fail love

Mother reluctantly pulled Tao Zhi's hand into her palm and held it. Tao Zhi's hand was cold, which surprised her mother a little. She looked at Tao Zhi worriedly, "But Tao Tao, you have to know that love is like other emotions. It’s not perfect, sometimes it’s ugly, greedy, and frightening, and when the enthusiasm recedes, the appearance of love really shows up in front of your eyes.”

"Your pheromone compatibility is so low. During your special period, he can't even use pheromone to appease you. Similarly, you can't use pheromone to appease him. You know that if you want a lifetime mark, you and Yan Shude mark it How many times?" Mom asked him, Tao Zhi had never thought about these questions, he stood there in a daze, his lips twitched symbolically, but he didn't utter a word.

Mom had already anticipated Tao Zhi's reaction, and said slowly: "You don't know, do you? Mom doesn't know either. It takes two or three years for the lifetime mark between you to be fully marked, while other Omega and him only need one time to be marked." Marked for life."

"The Marriage Law stipulates that Alpha needs to be responsible for the Omega marked in his life, so it only takes one time, even if that time is just an accident, he will betray you and leave you completely."

"Similarly, Tao Tao, can you resist the temptation of other pheromones? Can you guarantee that you will fall in love with an Alpha whose pheromones are unattractive to you for decades? Because of this passage It is a special combination, you need to pay more in this relationship, have you thought about the responsibilities you should bear after entering into a marriage relationship?"

Tao Zhi didn't even think about it, let alone thought about it carefully. He has always been simple-minded, and he also likes Yan Shu.

Tao Zhi gradually realized that he liked Yan Shu after his split. Yan Shu was an excellent person in all aspects since he was a child. Tao Zhi admired him for his aura. In the meticulous gentleness behind his sternness, while enjoying all this, Tao Zhi suddenly had a strange idea.

He thought, did Yan Shu treat him like this only, or did he treat everyone like this?

Tao Zhi didn't know at the time that this little unknown desire is called possessiveness, but soon he knew that his desire to monopolize Yan Shu became stronger and stronger, and his dependence on Yan Shu became more and more serious. Yan Shu left the middle school after the college entrance examination, and Tao Zhi still had to study in this middle school for a long time.

Yan Shu went to a wider world, while Tao Zhi stayed where he was, all he could do was wait.

When Yan Shu was around, Tao Zhi didn’t have much desire to make friends, and he only had casual acquaintances with his classmates. After Yan Shu left, Tao Zhi felt a huge sense of loneliness. It happened that Wang Siyu made his At the same table, Tao Zhi finally made his friend.

But Tao Zhi's mood was still hazy, he thought that Yan Shu was just a good brother and a good friend to him, but soon he was slapped in the face by himself.

In a chaotic and viscous dream, the temperature was as hot as the cruel sun on a summer night, sweat and smell became very vivid, entangled and released with force, dripping like trying to squeeze every drop of juice from his body, white camellia Blooming around him one after another, the branches and leaves in his abdomen began to arch out from the inside coldly and resolutely, sprouting and growing, the dignified camellia was in full bloom from the beginning of budding, and the rich fragrance of flowers filled the whole dream.

Tao Zhi woke up sweating, and the pajama pants between his legs were cold. He climbed out of bed at a loss, only to find that his heartbeat was like a drum in battle, which was especially clear in the quiet night.

He could only sneak into the bathroom like a thief and wash his pants.

This was the first time Tao Zhi realized that he had a desire for Yan Shu, and it was a biological instinct related to reproduction.

Even so, Tao Zhi has not awakened much awareness of love. He cannot confide these things to others, not even the doctor who has been treating him. These things are secret and cannot be understood by outsiders.

Once, when watching a movie together in the class, Tao Zhi sat on his seat and watched the two protagonists kissing with a blank expression. He moved a little slowly. Although he often saw such scenes on TV before, this kind of behavior In Tao Zhi's world, there is no emotional meaning that can match it. When he saw these things, it was no different from watching two cats licking each other, but he felt a strange feeling in his heart that day.

A brand-new exciting emotion appeared in front of Tao Zhi's eyes. He had never touched it before, but he also vaguely realized that this kind of emotion should be sweet and hot. It was very strong. He watched a lot of love dramas and novels in that month, and he thought he understood it thoroughly. He couldn't wait to find Yan Shu to experience it for himself.

His mind is as pure as a child's, and he has hardly considered such deep issues as responsibility and future, even now. He wants to be with Yan Shu, but the issues that need to be considered together, he I didn't realize it at all, and I didn't think about it. I was as self-willed as a childish child.

Tao Zhi was left speechless by these questions, and could only subconsciously make amends for his own clumsiness: "I... believe him... I will not betray him, no matter what..."

Tao Zhi couldn't continue, he also knew how irresponsible his answer was, and it was so light and easy that he swallowed the rest of the words in his stomach and couldn't spit them out.

Mother took the cup in Tao Zhi's hand, and looked at Tao Zhi, who was so nervous that he would start biting his fingers, with an unpredictable expression. He looked so distressed, disheartened by the new problems, but he couldn't make a judgment immediately And decision-making, dealing with problems like a mature adult, as Tao Zhi's mother, she is very clear about her child's temper, and all Tao Zhi's reactions are within her predictions.

Naturally, Tao Zhi wanted to embark on a difficult road, and she would not stop it arbitrarily, but let Tao Zhi know the hardships of the road, and then let him choose.

"Tao Tao, you have to think well, be prepared, and take responsibility. You can't let others down and let yourself get hurt." Mom touched Tao Zhi's face lightly, and Tao Zhi nodded mechanically.

When his mother closed the door again, Tao Zhi was lying on the bed. Obviously, there were still many questions for him to think about, but Tao Zhi's mind was blank at the moment, only the buzzing in his ears became more intense.

Tao Zhi turned around, trying to isolate the humming sound that seemed to be piercing his brain with the thin quilt. He couldn't sleep, but just opened his eyes blankly, thinking a little bit disappointedly, he didn't answer the question well, and he couldn't answer the question well. Yan Shu was not taken seriously.

Obviously both of them have kissed and hugged, and Yan Shu also expressed his love to him, but Tao Zhi has always only satisfied his own desires, and has never faced up to the relationship between the two of them.

Tao Zhi calculated the time, and it has been two months since Yan Shu's accident. According to the doctor's speculation, he should be able to recover his memory and cognition soon.

Thinking this way, the shadow of his failed confession shrouded Tao Zhi again, making him cringe, but he knew very well that he had to take this step.

Tao Zhi thought quietly, hesitated, and finally couldn't help but took the phone, and sent Yan Shu a late "good night".

I'm such a failure, Tao Zhi thought before going to bed, he closed his eyes tiredly, but his heart became clearer and clearer, and an idea gradually took shape in his heart.

Tao Zhi slept until dawn, and when Yu Yanlun drove him away the next day, he could no longer see his brother's gaffe at night. Tao Zhi seemed to be a single-celled creature with extraordinary healing power, and he quickly put those things away. They all turned the page and quickly recovered.

But there is still a difference. Since that day, Tao Zhi has become more cautious, and even when chatting with Yan Shu, he carefully considers his words, for fear that there is something inappropriate and offensive.

Like the shameless "brother, let's kiss later", Tao Zhi couldn't say it anymore, he felt ashamed and guilty for his past profligacy.

He was going to wait for Yan Shu to recover his memory, give both parties a calm time, and then talk calmly and talk about whether to continue this relationship. No matter what the result is, Tao Zhi can bear it.

If Yan Shu is willing to go further with him, he will take Yan Shu to see the gift he prepared for him, and he will prove his full trust and responsibility for the future; if Yan Shu repents, then Tao Zhi He doesn't force it, just like he did before, he will go on a long journey and use time to heal everything.

But it is difficult for Tao Zhi to keep a distance from Yan Shu.

When Tao Zhi saw Yan Shu, his heart began to itch. This was Tao Zhi's uncontrollable instinctive reaction. After getting used to doing intimate things with people, it was really difficult for him to refuse Yan Shu's approach, because his The body is clamoring for unwillingness.

Rejecting Yan Shu's request for a kiss again, Yan Shu frowned a little irritably, and asked him in a low voice with his mouth pursed: "Why didn't you give me a kiss?"

Tao Zhi had already rejected Yan Shu's invitation to meet many times, but he couldn't stop Yan Shu from coming to him. Yan Shu appeared in Tao Zhi's studio in the name of a tutor.

As for the tutor, Tao Zhi had no contact with him for half an hour before and after, so Yan Shu arranged him in the small living room outside the painting room.

Tao Zhi stood in front of the drawing board, Yan Shu stood behind him, he was unable to move forward or backward, he was trapped in a small space, and the Alpha behind him was obviously not satisfied with this, and he was tyrannical in his arms But he restrained himself from taking the next step, and even the kiss had to be instructed and agreed to. Tao Zhi shook his head and refused, so he really didn't continue his behavior.

Tao Zhi lowered his head, and from Yan Shu's perspective, he could see the graceful lines of the back of his white neck, and a small pheromone blocking sticker was pasted on the position of the gland.

Yan Shu was calm, and even though he was rejected many times during this period, he didn't show too much bad emotion. He wanted to lean on Tao Zhi's shoulder, but Tao Zhi felt his approach, and kept shrinking. The drawing board shook twice, as if it was about to fall overwhelmed.

"I don't think this is good..." Tao Zhi said tactfully, "Brother, I want to rethink our relationship."

Tao Zhi spoke earnestly and seriously, Yan Shu was taken aback by his expression, Tao Zhi turned around, his fingers were tangled together, he thought about it and said: "You have to think again, I don't want to, don't want us Then it's unclear."

"Okay? Let's calm down for a while and give each other some space." After Tao Zhi finished speaking, he lowered his hands nervously and waited for Yan Shu's answer. From a close distance, Tao Zhi looked at Yan Shu's face and couldn't help but I lamented that Yan Shu's face has no dead ends in all aspects, even if his face is expressionless, it makes people jump wildly.

Yan Shu's dark pupils flickered a few times, Tao Zhi had no way of knowing Yan Shu's true emotions, but felt that Yan Shu stared at him for too long, as if he wanted to pierce his skin, Look inside him, see through all the thoughts in his heart.

"I see." Yan Shu said these words monotonously. Tao Zhi thought he had something to say, but Yan Shu didn't say anything more. He just watched for a long time in silence before Tao Zhi let go. He wanted to walk away from Yan Shu in one breath, but was caught off guard and touched the back of his neck.

Yan Shu's hand intentionally or unintentionally rubbed Tao Zhi's position against the barrier sticker. Tao Zhi's glands were very sensitive, and they throbbed fragilely under the touch of his fingers. Tao Zhi shrank his neck in shock. Yan Shu's hand But it got worse and more unscrupulously slid to Tao Zhi's throat, the big palm almost grabbed his neck.

Tao Zhi instinctively sensed the danger, but Yan Shu's expression seemed normal, even the leaked pheromone was peaceful, "Brother is waiting for you."

The author says:

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