God said I would meet you

Wang Xiu's words were like dropping an atomic bomb in Lin Jinyu's mind.

kiss? !Is that what I thought it meant?Is it that dear?Do I have to kiss Zhang Xinli in order to give myself an answer?You'll be beaten until your mother doesn't know you, right?

Wang Xiu had to rush home, and soon after she finished speaking, she slipped away with her schoolbag on her back, leaving Lin Jinyu sitting on the stool alone in a semi-petrified state.

There was still a group of training for the substitutes, but maybe there is not enough time today. Teacher Hu didn't call Lin Jinyu and the others back, and blew the whistle to dismiss them.

Zhang Xinli wiped his sweat and walked back to the sidelines, saying, "Going home?"

Lin Jinyu handed him back his water and said, "Go back." Then she stood up.

Zhang Xinli took a few sips, put the water bottle back on the side of his schoolbag, and asked seemingly unintentionally, "Who was that talking to you just now?"

"What just talked to me..." Lin Jinyu was unresponsive: "Are you talking about Wang Xiu? My friend."

Zhang Xinli carried his schoolbag on his back, motioned him to walk, and said, "You're not from our class, how did you meet?"

It's actually not from our class... how can you tell it's so far away.Lin Jinyu thought to herself: You have been playing just now, and you obviously didn't look at me.

He said: "We met during military training, in the same grade, in the class next door."

Zhang Xinli asked again: "A good relationship?"

Lin Jinyu felt that he asked a little too much today. They obviously didn't get together very often these days, and Zhang Xinli didn't ask him too much.

"Why are you asking so much?"

Zhang Xinli said: "Ask casually, if you don't want to talk about it, forget it."

I didn't want to say it either, and it's not shameful, so there's nothing I can't say.Lin Jinyu said: "The relationship is quite good, what's the matter?"

"nothing."

You obviously asked the question yourself, but now you say it's nothing, it's strange.Lin Jinyu said: "When will I introduce you to each other?"

"No need." Zhang Xinli didn't seem to want to continue this topic very much, he took a few steps quickly, passed Lin Jinyu and walked to the front.

……

Lin's father and Lin's mother are not coming back for dinner today. As soon as Lin Jinyu entered the house, before she took off her shoes, she answered a call from Mrs. Zhou, saying that her youngest son was not in good health again, and now he is accompanying her in the hospital for injections, and the dishes are prepared in advance Well in the fridge, let them warm up and eat by themselves.

Zhang Xinli entered the door one step earlier than him, probably guessing the content of the phone call based on Lin Jinyu's answer, and had already changed his shoes to open the refrigerator.

Lin Jinyu hung up the phone and asked, "Is there any food in the refrigerator?"

Zhang Xinli looked through it and said, "Yes."

Lin Jinyu saw that he was going to take out all the dishes now, and said, "Let me put the schoolbag in for you."

Zhang Xinli didn't look back, just said "Yes".

Lin Jinyu walked over, took the schoolbag on his shoulder and put it back in the room, feeling that he seemed to be speaking indifferently during this time.

It's not the kind of coldness that comes naturally because of anger or something, it's just... coldness.It seems that they have returned to the time when they were not familiar with each other at first, and they restrained themselves to maintain a certain politeness and did not talk too much.

When he came out after putting away his schoolbag, he saw that Zhang Xinli had already lit the fire and was preparing to heat the oil.Next to it was a soup bowl that had just been taken out of the refrigerator.

The oil in the pot squeaked, and Lin Jinyu saw that he might not be able to free his hand for a while, so he lit the soup bowl on the fire, intending to help out as much as he could.

Although a year ago he was still a kitchen rookie who wouldn't even lift an oil bottle upside down, and couldn't peel green onions, but after living with Zhang Xinli for so long, he had learned some basic skills under his influence.

Zhang Xinli concentrated on turning the dishes in the pot without saying anything, not even glancing at Lin Jinyu from the corner of his eye.

This is quite abnormal... In the past, every time Lin Jinyu entered the kitchen, Zhang Xinli acted as if he was facing an enemy. He was afraid that he would burn him or hurt himself, or that he would not help him, so he usually kept telling him. But in recent days, Zhang Xinli has been Don't say much about him.

Did I really offend him somewhere?Lin Jinyu wondered: No, I didn't do anything well, sorry.

He was holding his breath, and turned on the fire with a "bang", and the scorching heat wave hit his face instantly.

Zhang Xinli was attracted by the fire rising from his side, finally turned his head and said, "You don't need to open it so big."

Your old man finally opened his mouth. I thought that unless I set the kitchen on fire, I would be left to fend for myself.Lin Jinyu turned down the heat a little, went to the cupboard and took a soup spoon made of all steel without a wooden handle, opened the lid, stirred it, and put it into the soup bowl.

Zhang Xinli had no choice but to say again: "Don't put the spoon in it, metal conducts heat quickly, and it will be very hot after a while."

"Are you here to cook?" Lin Jinyu saw that he had already heated up several dishes, so he went over to serve the dishes and threw the soup to Zhang Xinli.

Zhang Xinli didn't know why he lost his temper, so he washed the pot and went to look at the soup.

The rice is ready-made, and the dishes can be eaten as soon as they are on the table. Lin Jinyu went to lie on the sofa and wait to eat the ready-made food after cooking. The soup in the pot slowly boiled, steaming.

Sister-in-law Zhou's grandparents were originally from Guangdong, and she also got a little bit of true biography, and she can make good soup. At this moment, half of the kitchen is filled with a strong scent of matsutake chicken soup. Lin Jinyu can't walk after taking a sip.

He put down his cell phone and moved closer to Zhang Xinli, and couldn't help saying, "It smells so good, it's too greedy."

While stirring, Zhang Xinli said, "Simmer for a few hours on a low fire, wouldn't it be fragrant?"

He was standing right in the middle of the soup pot, and Lin Jinyu had to squeeze close to him if he wanted to see the boiling soup in the pot.It was nothing at all, but Zhang Xinli didn't seem very comfortable, his shoulders and arms were intentionally or unintentionally blocking him, putting a distance between himself and Lin Jinyu.

"Give me a taste first," Lin Jinyu said, "It's really delicious."

"In a little while, it will be ready to drink on the table." As Zhang Xinli said, he still took a small spoon, scooped out a spoonful, and said, "Forget it, you can try it first and see if you need to add some salt."

He gave the small spoon to Lin Jinyu, with the intention of letting him drink it by himself... But Lin Jinyu put his shoulders on him, lowered his head, and took a sip directly from his hand.

"Well...it's okay, you can add or not." Lin Jinyu smacked his lips, as if the scene just now was very normal and there was nothing wrong with it, and looked at Zhang Xinli with a calm expression.

In fact, his heart was not without waves, he was just deliberately using this kind of intimate behavior to prove himself: Look, I don’t feel anything, this is normal, no one would think of going anywhere else...Forcibly convince myself" I'm OK".

Compared with his "pretend to be calm", Zhang Xinli froze for a moment.Lin Jinyu took the spoon from him and planned to put it in the sink... The moment his fingers accidentally brushed against his fingertips, Zhang Xinli quickly let go as if he had been electrocuted by a tiny electric current. hand.

Lin Jinyu:?

This small but obvious little movement was so abnormal that he couldn't help noticing it.

He asked, "What are you hiding from?"

Zhang Xinli said, "I didn't hide."

Talking nonsense with eyes open... Lin Jinyu thought: You didn't hide, did a ghost hide?

Zhang Xinli took away Lin Jinyu's hand on his shoulder, and turned to leave.Lin Jinyu felt a strange feeling in his heart. He grabbed Zhang Xinli's elbow and said, "You obviously hid."

"I didn't," Zhang Xinli seemed a little annoyed when he repeatedly grabbed and asked, "Let go."

Fierce... Lin Jinyu pondered: Am I feeling wrong? Why do I have a...feeling of becoming angry after being hit by a...

He didn't let go, Zhang Xinli broke away by himself: "Are you going to eat or not?" He said: "The food is already on the table, eat by yourself if you are hungry." After speaking, he went straight into the room without taking a bowl and filling the rice .

"Hey..." Lin Jinyu was astonished to see that he didn't even plan to eat. He didn't understand why Zhang Xinli seemed to be angry all of a sudden. As for...

He couldn't figure out where Zhang Xin's politeness seemed to be angry, so naturally he couldn't coax him back, he could only watch him go back to the room, and shut the door with a "bang".

baffling.

Lin Jinyu's head was full of question marks, and he became angry when he was dumped for no reason. If you like to eat or not, you will starve to death.

He went to the cupboard to get the rice bowl and chopsticks, sat on the dining table by the fire, and ate his own food.

……

The next day was Saturday, and there was no class. When Lin Jinyu woke up, she found that Zhang Xinli had gone out as usual.

No need to ask, he must have gone to work-study again. Lin Jinyu went to the restaurant to look around, but he didn't see breakfast. In the past, Zhang Xinli would leave a few pan-fried and steamed buns on the dining table.

Really angry?Lin Jinyu thought to herself: Why are you angry?Even if you want to be angry, let me understand it, I can't figure out the situation at all.Then he thought again: Could it be that I am too annoying to talk too much?It's also possible... He remembered that before Zhang Xinli returned to his room last night, he seemed to have babbled a sentence two or three times...

Careful... Lin Jinyu complained that he was too low-tempered, and at the same time was annoyed at how he couldn't wink at that time. He knew that when Zhang Xinli said the first sentence "no", he would shut up, so nothing would happen. .

It's a pity that time cannot be turned back, and no one can give him a definite answer to this question. Lin Jinyu can only guess by himself.

As soon as Zhang Xinli was not at home, the house immediately became deserted... Lin Jinyu randomly picked up two pieces of bread and ate them, dealt with herself, and went to do her homework in the den.

It's so quiet, no one around discusses the topic, no one tells him math problems, and no one scolds him for being lazy... There is no human voice at all. If Lin Jinyu doesn't make a sound, there will be no one in the room.

Being so narrow-minded, it won't be like the last time, and it will be less than half a month, that's too... Do you want to apologize to him when he comes back in the evening... Lin Jinyu struggled while doing homework on the table like a dead fish: But I said What apologies, there is no way to start.

He stayed like this until six o'clock, when Mrs. Zhou came to cook him a meal and left again.

Zhang Xinli usually didn't come back for dinner every Saturday. Lin Jinyu finished dinner by herself and stayed in the living room watching TV, hoping to wait for Zhang Xinli to come back.

But he looked at it for more than half an hour. It was past seven o'clock. It stands to reason that he should be home by this time, but the door was quiet, and there was no movement.

Lin Jinyu started thinking wildly again...why don't you go home...you can't go home even if you are angry...shouldn't be so stingy...don't something happen?No, no, no, in a society ruled by law, human traffickers would not pick seventeen or eighteen-year-old boys if they wanted to abduct them.

He waited for another ten minutes, but still no one came home.Lin Jinyu felt very boring, turned off the TV and went into the room full of resentment, and lay down on the bed.

Love can't come back, I'm used to you.

He played with his mobile phone in a fit of anger, and forgot all the external things... He was so addicted to it for an unknown period of time. When Lin Jinyu looked up again, the neon lights on the building outside the window had already lit up, and the night was pitch black. Such as thick ink.

Lin Jinyu was a little dozed off, so she got up, found her clothes, and went out to take a shower. After taking a shower, she lay down on the bed and played with her mobile phone. When she was sleepy, she went straight to sleep.

With a towel on his shoulder, he opened the door, only to find that it was still pitch black outside. The door of Zhang Xinli's room was open, and there was no light inside.

Haven't come back yet?Nothing really happened, did it?Lin Jinyu started to get a little nervous. He walked into the living room wearing slippers, squinted his eyes and adjusted to the darkness for a while, and found someone lying on the sofa in the living room.

Ah... It's good to be back, I was scared to death, I really thought something happened to this guy on the way... But why didn't you turn on the light?Not night vision.

Lin Jinyu walked over lightly and found Zhang Xinli lying on the sofa with his eyes closed, as if he was sleeping.

Why did you come here instead of going back to your room... Lin Jinyu approached, seeing that he was still awake, she didn't know what kind of mentality she had, so she tiptoed down beside the sofa.

Zhang Xinli still didn't open his eyes, Lin Jinyu moved closer and looked at his face very carefully.

Why does this guy feel so serious when he falls asleep? He is born with a not-so-smooth and pleasing face... Maybe he was too tired to lie down here and fall asleep, Lin Jinyu thought: such a heavy package, lift it up It's really tiring.

Because the lights were not turned on, the entire living room was pitch black, but the moonlight coming in from the glass door of the balcony provided a little light source for the room, and Zhang Xinli's face was faintly reflected.

In fact, Lin Jinyu had never looked at Zhang Xinli's face so closely at such a close distance.

He doesn't like men's looks that are too delicate, and he doesn't like ones that are too dark and rough. It's just that kind of facial features that are masculine and masculine... Zhang Xinli is actually growing in his aesthetic point.

Lin Jinyu looked at his face soaked in the moonlight, and thought... There must be many girls who like him.

After living in Shanghai for less than half a year, Zhang Xinli seems to be a little whiter than when he was in Liangshan. Lin Jinyu gets along with him day and night, so he doesn't feel that much, but when he occasionally listens to Qiao Xi and the others chatting, he can always hear "You are a little white, it's nothing." It’s not good, I’m more handsome than before” and so on.

Is he more handsome than before...he has always been so handsome.Lin Jinyu carefully and little by little from Zhang Xinli's eyebrows to eyes, then to the bridge of the nose and lips... His lips glowed with a cold luster under the moonlight.

Lin Jinyu's heart skipped a beat, thinking of what Wang Xiu said for no reason...

Sometimes, a kiss is worth a thousand dialogues.

At first, he didn't really take this sentence seriously, after all... After all, who would kiss a man just to test himself?It's too weird, I can't even imagine it.

But at this moment, he really started to get nervous. Lin Jinyu began to imagine Zhang Xinli opening his eyes and leaning forward to kiss him... His figure was half hidden in the darkness without lights, and the moonlight was like water, filling his delicate body. on the eyelashes.

Will he be rough, or gentle?Will he kiss calmly and softly as usual, or be the same as all men, will be involuntarily eager and rude, more or less revealing the most primitive desires of male instinct...

Like a demon, Lin Jinyu was involuntarily immersed in his imagination. It might be strange for a man to kiss a man, but he didn't seem to feel any disgust or rejection.

People who stay in the dark for a long time sometimes fall into a strange state. After the real five senses are weakened by the darkness, the imaginary intentions of the brain will become more real. Lin Jinyu bent down slightly following his imagination in an unconscious state.

After he got closer, he could smell the slight smell of cigarettes and alcohol on Zhang Xinli's body. He didn't know where he got it from. After he arrived in Shanghai, he hardly smoked anymore.

... Just when the imagination in Lin Jinyu's brain was approaching the extreme, almost making him short of breath, Zhang Xinli slowly opened his eyes in the moonlight.

Lin Jinyu was startled, and was immediately awakened from that floating, unrealistic fantasy. Before he could fully react, he blurted out under stress: "Are you awake? Why are you sleeping here..."

Zhang Xinli rubbed his face, sat up, and said, "I haven't fallen asleep."

Didn't fall asleep... Lin Jinyu recalled the state of being in a daze just now, feeling like he was alive after a catastrophe, and thought: Fortunately, I didn't...

"Are you uncomfortable?" Lin Jinyu said, "Why did you come back so late?"

"No," Zhang Xinli said, "After get off work, other people dragged the party to dinner. I only drank some beer, didn't smoke, just got dirty."

"Oh, I thought you were kidnapped by human traffickers and taken to a ravine on the way." Lin Jinyu thought: I waited for you for a long time in vain, and made up a lot of things in my head. Car accidents, fights and night shifts are really stupid.

Zhang Xinli sat looking at him and said, "Worried about me? It's my fault. I should call back."

You also know... Lin Jinyu remembered her original plan and decided to implement it as it was.He twitched for a few seconds and said, "Then what, I'm sorry yesterday, I talked too much, I won't ask if you don't have anything to say in the future."

After he finished speaking, he thought in his heart: Hurry up and tell the donkey that you are at fault too, you shouldn't have such a bad temper, let's shake hands and make peace, otherwise you will roll your eyes to the sky.

Lin Jinyu was actually very afraid that Zhang Xinli would not give him face, and if he said something like "you know it" or "well, kneel down", it meant that Zhang Xinli really felt that his talk was annoying, and it was too annoying.

After he finished speaking, he held his breath and waited for a while, but Zhang Xinli still didn't say anything.

Why didn't he talk about the scene, Lin Jinyu was so nervous that he didn't dare to look at Zhang Xinli, thinking: I'm embarrassed when you do this.

Just as his eyes were erratic and he was glancing around, Zhang Xinli suddenly stretched out his hand and gently held Lin Jinyu's cheek.

Lin Jinyu was in a trance for a moment. Following the strength of Zhang Xinli's hand, he turned slightly and looked into Zhang Xinli's eyes.

Zhang Xinli asked Lin Jinyu to look at him, and said, "It's my fault, why are you apologizing?"

Those eyes were exactly the same as the eyes left in Lin Jinyu's memory during the rainy night in Liangshan. They were so quiet and far-reaching, like an ancient well without waves.

"Ah..." Lin Jinyu couldn't move her gaze away, not even a millimeter.He said: "I thought you were so stingy, so I got angry. You didn't leave breakfast, and you deliberately starved me to death."

"I didn't," Zhang Xinli said, "The porridge I cooked today is in that small pot in the kitchen."

Their family seldom drank porridge. Lin Jinyu, who never went into the kitchen alone, was an idiot. He didn't expect to open the small porridge cooking pot in the corner that was rarely used a few times a year... He thought in his heart After being silent for a while, he said: "Also, I... have been struggling with some things recently, so it may be a bit annoying, and it may disturb you..."

Zhang Xinli asked, "What are you struggling with?"

"..." Lin Jinyu said, "You don't want to know."

Zhang Xinli doesn't seem to understand... It's normal not to understand, and it's best never to understand.

Lin Jinyu said before he could ask, "Anyway...sometimes if you want to be alone, you can just say it. I also know that I talk a lot after getting acquainted... There are also a lot of homework problems, and people will inevitably think about themselves. When you're alone...if it's my problems that annoy you, you should take care of them...It's inevitable that you'll disturb each other when you live together, so just...take care of each other. "

Light and shadow pass through the glass door of the balcony and project obliquely onto the floor, making the night darker.Zhang Xinli stared at Lin Jinyu in the frosty moonlight, without speaking for a long time.

Lin Jinyu couldn't understand his gaze.After a long time, Zhang Xinli suddenly touched his face... His rough thumb pads stroked Lin Jinyu's cheek, and then his palm went down and brushed his neck: "It's not your problem," Zhang Xinli said softly: "... ...is my own problem."