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"Voluntary?" Yuan Zhiming's tone was involuntarily rapid, and he asked, "Are you voluntary like my father? Isn't that deception?"

Li Yikai looked at him, and then said: "The two of them were in a relationship back then."

"Who?" Yuan Zhiming didn't realize it for a while, and it took a few seconds before he turned around: "My mother, and Gu Changfeng?"

"What nonsense are you talking about..." He retorted subconsciously, and suddenly stopped when he saw Li Yikai's expression, he knew that Li Yikai was not joking,

For a long time, my mother has been like a distant perfect dream. In Yuan Zhiming's world, she hangs in the sky and has nothing to do with everything in the world.

But no one is without a past, no one is without blemishes, and no one can erase these pasts because of death.

Yuan Mingyan was born beautiful, with a high artistic talent, and a proud but innocent personality.

Even though she had many suitors on campus, she just fell in love with the talented young male teacher who was eight years older than herself and had a slightly melancholy temperament.

The teacher-student relationship can never be on the stage at any time, and Yuan Songqing was unaware of it at the time, until later, he also listened to Yuan Mingyan tell all about it——

Gu Changfeng and Yuan Mingyan have been secretly in love for three years, and they have never concealed their ambitions and plans, and his unorthodox but pioneering artistic ideas have also hit Yuan Mingyan's heart time and time again.

But as Qiu He said, for such a person who is eager to succeed, his time and energy are far from keeping up with the plan. He has to deal with school work, socialize in the circle, and constantly think about unprecedented ideas... Opportunities and time never come. He has yet to complete a complete set of works.

Perhaps from his own point of view, this can be regarded as some kind of underappreciated talent.So almost without hesitation, Yuan Mingyan took the initiative to become his right and left hand in the most difficult time.

She was already good at ink and wash, and under Gu Changfeng's guidance, her style became closer to his. She concealed her name, and almost all of the most basic but important pictures were made by her.

……

Listening to Li Yikai's narration in a low voice, Yuan Zhiming's thoughts were chaotic and complicated.

He vaguely understood what Li Yikai said not long ago, stroked those pens and inks that had been separated for many years, and after digesting for a long time, he said: "Then... did she regret it later?"

"Regret", Li Yikai replied, "It is Aunt Yuan's own wish not to mention her ink and wash freehand paintings anymore."

With that series of works, Gu Changfeng's fame and social value increased dramatically, but the more he earned, the less happy Yuan Mingyan became. It wasn't until the initial excitement was exhausted that she felt a kind of emptiness covered by clouds of smoke.

According to what she said to Yuan Songqing——her love, her talent, and even her personality seem to be hidden behind the scenes and cannot see the light of day.

Gu Changfeng is not bad to her, but he is resolutely unwilling to expose this relationship; she wants to continue to paint her own works, but Gu Changfeng is worried that her emergence will become a hidden danger for her.

She asked Gu Changfeng what was he?How should I complete my life?

Gu Changfeng only said that he would always take care of her, be with her, and share all his achievements with her in the future.

But Yuan Mingyan didn't understand until later that it was not sharing, it was kidnapping in the name of love, condescending charity.

……

Yuan Zhiming's chest seemed to be filled with air from a blower, filled with countless indignation and heartache.He took a few deep breaths before he asked, "Is this true? Did my dad tell you?

Li Yikai's hand was always covering his. At this time, he used some strength to hold it firmly, and replied: "Yes, Uncle Yuan said...she gradually suffered from depression. In the last period, she tried to I wrote a letter or recorded it to you, but every time, I didn't have the energy to sustain it... So she told Uncle Yuan intermittently about these things."

A mist of mist appeared before Yuan Zhiming's eyes, and he quickly wiped it away to prevent it from falling on the paintings, and gritted his teeth, "I thought her depression was because of giving birth to me..."

"But", he sniffed, frowned and shook his head again and again, saying one by one: "Why? But she and Gu Changfeng have already broken up and are with my father, why is it still so serious? Yes Didn't something happen again? If she has nothing to do with him, she doesn't need to continue to cover herself..."

"Did Gu Changfeng threaten her with something like he threatened my dad?" He raised his head and asked abruptly.

Li Yikai looked at him tenderly, but Yuan Zhiming couldn't figure out the emotion in his eyes.

He raised his hand to gently wipe away Yuan Zhiming's tears, rested his thumb on his face, and stroked it carefully twice, as if he was gently touching his own treasure.This kind of action also brought a kind of stability, which gradually calmed down Yuan Zhiming's mood.

"Yuan Zhiming, remember what I told you?" Li Yikai said, "No matter what happens, you are you, I love you, Uncle Yuan loves you, and your mother tried her best to save you when she was struggling the most. Next words, she loves you too."

Yuan Zhiming listened, but his mind was a little dazed. He nodded with red eyes, "I know."

"Then what I'll tell you next, no matter how you look at it or think about it, don't doubt it."

"Okay." Yuan Zhiming said softly.

Seeing a person's mask clearly doesn't happen instantly, let alone Yuan Mingyan who is in love. She has probably experienced a long period of suffering and repetition, and she has never made up her mind.

"Gu Changfeng is very good at manipulating people's hearts, making people find reasons only from himself, and picking himself up clean, it's not uncommon to be deceived by him," Yuan Zhiming said angrily.

Li Yikai was noncommittal, and continued: "Until Uncle Yuan and the others helped Gu Changfeng's ghostwriting scandal spread, and Gu Changfeng used work assignments as a threat to make them admit that he had spread the rumors. She knew about it, and it was only then that she completely I have seen Gu Changfeng clearly."

"Then she found Uncle Yuan and told him her experience. She hoped that Uncle Yuan would not compromise. If she really wanted to confront her, she could testify for him."

"But my dad still didn't do that." Yuan Zhiming said in a muffled voice.

"He faltered and even prepared another manuscript, but didn't send it. Because then something happened."

Li Yikai looked at Yuan Zhiming, and it took a lot of courage to say the following words to him: "During the graduation medical examination, your mother was found to be pregnant."

"She..." Yuan Zhiming's brain refused to process this sentence, he was in a daze for a while, and then he just asked, "Then what should she do?"

"She wanted to kill the child, but she couldn't bear to go to the hospital." Li Yikai held his hand tightly, trying his best to describe all this calmly: "And soon, the medical report was sent to the school, and the school asked her to tell the truth about the child. Father's identity, otherwise graduation eligibility will be revoked."

Rumors about unmarried college girls who conceive first, no matter what era they are in, will spread quietly and quickly in the jungle like hidden sparks.

Yuan Mingyan thought about tearing everything apart, but she could hurt herself, but she didn't want her child to face openly broken parents, a mother who was burdened with all kinds of stigma, and a morally flawed father.

She refused to reveal the identity of the child's father, but the consequence of this was that the speculation became more outrageous and the rumors became more ugly.

As for Gu Changfeng, when the rumors almost pervaded the entire campus, he never stood up from the beginning to the end.His silence already explained everything, and the proud and staunch Yuan Mingyan would never bow his head to him again.

"In the end, she left a letter to Uncle Yuan, which recorded all the creative process between her and Gu Changfeng in detail, which can be used as Uncle Yuan's testimony." Li Yikai's Adam's apple rolled, and said: "She wants to commit suicide, with children together."

Yuan Zhiming's face was pale, he opened his mouth, but made no sound.

Li Yikai's eyes never left him from the beginning to the end, he took all of Yuan Zhiming's expressions into his heart, and then continued: "But Uncle Yuan stopped him, and he persuaded her to let go of these things, as if forgetting all these things, like that person As if it never existed, start over."

"Then he proposed to her and went to the school leaders, saying that he was the father of the child."

The old hospital bell thumped to tell it was the hour.

The echo reverberated in the waiting room, and Yuan Zhiming's brain seemed to be blank for a whole century. He was calm and almost numb, his eyes were out of focus, but he still asked mechanically: "And then?"

Li Yikai felt like a cruel executioner, tearing up the bloodiest part of the truth for Yuan Zhiming to see.

But he is also like a doctor who cut open and disemboweled him. Only by completely eradicating this chronic disease inherited from the previous generation can Yuan Zhiming live in the world clearly.

"The two of them got married after graduation. Aunt Yuan worked hard to create a normal family and life for this child."

"That child is very cute and pure." Li Yikai looked into Yuan Zhiming's eyes. "He is not disturbed by anything, like an angel who can cleanse everything. His mother also named him. I hope he is like Between the bright moon and the pines, it is clear and transparent, and stands proudly."

"Aunt Yuan also said that when he grows up, he still has to tell him about the past. Because the chaos and darkness in the world will not disappear, and only by knowing what happened and where you come from can you live consciously and independently. Have the courage and the ability to face it.”

Yuan Zhiming didn't blink his eyes, the sun shone into those eyes, the light shattered in the brown pupils, and then condensed into a bright light.

Li Yikai leaned over, gently put a kiss on those eyes, and said against his cheek: "He also grew up kind, upright, and free according to her wishes, romantic and innocent, smart and simple."

Yuan Zhiming staggered a little, and smiled softly: "If it's so good, why does she still have to leave?"

"Yuan Zhiming."

"I know," Yuan Zhiming interrupted, "I know what you mean, but I, I'm very..."

He is confused.Even though there is a sea god needle standing in the bottom of my heart, when the tsunami hits suddenly, the earth-shaking storm blows, and even the compass of life deviates.

Yuan Zhiming was like a sailor who couldn't open his eyes in the wind and rain. He couldn't stand still in such a situation, and he couldn't guarantee that the ship would not deviate from its course.

"Can I?" Yuan Zhiming dodged indiscriminately, "I want to be alone for a while."

Li Yikai restrained his urge to hug him tightly, stepped back a little, and said softly: "Okay, I'll wait for you at the door of the operating room."