fail love

Yu Yanlun found a long pure white down jacket from Tao Zhi's closet and put it on Tao Zhi, and pulled off a bright yellow scarf from the hanger, and wrapped it around him.

Yu Yanlun was a bit strong, and when he was wearing the scarf, he pulled Tao Zhi forward slightly. Tao Zhi remembered that many years ago in country D, in the same cold winter, his mother wrapped the scarf for him before going out. It tickled his jaw.

Tao Zhi lost his mind for a while, his head was so painful that he wanted to split open.He hadn't taken medicine for a long time, Tao Zhi briefly thought about it, it seemed that he had stopped taking medicine for a month...

The sleeves of the down jacket were too long, Tao Zhi's hands were tucked inside the sleeves, he gently grabbed the lining of the down jacket, hesitantly wanted to speak.

Before Tao Zhi had time to speak, someone lightly touched his arm by his side, Tao Zhi trembled suddenly, turned his head, and Yan Shu's handsome face fell into his eyes.Yan Shu raised his hand, reached into the sleeve and held Tao Zhi's hand, pulled out his hand hidden in the sleeve, and said with a light smile, "Hiding your hand in here."

Tao Zhi likes to hold hands with Yan Shu very much. Yan Shu's hands are warm and generous, with bulging veins on the back of his hands, giving him a sense of strength. Before holding hands with him, Tao Zhi liked to rub the palm lines of his palms with his fingertips little by little.

He thought it was different, now that Yan Shu was beside him, he could hear Yan Shu's voice and touch Yan Shu.

"It's so cold to stick out." Tao Zhi took his hands back into his sleeves, took Yan Shu's hand with him, and shook Yan Shu's hand back and forth. He obviously liked this simple movement, He waved his hands happily.

When going downstairs, they met a seven or eight-year-old child holding his father's hand, humming an unknown nursery rhyme while walking, and shaking his father's hand constantly. The four of them ran into each other at the elevator door, looked at each other, and finally Yan Shu ended with a gentle smile.

In the car, Tao Zhi also leaned on Yan Shu's body insecurely. His mask was crooked. Yan Shu patiently adjusted the position for him. Xingyuan's eyes, Yan Shu's hand would touch the tip of his nose from time to time, Tao Zhi couldn't help closing his eyes, and said in a very soft voice, "I feel that my illness is not getting better."

He spoke slowly, his voice was soft and cowardly, a little hoarse, "What if I'm still sick?"

Tao Zhi stared blankly at a point in the sky. He hugged Yan Shu's arm tightly, trying to absorb a little sense of reality. With a dazed and helpless expression, Yan Shu gently patted his forehead hair to comfort him. Said: "It's okay, we will be fine if we treat it well."

Yan Shu received some information from Tao Zhi's chaotic words. Tao Zhi's mental state may not be good abroad, but he is not sure what Tao Zhi's symptoms are. After arriving at the hospital, the truth will be revealed, but he is not so He cared about the answer, and his own feelings were not that important in his heart. He hoped that Tao Zhi would be healthy.

"Don't be so tight, Yan Shu, move your claws away." Yu Yanlun started the car angrily, and from the corner of his eyes, Tao Zhi heard his words, but he hugged Yan Shu even more tightly, rebelliously arrogant .

Yu Yanlun honked his horn twice, and said helplessly, "Yes, I'll be a free driver for you two."

"Brother, don't stare at me all day." Tao Zhi raised his head, his voice was muffled by the mask, it sounded a bit vague and harmless, but the words he said were not so pleasant, "You should find me sooner." Sister-in-law, you are the only one in our family who is single."

If it wasn't for driving, Yu Yanlun would have turned around to teach this ignorant brat a lesson. Tao Zhi knew that Yu Yanlun couldn't mess around, so he made a funny face behind Yan Shu and hid behind Yan Shu, snickering.

It looks like saying: Brother, I have a boyfriend and you don't.

"What's the big deal." Yu Yanlun became furious, stepped on the accelerator to increase the speed of the car, gritted his teeth and said, "Whether Yan Shu can enter the door or not, I have to pass it."

Tao Zhi couldn't stop laughing in Yan Shu's arms, coughed twice, lowered his head and pulled up the mask, patted Yan Shu's shoulder and said, "You have to work hard to enter my house. .”

Yan Shu lowered his head lightly and kissed Tao Zhi's forehead, and said "Yes", Yu Yanlun directly said that he couldn't see it, and told them to sit in the corner and not show their eyes in front of him.However, Tao Zhi's tense mood was relieved by playing and making fun, and his expression was no longer as stiff as when he just went out.

Tao Zhi was already familiar with the internal structure of the mental hospital. When they rushed to the hospital, Tao Zhi's parents also arrived and were waiting for them in the lobby.Tao Zhi ran into his mother's arms, and his mother hugged Tao Zhi hard, patted Tao Zhi's back softly and said, "It's okay, baby."

Yan Shu stood opposite them, his mother looked at Yan Shu hesitantly, Yan Shu lowered his head slightly, and called out modestly and politely: "Auntie." Then he turned and called Tao Zhi's father: "Uncle."

Mother didn't ask any questions about his relationship with Tao Zhi, she lowered her head and coaxed Tao Zhi softly, but father smiled back at Yan Shu, the kindness in his eyes seemed to be very satisfied with Yan Shu.

Tao Zhi straightened up from her arms at the right time, holding his mother's hand, his palm was coldly sweating, but he still kept his voice and said: "Mom, I want you and Yan Shu to go in with me."

Tao Zhi stretched out his hand to pull Yan Shu, bit his lips, his face turned red before he could say anything, he looked at Yan Shu and summoned up his courage and said, "He is my lover now."

Yan Shu held his hand tightly, the cold feeling of the ring came from the palm of his hand, and Tao Zhi's side face was soft and firm, causing his heart to throb.

Yan Shu turned his head and said to his mother solemnly: "Although I know this is hasty, I hope you can believe me. Although I don't have the pheromone that matches Tao Zhi, I will use all I have to make up for it. I will Take good care of Tao Zhi."

Yu Yanlun slapped his forehead behind his mother, covered his eyes, raised his head and shouted silently. Could it be that Yan Shu used this overly serious and old-fashioned style to pry his brother away?

"Okay, Yan Shu, don't look so serious, I'm afraid you'll scare my mother." Yu Yanlun put his arms around his mother's shoulders, and said carelessly, "My family doesn't have the same style as yours, so I don't ask for entrustment for life as soon as I come up. "

Yan Shu's expression relaxed a little bit, he was a little flustered and dazed, he paused for a few seconds, and said in the solemn tone just now: "What I said is sincere."

Mother's mood is indescribable in words. She is happy for Tao Zhi. Tao Zhi has suffered so much for this relationship and finally got what he wanted, but she is afraid that this relationship is caused by Tao Zhi's constant pestering and forcing. suffer.

She wanted to grin the corners of her mouth, but she couldn't. She just tried to pull the corners of her mouth to divert her attention from other topics, "Okay, let's go to the doctor first."

When he reached the door of the office, Tao Zhi was unavoidably nervous. When he was nervous, he wanted to back away, and was helped by Yu Yanlun into the scheduled doctor's office. He glanced back at Yu Yanlun, and before he was about to leave the room, he ran a few steps to hug him. Stopped him and whispered: "Brother, you will come to pick me up later."

"Okay, I'll wait for you outside." Yu Yanlun stroked Tao Zhi's hair vigorously. He always wanted to smoke at such a time, but he touched his empty pockets before remembering to leave the cigarette at Tao Zhi's house. "I'll help you take care of Yan Shu, don't worry, my brother is just talking to scare him, if he doesn't want to be with you, I will tie him up and let him marry you, don't be afraid of anything, brother is here."

Tao Zhi nodded, and looked at Yu Yanlun reluctantly. Yu Yanlun couldn't stand Tao Zhi's eyes the most. Before Tao Zhi went abroad, he shed tears at the airport, but now he felt sour tears in his eyes , he pretended to be unbearable and pulled Tao Zhi off his body, "It's so big, don't act like a spoiled brother, I'll be outside."

Yu Yanlun sat on the sofa in the lounge, ate all the fruit in the fruit plate, drank five glasses of water, and waited for about an hour before Tao Zhi appeared at the door first, holding a bag of medicine in his hand , The plastic bag kept making noises while walking, and I couldn't see clearly with my head down.When he walked up to Yu Yanlun and sat down next to him, and took off the mask on his face, Yu Yanlun realized that Tao Zhi's entire face was extremely pale.

"What's the matter?" Yu Yanlun asked worriedly, Tao Zhi seemed to have not recovered, he was distracted for a long time before he slowly shook his head, put the medicine on his knee, and said in a daze, "Brother, I'm so stupid."

As soon as Tao Zhi finished speaking, a tear suddenly fell from his eyes. Tao Zhi raised his hand in a panic. Because the sleeves were too long, he only had time to show a small knuckle, and the tears were all on the sleeves. Zhi looked even angrier, and tears fell down in big drops, which couldn't be wiped clean no matter how hard he tried.

Tao Zhi simply opened his mouth and began to cry, crying out of breath, and said out of breath: "Why am I so stupid, why am I so stupid?"

"Oh my god, don't cry." Yu Yanlun felt distressed, and while wiping the tears on his face, he said anxiously, "Our Taotao is the smartest baby, how could he be stupid? Don't cry anymore, what happened? What's the matter? Why are you crying as soon as you come back?"

With tears in his eyes, Tao Zhi tried his best to hold back his crying, shook his head vigorously, and refused to say anything.

He didn't know how to speak, how should he tell his ridiculous five years story?He took the fake as real and the real as false, torn between reality and illusion, and was even instigated by the "severe statement" that he fantasized, closing himself, ignoring the reality's strict statement, just for the sake of "strict statement" "The unreasonable absolute true love in the mouth, inexplicably cut off contact with others, and inexplicably lost his temper with others.

He said the words of severing the relationship so cruelly, Yan Shu must be very sad to hear that, he treated his lover so badly and hurt him mercilessly.

He thought that if Yan Shu didn't like him, but liked a normal person, Yan Shu wouldn't suffer from these things, and he didn't have to worry about the risk of Tao Zhi's condition getting worse in the later stage. He could have a simple and happy relationship, a healthy relationship.

Only those who are mentally healthy can give each other healthy and normal love, and those who treat diseases with love will only be deeply imprisoned.

"Brother," Tao Zhi choked up, looking at Yu Yanlun with misty eyes, with big tears falling on his pointed chin, pale and broken, "What if I go completely crazy in the future? Just like my biological mother."

"Shhhhhhh," Yu Yanlun patted his mouth lightly, followed by "Bah bah bah" a few times, "Don't say silly things, you won't, let's treat him well so we won't go crazy. With us on your back, you don't have to be afraid of anything, Mom, Dad, me, and... Yan Shu, we all hope you are well."

Tao Zhi cried and fell into his brother's arms. He rubbed the ring on his hand over and over again, as if he wanted to brand the ring into his flesh.Yu Yanlun noticed his movement, raised his tear-wet hand, and deliberately said in a cheerful tone: "Yan Shu, this kid still has a heart, look at this emerald, it's so big, I'll kill you soon." Broken finger."

"Tao Tao, you have family, friendship, and now love. You don't need anything, so don't be afraid, you won't become a madman." Yu Yanlun stroked Tao Zhi's hair, sighed and said, "Everything When I grow up so big, I still love to cry so much.”

Tao Zhi gently held his elder brother's hand, his elder brother's hand was warm, and the temperature of the palm was particularly high, which gave people a very reliable feeling. He sniffed and said, "I will definitely take medicine and see a doctor well in the future."

"I can't bear you." Tao Zhi said, his voice became trembling again, and he looked like he was going to cry again, but he managed to hold back, choking his throat and hiccupping.Yu Yanlun thought that something was wrong with Tao Zhi, so he almost rushed into the office and knelt down for the doctor, holding the doctor's leg and crying hoarsely, "My brother is still so young! You have to save him!"