[Vampire Diaries] I can't give you happiness

When I woke up, I thought I was lying alone in the ward, but unexpectedly I was lying in my father's ward.Seeing me wake up, he said indifferently, "I know my health is not good, but I still don't cherish it, it's better..." After that, I didn't continue.But I could understand that it would be better not to exist than to exchange such a broken body for another person's beautiful life.I am very sad, I want to visit him hastily and self-righteously, but I don’t want to be sick in front of the person I don’t want to be. The rift is a deeper hatred for my father. If I have a healthy body, maybe he will figure it out one day. Now that I am like this, who would think that it is worthwhile for my mother to trade herself for my life?

I buried my head in the quilt and refused to face it. My father probably didn't want to talk to me, so the ward was very quiet.Just when I was waiting for him to fall asleep and sneak away, he unexpectedly said again, "Who is that foreign man who came with you?"

I was stunned by this question. Does he mean Clause or Damon? It stands to reason that the only thing my father cares about is Clause, but they have already met each other. He doesn't know who he is, so why ask if he knows? Woolen cloth?Then it is Damon, he should have nothing to do with the mother, so who is the father asking?So I timidly asked, "Who, which one?"

"The one who came to the hospital with you and took care of you." It's Damon, he'll take care of me, did I get it wrong?But after listening to it, I felt uncontrollably soft and comfortable.

"He, he is my friend", that's all I can answer.My father closed his eyes after hearing "um".After waiting for half an hour, I felt it was time to leave, so I lifted the quilt and walked out lightly.However, the person who was supposed to be sound asleep asked clearly, "Why did you come?"

This sudden voice startled me a lot, I turned my head in surprise, and faced my father who was staring at me, "I, I heard that you are sick, come and see you." When I finished, I lowered my head, as if the words drained all my strength.

Just when he was angry and fell into silence again, my father floated a sentence, which made me think it was a hallucination. He said, "Rui Xue, are you okay?"

Ruixue, he called me by my name, so is he caring about me?I was so surprised that I forgot to answer, "Rui Xue, do you hate me?"

"No, no, I don't hate you." I answered quickly.But the father continued to laugh at himself, "How can you not hate me, I'm not a good father." What's wrong with him?Why did I suddenly repent? Is it because I knew the severity of my illness? Thinking of this, my heart was sore, and I couldn't help crying again.But I could only hold back and said, "No, after all, you are not me, not me..." I almost blurted out the words "not my father", but I was not sure myself, but how could I say it, I How to say it.I will have this subconscious behavior, do I already believe that he is not my biological father in my heart?I became depressed by analyzing my thoughts clearly.

"What do you want to say, you want to say that I'm not your father? Then who do you think is your father, that Clause?" He suddenly became angry, and I was embarrassed by his guess, but more sad , Did I make him angry again?

But for the first time, I wanted to face up to this problem. Since my father questioned me so angrily, is it true that the truth is not what I thought?So I plucked up the courage, "So are you my biological father?" The moment I said it, I was like a ball of eunuchs, and I couldn't lift my strength anymore.I thought that my violation of his dignity would make him fly into a rage, and I was ready to face the censure, but I lost my voice when I didn't want him. Just when I was dawdling and wanted to leave, my father said, " I suspected that you were not my daughter, but it turns out that you are indeed my own daughter."

I looked up in disbelief, and subconsciously asked, "Then why?"

At this moment, my father turned his head and looked at me tenderly, but he was not looking at me, "I'm sorry for you. If it wasn't for my doubts, your mother might not have had a difficult delivery. I failed her heart."

How could this be, was there any hidden secret back then?

But my father ignored my expression and continued to plunge himself into memories, "At that time, I was jealous that she had someone else in her heart. She came back from the United States with injuries all over her body. We got married soon. One month after we got married, we had I lost you, but I suspected that the child was not mine. I saw your mother often staring at a stone in a daze, and I became even more angry. Later, your mother was attacked by a monster, and she lost a lot of blood. I was very worried. Yes, the doctor suggested to induce labor, but she refused to agree. I begged in every possible way that we will have children in the future, but she said, "No matter how many children there are in the future, it will not be this one." I thought she admitted that this was not my child, so I hated to kill, but I love her, look at her like that, and can't bear to force her, she tried to explain to me, but I don't want to hear it, I'm afraid to hear it She lies more afraid of hearing her say that she actually loves another person, so when she was pregnant with you, she was in poor health and depressed, so dystocia should be predictable. In the end, she said that she would protect you and give up My own life, and you are in such a situation. My hatred reached its peak, and I pushed my faults on you, as if I would be able to live better. If it wasn't for your grandma to stop you , I guess I would kill you with my own hands at that time, but it was only after I hated for many years that I realized that she saved my child. It’s just that I can’t learn to love people anymore. I exiled you, just because I didn’t want to Watching you die, I can no longer watch my daughter die in front of me like my wife but I can do nothing."

After listening to my father's memories, I was completely stunned. How could it be like this?He is my biological father, which undoubtedly made me happy. After hearing his remorse, I didn't even have any resentment. My father just loved someone too much.It's just that my mother was attacked by a monster, and the injured part was her neck, and she suffered from excessive blood loss. Why do these symptoms sound so familiar to me?

"Moonstone?"

Father froze for a moment, "You want that too, Clause asked you to come to me?"

I shook my head hastily, not daring to show any involvement with him in front of my father.

"Your mother, she loved playing the pipa the most." My father suddenly said such a weird sentence, but before I could figure out why, he waved his hand, "You go, don't come again." A touch of gentleness.

I stood still in a daze as if I didn't understand, why, after he had just confided his heart to me, why did he still dislike me?Such ups and downs of emotions made me feel unreal at all. When I opened the door and saw the person sitting on the bench outside, I felt even more dazed. Damon listened to everything?I walked past him and pretended not to see him. My deepest secret was known. Standing naked in front of him like this made me feel very insecure.He took my arm, "I'm not interested in your story, but what happened to your fainting today?" He looked into my eyes firmly, not allowing me to hide anything.And I, thinking that he might know everything from the doctor, felt terrified. I was like an onion being peeled off layer by layer. The process was painful and made people cry.

Seeing that I didn't answer for a long time, he didn't know why he was a little impatient, "Don't tell me that I fainted suddenly, I don't believe that I have to go to the emergency room just because I was emotional."

I answered lightly, "My heart is not very good, and I can't be stimulated. When I saw my father today, I was too emotional and fainted."

My few words were obviously not enough to convince him. Damon stared at my eyes, not letting go of the slightest flicker. I let him verify my eyes calmly. At the same time, I also felt strange why he suddenly cared about me. My body How has nothing to do with him.

I pulled his hand to let him go, but Damon said viciously, "Do you want me to ask the doctor directly, you know I have a way to make him tell the truth." He still stared at me, which made me feel a little nervous It was an illusion, as if his impatience was because he was really worried about me, then I shook my head, how could it be, stop fantasizing.I smiled suddenly, "Then you can ask." After speaking, I broke free from him and dragged myself to the elevator.

When the elevator door was about to close, Damon squeezed in, and said a little pretentiously, "You can't die until the matter is over." But now I don't have so much energy to care whether he is sincere or not, glanced at He glanced, "Don't bother my father again, I will help you find the moonstone."

Damon rolled his eyes, suddenly, he put his arms around my waist, put his mouth close to my ear, and exhaled ambiguously, "Then please."