My baby tamer can't be the leader

'Do you know... what the consequences of saying that are? 'For a moment, Dazai really wanted to ask such a question.

Love is indeed the most erratic, hysterical, and capricious thing, but the eyes of the woman whose shoulders he pressed in front of him are clear, except for a few natural surprises caused by straightforward remarks, there is no trace of aggressiveness, nor any other expectations.

Yes, she didn't expect to get a response from the beginning, that's why the expression on her face was so surprised when he held her shoulder.

It's really... so cunning, after realizing his dodge, he began to show "importance" to him without hesitation, because he felt that he was retreating, and he was afraid that this relationship would change, so in order to make each other last longer If you stop here, will you want to make up for the non-existent 'vacancy'?

If it must be changed, it is up to her to change... What arrogance.

However, she also made a slight mistake in judgment...

Those feelings that were poured into the 'gap' that never existed were almost unbearable for him who had fully received all of them.

He lowered his eyes slightly, staring at the pair of clear pupils who were looking at him in the same way, as if he was bewitched, he slowly bent down.

Until the moment when the breath was about to be completely intertwined, Dazai almost struggled and slowly raised his hand, covered her soft lips with his fingertips, and kissed lightly on the position of his ring finger.

Ah, even at this time...he didn't want her to resist too much.

A stone's throw away.

This time, she didn't pull his hand away.

On the contrary, it was the other party's eyes that widened suddenly, and the movement that she subconsciously wanted to retreat at that moment but was pressed down by him...

Ah, sure enough.

Dazai's eyes dimmed for a moment, and he didn't back away immediately, but felt Xia Qi come back to his senses, and after taking a light breath, he made a little distance.

The hand that was originally covering her lips also adjusted its position, and instead held the other's cheek.

He rarely showed such an aggressive look in front of the other party, but at this moment even he finally couldn't control his behavior.

This has nothing to do with impulsiveness, but a kind of... extremely sober loss of control.

What he wants is far more than this, and the current distance can never satisfy him... After all, no matter who 'Dazai Osamu' is, he is not a person who is considerate and willing to be the beauty of others.

"Why are you surprised?" He asked softly, his voice was still as usual and elegant, as if he was not the one who pressed her shoulder forcefully just now and was touching her cheek with a slight overstep.

At this level... even if he was to deceive himself and say some hypocritical excuses, he couldn't do it anymore.

Even if the final outcome is that the neck bone is broken by the angry lover himself, in the short moment before closing his eyes, if he can see the moment when the other party breaks the bottom line he has always insisted on for him, those cold eyes will surely Will it be breathtakingly beautiful?

Either she accepts him completely, or let her finish him with her own hands. From this moment on, he will only accept these two endings.

Wanting to protect you from evil, but also wanting to drag you into the mud... Can you understand such feelings?

Since I'm your preferred one, I'll do what I say.

Dazai waited patiently for a moment, and after the astonishment on the other party's face faded, he repeated the question just now.

The person whose eyes were dodging turned upside down in an instant. Xia Qi's eyes wandered in mid-air for a moment, then she suddenly turned her head to avoid his hand, with a bit of deliberate surprise and almost insignificant gratitude, "Wait a minute, it seemed like Someone is filming us..."

Watching her jumping off the chair with sloppy movements, she even swayed her body for a while, then straightened her back when Dazai wanted to help her, and quickened her pace.

Dazai stared at her leaving back with darker eyes, took the wine glass on the table unhurriedly, shook the ice puck in the glass, and took a sip of the liquid in the glass.

I don't want to go forward or back, I love this kind of eternity that is so close... It's really greedy, it's obvious that he is the one being caught?

……

To be honest, the moment I jumped off the stool, I almost fell to my knees... But I don't think it's my fault at all!

When I think of that sudden kiss just now, I... don't seem to have any idea...?

Although just looking at Dazai's expression just now, he knew that he was unhappy, the problem is...

If I were to say it myself, I don't know what kind of mood I should be at the moment. Compared with the joy of "it turns out that the two are in love with each other", it is more a kind of agreement between the two. The tacit understanding was broken.

Thinking back now, maybe I had the mentality of 'he will definitely not agree anyway' at the time, so I ran to confess to him so easily...

It is precisely because he did not accept it that I was able to show him my sincerity so frankly and unreservedly...Because on the premise that this relationship will not produce any qualitative changes, I want to be stable. This relationship is the most direct and convenient way.

And, I think... Dazai should also be well aware of this.

Why change the status quo?Why do you not hesitate to leave your comfort zone and break such a perfect balance, but also lean in?

He clearly knows that friends and lovers are different... As a friend, I can restrain my incomparably self-centered inferiority, think for him without reservation, and reach out to him countless times.

...But lovers are different. After crossing the remaining distance, the result of the balance being broken is completely unknown.

Love is much more fragile than friendship. It is like a radiant glass mirror, which seems indestructible, but in fact, if you are not careful, it will shatter into wreckage that can no longer be put together. The sharp edge is like a blade. It will hurt each other deeply.

Someone like me... If I were a lover, knowing this, I might be so cruel that I couldn't even believe it.

Because of this, when I thought about the possible changes in the relationship between me and Dazai, I almost couldn't resist the urge to hit the wall.

In fact, I might not be so entangled if I changed someone, but Dazai is really a control freak!That kind of personality can be properly restrained as a friend. In the worst case, I can't bear it anymore and just ignore him, but if we are really together... I can hardly breathe just thinking about it...

What's more, he is definitely not the kind of guy who would be willing to break up peacefully if he finds out that it is not suitable in the future!It's the kind of reality plus where there is no breakup and only widowhood!

Sorry, I'm a scumbag, I don't want to be responsible anymore! !

With such a tragic thought in mind, I walked up to the girl who stood up awkwardly in the corner and apologized to me in a low voice with her mobile phone, "I'm sorry, I... I just didn't expect to see it here. Such a restored cosplayer, your boyfriend's cosplay really looks like it!"

I was too lazy to refute this misunderstanding, but this time I denied it quite seriously, "No, he is not my boyfriend."

"Huh? But..." The friend of the other party tugged at the corner of her clothes and whispered to her not to ask more questions, and she suddenly realized, "Ah, sorry, do you want to delete...?"

"Before that, please pass me a copy." Before I could speak, Dazai's voice suddenly came from behind him, he stopped by my side as usual, and asked the other party for the photo After she deleted the original file, she calmly turned her gaze to me.

Just when I was trying to figure out what to say, he asked me without any sign of difference, "The bet, do you want to continue?"

I looked at him for two seconds with rather complicated eyes, and nodded.

After returning to my seat, picking up the wine glass again and taking a sip of ice water to calm myself down, I began to think about how to persuade Dazai to give up tactfully and without hurting my feelings.

It doesn’t exist that he’s too embarrassed to refuse if he doesn’t say it out loud. I’m much more egotistical about this than being a friend.

"Dazai, I..."

He propped his chin with one hand, turned sideways, looked at me and chuckled, "Sorry, did I scare you?"

Under the dim light at this moment, the always shallow kite eyes, which looked like spring water in the mountain stream in the morning, were indistinct and hard to see clearly.

I was silent for a moment, and took another sip of wine in a disturbed way... At this moment, I was a little helpless with my keen perception. It would be too obvious for me to pretend to be stupid, let alone him There is no intention of hiding at all. Playing stupid in this situation is almost tantamount to agreeing. I have witnessed this guy's ability to catch up and climb smoothly since I was a child!

"Isn't it good to keep the status quo?" I said straightforwardly, "Ahead... how do you know that moving forward is a good thing?"

"I used to... really thought that maintaining the status quo was the best choice." Dazai looked away, looked at the wine glass in front of him, and gently poked the ice puck in the glass with his index finger, revealing that he seemed to be recalling "But, Xiaoqi, maybe you should ask yourself this point? From the beginning to the end, I have never retreated. You are the one who has been moving forward?"

"..." I held my forehead and sighed, not knowing what to say for a while.

Just like most smart people, this guy does have a kind of stubbornness that is almost arrogant. If he has made up his mind, it is really difficult for him to change his mind with words alone.

Complaining about the misjudgment caused by this guy's indifferent attitude is already an afterthought. I have already said that I am really not proficient in psychology...

but in the meanwhile……

"I'll give you one last chance, are you serious?" I put down my hand and asked him in a nonchalant tone.

Dazai smiled, lowered his eyes, and sighed in an almost lingering tone, "Xiaoqi, you see, the so-called balance is such an easily broken thing, as long as it exceeds a little bit, completely unknown changes will occur... Human beings Feelings are such fragile things, so..."

"Since you have crossed that line, just collapse completely. No matter where you end up, I will be with you."