Paranoid actor he wants to have me

It should be past eight o'clock in the evening, and it was already seven o'clock when Li Qingzhuo went out to the restaurant.The lights in the room were turned on, but there was no light outside the glass wall opposite the entrance, Li Qingzhuo suspected that the moonlight was gone when he was walking on the path in the yard just now.They were all sucked in by the Shen in Sheng Xu's eyes.

Li Qingzhuo blinked, raised his hand to hold Sheng Xu's hand covering his mouth, squeezed his five knuckles into Sheng Xu's fingers, interlocked his fingers, and smiled flatteringly: "...I think we still have to Discuss and discuss."

Sheng Xu didn't say a word, his lips were tightly pursed, and only his eyes were as terrifying as a tsunami about to erupt in a deep whirlpool, obviously unmoved.He stood on the edge of the huge vortex, maintaining the last sliver of reason to stand still.Li Qingzhuo wants to pull back this shred of reason, to coax back.

"I made a mistake, Teacher Sheng. Give me a chance to explain, and ask for leniency." He leaned close to kiss Sheng Xu's lips without saying a word, forcing him to respond and possess himself.

The porch behind the door is like a short and slow passage, the light on the ceiling can illuminate it, but it cannot go in directly.Soon, Li Qingzhuo tasted blood in his mouth, like rust.Sheng Xu's uninterlocked hand squeezed Li Qingzhuo's chin fiercely, and pressed him against the wall heavily, his movements were chaotic and extremely fierce.

"……Um."

Li Qingzhuo couldn't hold back his groaning, the strength of the interlocking hand became heavier and tighter.Not long after, Sheng Xu let go of his chin, moved Li Qingzhuo viciously, and turned Li Qingzhuo viciously. Li Qingzhuo subconsciously grasped the wall with both hands, and looked back, but his mouth was bitten fiercely again.He could only respond with an awkward posture, not daring to delay for a second.

I'm afraid that if I slow down, it will cause Sheng Xu's more violent emotional rebound.

"Going to the company?" Sheng Xu pinched Li Qingzhuo's cheek, his voice hoarse, "Qi Tiantu is looking for you?"

Li Qingzhuo swallowed the bloody taste in his mouth, and his voice was also hoarse: "Mr. Sheng, I was really wrong. I didn't mean to lie to you... um."

Sheng Xu went to pick off his clothes, but Li Qingzhuo didn't resist, and even actively cooperated.

"Are you happy to meet your ex-boyfriend?"

"Unhappy." Li Qingzhuo replied immediately, taking a breath at the same time.The five fingers of the palm against the wall are slightly curled up, and the fingertips are turning white.

Sheng Xu pinched his waist: "Would you like to lie to me?"

"No." The corner of Li Qingzhuo's mouth raised a smile. Although he was not very good-looking, he still turned his head and tried to kiss Sheng Xu, coaxing, "Okay, don't be angry, don't be sad, I really know I was wrong."

Sheng Xu avoided his kiss, his eyes were full of shocking madness and stubbornness.He doesn't seem to be able to hear Li Qingzhuo's good words, and he is only caught up in everything he imagined, but his assumptions make him afraid and despair, and he can only feel his own warmth with actions over and over again.

"Do you really have to lock you up to be obedient?" He asked in a hoarse voice.

Li Qingzhuo shook his head.He finally couldn't keep turning his head anymore, his forehead was pressed against the wall, and his eyelashes trembled irregularly.But the uncertainty and pleading in Sheng Xu's voice were still so obvious, his heart was bleeding along with it.

Sheng Xu asked him: "What will you do to stay honestly by my side?"

"Huh? Li Xiyun?"

"...I am here." Li Qingzhuo responded, almost in a breathless voice, but very firm, "I am here. Sheng Xu."

"You're always like this, it always makes me feel like I didn't catch you at all." Sheng Xu turned Li Qingzhuo's face over again, and his eyes met.This time, Li Qingzhuo clearly saw the mist on Sheng Xu's eyeballs, mixed with the red eye sockets, it was so pitiful and so painful.

Li Qingzhuo immediately reached out to hold Sheng Xu's face, and pressed his forehead against his side face, and the cold sweat on his forehead followed: "No, I didn't... You caught me, you caught me."

"It's not your problem. It's my fault. I made a mistake. I should tell you in advance, discuss with you, and get your consent."

Sheng Xu didn't speak, just looked at him, as if tears mixed with blood slipped out of his eyes.The scalding liquid hit Li Qingzhuo's shoulder and went down his back, and he felt that every place he passed was scalded by that small drop of water.Unrecognizable.

"...It's hard to score... Sheng Xu, don't do this." Li Qingzhuo struggled and turned around, facing him, and said in a trembling voice, "I love you. You don't need to shut it down, you don't need to shut it down, I told you to let me go You lock, voluntary, voluntary, don't do this..."

Sheng Xu said, "You are always like this."

"There will be no next time." Li Qingzhuo felt cold, and his upper and lower teeth touched together uncontrollably, making a clucking sound, which was so shocking, "There will be no next time, I promise."

"I can't catch you." Sheng Xu's tears of hatred were still falling, every drop hit Li Qingzhuo's heart like a boulder, making him breathless, making him blame himself for what he was doing today .

Sheng Xu's uneasiness suddenly magnified today, completely different from the previous depression, he released himself presumptuously, and showed Li Qingzhuo all the deep grief, even though they were ugly and riddled with holes.Stripping all the ugliness to show the person you love the most scares him, but it's a hundred times, a thousand times better than losing him.

"I just can't see you being with Chang Jingyi again. If you say a word, I feel that you are going to leave." Sheng Xu burst into tears, but did not blink once, causing it to become redder and redder. The more it hurts, "I know it's sick, but I just can't bear it! I don't know what to do!——Why are you lying to me?"

"Is there anything you have to say to him alone that you have to keep from me?"

Li Qingzhuo couldn't stand on his legs, and his body slid down. Sheng Xu followed his movements and trapped Li Qingzhuo in his arms.Li Qingzhuo knelt on the carpet, pushed Sheng Xu down, sat on him by himself, pecked Sheng Xu's lips lightly and randomly, and said over and over again: "I know, I know Sheng Xu...I really know , I made a mistake, I made you sad, don't be sad, okay?"

"I didn't mean to lie to you, I was just afraid that you would be angry and sad, that's why..." Li Qingzhuo took a deep breath and continued to explain, "I just went to tell him clearly, I didn't say anything else, I won't do it in the future, I It has nothing to do with him... I just don't want to make you sad, I didn't expect it to be the opposite and make you even more sad, I'm sorry."

The last time I saw Sheng Xu crying was when he was in his twenties, because of Chang Jingyi.His immature face was full of bewilderment, and he asked Li Qingzhuo stubbornly, "Don't you like me?" Li Qingzhuo was in unbearable pain, but he couldn't take a step forward.After many years, Sheng Xu cried again, and seemed to have absorbed all the darkness in the world. He was entangled in the thorn bushes in the abyss, unable to break free and unable to escape. The only bare hand was struggling to grasp Live in the corner of Li Qingzhuo's clothes.The force should not be too light, or it will not be able to grasp, and it should not be too heavy, or it will destroy something.

He weighed the pros and cons and practiced that strength every day, driving himself to a dead end, and finally bared his fangs to bite on a thorny thorn. Before grabbing someone, he was stabbed bloody.

"Li Xiyun, I..." Sheng Xu pressed his forehead against Li Qingzhuo's shoulder, "I... I'm too scared, don't force me."

He said, "Don't force me..."

Li Qingzhuo closed his eyes fiercely, hugged him with warm body temperature, stroked his hair, and said hoarsely: "What I said is true, you don't need to lock me up, I beg you to lock me up, you Trust me."

Sheng Xu didn't speak.

The cell phone rang suddenly and frantically in the living room, in the pile of clothes next to the two of them.It was Li Qingzhuo's cell phone.But at this time, no one looked away.Li Qingzhuo still stroked Sheng Xu's head again and again, gently and patiently, calming him down and bringing him back to his senses.

After a long tens of seconds, the ringtone of the mobile phone finally died down, and there seemed to be no tendency to call again.The living room was unbelievably quiet, except for the unsteady breathing of the two of them one after another, and a little indistinct sound of water.

Li Qingzhuo pressed his waist down, his brows were lightly furrowed and then relaxed, he didn't need him to say anything until Sheng Xu spoke, and he said again: "Little Sheng Xu, I've never done it. I've lost my life once, and I worked so hard to come back, not to repeat the same mistakes in my previous life, but now for you, for you, Sheng Xu."

"You can be angry with me, but don't doubt me, I won't leave," Li Qingzhuo took a deep breath, tried to calm down, kissed Sheng Xu's hair, and begged again, "I won't leave, trust me .”

He smiled and said, "I shouldn't be so unforgivable, right? Don't give me the death penalty...how pitiful I am."

Sheng Xuben's unsteady breathing suddenly trembled a little, he didn't know how to control the shackles because of his emotional ups and downs, Li Qingzhuo's hands loosened a little, and embraced him with moderate strength and posture: "Xi Yun. "

"En." Li Qingzhuo responded immediately, and continued to work hard, "Xiao Shengxu, kid... I will pay you back what I owe you little by little. Don't be sad. If I don't owe you, I will pay you back little by little. ,Do not be afraid."

Sheng Xu Yongli Qingzhuo's strength tightened a little.

Sensing that he seemed to be stabilizing gradually, Li Qingzhuo raised Sheng Xu's face, and carefully wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes with trembling fingertips, with a hoarse voice: "Don't cry anymore, I really hurt to death. Distressed."

The one who answered him was Sheng Xu's teardrops falling from the corners of his eyes, growing so big, all his emotions seemed to be given to the person in front of him.Li Qingzhuo made him happy, he was happy, Li Qingzhuo made him sad, he was sad.He knows that he should give freedom to his partner and not interfere with his private life too much, but Sheng Xu did not judge himself wrongly. Ten years have smoothed his edges and corners, and also polished new edges and corners. He has become the same as before. Quite different, like a pathological paranoid.He wanted to correct it, but it was too painful to correct.Worrying about gains and losses almost drove him crazy, and today's deception also created a critical point of explosion.

Li Qingzhuo kissed Sheng Xu's mouth, and said softly, "What am I doing here? I'm here to make amends. So don't be afraid, I will always be here."

Sheng Xu raised his eyes and looked at him, the terrifying emotion in his eyes had dissipated like an ebbing tide, leaving a fragility behind.

"Xiyun."

"Ah."

Sheng Xu whispered: "Can you use your whole life to redeem your sin...don't use your life to redeem."

Fate... Li Qingzhuo understood Sheng Xu's meaning in the blink of an eye. He breathed slightly, approached Sheng Xu's face, and said, "I just want to use my whole life to redeem."

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