fail love

The most difficult thing about foreign love is the six-hour time difference. Sometimes when Yan Shu takes a break, it is already late at night with Tao Zhi, so Yan Shu can only make a video call to Tao Zhi while taking the time.

Tao Zhi still likes to call him "brother". In the video, he is lying on the bed with his chin propped up, smiling sweetly with his head tilted.

They have been brothers for more than ten years, and suddenly they changed their identities into lovers. Both of them are very young. Yan Shu thought about whether to make some changes to show the change in their relationship, but they are both at ease in the familiarity they have known for many years. , it seems that not much has changed in life.

It is not true to say that there is no change at all. On the second morning when they confessed to each other, they kept kissing. The warm blanket and the soft lips of their lover gave Yan Shu the illusion that they were already in love. They have been together for many years, but this day when they opened their eyes, it was just an ordinary day in their many years of love.

At a very early age, Yan Shu never thought that he would have a boyfriend who was so much younger than himself. Tao Zhi was eaten up by his old cow when he was still in school, and he hadn't had a serious relationship with him yet. After holding hands a few times in the name of a couple, his mouth became swollen from kisses. Yan Shu, who usually has little desire, has never been so unrestrained.

But they are separated by more than 7000 kilometers, no matter how close their hearts are, they cannot embrace each other.

And Tao Zhi was worried about another matter, "Yan Shu" didn't want to go out with him on a date.

"But I've already reserved two seats." Tao Zhi lay on "Yan Shu"'s lap, showed Yan Shu the reserved seat information on his mobile phone, and hinted to him a little shyly, "Yes, it's just for couples." seat."

"Yan Shu" put his hand down gently on Tao Zhi's forehead, and there was some warm touch from the back of his hand. Tao Zhi looked at him expectantly, but "Yan Shu" shook his head, "It's dangerous outside, we are here It's safe here."

Tao Zhi looked down at the reservation information on his mobile phone, he seemed to be making a choice, biting his knuckles subconsciously, he thought it was really dangerous outside, he was afraid of other people looking at him, although he didn't know why The others were going to look at him with such strange eyes.

Tao Zhi originally thought that "Yan Shu" would not be affected by this, but it is obvious that "Yan Shu" has also felt it now.

This made Tao Zhi feel anxious, he didn't understand all this, he had tried very hard to adapt to life here, but he was always treated as a different kind, even though he should have been used to it, he has always been like this since he was a child, Tao Zhi Think, he may not be able to live like an ordinary person all his life.

He opened the game silently, browsing the announcement information with his eyelids lowered. Tao Zhi has been playing this love game for almost three years. There are a total of five targets in the game, but Tao Zhi only concentrates on attacking one Chen Shu.

How much self-deception Tao Zhi hides in this behavior, only he knows.

The game enriched Tao Zhichu's lonely heart when he came abroad, and he soon became addicted to the game and couldn't extricate himself.

About half a year after Tao Zhi went abroad, the jewelry brand LM founded by Yan Shu released the first batch of new products. The day when the new products were officially released was April 4, Tao Zhi’s birthday.

Tao Zhi hadn't contacted Yan Shu for a long time at that time, and he could only piece together Yan Shu's new life from various places. He thought that he was gradually fading out of Yan Shu's life, but the date of the new product launch was too coincidental , knocking Tao Zhi dizzy all at once.

The importance of this batch of new products to LM is self-evident. Although Tao Zhi knew that it was normal for jewelry brands to have rings in their products, he was still in a daze for a moment about the ring named "First Love".

The emerald is elegant and generous, like a green and pure heart inlaid on the silver ring setting. Yan Shu introduced this ring at the new product launch conference, specifically stating that the emerald on this ring was obtained from a mine in Zambia by himself. Brought back to China, not for public sale.

"Because I like it the most." Yan Shu on the computer screen is wearing a well-made suit and well-groomed hair is very different from Tao Zhi's impression, more calm and noble, and Tao Zhi sitting in front of the screen is watching the video back and forth Three times, he wanted to detect even the slightest leak of Yan Shu's emotions, but Yan Shu was always decent and professional, without any other extraneous personal emotions.

Tao Zhi dreamed of Yan Shu that night. This time it was different from the previous dream. In the dream, Yan Shu did not have a cold expression or a strong refusal, but made a gentle promise with him: If you want to see me , I will appear in your dream.

Tao Zhi thinks this is not a simple dream, why is it just a dream!After dreaming of Yan Shu for three days in a row, Tao Zhi begged him urgently to come and see him. He wanted Yan Shu too much, but Yan Shu didn't answer in his dream. will not appear.

Fortunately, "Yan Shu" still came, and Tao Zhi made two breakfasts. "Yan Shu" sat opposite him but refused to touch his breakfast. Tao Zhi had to eat two breakfasts in frustration. It's the credit of his own tears, Yan Shu is always soft-hearted towards him, when he was a child, whenever he cried and shed a little teardrop, Yan Shu would take the initiative to coax him.

"Yan Shu" didn't stay for long, he left a string of phone numbers for Tao Zhi and then disappeared. For a long time, Tao Zhi used this number to contact "Yan Shu", and Tao Zhi had a lot to say. "Yan Shu" said that he apologized to "Yan Shu" for his reckless confession. When editing the apology message, Tao Zhi's tears wet the screen over and over again.

He needs to atone for his love, and he needs to bear the consequences for his love.

Fortunately, all this has passed, and Tao Zhi believes that they can have a sweet and hopeful future like all married couples in the world.

Tao Zhi doesn't like deep thinking more and more. He just needs to calm down and meditate. His brain hurts like it's about to explode, as if someone pierced his scalp with a needle, pierced his skull, and pierced his brain. Tao Zhi even searched through his hair in front of the mirror, but luckily no needles were exposed.

He would occasionally think about which ones he dreamed about and which ones he experienced after waking up, but this required a lot of effort on his part. Tao Zhi often felt that he had no energy. Brutally awake, half slumbering in ignorance.

But none of these made Tao Zhi feel uncomfortable or worried. He felt that he was very happy and happy. Tao Zhi liked Yan Shu when he was in love when he was a teenager. No matter what price he paid, Tao Zhi would still insist on his choice.

"Yan Shu" probably sensed that Tao Zhi was not in high spirits, so he coaxed him in a low voice, "We can go in our dreams, just like we did before."

Tao Zhi put down his phone and blinked slowly at Yan Shu. He felt that his eyelids were a bit heavy, and he couldn't remember whether he slept or not last night. He pinched a lock of forehead hair between his index finger and thumb, and he didn't Instead of being dissatisfied with "Yan Shu"'s behavior, he secretly breathed a sigh of relief. He also believed that it was dangerous outside, and he was protected in this room.

There are times when Yan Shu is willing to go out. After autumn, country D will soon enter winter, and the weather is getting colder and colder. When he comes back from the airport and returns to Tao Zhi's small house, he always has a chill, Hugging Tao Zhi under the covers, Tao Zhi was always shivering from the cold.

The fragrance of the white camellia also brought a bit of the coldness of winter. Tao Zhi lay on the bed and slept warmly, and was not annoyed when he was woken up. He rubbed his eyes and complained softly: "You are so cold."

"Come here in a hurry." Yan Shu hadn't hugged the real Tao Zhi for a long time, and couldn't help but bury his head in Tao Zhi's arms and take a few breaths. The warm fragrance of peaches lingered in his nose, clearing his journey Tao Zhi was so tired that his nose was so tight that Tao Zhi gently scratched his hair, but Yan Shu refused to raise his head, "Let me smell it for a while, I miss me so much."

Tao Zhi became playful, pulled up the quilt and put the two of them together in the cup, the bright light couldn't penetrate the quilt, and in the dark environment, Tao Zhi stuck to Yan Shu's ear, and gently and timidly tried to cry Him: "Husband."

Tao Zhi didn't dare to call him like this outside, he only dared to call him softly under the quilt like this, his face became hot after calling him, and he buried his face in the pillow, this was the first time Yan Shu was called by Tao Zhi like this, he was stunned After a while, he bent down and kissed Tao Zhi's temples with a light smile, "When did you learn it?"

Tao Zhi's neck was also red, he let go of the pillow, the quilt was stretched open by Yan Shu's back, the light leaked in from the outside, fell into Tao Zhi's eyes, flickering affectionately, he tangled with Yan Shu's fingers Draw circles on Shu's shoulders and ask softly, "Don't you like it?"

"I like it." Yan Shu hugged Tao Zhi and turned over. The two lay sideways facing each other. Rubbing Tao Zhi's earlobe, the words were vague in the kiss, "Good boy."

Because of Yan Shu's words of liking, Tao Zhi suddenly felt a longing in his heart. He wanted to form a family with Yan Shu, and he wanted to marry Yan Shu.

This desire became stronger and stronger as time passed, and he thought of the ring named "First Love" by Yan Shu again. A similar style circulates at auction.

Tao Zhi got one of them without spending much effort. He carefully observed the ring on his hand. The patterns on the ring were different from the "first love". Tao Zhi found a private workshop, He changed the one in his hand to make him more like "first love", and engraved letters on the inner ring of the ring.

After doing all this, Tao Zhi still felt uneasy about the future between him and Yan Shu. He didn't know that Yan Shu accepted his invitation for a lifetime. He had already hidden the ring in a locked drawer, and it seemed that he would keep hiding it like this forever.

The weather outside is getting colder and colder. Christmas is coming. Tao Zhi hopes that there will be snow on Christmas. He wants to go back to China during the holidays. He finds a company that plans various activities and sends the ring that has been dusty for a long time. , hoping to propose to Yan Shu during the snowy season.

If he was drenched in snow at the same time, he could be regarded as loving to the end.

Tao Zhi had countless hopes in his heart, as well as countless imaginations about their future. Tao Zhi recalled that time later, and the memories in his mind were as illusory and beautiful as colorful bubbles. He walked in those seemingly beautiful bubbles, Trembling and sweating, for fear of piercing any one.

Tao Zhi was not able to return to China, because he did not go to class for half a semester, nor did he take the final exam. The professor sent an email to his parents. Before Christmas, Tao Zhi's mother rushed to country D.

She saw the shocking other side of happiness. Tao Zhi stood at the door and smiled at her, then sweetly turned his head and said to the air on the sofa: "Yan Shu, my mother is here, you should say hello to her."

The author says:

So study hard and don't skip class(._.)