fail love

Yu Yanlun wanted to take a few steps forward, but Tao Zhi hugged him very tightly. Omega, who usually looks thin and tender, burst out with great strength at this moment, making Yu Yanlun a height of 1.8 meters five. The sturdy Alpha couldn't move even a single step.

Tao Zhi didn't cry loudly, just blinked his eyes and big teardrops rolled down his cheeks. He didn't want Yu Yanlun to see him crying, so he buried his face firmly on Yu Yanlun's back, and his body twitched Twitching tried to stop crying but it was useless, he suppressed his chest tightness and shortness of breath, and the occasional breath sounds in his throat trembled out of shape.

Yu Yanlun was taken aback by Tao Zhi's appearance. He thought it was because he just vented his anger on Tao Zhi for no reason and made him cry. He didn't stand up for a while, so he could only stand quietly for a few minutes, waiting for Tao Zhi to cry. When Zhi's sobbing voice gradually subsided, he opened his mouth: "What's wrong?"

Tao Zhi wiped all the tears on Yu Yanlun's clothes in one go, crying until his eyes were blurred, and he didn't answer, just lying on Yu Yanlun's back in a daze, until he was turned around and fell into a warm embrace.

Yu Yanlun put his arms around Tao Zhi's shoulders, and carefully looked at Tao Zhi's weeping face. Tao Zhi's skin was fair, but after crying for a while, the circles around his eyes were all red, and his nose and lips were also red. Yu Yanlun raised his eyebrows listlessly, and Yu Yanlun yelled "Ouch" several times. Seeing that the tears in the corners of Tao Zhi's eyes were about to slide down again, he quickly raised his hand to wipe away the tears for the child.

"Why are we, Tao Tao, crying like a little cat? My brother wasn't angry with you just now, was he scared?"

Tao Zhi shook his head. Originally, he didn't have much to do with Yu Yanlun when he cried, but Yu Yanlun wanted to mention what happened in the car just now. The grievance in Tao Zhi's heart surged up again, and he couldn't help but shed two more tears, "Woo , you can’t find me annoying...I’m not annoying, you, you say I’m not annoying. "

Tao Zhi choked up, couldn't make a sentence, couldn't make a sentence, he stuttered and finished, his eyes were about to roll tears again, Yu Yanlun pressed his hand up, touched Tao Zhi's crying face, and his eyes were even more humid, Thinking that he was really suffering, he hurriedly said: "Look at my mouth, how can you be annoying, I was wrong, neither annoying nor annoying."

"I'm sorry, brother," Tao Zhi stopped crying for a few seconds, and sobbed again, "I didn't cry because of you, I don't blame you, I don't blame you, I'm sorry."

"Little ancestor, no matter who is crying because of, I will admit it, don't cry." Yu Yanlun rarely encountered such a battle, and Tao Zhi's tears seemed to be unable to stop, as if no matter how coaxed he couldn't be coaxed. .

Fortunately, Tao Zhi endured it for a while, forced his tears back, and wiped his face clean with his hands, Yu Yanlun breathed a sigh of relief, and patted Tao Zhi's shoulder: "Just now I was crying when I laughed, but now I'm crying so."

Tao Zhi was embarrassed by what he said, and because he had something on his mind, he didn't have the energy to respond to him, so he gave a weak "hmm", rubbed his eyes and said, "Brother, why am I sick?"

Yu Yanlun was silent. He looked at Tao Zhi's face and couldn't say a word. No one can give Tao Zhi the answer to this question. If he really wants to answer, he can only say that fate is like this, but it is too indifferent to say it like this. .

In the end, Yu Yanlun could only put his arms around Tao Zhi's shoulder with a little force, and replied with silence.

They have always hoped that Tao Zhi could live in the sunshine all his life and not be gloomy due to the haze of disease.

Tao Zhi has indeed grown up as they hoped, optimistic and cheerful, eccentric, but also timid and sensitive, worrying about gains and losses.

Even he couldn't be completely independent, no one dared to really let Tao Zhi live outside alone, if there was no one around him when he got sick, no one would know what Tao Zhi would do.

When Yu Yanlun was very young, some beggars could still be seen on the streets of City Z, most of them were ragged and disheveled, suffering in the same way, and these faces could not be seen when the wheels turned.

The time Yu Yanlun had the deepest impression on these people was when he saw an obviously mentally disturbed person digging through the trash next to the trash can. Most of his body was about to get into the trash can. When he noticed that Yu Yanlun was watching him, he showed Demented smile.

Because the mouth is crooked and the eyes are slanted, the smile can't be called a smile. More precisely, it looks like the facial features are fighting, which makes people look scared.

Most of the family members of these mentally disturbed homeless people didn't care about them, or people ran out because they didn't take good care of them, but they were feared and rejected wherever they wandered, even at home.

Yu Yanlun is not a saint, and he would have a flash of thought to have a huge resistance to these people's dirty bodies, and loathe their downfall and abnormal behavior.

He also hypnotizes himself. Tao Zhi is just a little different from normal people. His symptoms are not serious, but occasionally he will get sick. He is still growing up happily, and there are different changes every day, which is surprising. His growth speed.

But it cannot be argued that schizophrenia still had an indelible impact on Tao Zhi. He could have had a better and freer life instead of being imprisoned by his parents and elder brother because of illness.

Tao Zhi is imprisoned, and at the same time he can only rely on him, so he pays extra attention to what others think of him. Tao Zhi has known how to please people since he was a child. Out of his biological survival instinct, he can only do his best not to be left behind. Only by yourself can you survive.

Tao Zhi lowered his head and said weakly, "I don't want to be sick, and I don't want to be so useless."

"Who said you're useless?" Yu Yanlun was already on the verge of exhaustion due to today's emotional ups and downs, but at this moment he cheered up to comfort his younger brother, "Brother speaks fast, but you can't speak your head. You are not annoying, are you My best brother."

Even at this moment, Tao Zhi still quickly deviated from the point, and said doubtfully: "You don't have any other younger brothers, I'm the only one."

"Okay, don't push your nose to your face." Yu Yanlun raised his hand in surrender, "What my mother said in the car just now, don't take it to heart, if you bother Yan Shu, he won't bother you. If he dares to bother you, I will Just go beat him and see if he dares."

Tao Zhi didn't expect his elder brother to see what was on his mind, and thinking about how shameless he was crying just now, he immediately became ashamed and kept his mouth shut.

Yu Yanlun didn't know what he was thinking, maybe he had already accepted the reality.

Co-author Tao Zhi pointed out that Yan Shu liked someone, and if he didn't like him, he would feel sad and sad, crying like that just after getting out of the car and walking a few steps, no one could resist.

Yu Yanlun shaved his face, "Be happy, go to bed quickly when you're happy, it's so cold, don't catch a cold."

Tao Zhi ran away a few steps, then turned back and gave Yu Yanlun a hug, and said earnestly and forcefully, "Brother, don't give up, sister-in-law will help!"

"Go, go, go," Yu Yanlun flicked Tao Zhi's head, "Just talk nonsense if you know something, your brother doesn't need your comfort, go upstairs quickly."

Yu Yanlun watched Tao Zhi run into the room in twos and threes from downstairs, and he finished smoking a cigarette while standing below. His legs were numb before he stomped his feet. He shook his head helplessly, not knowing whether he was being too obvious. Or what, even Tao Zhi, a little fool, could tell at a glance that he was rejected.

But he deserved the rejection. He had owed too much love debt before, and he could claim it all from one person at once.

Tao Zhi on the other side had already finished washing, put on his pajamas and lay down under the blanket.

He felt that his face was very hot, but his limbs were cold. He could only feel the coldness flowing along his limbs when he was huddled in the bed, but Tao Zhi didn't want to get up to turn on the air conditioner. When I got down, my whole body was limp.

Tao Zhi rolled himself into a rice dumpling, and the mobile phone on the bedside lighted up to remind him that there was a message. Tao Zhi raised his head and glanced at it. It was a message from Yan Shu, asking if he had arrived home safely.

Tao Zhi lay dryly on the bed for 2 minutes, not thinking about whether he wanted to reply to Yan Shu's news. Now he had only two ways to go. One was to listen to his mother and shrink back completely. Just like before, he could To do one thing well; the other requires extraordinary courage against all the unknowns of the future, ignoring the nature of the glands, and embarking on a difficult path.

Before Tao Zhi could make a decision, there was a knock on the door of his room, and his mother's voice came from outside the door: "Tao Tao, are you asleep?"

"I haven't slept yet, the door is unlocked, just push it in." Tao Zhi hurriedly buried his face deep in the quilt, trying to make himself look more normal, at least not let his mother see that he just cried .

Mom opened the door and came in, holding a glass of warm milk in her hand, and gently placed it on Tao Zhi's bedside table. Tao Zhi got up from the bed and half leaned on the bedside, his mother smiled at him, "Mom is hot Milk, drinking it before going to bed will give you a good night’s sleep.”

Tao Zhi took the milk and thanked his mother. The temperature of the milk was just right. Drinking it made people warm up from the stomach. Tao Zhi drank in a hurry. After a few sips, the milk was almost bottomed out. His mother told him to drink slowly. I couldn't help laughing again.

"Tao Tao, what mother said in the car just now is that mother is too strict." Mom touched Tao Zhi's hair, noticed that Tao Zhi's eyes were red, and felt distressed, "Mom knows that you have always liked Yan Shu, but Mom dare not let you gamble."

"Yan Shu is also a good boy. He always took care of you when he was a child, and he blamed me. He always thought that it would be better if more people took care of you and missed you, so he didn't pay attention to the distance between you." Mom Sighing, the woman who was always impeccable in the field of interests showed her softest side in front of her children. Like every ordinary mother in the world, she was worried about the future of her children, and her career in the workplace. The vigorous and vicious eyes disappeared, leaving only hesitation and trepidation.

"After you split, I also thought about whether Yan Shu and you were too close, but soon the report showed that although the pheromone compatibility between you and Yan Shu was low, I let go of this heart early. I didn’t notice your emotions.” Mom actually blamed herself, she always wanted to realize this earlier, and Tao Zhi wouldn’t have to suffer from it later, “Actually, we should have separated earlier, he can’t be with you forever , there is no guarantee between you that the relationship will be maintained."

"No one can stay with me forever, mom." Tao Zhi rubbed his fingers subconsciously on the glass wall, his mother paused, and continued: "I know, but I'm always wishful thinking, thinking that if I, Tao Tao, could It would be nice to be protected by someone for the rest of our lives, how lonely we Taotao are without anyone to accompany us."

"I'm fine, mom, I have many people to protect me, dad, brother and you..." Tao Zhi bit his lower lip, thinking of Yan Shu, an inexplicable courage surged in his heart, "And... and Yan Shu , I am not alone, I am not afraid."

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