God said I would meet you

The turmoil by the pool subsided for the time being, and bumps and bumps were unavoidable when playing outside. Fortunately, there were no irreversible consequences. After a while of people talking about it, the matter passed away. Everyone was stranger to each other before, and they were afraid that they would go away for a while .

Lin Jinyu and Zhang Xinli were almost drenched. Fortunately, it was a hot summer, so they would not catch a cold, and their clothes dried quickly.

Shen Lanxi took out a tissue and handed them to wipe the water. Lin Jinyu had fully regained consciousness at this time, but her throat was still a little uncomfortable. He didn't want to experience the suffocation feeling of lack of oxygen for the second time in his life.

Zhang Xinli roughly wiped the water from his face and neck, then threw the tissue away, and went to ask about Lin Jinyu's condition.

Lin Jinyu's voice was a little hoarse, and he said, "You littered again."

"Stop talking, shut up." Zhang Xinli frowned: "If you don't look at you for 3 minutes, something will happen to you."

His tone was stern, but his movements of helping Lin Jinyu up were very careful, with a sense of nervousness that he was afraid that he would be broken.

Hmm... Feeling the cautiousness revealed in his movements, Lin Jinyu thought distractedly: Actually, it doesn't seem unacceptable to let me drown a few more times.

A few people took a break, found a sunny place to bask for a while, and then ate something for lunch.Zhang Xinli disapproved of continuing to go forward. This kind of undeveloped scenic spot is really dangerous without a guide. Besides, they have no adults to accompany them. There are only five students, one of whom is a girl.

Lin Jinyu felt that it was nothing, how could life not be a little bit dusty in this world, he just pay more attention next time.

"There will be no next time," Zhang Xinli said, "Do you know how dangerous it was just now? In case something happens to you, broken bones, or bleeding, how can I explain to your father and grandfather?"

Lin Jinyu said: "What are you explaining? I must have asked for my injury. What does it have to do with you...I don't blame you."

"Why don't you understand," Zhang Xinli said, "It was your father who gave me the opportunity to study in Shanghai, and I..."

Again, Lin Jinyu always felt that Zhang Xinli subconsciously felt that he owed their family, so he owed him too.

He still doesn't know much about the ways of the world, so he can't understand why Zhang Xinli is so sensitive.

Lin Jinyu said, "Actually, you..."

Before he could finish his sentence, Zhang Xinli's cell phone rang.With a very regular default ringtone, Lin Jinyu doubted that this guy would not use it for anything other than answering and making calls.

Lin Jinyu kept her mouth shut for the time being and asked Zhang Xinli to answer the phone first.

Zhang Xinli glanced at the caller ID, it was connected, and said, "Hello?"

Lin Jinyu and the others stood aside and waited for him to finish handling the call before deciding whether to continue walking or go back for dinner.

"Yes... tell me," Zhang Xinli said, "What did you say?"

In a few words, his brows were deeply frowned: "Now? Okay... I understand, don't worry, go to Zhang Wenbin first... Yes, I will go back as soon as possible."

Lin Jinyu didn't know what was said on the other side of the phone, but guessed it wouldn't be a good thing.He couldn't help asking: "What?"

"No," Zhang Xinli hung up the phone: "Do you still want to play, go to point 1, and then go back."

Xu Zhao said: "Okay, okay, then hurry up, maybe you can catch up with the hot meal."

Lin Jinyu always felt that the expression on Zhang Xinli's face did not look like "nothing". He wanted to ask a few more questions, but Xu Zhao had already pushed him away.

The rest of the journey went smoothly, surrounded by refreshing streams, fresh air, and beautiful scenery, but Lin Jinyu could tell that Zhang Xinli was absent-minded.

It's not the calm and quiet state shown at the beginning, neither excited nor boring to play with, but really absent-minded... maybe a little restless.

At the end of point 1 is a canal, and there are several forks in the road, some lead to the road, some lead to other villages, and some are for fish!Hitaka's dead end.

Lin Jinyu and the others walked across the canal on a small piece of bamboo raft erected by someone. Everyone was making loud noises. Zhang Xinli suddenly asked Xu Zhao, "What time is the nearest bus back to Hangzhou?"

Xu Zhao bought all the tickets for their trip, so Xu Zhao knows the schedule the most. He said, "It takes a few hours to go out now, and people are full...or you can go out immediately by chartered car, and then you have to see the high-speed rail. What time is it... it depends on the timetable, I don't really remember."

Lin Jinyu asked, "What's wrong with you?"

"I..." Zhang Xinli said, "I have something to do at home."

"Why didn't you say it earlier?" Xu Zhao said, "Why go away if you have something to do, go home now."

Zhang Xinli said: "But it's none of your business, it doesn't matter how long you keep playing."

"Huh? Those who come out together must go together," Xu Zhao said with an expression of disbelief: "You have something to do, how could we drag you to continue playing here."

Lin Jinyu felt that what Xu Zhao said was very reasonable, so he turned around and said, "Okay, let's go, there are many opportunities to play, and it's not too difficult to come back and walk the whole way in the future, so go back now... Are you in a hurry? It's nothing serious Bar?"

Several people went back home one after another, Zhang Xinli said: "I may have to go back to Sichuan."

Actually going back to Sichuan... Lin Jinyu murmured in his heart after such a long journey: What happened?

They returned to their place of residence by the same route, and after lunch at noon, they quickly chartered a car to the station, changed trains, and then caught the high-speed train.

Zhang Xinli didn't continue to explain the situation, but Lin Jinyu could feel that he was anxious.

"The air ticket from Shanghai to Xichang will be tomorrow morning at the earliest," Lin Jinyu helped him look at the ticket on the high-speed rail: "You are leaving now? Why don't you wait a few days until my dad and the others return."

He swallowed half the words without saying anything, not only will it be available until tomorrow morning, but it is also not cheap, nearly 1000 yuan per ticket, and it is still a one-way ticket.

Zhang Xinli withdrew his gaze from the window, and brought his phone over: "Let me take a look."

Lin Jinyu handed it to him: "Look for yourself, you know the password anyway."

Zhang Xinli flipped through it for a while, and said, "No, I'll take the train tonight, and I'll transfer at that time."

This is too troublesome, Lin Jinyu clicked his tongue: It's so far away, and it's still so late, to say something that is not afraid of embarrassment, he is afraid to let him run so far alone.

"What happened to your family? So much so that you have to leave today."

"It's not my house," Zhang Xinli said, "It's my brother's house, his parents... I don't know the details yet, I'll tell you when I have time."

Who is your brother...Lin Jinyu belatedly sketched in her mind the figure of the child who had only met once... Oh, the child who had a good smile and looked a little like Zhang Xinli.

After saying this, Zhang Xinli turned his head to look out the window again, and Lin Jinyu closed his mouth consciously.What else can he persuade, after all, he is his younger brother, a younger brother who is related by blood, and who is assigned from the same household registration book.

They took three or four trains, and it was past seven o'clock when they arrived home. Lin Jinyu bought tickets for him in the car. Zhang Xinli entered the house, and started packing before he even had time to change his shoes.Lin Jinyu watched him rushing around, bringing clothes, documents, and the cash he saved...Although he was in a hurry, he packed everything.

Lin Jinyu leaned against the door and looked at him, asking, "How long are you coming back?"

"I don't know, maybe a week soon." Zhang Xinli stuffed everything that needed to be stuffed, and walked straight to the door. He was already leaning out of the door with half of his body, but turned around at the last moment, and said: "Later Call your parents and say you're home alone right now."

Lin Jinyu nodded and said to him, "Be careful on the road... If you need money, you can tell me."

Zhang Xinli paused and said, "...Okay."

Then, with the sound of the door closing, he really left.

Lin Jinyu went to the bathroom to get a mop and mopped the floor, then lay on the sofa, and began to search for various things related to homosexuality... Down to various small stories from Baidu that I don't know if they are true or false, and various psychological and sexual theories Knowledge, some of which he can't fully understand, but Lin Jinyu is still reading, not letting go of any theory and every word.

He began to know that there are indeed some people in the world who are attracted to the same sex...and that sexual orientation is not limited to homosexuality and heterosexuality, but also bisexuality. Called transgender...blah blah blah.

For Lin Jinyu, this was a brand new and completely unfamiliar world.

All kinds of miscellaneous theories stuffed his brain to explode. Lin Jinyu had seen enough of those obscure sexology entries, and began to search for various forum stories.

At that time, Tieba was still the top king of social software, without overwhelming advertisements, not so many black-box operations, and not so many inexplicable bans.All kinds of pictures, comics, and novels emerge in endlessly in bars that match their respective themes.

There are also some forums where someone will write tree hole posts anonymously, such as when someone suddenly found out that he fell in love with his college roommate, or recalled the ten years he and his boyfriend spent together.

Most of these No.1 posts are depressing in tone, but they allow him to find some comforting empathy. It turns out that he is not the only one in this world who is confused by his own existence. There are too many people who have been like him, Distressed about liking someone, ashamed of being in the world.

Every story has his own shadow, Lin Jinyu has been browsing these information, the text connects the space, breaks the time boundary, the stories of countless people are unfolding before his eyes, Lin Jinyu glimpses these unknown truths from the screen The hesitation, hesitation, shame and self-doubt in the story are just like what he experienced himself.

For the first time, he knew that there would be such unswerving love between the same sex.

Although only a small number of people have reached the end, most of them have been separated for many years due to various internal or external reasons, and may never meet again in this life.They hide themselves and pretend they never loved the one who only lives in memory, but loves that cannot be spoken are still loves, and they have made someone's life shine.

Lin Jinyu thought: Love should be the most beautiful thing in the world... But why is it so painful when we love someone?