My baby tamer can't be the leader

I was still wondering why the thing in my hand felt so familiar, Dazai let go of his hand, and let me hold the cold thing like a round metal piece.

Wait, what is this bad feeling about...

He let go so quickly that it was in stark contrast to the hesitant look before, which made me realize something was wrong as a conditioned reflex, and instinctively wanted to push him back... But maybe this is the reason Falling in his arms again?That is to say, I predicted your prediction...

It's hard to decide!

hateful!If only I had his ability to read people!

Although this intuition that there are always people who want to harm me reminds me that there is a big problem with this thing in my hand, but I frowned and thought about it, and I really can't figure out what the problem is... It can't be a miniature bomb, right? ?

Dazai lowered his eyes obediently this time, without any intention of urging me. The fine black hair around his ears fell slightly with the movement of his face sideways, revealing the small bluetooth earphones beside his ears... My His eyes suddenly stopped.

Wait for me? !I seem to remember what the hell this might be? !

As the expression on my face gradually cracked, Dazai chuckled and winked at me, "The one you took earlier is from the same series as this one?"

"How do you know??" I was completely torn apart, to the extent that I seemed to have been there when Moses divided the sea, and I was so fucking the Red Sea itself.

"No, I, I didn't?!"

"Ah, it's okay." He even showed some regret, "I thought you would let Xiaoqi on me, it's a little pity."

"What a shame, I'm not a pervert?!" I said in shock, "This is a crime!"

"Huh?" Dazai tilted his head, frowned his beautiful eyebrows, and let out a voice that symbolized doubt, as if he was genuinely confused, "But isn't it natural to want to know everything about the person you care about? ?”

"What misunderstanding do you have about the definition of 'everything'? Everything a normal person says definitely does not include every sentence!" The instrument in my hand gradually became hot, and I grabbed the hem of his suit vest, intending to Put this thing back into his pocket, but he grabbed the wrist with his backhand.

"But I do." He said casually.

Those iris-colored pupils met my gaze directly, and the darkening pupils were like bottomless mud filled with a little bit of obscurity and aggression. He bit the words one by one, " I want to know everything about you."

No need brother!Really unnecessary!This level is no longer creepy and can be simply described!

Although I always felt that there was a problem with his mental state before, I really never thought it would be to this extent? ?

At this time, the strong idea of ​​wanting to give him a physical correction in my heart and the weird relief of "at least he said it frankly instead of doing it secretly" wrestled in my mind, which made me suddenly I don't know what expression to put on to face him.

"Why?" I was really a little confused about what this guy was thinking, and I didn't bother to think about his twists and turns of his brain circuit, so I asked directly.

"Because the nearest Tokyo may be... very dangerous, I want to pay attention to you all the time." As if aware of my displeasure, he quickly regained his aggressive look, his long eyelashes drooping slightly, He returned to his original cold demeanor, as if the guy who just said the violent words was not him at all.

"Then why don't you just say it..." I was completely speechless now, and I was very puzzled, "Is that why you want me to be angry with you??"

"Well, it doesn't count?" Dazai tilted his head and answered me with an innocent face, "As long as it's the emotion you have for me, I can do it?"

His words are a little hard to understand, but I can understand the meaning he wants to express... It's like sometimes the two parties who are lovers don't really care about the value of the gift, but just care about whether the other party has such a heart. 'Emotion' is also a very important expression.

For example, if it wasn't Dazai who said this to me just now, I would have called the police so early, and it would be a waste of my time, see you in the police station!

It's just that this guy's desire to control is really too much, and he can't tell the difference between the desire to protect and the desire to control!

"This kind of protection is definitely not in the normal range, okay?" I broke away from his hand and stuffed the small iron piece back into his pocket, "Are you a fairy who needs to suck other people's emotions to survive, be normal , please, what exactly do you need to believe that I won't abandon you? Give me an accurate number... don't go too far!"

"But, that's true?" He seemed to be a little stunned, and answered me with a slightly ethereal voice, "Both the FBI and the Japanese police will use this method to protect important informants?"

"Don't tell me that I'm playing Mission: Impossible, okay?" I helplessly supported my forehead, "I'm just an ordinary female college student..."

Dazai didn't answer me.

He pursed his lips, slowly raised his hand to touch my cheek, and met my gaze, with a rare stubborn expression on his handsome face, "Human life is a very fragile thing, as long as you don't Pay attention, it will pass away like gravel in your hands..."

"Until I met you, I had nothing... At that time, I would always think, what is the difference between me and the reeds on the roadside? Ha, even this annoying life force is the same... It was like a nightmare Even if I just glimpsed a momentary silhouette of yesterday, I will wake up in a dream." He leaned forward and pressed my forehead, his voice was so calm that it was almost eerie, "I must never lose you, even if it is just imagined Also... don't be afraid of me, don't hate me, don't leave me, you are more important to me than everything else in this world."

"I'm willing to fall for you." Dazai continued in a seductive tone, "It doesn't matter if I become someone like Dostoevsky, I have already... abandoned everything, but now I On the contrary, I understand his thoughts a little bit, what irony? If you want, just like Dostoevsky - you can be my god, I will regard you as my whole belief, you are me The fire of my soul, you are my everything."

When he said this, he was not so much expressing his admiration as he was reciting prayers... No matter what this distorted expression was, it was impossible for him to be something as pure as a 'confession'.

And, what about the price?

Such questions flashed through my mind so quickly that there were hardly any afterimages left.

Like a poisonous snake hissing out a snake letter in the Garden of Eden, the sticky and cold feeling slowly overflowed from his sight, just as he held my cheek as if he couldn't restrain himself, As if I was sure that I would not run away, I approached my lips uncompromisingly, and when my lips and teeth were only a few pages thick, I sighed.

His movements froze in place.

I raised my hand, put the pulp of my index finger against Dazai's lips, and smiled, "Don't hold your breath, I'm not angry."

"I think you should know clearly that this kind of relationship is not normal... What do I mean to you?" I said unhurriedly, "I don't really understand the so-called 'love', then This kind of spirit of giving everything for others is really incomprehensible to me anyway, and it makes me feel awed... Even so, do you still want to ask me for this kind of emotion that is completely inconsistent with the difficulty of obtaining and the value? Even if I don't know how to love others, but how to love myself?"

"As I promised you, if you just want a friend, a spiritual support, then I will always be here." I looked frankly at the stream of white color, "But if it is love , I don't know... Is this kind of illusory thing really worth betting on? I can be a qualified friend but not necessarily a qualified lover, so why do you have to move forward? If you just want to solve that need , then I really don't hate your approach, so can you understand?"

After a short, suffocating silence, Dazai suddenly laughed uncontrollably... I have never seen him so groggy, and because of this, he was a little at a loss for a while.

"'Love'...? That kind of thing is too extravagant for someone like me." His eyes were lingering and tired to the extreme, but the words he uttered made people feel chills all over his body, "That kind of Needs don't matter at all, I just want to be the one who impresses you the most, no matter when and where, as long as you recall the past, then I hope that every inch of your memory will have me, of course, I also Hope that part is all good memories, but if..."

His lips gently rubbed against my fingertips inch by inch, without a hint of intimacy in his expression, even pious... until finally he deliberately slipped into my palm.

The soft touch made my hair stand on end, as if being watched by a natural enemy, he said, "If you can't do it, then fall with me."

"The other one I chose to escape, ha, yes, he can indeed escape, after all, he has much more than me, what a hateful guy... But, he can do it, I can do it, he What can’t be done—I can do it too.”

In the end, Dazai gently kissed my pulse, his eyes were clear and light, as if we were just chatting about today's weather at the moment, calm and calm... Only from those bottomless eyes At the bottom of the kite eyes, one can vaguely glimpse a trace of violently surging emotions.

"So, yeah, I'm willing to put my all on it and that's my answer."