if only hug

The feasting and debauchery on the street was even more ethereal in the rain, Wu Xie walked silently with her head shrunk, the rain soaked her clothes and soaked her shoes, the cold crazily bit her skin like a poisonous snake, penetrated her bone marrow, and reached her heart.

Don't want to ride, don't want to stop, just go.

The cold wind mixed with the rain cut across the face, a group of men and women came out of a bar, singing songs with their shoulders crossed, Wu Xie bowed his head and walked around them.Rainy traffic is always so bad, and it is the second rush hour after get off work, and you can hear all kinds of complaints wherever you go.A large number of vehicles were blocked on the road, the driver was smoking a cigarette and stretched out his hand by the window to curse the weather, passers-by put away their umbrellas and squeezed into the narrow bus door, a girl snuggled shyly in her boyfriend's arms to avoid the rain.

There were all kinds of people on the road, but no one noticed this young man covered in water.

Standing alone in the noisy street, Wu Xie looked up at the sky, feeling an unprecedented loneliness.

It is not so much a habit to live with Zhang Qiling, but a kind of balance in his heart, and now this balance has been broken by himself.Wu Xie suddenly hoped that Zhang Qiling would care about him as before, treat him in every possible way, and smile at him gently. He didn't know why Zhang Qiling had changed. Such a self, he hated such a cowardly self, he even wanted to punish himself in exchange for a moment of relief.

When he got home, he was in a mess, almost no part of his body was dry. Mother Wu dragged him into the house angrily, then hurriedly found clothes and urged him to take a bath.

The fever probably hasn't gone away, but the hands and feet can't feel any heat after being soaked in rainwater.Wu Xie changed her clothes and came out of the bathroom. She saw the backpack thrown aside. The backpack was not waterproof. Thinking of something, Wu Xie suddenly stepped forward and unzipped the zipper. When she saw it, her heart sank.He stretched out two fingers to pinch the book, and the book was dripping wet, Wu Xie was annoyed why he didn't remember it earlier.He hurriedly took it to the sink and spread it out with a paper towel to dry it. Regardless of the fact that his hair was still wet, he picked up the hair dryer and started blowing the book, flipping through it page by page. Wu Xie was distracted, and he couldn't help but think of it The person with always kind palms flipping through the pages of this book must have a focused expression, nodding his head slightly, and his wise eyes are calm and bright.

The knock on the door interrupted his thoughts, and Wu Xie regained his senses in a panic.

"Wu Xie, come out to eat," Wu's mother shouted outside the door, "The hair dryer has radiation, and it's almost enough to dry your hair."

Responding with a hoarse voice, rubbing her hair indiscriminately, Wu Xie supported the railing and went downstairs, still feeling weak all over, her feet seemed to be filled with lead.

"What's the matter, Xiaoxie, are you uncomfortable?" Dad Zhang smiled, sitting at the dining table and looking at him.

"No," Wu Xie squeezed out a smile, "Yes, I'm a little tired."

"Senior year is very stressful." Dad Zhang poured him a glass of milk, "Come, have a drink."

"Thank you." Taking it with both hands respectfully, Wu Xie suddenly realized that he had been influenced so much by Zhang Qiling before he knew it. Thinking about half a year ago, he didn't even know what table manners were.

"Family members don't have to be so divided." Father Zhang smiled.

Wu Xie bent his mouth politely, not knowing what to say.

The last mutton soup was brought to the table. Mama Wu clapped her hands and said with a smile, "Okay! The dishes are all served."

"I'll call Qiling." After finishing speaking, Mama Wu took out her mobile phone.

"No need to fight, Wu Xie is hungry, let's eat first." Zhang's father looked at Wu Xie, then turned his head and smiled at Wu's mother. This smile made people uncomfortable, and Wu Xie bowed his head and did not speak.

"You know you're used to him." Mama Wu tapped her phone, but only heard a busy tone.

Mama Wu frowned, "I can't get through, so nothing will happen, right?"

"Don't worry about him, let's eat," Zhang's father picked up a piece of mutton for Wu Xie, "Eat this to warm your body in winter, eat more."

"Thank you." Wu Xie lowered his head and drank the soup without touching the piece of meat.

Mama Wu was still on the phone, but no one answered the phone.

"Xiao Xia, come and eat, we don't have much time." Father Zhang urged.

Putting away the phone, Mama Wu sat down with a complicated expression, not knowing what she was thinking.

Wu Xie took the opportunity to put the mutton in the bowl to her: "Mom, eat more."

Mother Wu sighed: "Qiling, this child is used to being lonely, speaking of it, it is also our dereliction of duty."

"That's his own problem, it's not worth worrying about." Father Zhang continued, with a hint of disdain in his tone.

If the previous ignorance of Zhang Qiling can be understood as unfamiliarity, then Wu Xie can already feel obvious disgust and hostility in Zhang's father's remarks today.The atmosphere was a little dull for a while, the three of them ate without saying a word, Wu Xie had no appetite at all, and his head was not very clear, the words of Zhang's father just kept lingering in his mind, a little disgusting.Wu Xie put down the bowl and chopsticks: "Mom and Dad, eat slowly, I'm tired, so I'll go to bed first."

"Why do you only eat so little?" Wu's mother frowned, put down her bowl and chopsticks, and followed him: "You caught a cold in the rain just now, did you have a cold and a fever?" Then, Wu's mother reached out to touch his forehead.

An inexplicable sense of resistance surged up, Wu Xie blocked her in disgust, and waved her arm away: "You have that time, why don't you call him more."

Mother Wu was stunned at the same place. The hand hanging in the air neither stretched out nor retracted. Wu Xie was also taken aback. The words just blurted out completely without thinking. Come to think of it, she can't be blamed for this matter, but After the words had been spoken, Wu Xie couldn't bear to apologize, so she turned her head and ran upstairs in two steps.

"What's wrong with this child..." Mother Wu murmured cautiously.

"You're tired." Father Zhang smiled.

The rain outside the window was still pattering, making people upset.Lying on the bed, Wu Xie couldn't sleep no matter what, his head hurt like it was about to burst, but his heart was like an overturned five-flavored bottle. There was sadness, loss, anger, and heartache. It was raining so hard, and it was so late. Where can he go?

"Brother..." Mumbling and holding back the address all day, Wu Xie buried his head in the quilt, feeling an inexplicable grievance.He has so many things to say, and he really wants to go straight to kick his door as usual, occupy his bed and pillows, laughing and forcing him to tell himself bad jokes with a look of embarrassment, even though he just read it from the book, Although I have read those books myself.It's a pity, no matter how I shout in my heart, the person I'm thinking of at the moment is not around, and the pillow is half wet, I don't know if it's snot or tears.At the last second before going to sleep, Wu Xie was told rationally that this was just a physiological tearing that occurred when the sweat could not be released during a high fever.

In fact, Zhang Qiling got off work very early. He drove the car around the road not far from home. He didn't know that it would be a painful thing to reject other people's kindness.In the morning, Mama Wu was sincere, and he could see it, and it was because he understood that he had to reject it all the more, and couldn't accept that a person was really nice to him without asking for anything in return.Unacceptable, because he has nothing in return.

The car finally parked on a slope not far from home. From there, you can see the restaurant on the first floor, and you can see the person who has been worried all day. He saw his father smiling kindly, and saw him giving Wu Xie Picking vegetables, I saw Wu Xie picking vegetables for his mother. Under the warm yellow light, it looked like a happy family of three. Outside the house less than 50 meters away, beside the swaying branches, under the faint street lamps, misty rain Miserable, the cold wind is wanton, only he leans quietly on the car seat, staring quietly, so close, so far.

It's not that he didn't hear the vibration of the mobile phone, it's just that he couldn't bear the heavy happiness. It was a place suitable for Wu Xie to stay, not his.

After starting the car and stepping on the accelerator, Zhang Qiling finally drove the car away.

Opening the room that he hadn't been in for more than half a year, a heavy smell of cigarettes came over his face, Zhang Qiling frowned, and there was an idler on the sofa, with his legs crossed, smoking heavily.

"Yo—" Hearing the voice, the man turned his head, grinned, and extended his hand to say hello.

Ignoring his existence, Zhang Qiling went straight to the wine cabinet and opened a can of beer, walked to the sofa to look, but stood still.

"Why don't you sit down?" The man stubbed out his cigarette and said with a smile, "You're so considerate of me, why don't you turn on the lights?"

Ignoring him, Zhang Qiling raised his head to drink alone.

"Hey..." The man smiled nonchalantly, took out a tissue and wiped the soot-stained sofa, "Is that all right?"

Zhang Qiling frowned, and finally sat down: "From next month, the rent will be doubled."

"Hey, hey..." The man got anxious when he heard that, and stood up. After looking at the lights outside the house, he saw clearly that he was wearing a black leather jacket and leather pants, black shoes, and a pair of sunglasses, could they be black glasses? .

"Dumb, that's not what I said. Didn't I just smoke a little bit more? Look at how well-maintained your house is by me, how popular it is!" As he spoke, the black glasses pointed to the pile of food in the corner. The remaining instant noodle box pointed to the compressed biscuit bags and cigarette butts all over the floor. Zhang Qiling raised his eyelids and glanced at him. His black glasses shrugged helplessly, raised his hands in surrender, and said with a smile: "Okay, okay, I'll see you soon." Just clean it, clean it now."

Zhang Qiling was still silent, as if he was used to his aura, he lit another cigarette with his black glasses, leaned closer and said, "You have been moving out for more than half a year, why are you back today?

Zhang Qiling shook his head, his black glasses suddenly became active, and he sat up, pretending to be terrified: "No way, that kid abandoned you?"

Still did not get a response, the black glasses exhaled a puff of smoke rings, thoughtfully: "It seems that your dumb disease is still not cured."

The sound of rain outside the window was endless, there was no lighting equipment in the room, and it was all diffused by a little halo from the side of the road. The two of them were silent, but they didn't feel embarrassed.The black glasses were smoking a cigarette, while Zhang Qiling looked up at the ceiling. From the perspective of others, this scene was really weird.

"Help me find something." It was Zhang Qiling who spoke first.

The black glasses became excited when they heard it: "How much?"

"you drive."

Upon hearing this, the black glasses grinned, and stretched out two fingers: "This number."

Glancing lightly, Zhang Qiling lowered his head and said in a low voice, "The deal is made, but it must be kept secret."

"It has something to do with that kid?" The black glasses flicked the cigarette ash, and glanced at Zhang Qiling: "What you are looking for is definitely not simple."

Zhang Qiling didn't answer, but changed the topic: "I'll pass on the details to you tomorrow, it's not easy, you should pay attention to it yourself."

Hearing that, the black glasses almost fell off the sofa, and moved forward with an exaggerated expression: "Dumb, have you changed your sex?"

Zhang Qiling didn't speak, just lowered his head to drink.

The black glasses laughed inexplicably: "You actually care about people, dumb, it seems that I have to get to know that kid again."

The mobile phone on the table turned on, Zhang Qiling raised his eyelids to sweep it, frowned, hesitated for a moment, and still picked it up.

I don't know what the person on the other side of the phone said, but his usually calm eyes suddenly became tense. Before he finished speaking, Zhang Qiling hung up the phone, quickly opened the door and walked out.

"Mute..." Heixiazi shouted from behind with a sinister smile on his face.

"Hey, brother, I'm fat."

"Has Tianzhen come home?"

"Oh, that's good. I'm just worried about him. I don't know what's going on today. I ran to the rain with a high fever of 40 degrees. I don't take medicine and don't take injections. Fatty, I can't persuade you. You—— "

The fat man gritted his teeth, threw the phone on the bed angrily, and yelled at Wang Meng: "What's the matter with these two brothers, do me a favor and make me feel bad inside and out!" Man, am I easy?"

The pattering rain hit the ground, and a light mist formed a layer of mist. A blue SUV sped past, splashing a lot of water.Driving the car to [-] mph and running wildly on the road, Zhang Qiling took a deep breath, he was extremely remorseful, he shouldn't have left him, he knew he was so sensitive, he shouldn't have.

Whether it is rationality, self-control, or keeping a distance, everything is out of his mind. Now he only wants to go back quickly and see the person who has been thinking about it all day.Zhang Qiling suddenly thought, maybe all his self-righteous principles are useless to Wu Xie.Driving the car on the way home, it was the first time he felt that the road was so long, and it was also the first time that he felt stupid, so stupid to the extreme.

It was almost midnight, and nothing could be heard except the disturbing sound of rain.None of the lights in Nuo Da's house were turned on. Zhang Qiling parked the car and went upstairs quickly. When he reached the door, he stopped suddenly. He stood still and waited for his breathing to calm down. He stretched out his hand and gently opened the door.

The room was very dark, and the windows were not closed tightly. The wind leaked through the gaps, and the curtains were lifted and opened again and again, making the sound of fabric rubbing.There was a person curled up on Nuoda's bed with his back facing the window, his whole body huddled under the quilt, only a few strands of dark hair were exposed at the corners of the quilt, small and ugly.

Pain, the first time I really felt distressed, the pain made my whole heart twitch.As if he was suffocated, even the beating of his heart suddenly weakened. He clenched his fists, suppressed the guilt in his heart, stepped forward to close the window and turned on the air conditioner, and then gently sat on the side of the bed and patted the trembling person comfortingly. .

The person in the quilt didn't sleep soundly, he hummed from time to time, like babbling in a dream, or trembling with teeth colliding.Zhang Qiling bent down and leaned against his face, and finally heard intermittently, it was the voice of speaking.

As soon as he listened, Zhang Qiling froze in place as if struck by lightning. It took him a long time to realize that he heard it right. The person under the quilt only repeated a short word.

"elder brother……"

At that moment, Zhang Qiling felt that he was almost out of control. He leaned over and hugged the person on the bed tightly through the quilt. He had never experienced such strong emotions, joy, distress, excitement, and self-blame... All mixed together, turned into a sweet spring and slowly poured into the dry heart.Really, after living for 20 years, he has never been so grateful for his existence like today. It's great, great, Wu Xie, it's really great to be the existence you need...

Anjiuxi

Unicorn smile 11

"Brother..." Seeing Poker Fing turn around and go upstairs, Wu Xie was completely confused by Monk Zhang Er, but Poker Face is just such a person, he can live in his own world without any interference, it seems that no one can. To keep pace with his brain.

As the old saying goes, it takes a hundred days to hurt one's muscles and bones. Although Wu Xie is not that delicate, but under the intimidation of Zhang Qiling's strong aura, he still recuperated at home for a week. The day before returning to school, Wu Xie Received a call from Fatty.

"Hey, naive, are you feeling better? Have you thought about me, Fat Lord?"

"It's true that I want to beat you up." Wu Xie scolded while tidying up his clothes.

"How do you say it? Look how caring Fatty I am. I brought my family members here to express my condolences to you. Open the door soon."

Wu Xie was taken aback: "What did you say?"

"Open the door, Fatty, I'm at your door."

Wu Xie looked at the window, really, this guy didn't even say hello before he came.

"You wait." After hanging up the phone, Wu Xie went downstairs, before he could see clearly upstairs, he opened the door and found that there were quite a few people coming, Fatty Wang Meng was there, even Yun Cai and Aning came.

"Why don't you say hello, I'll pick you up." He took out slippers and changed them into them, saying this, but Wu Xie was thinking about when Boyoufeng would come back, that guy was most afraid of making noise.

"I said hello, don't you run faster than a rabbit?" Aning smiled strangely, Wu Xie pretended not to hear, and went straight to the kitchen to get a drink: "What do you drink?"

"Hey, naive, your house is really big." Fatty marveled at the three-story duplex structure as soon as he entered the door, pulled Wang Meng behind him and shouted: "See if you see, I will hang out with your boss in the future, and there will be meat to eat." !"

"Whether there is meat or not, I will follow the boss." Wang Meng broke away from the fat man's fat arm.

"Fatty man, I think you haven't been in the house for two days, go on." Wu Xie teased and threw two cans of Coke over.

"A'Ning, Yuncai, what do you drink?" Wu Xie turned around and asked.

"Orange juice," Ah Ning looked at Yun Cai, "Yun Cai, what about you?"

Yun Cai has not spoken since entering the door, and has been hiding behind Aning: "I... the same."

"I'm naive. I'm relieved to see you so lively, Fat Lord. You didn't see you like last week. Tsk tsk tsk, I'm really worried..." The fat man shook his head, sat down on the sofa, and slumped Big pit.

"Boss, Fatty said you were broken in love, is it true or not?" Wang Meng stepped in without knowing.

As soon as Wang Meng's words came out, Yun Cai was obviously taken aback.

Wu Xie got angry when he heard it: "Fatty man, you made rumors about me again, which dog eye of yours saw that I was broken in love, I'm so tall that I haven't even touched a girl's hand—" The two ladies on the sofa voted at the same time. When Wu Xie lost his sight, Wu Xie was taken aback, and quickly changed the subject, "That...I mean...then what, have you had dinner yet?"

With a "puchi", Ah Ning laughed loudly, and patted Yun Cai's shoulder: "I said, don't you feel relieved now?"

Yun Cai didn't speak, she lowered her head and blushed.

The fat man was so nervous that he didn't notice what was wrong with Aning's words, but Wu Xie turned around and kicked him in embarrassment, "Fatty man, if you talk nonsense in the future, I won't help you in the exam."

"I'm not talking nonsense, and you didn't look at you that day, with a frowning face and a weak, melancholy young man who just lost his love..." The fat man muttered, took a sip of Coke, and frowned, "This Coke is really not enough Smell, do you have any beer?"

Wu Xie thought about it, then ran into the kitchen and began to pick it up: "It seems to be there, I'll look for it for you."

"We're not adults yet, so we can't drink." Wang Meng said with a serious face. As soon as he finished speaking, he received contemptuous looks from everyone in the audience. The fat man grabbed Wang Meng and said, "Come on, classmate Wang. For the sake of the surname Wang, let me teach you what it means to be brave in innovation and dare to break through..."

"Stop making trouble, fat man," Wu Xie stood up and scratched his head as if he had glanced at him. "The refrigerator is gone, but I remember I bought it last time..."

"It must have been drunk." The fat man took out a pack of playing cards from nowhere, and called the other three to start hoeing the ground.

"Are you really here to visit?" Wu Xie looked at the person on the sofa angrily, and sighed, "Forget it, you are uncles, I'll go shopping and bring some vegetables back by the way."

"Okay, buy more duck necks." The fat man shouted and began to shuffle the cards.

"Boss, I want to eat chicken legs."

"Skimmed beef, thank you," Aning touched a card and pushed the cloud next to him, "Hurry up."

"Uh... I don't need it." Yun Cai smiled awkwardly.

"Why don't you say you want to eat sea cucumber and shark's fin..." Wu Xie muttered and changed his shoes, and just reached out to open the door, but the door was pulled open from the outside. Wu Xie was taken aback, "Brother, you are back..."