their ten years

When I woke up, I was already in the hospital. Only then did I know that I was rescued. The doctor said that I almost died. Fortunately, I was strong enough to survive, and I came back to life after being in a coma for a long time. Crippled, my legs can no longer walk.Seeing how uncomfortable I was, my mother could only cry and said that she and my father would never force me anymore, as long as I was happy.I know that my parents are forced to be like this by me. Seeing my mother cry and say these things to me, I feel both sad and happy, but, I think, I can finally be with you, even though I It's incomplete, but I'm ready. I will try my best to be like a normal person in the future, and I won't drag you down. But, but, the next day after waking up, my mother had a sudden stroke and is still paralyzed in bed. I never My dad learned that the people in the village knew about me somewhere, and they just gossiped around my mother and said a lot of nasty things. My mother couldn't stand it and quarreled with them, and the quarrel ended... …

When I went to see my mother, she was lying on the bed. At that time, she could not speak very much, and her brain structure was damaged, but when she saw me, she became very excited and kept crying. After speaking inarticulately for a long time before finishing a sentence, she said, can I not be with men.Xiao Qi, do you know that I can be locked in a dark room alone without eating or drinking, and I can even die for you, but I really can't help seeing my mother become like that, the only request is I hope I can……

Our family has already sold the supermarket to others because of me, and now my mother has suffered another stroke, and if she wants to recover, it will cost a huge sum of money, and now I have completely become a burden on the family, not only can’t make money, but also spend every day in the hospital Although my dad didn't say anything, he is so old, and now he has to take care of me and my mother. Those relatives in our family also know about my family, and many of them are unwilling to talk to me. I only know that our family has been isolated by relatives because of my affairs, and now we are surrounded by gossip and gossip from the villagers. This kind of thing is really terrible in the countryside. Xiao Qi, you can’t imagine .I'm really afraid to see my dad and mom now, you know, my dad never talked to me or looked at me since my mom had an accident, and my mom kept crying when she saw me, I have never hated myself so much, why am I gay, why am I living in this world!

Xiao Qi, you said that we are human children, how could we be so selfish, if I hadn't insisted on being with you, our family would still be fine, and our life would be rich, and although our parents are not very healthy, they are not seriously ill, but now because of me, Our family has been ruined beyond recognition, do you know how much pain I feel in my heart, I really regret living in this world, I really feel that I am not human, how can I be a son like this, but I can’t Compromise, Xiao Qi, you must not know how much I love you, I really love you very much, I love you so much that I don’t even know where the limit is, you sacrificed so much for me, sometimes I really feel good about you Silly, if I didn't find the post you wrote on Ye Hua's computer at that time, wouldn't you have to wait for me at home in vain for the rest of your life? How could I love you so much, you are so stupid!