The pilot's boyfriend said I broke him

During the rest of the New Year's Day holiday, Chang Geng locked himself at home without taking a step out, as if he was in confinement, without even opening the curtains.

After the vacation, he dragged his flight case and flew around the world. After completing a mission, he locked himself at home again.

It's been like this for half a month.

On this day, he got off the flight and went home according to his usual rhythm.The elevator opened, and he walked to the door of his house with his body memory, and was startled by the people squatting at the door.

It's Xu Yan.

Having not seen Xu Yan for so long, Chang Geng blocked his breath for a moment.He opened his mouth to speak, but his throat was not very good, so he cleared his throat and said, "Why are you here? Why don't you open the door yourself."

Xu Yan has the password of Chang Geng's house, and also recorded his fingerprints, even if he forgets the password, he can use his fingerprints to enter.Chang Geng really couldn't figure out why he had to squat at the door.

When Xu Yan saw him coming back, he stood up staggeringly. It could be seen that he had been squatting for a long time, and his legs were numb.Chang Geng hurried over to help him up.

Seeing that Xu Yan drooped his head and said nothing, Chang Geng didn't intend to continue discussing with him in the corridor, so he opened the door and walked in.There was no sound of Xu Yan coming in behind him, Chang Geng turned his head and saw Xu Yan standing at the door hesitating.

So Chang Geng asked: "Why don't you come in?"

Xu Yan raised his head, with a flash of surprise in his eyes, he entered the door and changed his shoes.

Chang Geng put down the suitcase, took off his coat, untied his tie, and went to the bathroom to wash his hands.After washing his hands, he went into the bedroom while unbuttoning his clothes, intending to take the clothes to take a bath.

Before he took off his clothes, the corners of his clothes were grabbed by someone. Xu Yan quietly followed him into the bedroom, grabbed his clothes corners timidly, and asked in a very low voice and helplessly, "Do you still want me?"

If there is an instrument that can show the state of the heart, you can definitely see Chang Geng's heart is clenched together, and there is a faint pain.

His Xu Yan at this moment is like a puppy abandoned by its owner, with red eyes begging the owner to take him home.

Chang Geng waved his hand and closed the closet door with a bang, and stretched out his hand to pull Xu Yan into his arms and hold him tightly, his voice choked up: "What are you talking about? Why do I not want you? Why do you think I will not want you. I like you so much, Xu Yan, I love you, I love you so much that my heart hurts. How could I not want you. "

Hearing this, Xu Yan's suppressed tears for half a month finally burst, and wept bitterly in Chang Geng's arms.

God knows how he got here for half a month.

Chang Geng seemed to have disappeared from his world, and there was no news of him after returning from the hot spring hotel.He didn't respond to text messages, and he didn't answer calls.Xu Yan was going crazy.

Every day when I got home, I hid in bed to heal my wounds, but the wounds became more and more healed day after day.In the end, he had to rely on willpower to force himself to concentrate on going to work, after which he collapsed.

He only had one thought, Chang Geng detested him because of his abnormality.

This realization almost made him collapse.

Today is the third day in a row that he came to Chang Geng's door to squat and wait for him. Even if he couldn't see anyone, even if Chang Geng was not at home, he could still be closer to him, which was better than licking his wounds at home.Even though he squatted until his legs lost feeling every time, he didn't dare to try to open the door by himself. He was afraid that the result of the attempt would be that Chang Geng changed the password, and it would be an ironclad fact that he was abandoned.

Seeing Chang Geng coming out of the elevator just now, Xu Yan was both happy and scared. He was afraid that Chang Geng would open his mouth and give him a final sentence, then he would really lose all hope.

Unexpectedly, Chang Geng let him in and asked him why he didn't open the door himself.

Xu Yan was really happy after he came in, but he was still very scared, and in the end he couldn't help it, dragging Chang Geng's clothes and asking him if he wanted to be himself.

So humble, as long as Chang Geng said he wanted him, he would do anything.

As a result, Chang Geng confessed to him with a trembling voice, which finally released Xu Yan's tense nerves, and he no longer needed to hide his tears.

Chang Geng held Xu Yan's face in his hands, tears streaming down his face.He pulled out a tissue from the bedside table and wiped it gently for him.Chang Geng knew that all words are too pale now, and the fear and anxiety in Xu Yan's heart are all shown on his face.

Chang Geng was halfway through undressing, and now his shirt was open, revealing his strong muscles. On his chest were the tears from Xu Yan's crying just now.

Chang Geng wiped the corners of his eyes and cheeks for him, changed to a piece of paper and wiped his nose again, and said with a wry smile, "I've caught up with kindergarten children."

Xu Yan quietly let him wipe it off, his eyes were still red, but he stopped crying.

Chang Geng took off the clothes on his body, took a piece of home clothes from the closet, and put them on. He changed the clothes very quickly, worried that Xu Yan would be nervous when he saw himself naked.

Xu Yan sat on the sofa, his eyes followed Chang Geng who was walking up and down the room, watching him wring out the towel and coming over to wipe his face; watching him go to boil water, and poured a glass of water into his hand Seeing him squatting at his feet, looking up at himself; watching him lean forward, kiss his lips and then leave.

Chang Geng raised his head and touched his face, the emotions in his eyes were too complicated for Xu Yan to understand.

"During this time, I don't know how to face you. When I think of what I have done to you, I want to beat myself to death. You send me a message, I don't know how to reply, you give me I dare not answer the phone. Xu Yan, I used to swear so firmly that I would protect you, but I actually..." Chang Geng was a little choked up while speaking.

Xu Yan's hand covered the hand that was rubbing against his own face, with tears in his eyes.

Chang Geng bit his lip: "It won't happen in the future. Don't be afraid, it won't happen in the future, I promise you."

Xu Yan looked at Chang Geng, who admitted his mistake like a child, and was so distressed that he couldn't speak. He held Chang Geng's head tightly in his arms, and cried, "It's my fault, it's all my fault. You Why do you have to apologize to me? I don't want your apology." He lifted Chang Geng's head from his arms and kissed it, and he didn't care about it, and said in a crying voice, "I will get better, look, you See, I'm much better now, don't I? I can accept kisses, hugs, and I can definitely accept other things."

Xu Yan was a little anxious, he casually picked up Chang Geng's hand and touched himself, muttering, "Try a few more times, maybe just a few more times."

Chang Geng's complexion changed, Xu Yan's eagerness to hand himself over made him feel a twinge of pain in his heart, what did he do, what did he force people into.He is nothing short of a beast.

Chang Geng sat on the sofa, hugged him to his lap, put his arms around him, and patted his back lightly as he used to comfort him to calm him down.He coaxed and said: "Okay, okay, we will try later, and we will try later. Don't be afraid, don't worry, we will be fine. Be good, don't be afraid."

Chang Geng's appeasement has a kind of magical power to Xu Yan, it can appease an agitated person into a docile kitten.

Xu Yan hugged Chang Geng's neck, put his head on his shoulder, and stopped crying.

Chang Geng fetched water in the bathtub, tested the temperature of the water, and wanted Xu Yan to take a dip in it.

If it was before, he would usually jokingly say that we should wash together.Every time it was Xu Yan who pushed him out with a blushing face.

Today he didn't dare to make such a joke, but asked gently if he needed help, Xu Yan looked into his eyes and didn't speak.

Chang Geng felt that Xu Yan really understood his weakness, as long as he looked at him with this kind of eyes, he could ask him for the stars or the moon.

He smiled wryly, grabbed Xu Yan's shoulder and turned him around, patted his back lightly and said, "Go in quickly. Take a bath and sleep well."

He really spoke too early, Xu Yan fell asleep while sitting in the bathtub before he finished the bath.

After Xu Yan entered the bathroom, Chang Geng stood at the door for a long time, stretched out his hand and gently touched the door, then turned around and went to pack his suitcase.

Throwing the dirty clothes into the washing machine, changing the sheets, taking out Xu Yan's change of clothes and the clothes to be worn for work tomorrow, until the washing machine finished washing the clothes, the bathroom door was still not opened.

Xu Yan rarely soaked in the bath for so long, so he was a little worried.But he didn't dare to rush in rashly, so he called several times at the door, but unexpectedly there was no response.Only then did he open the door, and saw Xu Yan who had fallen asleep with his head hanging on the edge of the bathtub.

When he saw someone just now, his hands and feet were cold, and Xu Yan's coma in the hotel gave him a psychological shadow.When he approached slowly with breath and heartbeat, and found that he was actually sleeping, he let out a big breath.

Chang Geng carried him out with a bath towel to dry him off, and put his clothes on, but Xu Yan didn't even wake up.Chang Geng felt very uncomfortable. Ever since he met Xu Yan, his eyes were always red, so he never noticed the bruises under his eyes.

Xu Yan probably didn't sleep well during this time, the dark circles under his eyes were already so serious, he didn't realize until now.

Xu Yan slept until dawn. When he woke up, he saw the emptiness around him. His heart sank. He quickly got out of bed and ran out barefoot.Running to the living room, seeing Chang Geng coming out of the kitchen with breakfast, he gasped uncontrollably.

Seeing him getting up, Chang Geng just wanted to say good morning with a smile, but his eyes caught his feet, and the smile froze on his face. He hugged him on the sofa, covered his feet, and said with some reproach: "If you don't wear shoes in winter, what should you do if you catch a cold?"

It's true that the temperature outside is relatively low, but Chang Geng turned on the heater at home, and it won't be cold.Normally, he didn't need it when he was alone at home. When Xu Yan came over, he usually turned on the heater for fear of freezing people.Even so, the floor was still cold, no wonder he was so nervous all of a sudden.

Xu Yan couldn't bear to see Chang Geng taking care of her so carefully, pulled him up, and whispered, "I'm fine, don't worry. Don't always treat me like a little girl."

Chang Geng glared at him: "You are worse than a little girl. If you wake up in the morning without wearing a coat or shoes, if I see you next time, I will beat you up."

He spoke viciously. Xu Yan didn't seem to be afraid at all. He put his arms around his arm and said aggrievedly, "I just woke up and found that you weren't there. I thought what happened last night was a dream."

Chang Geng suddenly realized, sighed and patted him on the back, and after a while he said: "Okay, I won't talk about you anymore. Go wash and change clothes and come out to have breakfast, or you will be late."