kiss Me

It happened a long time ago, and Lin Wu actually can’t remember it clearly—he has very little impression of the words that the girl shouted hysterically. Once realized that Qin Shu turned a blind eye to his love for a reason, the reason was not liking others, not disliking him, but not understanding love at all, "an indifferent iron tree who doesn't understand human feelings".

It was a good night for him, and it was the beginning of the wild growth and flowering of the red locust tree in his heart.

But he couldn't say these words, so he sat on Qin Shu's lap and slowly ate biscuit sticks, describing his memories in an ambiguous way: "She said you were cold-blooded, indifferent, and different from what you appeared on the surface...Actually Even if she doesn't tell me, I will know sooner or later."

The young man's shoulder bones are thin and thin, and the clean lines supported by the cotton material give people a soft and harmless feeling.

Qin Shu raised his eyes to look at the shoulder of the person on his body, put his fingers up from the side of the neck, and squeezed it gently, as if comforting a cat that was rarely quiet, with a gentle tone: "She's right."

Although the so-called indifference, boredom and lack of empathy he is accused of are only a small part of his many bad qualities.

That was the night he and that Lucile “broke up”—perhaps not quite rightly speaking, but rather as the expiration of the agreement, or the termination of the deal due to a default by one party.

The appearance of the blue-eyed girl crying with red eyes is somewhat similar to that of Lin Wu, but the appearance of grabbing his collar and complaining is a hysteria that he has never seen before - accusing him of not being enlightened and not caring, why is he in love with his lover? It was only when the festival was about to pass that I thought of sending a bunch of sunflowers, and my favorite was obviously roses.

When the bouquet fell to the ground, the ribbons fell apart. He watched those bright yellow petals fall into the weeds and mud. In fact, for a moment, he had the idea of ​​stopping here, thinking that love is really complicated and unreasonable. , it seems that it shouldn't have appeared in his life from the very beginning.

But now Lin Wu is leaning on him to eat biscuit sticks, with a little street light in his eyes, quietly waiting for him to speak—to confess or quibble—and this makes him have an unreasonable impulse again. , I want to go to the flower shop where the school is about to close to buy something to make the children happy.

"I've always wanted to explain the ins and outs of this incident to you, but at that time you didn't seem to want to hear it, and would change the subject every time..." He looked into Lin Wu's blue eyes, feeling that he was confessing to a sea Confession, "Now, are you willing to listen?"

Lin Wu thought that his brother might have misunderstood something, and he was simply not interested at the time, and felt that the past that neither of them wanted to mention was fine if he didn't mention it, it was not to the point of being jealous and losing his temper - but he was capturing the apology in his words At that time, he gave up the idea of ​​explaining, put on a tangled look, and nodded after a few seconds, saying "reluctantly", then listen.

Qin Shu heard his intention to win favor, so he reached out and rubbed his hair, and then recounted the beginning of his past with "Miss Lucile" in a gentle and objective way like a report - about the one day he never met. Hearing rumors that he was dating her, he found that the place where he lived was stuffed with love letters from the mailbox to the crack of the door. The content was more romantic than the love novels he had read. Lucile stopped and stuffed a paper bag full of bread and sugar...

"One thing I have to admit is that she is really similar to you, especially she is keen on stalking and peeping, and after being explicitly rejected..." The young man smiled helplessly, and messed up the hair on his body A little, "If I'm not used to you doing those things to me, I might call the police when I open the curtain and see her in the garden."

Lin Wu had only vague guesses about these things before, knowing that Qin Shu would associate with people because he liked them, but he didn't expect that there was such a thing, so he was silent for a moment, and said dryly: "Brother, I heard that the other day She cried so hard, and thought you were a bit too much, and wanted to teach you a few words for girls...Forget it, I believe now that you said you couldn't refuse because she is like me, it is really hard to refuse. "

Instead, he misinterpreted his sentence as ambiguous——Qin Shu glanced at the time to make sure that they would not miss the gate because they were chatting about "ex-girlfriend", and then continued: "This is only one aspect... To be honest, you should have guessed that I don’t like to make friends with people or establish long-term stable relationships. This is a bit tiring for me and doesn’t make much sense. If it’s just being harassed, I should choose to endure it for a while, Wait for the other party's interest to fade or simply wait until graduation."

"The reason why it turned out that way in the end is because she told me that she made a bet with many people. If she fails to catch me within a month—well, she will lose a lot and lose face."

"I later learned that those words were made up for me as part of her many plans... but at least for me at the time, when things evolved from relationship issues to need and give, it was much easier .”

"So I found her and promised to give her a 'chance to make me fall in love with her' as she wished. On the contrary, I told her that I didn't understand what love is, and I would use this relationship as a sample for learning and experimentation. "——The ending is self-evident. After all, Lucile couldn't bear his incomprehension and indifference, and ended this ridiculous transaction with a hysterical accusation.

When he said these words, he had actually made concessions quietly. If Lin Wu wanted to get to the bottom of it, he was also ready to confess that he was an indifferent and indifferent monster, far from what he seemed on the surface. So gentle and perfect—although after hearing Lucile's accusation that night, Lin Wu probably already knew about it.

However, Lin Wu unexpectedly didn't say anything, didn't ask him why he had nothing to do to understand love, and didn't complain about his description of a relationship as an inorganic cold material.

So much so that he had to pause for a moment, and with a kind of trepidation almost guilty, asked cautiously: "Xiao Wu, do you feel very disappointed?"

Lin Wu was suffering from jet lag, and the day went on and on for another day. At this time, he leaned on him and listened to him telling a story, wrapped in his clear and pleasant voice. In fact, he was a little sleepy. Hearing this, he rubbed against him like a small animal. shoulders before straightening up to meet his gaze, making their exchange more of an adult conversation than a bedtime story.

"No, I knew it a long time ago." When people are sleepy, they don't have so many thoughts about going around, and they speak from the bottom of their hearts. "But, brother, I'm a little curious about something..."

Qin Shu gave a soft "hmm" and tasted some nervousness during the final project defense for no reason: "Say it."

"That's right... When you said that you were with her to comprehend the true meaning of love, did you explain by the way, if you really comprehend it and know how to fall in love, what will happen in the end——Brother, with you His character, he should be able to explain all possible outcomes clearly? Risk warnings and the like..."

The laziness of the young man's voice is so soft, and the ending prolongs vaguely, mixed with the sweet aroma of strawberries and white chocolate between his lips and teeth, he appears harmless and pure, and hides that little cunning little trap properly , as if bewitched, he obediently answered his questions.

This time Qin Shu was silent for a long time, feeling that he was probably a little abnormal today, so he was driven by unreasonable guilt, saying these words is tantamount to self-reporting - as an elder brother, he is not obliged to do anything for the sake of interacting with other people I feel sorry for my younger brother. As a boyfriend who has an agreement with less than three months left, it seems that he shouldn't do anything more. He confessed so many truths that he didn't need to confess, as if he was really working hard to solve some historical problems, so as to eliminate feelings. The hidden dangers on the road allow this relationship to continue steadily.

——but he still chose to tell the truth.

"I said, even if one day I can invest in a relationship like a normal person, I already have a more satisfactory object, and I can't give her a satisfactory result. Please think again."

Lin Wu was stunned, and his exhausted thoughts were driven hard to convert his robotic speech into human words, and it took a few seconds to understand what he meant: "Brother, you..."

It's strange, but it's not a big deal, Qin Shu just likes him - he already knew it.

Why did his heartbeat still become so fast when he actually heard this sentence, making him almost unable to distinguish whether it was a dream or reality, and he even began to unconsciously collect some evidence to prove the authenticity of this moment.

For example, the strawberry white chocolate flavored Pocky is really sweet, so sweet that it is a bit cloying. The wind descends from the corner of the last staircase, wrapped in a rich scent of sweet-scented osmanthus, and the street lights are dim warm yellow...

There is no proof, everything is too absurd and too beautiful, like a false dream.

Qin Shu raised his eyes quietly, and through the dim light, he saw some bright emotions bursting out of his eyes, like surprise and joy, thinking that he seemed to have seen this scene before.

Maybe it's a romance movie, a happy scene where one's wish is fulfilled—it's a little strange to him, but if Lin Wu is happy, he thinks it's not bad.

The unexpected kiss fell on the corner of his mouth in the next second, which was more like a deliberate proof of connection than flirting.The boy's soft lips gently opened and closed, the wound on his lip was scabbed, and it was itchy when rubbed against the skin.

"Brother, you used to mind me sitting on you without saying hello..." The words he said were nonsensical, like gibberish soaked in smiles, scattered skittles, "and rarely without names Call me, let alone say these..."

The mask is still taken off, and there is a very indifferent and [-]% liking for me hidden underneath, right? "