God said I would meet you

At four o'clock in the afternoon, Lin Jinyu still called Uncle Zhao and went to the hospital to take an X-ray on the back of Zhang Xinli.

At that time, he didn't know what it might mean for a special student to get seriously injured by accident... Fortunately, the news came back that the X-ray showed that the bones were fine, but the sprain was also very serious. neatly.

Zhang Xinli took three days off from school and did not come to school. Lin Jinyu had to live on campus, and checked his bed at ten o'clock every night. He couldn't go home, let alone take care of Zhang Xinli.

I don't know what's going on with him... As the second year of high school started, the atmosphere was obviously different from that of the first year of high school. Everyone had chosen their own subjects and had a clear direction, and it seemed like they were putting their lives to the test. According to Zhang Xinli's personality, at this time There is only one possibility that he won't even come to class, that is, he really can't walk.

Didn't it mean that there was no broken bone? How serious is it... Lin Jinyu became more and more uneasy the more he thought about it. He couldn't sleep even after the lights were turned off. Wrapped in a blanket and blowing on the fan, he fancied wildly on the bed.

After much deliberation, she was so full of thoughts that she was about to explode, probably because the turning over was too noisy, Wang Xiu raised her head from the bed and asked, "Whale, what's wrong with you? You're turning over and over."

"No," Lin Jinyu's face was illuminated by the light from the phone screen. He wanted to call Zhang Xinli, but he was afraid that his father would find out: "I'm bothering you? Go to sleep, I won't turn over."

Wrapped in an air-conditioning quilt, Wang Xiu stepped over the railing at the head of the bed, lifted the mosquito net, stooped, and quietly stepped on Lin Jinyu's bed.

They were next to each other on the bed, so it was very convenient for them to come and go.Lin Jinyu looked up at him and asked, "Why?"

Wrapped in a quilt, Wang Xiu squatted at the foot of the bed and whispered, "Can't sleep, are you chatting?"

This reminded Lin Jinyu of a long time ago, during the military training, when Wang Xiu also climbed out of bed softly, sat by his bed, and then asked Zhang Xinli in a low voice in the dark if he was his boyfriend.

At that time, Lin Jinyu had just quarreled with her parents and had no new friends at the base, so she felt that she was the loneliest person in the world.

He often wondered when his feelings for Zhang Xinli began, the moment Zhang Xinli picked him up from the pool, the day he reacted to Zhang Xinli, the day Zhang Xinli carried him on his back in the rainstorm Seconds, or some other time...he didn't know.

Lin Jinyu trudged through the long river of memory, but couldn't find the beginning of the story. It seemed that everything happened so naturally. When he recovered, his heart was full.

Everyone else in the dormitory was lying on the bed and doing their own things, watching movies, playing games, Lin Jinyu couldn't fall asleep, and instead of letting himself think wildly, it's better to chat with others, he moved to the outside , making room on the narrow dormitory bed, Wang Xiu stepped over wrapped in a quilt, and lay down beside him.

"What are you talking about?"

"Whatever," Wang Xiu said, "Whale, thank you for helping me that day."

He should be talking about the laundry room that day, Lin Jinyu said: "It's okay, it's not a matter of course to help friends." He asked: "Speaking of which, why did they bother you?"

Chen Yewei called his girlfriend in the laundry room. Lin Jinyu kept her voice down, covered by the mosquito net and other people's mobile phones, so she was not afraid of being heard.

"No reason, just because I hate me," Wang Xiu said lying beside him, "I hate my mother."

When Lin Jinyu first met him, she felt goosebumps all over her body when she talked to him. Now she didn't know what to say, after thinking about it, she could only say "don't take it to heart".

"Of course I don't take it to heart," Wang Xiu said. "Elementary school, junior high school, and now, my mother has long been used to it."

Most of Xiao 0, who behaved a bit bitch, was similarly excluded when he was a student. He got along very well with girls and awkwardly with boys, and he had to endure various nicknames from his classmates from time to time, such as Wang Xiu, I have heard many nicknames such as "shemale", "fake mother" and "sissy" since I was a child.

Everyone loves to shout, no one cares whether he likes to hear it or not.

"Then why do you do this?" Lin Jinyu didn't expect Wang Xiu to be a person with a story: "It makes others bully you."

"Why am I like this?" Wang Xiu said, "Because I was like this."

Some people may have some misunderstandings about the boys or gays of the empress, thinking that they are so girly, more girls than girls, why not go directly to transgender, but in fact, people like Wang Xiu don’t necessarily want to transgender, they may also treat themselves There is no discomfort with their biological sex, it's just their personality...or a way of behavior.

"Oh," Lin Jinyu said quickly, "Understood."

Wang Xiudao: "There's no point in hiding it. When I was in junior high school, I was very afraid that people would laugh at me, so I tried to keep it away as much as possible, but it didn't work. Someone would always block you in the toilet, or give you various nicknames. Running loudly in front of you and shouting... Later I figured it out, so I just let myself go, motherfucker is crazy~"

"This...is pretty good." Lin Jinyu said sincerely.He admired Wang Xiu's courage, he could not care about other people's comments and dislikes... Unlike him, he didn't even dare to say out loud that he liked someone.

Wang Xiu hugged his hand and said, "I really envy you. You have so many friends and such a good brother."

"Where, I still envy you..."

"What do I have to envy?"

"..." Lin Jinyu thought to herself: I envy you for being able to show everyone what you are without any concealment.

"Tell me, what do you envy me for?"

Lin Jinyu said, "I envy you...for your openness and generosity."

"That's it," Wang Xiu said, "I thought I was envious of my beauty, body, and having a man."

Superficial... Lin Jinyu thought to himself: I don't need to envy you for your looks and body. As for the man...he's a little wimpy: OK, barely.

He was a little curious about Wang Xiu's private life, so he asked carefully, "Can I ask a question, why did you change so... quickly?"

Wang Xiu understood his question, and didn't shy away from it, and said directly: "Change it if you like, it's not bad anyway."

How could it be the same... Lin Jinyu thought: Everyone is so different.

Wang Xiu could tell from his expression that he disapproved, and added: "Actually, it's just that I'm not bad..." He said: "Anyway, the ones I like have long since disappeared."

Lin Jinyu turned her face to look at him. Wang Xiu was wrapped in a quilt, holding his hand and curled up against the wall. She didn't explain too much, but asked in a low voice, "Do you have someone you like?"

"I..." Lin Jinyu was at a loss for words. He had originally made up his mind that he would never tell anyone the secret that he couldn't see, but now he and Wang Xiu were lying side by side in the dark and talking about more personal topics. Create an atmosphere of intimate conversation, which encourages people in it to exchange secrets with each other.

What's more, Wang Xiu and the current him can be regarded as "similar people" in a certain sense.

Lin Jinyu is hesitating, those secret thoughts are really driving him crazy, he wants to tell others that he has a beautiful secret, even if that secret makes him painful.

"I..." Lin Jinyu said "I" a second time, but still hesitated to speak.

Just when he was hesitating, wanting to say something but not saying anything, Wang Xiu looked around to make sure that no one was paying attention to them, then covered her mouth with the quilt, and said in a very low voice: "You like your brother, don't you? "

This sentence was stuffed under the quilt, and only the two of them could hear it. Lin Jinyu froze instantly as if being hit in the head, and even forgot to breathe.

Wang Xiu went on to say, "I won't tell anyone."

"How do you..."

"I'll try yours, but judging from this reaction, I guessed it right." Wang Xiudao: "Actually, I can probably see that the kind... how to say, the feeling between you is different from other people, then It's a well-known..."

Everyone knows?Lin Jinyu was almost scared to death. Is it so obvious? If everyone can see it, wouldn't it be...

His shock and fear were written all over his face. Wang Xiu said, "Look at how scared you are. It's just that people of the same kind can easily see it. Straight men usually don't notice it. Maybe they feel that your brothers' emotions are earth-shattering."

Lin Jinyu stopped talking. It turned out that everyone knew they were good, but no one would think in that direction.

"You couldn't fall asleep just now, did you just miss him?"

Lin Jinyu couldn't deny it, and Wang Xiu said, "Hey, it's hard to be in love secretly. If you really miss him, go back and have a look. Anyway, it's Friday tomorrow. After school, you can go out after school."

Lin Jinyu really wanted to see him, but he didn't know what to say after seeing him, and there was one more thing...he was afraid of being seen by his father.

"Many students who live in the house go home on Friday," Wang Xiu said, "Our local students will basically go back. If you don't go back, you will be the only one in the dormitory tomorrow night."

This sounds like an extremely legitimate reason for going home, Lin Jinyu said: "Really? But I haven't told my family yet."

"What are you talking about? You don't need to say anything. Do you still need to report to your own home if you haven't been back for a week? Just explain the situation clearly when you get home."

Lin Jinyu thought about it, and felt that this was the case. If he didn't go home when everyone else went home, it would make him seem to be hiding something deliberately, and it might be a sign of evil in his father's eyes.

"Then I... go back?"

"Go back if you want," Wang Xiu said, "Be confident in yourself, maybe he misses you too."

Hearing this sentence, Lin Jinyu was a little embarrassed. He pulled the blanket over himself, and prepared to go to bed: "Then I will go back too... Anyway, everyone will go back, and it is normal for me to go back."

……

The next day, Zhang Xinli still did not come to school.

After school, Lin Jinyu went to the teacher to get the note, and walked home with her schoolbag on her back. He didn't notify anyone, and took the subway all the way home.

On Friday, after work and school, there were many people on the road. Lin Jinyu did 180 times of psychological training for herself on the way, presupposing [-] situations that she might face after returning home, and even thought out her lines... However To his surprise, a word was useless.

Lin Jinyu unlocked the door and entered, only to find that the house was empty and there was no one there.

He wasn't too surprised that his parents were not at home, but Zhang Xinli's ankle looked like that, so where could he go if he wasn't at home?

Neither at home nor at school... Lin Jinyu sat on the sofa and thought about it carefully, then he could only go... But this is too messy, it's not convenient to go to school, but he ran to work part-time?

He remembered that the courier station where Zhang Xinli worked part-time was far away from home, or not close. Lin Jinyu put away her schoolbag and went out to find someone with only her mobile phone and key card.

It was getting dark earlier than before, and Lin Jinyu rushed all the way to the courier station without stopping, and immediately saw the figure sitting on the edge of the shelf, scanning the codes of large and small packages.

Zhang Xinli sat on a pony tie, with a simple low-cut ankle brace on his left foot, scanning the QR codes for those who queued up to pick up their packages one by one. .

He walked very slowly, with a slight limp. Standing behind a tree across the street, Lin Jinyu watched him walk slowly and rummage through the shelves, and watched him occasionally being caught by impatient waiters. The customer urged, and also watched Zhang Xinli nod under the reprimand of the station master, and said sorry to the customers who had waited in line for a long time.

Many times, he wanted to cross the road, pull up Zhang Xinli and leave, wouldn't it be a few hundred dollars in wages? If you don't want it, you don't want it, what's the big deal... But he can't go, that's Zhang Xinli's job.

Lin Jinyu was neither easy to pass nor willing to leave, so he just stood behind the tree and looked at Zhang Xinli quietly.

It was getting dark day by day, the courier station was off duty, the employees got together, they discussed something, and no one went home, talking and laughing, walking along the street to the alley, maybe they invited everyone to have dinner together.

Lin Jinyu got out from behind the tree and followed them all the way, feeling like a perverted stalker.

A bunch of migrant workers couldn't afford an appointment at an international restaurant, so they went into an ordinary small restaurant on the street. They pushed and pushed up to the second floor. Lin Jinyu didn't dare to go in, so she stood at the door and waited.

I'm so crazy, he thought: Either go up and call him directly, or go home and wait, why are you crazy here... But he can't do it, Lin Jinyu is afraid of disturbing him, but also reluctant to stay too far away from him.

There were people coming and going at the entrance of the small restaurant, and the diners came and left. Lin Jinyu was tired from standing, so she sat down on the edge of the steps at the entrance, staring at all kinds of passers-by in a daze.

It was getting dark little by little, his butt was numb from sitting, and he was a little sleepy. I don't know how long it took until the dim street lights at the street corner came on, and Lin Jinyu felt a breeze blowing behind him, four or five big The old men came out of the room puffing, and someone called him tentatively from behind: "Jinyu?"

Lin Jinyu turned her head and saw Zhang Xinli standing behind him, staring at him in surprise.

"You've finally finished eating," Lin Jinyu said, "waiting for you for a long time."

"What are you doing sitting here?" Zhang Xinli couldn't squat down, so he stood up and stretched out his hands to pull him up: "This place is dirty."

Lin Jinyu stood up and opened her mouth to say something, but before she could utter a syllable, she saw a familiar figure behind the door, stuffing something into her bag and saying, "Slow down, you'll fall later."

Shen Lanxi zipped up her bag, tucked her hair behind her ears, walked out quickly, held Zhang Xinli's hand, and said, "Where is your home? Take you home..." She said halfway, following the Zhang Xinli caught sight of Lin Jinyu, and said pleasantly, "Lin Jinyu, why are you here, what a coincidence."

Lin Jinyu was stunned. He looked at Shen Lanxi holding Zhang Xinli's hand and said, "...Yes, it's a coincidence."

Shen Lanxi wore a very beautiful net gauze dress today, her hair was not tied up, but fell naturally on her shoulders, and the small pearly white hair clip was looming in the long and straight hair.

Lin Jinyu withdrew his arm from Zhang Xinli's hand, and imitated him: "Then what are you doing here? Your foot is injured, so let's just lie down properly. Instead of going to school, come here instead."

"I was barely able to walk down today," Zhang Xinli said. "The school is too far away...and it's not convenient. I just transferred to another class and came out today. I need to get used to it. If it's really not close to home, I can go back."

Others asked: "Is this your friend?"

Zhang Xinli replied: "My brother."

I'm not your brother, Lin Jinyu said in her heart.

Shen Lanxi half-armed and half-armed Zhang Xinli down the steps, and said, "Be careful, why are you still running out after this?"

The other men started to smirk, and joked: "Xiao Zhang, look so worried about your little girlfriend, go back and stay with her for the whole night."

Shen Lanxi blushed a little, Zhang Xinli said: "She is not..."

Wherever there are people, there are yellow accents, everyone laughs and doesn't listen to what Zhang Xinli has to say.

Lin Jinyu felt an inexplicable sourness slowly dissipating, filling his entire chest... He envied Shen Lanxi, or all the girls, because when a girl said she liked Zhang Xinli, no one would feel strange.

He said, "Brother, hurry home."

Zhang Xinli withdrew his hand from Shen Lanxi, and said to her: "Thank you for your care, I live with Jinyu, and we will be there after crossing two yellow roads (wide roads). If he can take me back, it will be no trouble." is you."

Shen Lanxi said: "Then be careful yourself."

"See you."

Lin Jinyu also waved goodbye to Shen Lanxi, and went forward to support Zhang Xinli.The two walked along the sidewalk and along the street lights to the station.

Along the way, Lin Jinyu didn't speak.He just silently grabbed Zhang Xinli's arm, helped him get on and off the car, got on the elevator again, and opened the door to go home.

Lin Jinyu helped him to sit on the sofa, poured him a glass of water, then knelt down on one knee, took off his shoes, and loosened the brace.

This lightweight brace has rigid plastic splints on both sides, and it can be worn with shoes, but it is a bit tight and stuffy. Lin Jinyu relieved him, and found a few pillows to cushion his ankles, allowing Zhang Xinli to relax for a while.

Zhang Xinli watched him go about his business without saying a word, and asked, "Jinyu, don't you live on campus, why are you back?"

Lin Jinyu put the brace aside, and saw that Zhang Xinli's rough left ankle was swollen, covered with purple, cyan, and red blood, like a colorful palette, all of which were traces of internal bleeding.

"Students can go home after writing a note on Friday," Lin Jinyu said. "All my roommates have gone back. It's boring to be alone in the dormitory. If you want to go back, you will come back."

Actually no, I just wanted to see you.

Forty-eight hours had passed since Zhang Xinli's sprain. Lin Jinyu got up to get a hot towel and came over, still knelt on one knee, and gave him a hot compress to relieve his bruises: "What about you, why are you with Shen Lanxi?"

"Coincidentally," Zhang Xinli looked at the top of his hair, "I happened to be eating at a restaurant."

"Yes, it's really fate," Lin Jinyu knelt without looking at him: "...she is very beautiful."

"That's right," Zhang Xinli said casually, "Even you keep mentioning her."

"Excellent, beautiful, temperamental, good personality, quite a lot of boys like her..." Lin Jinyu said: "There is probably no one who doesn't like her."

"You like it too?" Zhang Xinli said, "Didn't you say 'I don't take what my brother likes'."

What he was referring to was when he just transferred to another school, Lin Jinyu talked about Xu Zhao liking Shen Lanxi in the classroom, so he didn't have any thoughts about it, but Lin Jinyu himself didn't remember it now.

He thought: You really like her.

Zhang Xinli went on to say: "One day in the future, if you have a girlfriend, no matter how much you like each other, you must be cautious when you get married. If you want to live together for the rest of your life, you have to consider many things. You can go on."

What a nagging, Lin Jinyu thought: It's just talking about her casually, and she actually wants to get married, do you like her that much, just like I like you.

Sometimes Zhang Xinli would naturally talk to Lin Jinyu with some didactic things. Lin Jinyu would find it annoying at first, but after listening to it a lot, he gradually understood that Zhang Xinli actually just wanted him to have a good time.

He is an idealistic person. Others are busy picking up sixpence everywhere, but Lin Jinyu only likes to look at the moon.

Zhang Xinli said this to him, just hoping that he would not get hurt when he looked at the moon.

But this time, Lin Jinyu's words are useless, because he loves someone who can never get married.

Zhang Xinli went on to say: "...Although studying is very stressful now, if you really like it, go tell her. The saddest thing in the world is regret and regret."

Yes, the saddest thing in the world is regret and regret, you will never have a chance to do it again.

Lin Jinyu was in a mess. He wanted to tell Zhang Xinli that he really had someone in his heart. This person was handsome in golf, salty in cooking, and seemed quiet but always treated him very well... He liked this person more than anyone else he had ever had. Everyone who likes it likes it.

Lin Jinyu said, "I..."

Those overflowing loves were backlogged in his heart, as if they were about to overflow his chest.

Zhang Xinli said: "...If she also likes you, don't hide it from the family, it's better..."

Lin Jinyu stood up abruptly, and said, "I won't fall in love, nor will I get married."

Zhang Xinli was stunned, and asked, "Why?"

"Because..." Lin Jinyu said, "Because I..."

The overhead light on the ceiling of the living room was brightly lit, and Zhang Xinli's dark eyes reflected Lin Jinyu's handsome and serious face.

Lin Jinyu said, "I..." At the moment, there were mixed feelings in his heart, including fear and apprehension, as well as desperate madness.

He wanted to speak out, wanted to tell the person in front of him how much he liked him, even if he might not be able to be friends after he finished speaking, Lin Jinyu still wanted him to know.

Zhang Xinli didn't know why, so he just looked at him.

Lin Jinyu suddenly got closer, knelt on the sofa with one knee, stretched out his hand through his armpit, and hugged Zhang Xinli tightly.

Since you can't kiss him, it's good to keep a hug.

Zhang Xinli asked, "...Jinyu?"

"I'm scared..." Lin Jinyu buried her head on his shoulder: "Can I tell you, after I tell you, you should hate me."

Zhang Xinli didn't know why he was acting like this all of a sudden, he was a little at a loss, and finally reached out and patted his back lightly, saying: "Of course you can say... why do I hate you, no." He asked: "Why, Someone bullied you at school?"

"No..." Lin Jinyu thought: If you knew what I was going to say, you would hate me, just like Xu Zhao and Chen Yewei hated Wang Xiu... maybe even more than that.

Lin Jinyu grabbed the clothes on his back and said, "I have a secret that I want to tell you..."

Zhang Xinli didn't speak, just patted him on the back lightly.

Lin Jinyu said, "Actually... I've always been very..."

There was a Didi notification from the door lock at the entrance, it was someone outside who had opened the panel and was about to press fingerprints to open the door... Lin Huainan came back.

Lin Jinyu suddenly woke up from her desperate state of mind, as if she had reined in her galloping horse before falling off a cliff.

What am I doing... crazy?Lin Jinyu thought: How can you say it out? Even the superficial peace can't be maintained if you say it out. Zhang Xinli will be sent away and never come back... If you say it out, everything will be ruined.

He and Zhang Xinli are still hugging each other, which is also wrong, inappropriate, and cannot be seen by his father.

Lin Jinyu let go of Zhang Xinli in an instant, broke free from his arms, and ran into the room in a panic, as if a demon was chasing him.

"Jinyu?" Zhang Xinli was taken aback by his sudden movement, and wanted to drag him back to ask for clarification, but his movements were restricted, and Lin Jinyu ran too fast...the last hand that stretched out didn't catch anything , just brushed against the corner of Lin Jinyu's clothes.