a high school student anymore, so I'm afraid that the counselor will catch my puppy love?"

Lin Jinyu didn't want to talk too much with them. After all, he didn't know whether everyone's acceptance of gays was high or not. We all lived in the same dormitory, and it would be troublesome if something happened, so he just said: "Hey, can I just concentrate on studying?" , care so much."

He usually goes to class very often, and he has no student job, so he follows the class step by step and doesn't skip classes very much. We have been together for more than a year, and we are familiar with each other, which sounds reasonable.

Lin Jinyu prevaricated and brought up other topics, causing them to continue talking about their girlfriends. After hiding under the quilt, they looked at the software. Several people had already messaged him back, saying yes, let's go out together on weekends. .

He is not consciously determined to imitate the protagonist in countless romance novels who loses love and dies, and must be a widow for a certain phantom in his heart. He just... can't get over the hurdle in his heart. After all, how many girls can accept their man? Has your friend ever liked a boy?

And he really...has no thoughts, Lin Jinyu feels that since that crazy, desperate night in the dark alley, he has always been wood, not the vibrant wood in spring, but dead and decayed , without the slightest vitality.

He cut his hair into a short cut, carved a small but freehand "X" above one ear, wore various necklaces and earrings, and walked with a bunch of flamboyant young people in the club when he was not in class. Skateboarding whizzed around on campus... He tried many things that he had never tried before, but he still found it extremely boring.

If God had tapped his finger on his heart, he would have heard a dull, hollow echo from within.

It is said that university is half of society. After stepping out of the wings of parents and middle school life of two points and one line, Lin Jinyu, like all minority groups who can face themselves squarely, tries to meet more people through dating software.

He began to discover that there are really so many people like him in the world. These people usually do not show their mountains and dews, and seem invisible in society, but once they are located and scanned, everything will come out. They used to exist, exist now, It will still exist in the future.

At the same time, he also discovered that, just as there are honest people and rapists in heterosexual relationships, there are Neptune and mistresses, the gays in this world are not like Wang Xiu and Lin Ye, at least they can communicate normally.

He has met countless weird people on the software, some are looking for a date and some are just looking for a date, some are looking for 1 and some are looking for 0, some are interested in the general public and some have a unique hobby, and there is even a gym The coach cheated those who got the card and those who got married.

These various people are only seen in these software.

Lin Jinyu is wary of those who have left the society, and generally does not talk too much. Only those classmates who are in the same school as him will try to participate in some offline meeting activities with the mentality of making friends. Recognize each other's relatives, ask each other which college they are from and how old they are, so that they look familiar.

"Hey, I said..."

After getting acquainted, a few people who could chat well formed a small group, and occasionally they would ask Lin Jinyu out to play together. They found a milk tea shop with a good reputation in the city center and sat down, ordered drinks and cakes, and started chatting.

One of them asked: "Has there been any progress recently? If any of you find a partner, you can't hide it in fear of a treat."

The other bit the straw and said, "If I get out of the order, I'd buy you eight meals, okay? But no! I just don't have a man!"

Except for Lin Jinyu, the other two are 0, and Lin Jinyu didn't think about the model at all, and filled in a random 0.5.

The one who asked the question at the beginning sighed, pouted his lips in Lin Jinyu's direction, and said, "That's right, he is so handsome that he doesn't have a man, so it's our turn."

Lin Jinyu "cut": "Don't pull me."

"To be honest, we're all very curious." As a result, the two 00s talked with enthusiasm: "We can't believe that you never talked about it."

Lin Jinyu said, "Mmmmmm, surprises and surprises."

The two said very seriously: "It's quite unexpected."

"It would be great if you were a 1, I will definitely stalk you."

"Oh," Lin Jinyu said perfunctorily, "That's a pity."

"It's a pity," that 0 said, "You obviously don't have a pity at all... Then again, you haven't talked about it, how do you know that you like men and what type they are."

Lin Jinyu thought to herself: Do homosexuals talk so much?

He said: "Uh... That's how I know it. I haven't talked about it, but it doesn't mean I haven't liked it."

As soon as the words came out, there was instant excitement over there, clamoring to see photos and listen to gossip.

Lin Jinyu had a headache from being coaxed, and couldn't bear to find a photo from a separate photo album on her phone, and said, "Stop arguing with the public! Why don't you just show it to me... just take a look."

The two nodded frantically, and leaned over to have a look.

Like a thief, Lin Jinyu slightly turned the screen of the phone towards them...it only appeared for a short moment, and there was a tidy exclamation: "Fuck, handsome, I like this kind of one so much! "

Lin Jinyu rolled her eyes halfway up, and put her phone back.

There has already been a new round of hot topics around the photos. The pair of little 0 sisters are discussing nothing but handsome guys with great interest. Lin Jinyu sits on the side, watching their starry eyes and screaming. , smiled very lightly.

With a cigarette in his mouth, he secretly looked down at the photo on the phone under the table... The autumn sun is warm, like golden ginkgo leaves, and the ferry on the Huangpu River is passing by. Zhang Xinli, who was in high school, put his hand on the railing beside the Bund River , turned around under Lin Jinyu's call.

Behind him is the Oriental Pearl Tower, one of the landmark buildings in Shanghai. Although the lights are not turned on during the day, the golden ratio of the tower still gives people a very ceremonial aesthetic feeling.

The face of a high school student has three-dimensional features and heroic eyebrows, which makes Lin Jinyu feel a little strange... After all, it is a bit far away. Zhang Xinli was only when this photo was taken, and now Lin Jinyu himself is about to welcome his 20. age.

Time is always like running water, rushing without looking back.

He thought that maybe the person in this photo already had new classmates, a new life, and maybe even a girlfriend, and walked his normal life path beautifully, only he was like a fool, never The law really treats a passer-by as a guest.

But it doesn't matter, one day he will forget it, one day he will really forget that face, and when he mentions that name, he will just say plainly "Oh... this is that so-and-so, a high school classmate of mine, who later moved away It's gone"... Lin Jinyu originally planned to do so.

Without that letter.

Lin Jinyu didn't buy anything online, but one day at the end of her sophomore year, she received a package from Liangshan, which contained a box of wedding candies and a simple red leather invitation.