My baby tamer can't be the leader

At this time, I suddenly felt a little grateful for my foresight... I mean, if I didn't step on shoes with higher heels, at least at this moment I would definitely be more passive in terms of momentum, and Dazai is definitely the kind of first-class An expert at watching people order food, maybe he will go too far than he does now.

Damn, isn't it so tall!

The soft touch from the pulse of my self kept coming, which made me stare at him for a long time with complicated emotions.

Anyway, since he's going all out like this, I want... Shall I give it a try?

With this thought in mind, I struggled my wrist, held his cheek with my backhand, and slowly leaned towards him as he obediently wrapped his arms around my shoulders and held the back of my neck.

Time seems to be at a standstill at this moment, and I can barely judge the speed of my thinking based on the number of heartbeats... But at this moment, there is no way to use such a violent heartbeat as a reference.

Looking at it this way, the young man whose cheek was held by me does have a flawless face... Although we have been together since we were young, it is precisely because of this that I seldom take a closer look at his appearance, let alone this It's so close that even the breath is almost blended together.

The soft black hair rubbed against the back of my hand, and the autumn leaf-colored eyes that lined it became more and more clear, like a diamond with exquisite cuts and impeccable cuts, all the light flows in it, making it impossible to move open eyes.

Okay, it's so difficult, do you really want to kiss me? !

I always feel that something terrible will happen after a kiss! !

But it's such a time, if you don't kiss him, he will really make a fuss, absolutely!

In fact, at a certain moment in the middle of the journey, I wanted to retreat, but at the moment when my movements slowed down, his hand that was just gently resting on the back of my neck exerted a slight force, and with those clear eyes The color of the pupils in his eyes seemed a little chaotic...

This guy is actually surprisingly strong, but when the development of things is under control, he will pretend to give up control and make himself look innocent... But I'm actually quite fond of this...

That's what it is, a normal desire to conquer!It's normal!Really normal!

Until the other party's tall nose bridge is close at hand, and the light-colored lips are slowly touching... It is warm.

Until this time, I was still a little dazed. After all, most of Dazai's exposed skin was actually cold. At this time, I was a little surprised.

The touch of the lip peaks is incredibly soft, maybe because I didn't use too much force, the too soft touch brought waves of itch that made me want to bite my lips subconsciously, but just as I was still At the moment when the last thread could be completely pasted, the sound of other people's footsteps suddenly came from behind me.

"?!" I suddenly realized that Dazai and I were in the corridor where someone might come over at any time, and I subconsciously wanted to step back and end the half-way kiss, but Dazai held it down without hesitation. On the back of my neck, I opened the door beside me with one hand, turned around, and brought me into the shooting range behind me again.

The originally free hand embraced my waist again, and his strength was much stronger than before, which made me lose my footing, and took half a step back, leaning against the door panel behind me, With a look of shock in my pupils, I raised my hand and dropped the door lock.

However, even at this moment, even though my heart is beating extremely fast, my thinking is still calm.

I weighed the possible problems of this change almost coldly... wait, it seems that nothing has changed, right? ?Could it be that Dazai could be more clingy? ?Can't you? ?

It's just that after I realized that his hand on my waist had moved down slowly for a while, I grabbed his wrist in a very speechless manner, and patted his shoulder, hoping that he would realize that I would not open my mouth Yes... this level is already too much!

As a result, he rubbed against me as if he couldn't control it, held my cheek with a slightly slack expression, and kissed from the center of my eyebrows to the end of my eyes all the way.

"...Will you forgive me?" He asked me with almost reverent eyes, "If I have been hiding important things from you...Can you forgive me?"

"What's the matter?" I tried to turn my head away uncomfortably, but he pushed it back.

Dazai seemed to be stuck for a while inexplicably.

His long eyelashes trembled slightly, as if he was in some kind of ideological struggle with himself, and he answered with difficulty, "Don't promise me now, don't now... Please, Xiaoqi, if it's because of that reason If I leave it...it will be more difficult for me to accept than...the past."

"If it is doomed to lose from the very beginning, then it is better not to start... Obviously I think so."

But the guy who kept saying 'don't promise me' held me tighter, and I had to put my elbows on his chest to keep the atmosphere from being so... overheated.

What kind of feeling is the so-called distraction?

Or is it that I am abnormally calm at this moment because the stimulus threshold has collapsed?

Thinking about it this way, it seems a little natural... Ah, or to put it another way, out of natural cowardice, caution and awareness of self-protection, before I was sure that the so-called 'advance' would not bring me harm... I can't put my heart completely on others.

...Yeah, cowardice.

So, am I actually scared?

Even a relationship where friends leave enough room for each other will have friction, let alone a true lover?

For people like me, I see more sadness after loss than the joy of getting it, so...

Although I have always upheld the ego of destroying the things I like, even if they are destroyed, I still can't be so ruthless when dealing with people who value me more.

More than ten years... How many decades are there in a person's life? The so-called self-consolation of being friends even after breaking up seems too vague, especially in terms of the self-esteem of the two of us. I think this is really just wishful thinking, no, it's just a dream.

Because this emotion is already heavy enough, if I use it as a weight to exchange for another uncertain emotion...it will be really difficult.

I am afraid of losing before I get it... On this point, I am surprisingly able to understand Dazai's feelings, so rather than being dissatisfied with his attitude, what I feel at this moment is a kind of soft emotion that empathizes with me.

...What kind of mood do you have to approach me?

Won't you be afraid?Even knowing that people like me only know how to love themselves?Know that I am timid and have many worries?Know that I'm arrogant and self-respecting, stubborn and egotistical?

Because of this, at this moment, I want to go over and kiss him even more...and I did.

Those eyes like autumn leaves subconsciously showed a little daze when I wrapped my arms around his neck, as if he hadn't expected such a reaction from me at all, especially when he was gently pressed against him by me. When I pressed my lips, it was completely different from the forceful aura just now. I even felt that if I hadn't been holding his neck right now, he would have jumped back and fled directly.

...It's outrageous, how did this person's brain circuit grow!

……

Although the lover in front of him rarely showed an incomparably gentle expression... But Dazai, who knows people's hearts, is extremely painful and happy to understand how touched she is at this moment-how angry she will be in the future!

After all, all her touches are based on the point that "the future is unpredictable, and therefore the courage required to take this step is really eye-catching".

However, for him... all the future is already doomed, and all he has to do is push the boat along with the flow.

In such an established future, the only thing he can't control is the other party's emotions.

It's not that I can't, but I don't want to.

He can use intrigue to get everything he wants, but he doesn't want to use this method to win the heart of his lover... that would be too sad.

If he had reached that level, then he would no longer be him. So, what exactly is the other party falling in love with?

Is 'Dazai Osamu' itself?

No, that's just a body named 'Dazai Osamu'... Is this the so-called paradox?

Even so, at this time, he doesn't really want to clarify this point. If the sharp knife hanging above his neck will eventually fall, then it will be later... a little later, and let him linger a little longer for a while.

……

Although I'm a little surprised why Dazai's expression that is almost weeping at this moment comes from... Seriously, this is too outrageous, it's obviously this guy who pushed me in and locked the door, right? ?As a result, now that he is showing me this expression, if someone sees it, he will definitely think that I am forcing him! !

It's just that although I said I kissed him... it's actually more appropriate to use a peck?After all, rather than out of love, this kind of relationship is more purely touching.

And I don't want to open my mouth at all?The door here is still locked, especially since Dazai's arm around my waist never showed any intention of letting go...it's really much more than it needs to be, and I still have a little So some vigilance is good!

What's more, I don't know what the relationship between the two of us is at this moment. He just said that I shouldn't agree to him now...

Wait a minute, I always feel like he is changing the concept secretly? ?Isn't this the first opportunity to block my rejection?This is the so-called as long as I refuse fast enough, you can't refuse me again? ?

However, it would be so uneasy... What is he hiding?

Curiously, I cupped his cheeks, close to his lips, imitating his usual coaxing tone, and asked him softly, "What are you hiding? Tell me?"

Dazai looked at me with a tangled expression, half relieved and half painfully refusing, "Xiaoqi, it's too much...it's not enough now."

I curled my lips, and let go of my hand in his unusually unwilling eyes.

There's no way, if he doesn't want to ask questions like this, I really don't have the confidence to force them out...or rather, I don't have the confidence to ask them without losing my integrity!Forget it, I still understand the truth that if you don’t die, you won’t die...

"Then anyway, let's go back first."