[Vampire Diaries] I can't give you happiness

I was stunned by the last high voiceless sound in his words, is it the prelude to anger?If so, what else can I do besides bear it?

I watched him vigilantly, waiting for him to change his face, but slowly my concentration was shaken, Clause kept that charming smile all the time, looking at Pipa as if he was looking at a lover.What is he going to do, I have no idea in my heart, the unknown is always frightening, so now my heart is very flustered.

"Let's go." He stood up, and I didn't realize it until he walked away two steps and approached hurriedly, "Pipa", I want him to return it to me.It's just that after Clause looked at me with a half-smile, he cast a last warning and left it before walking away.I stood where I was, without the courage to catch up. His last look contained too much, whether it was a threat or a request, it conveyed a meaning, that is, it must be won, so I couldn't help re-examining his feelings for his mother. Feelings, maybe ever really loved?Then I shook my head, what time is it, how can I still have time to think about these things.

After returning to the hotel, I curled up on the bed tiredly, recalling what he meant just now, "You can go and see whoever you want." The moment I heard it, my whole body paused, even though I couldn't help but feel joy. At that time, I never expected or did not have the courage to explore the deepest desire in my heart.If Clause hadn't said that to tick off desires I shouldn't have, then I wouldn't be so conflicted right now.On the one hand, I really want to see my father, even if those secrets are still secrets, even if I sit quietly with him for an afternoon, I will be satisfied, but on the other hand, I am afraid, avoiding seeing his hatred Eyes, even indifference will make me bloody.

I was grabbing my hair, fighting between heaven and man, but the sad thing is that my inner understanding of myself has already made a decision, no matter how strong the desire is at the moment, I will not listen in the end, why should I go again Disturb his life and uncover his father's hidden wounds?

When I looked up again, it was caused by the warmth of the sun shining on my body outside the window. My eyes, swollen from crying, were pierced and hurt. There were circles of seven colors in front of my eyes, like a circular rainbow.It's just that when I saw the instigator of this series of reasons, I turned around immediately. I don't want to be attacked when I am weak, let alone being seen by him. I can't explain the mixed feelings in my heart. I just want to To escape.

He sat quietly on the sofa, greatly weakening his sense of existence.I feel that after I have adjusted it, I turn to the front of the curtain, open my arms wide and then close them together in the middle.The heavy fabric cuts off the bright outside. Compared with the darkness inside, I am really not suitable for standing in the sun.I guessed that he would come to me, but I didn't expect it to be so fast. After all, Clause had just left and was next door. His courage was too bold and his actions were too unscrupulous. The strength that allowed him to do all this was a little sad.

I was ready for him to ask about today's action, but when I turned my head, I saw his brown eyes just looking at me unblinking, there was deep inside, but there was no one else, only my surprised reflection.I never thought that I would be stared intently by him, and this glance was like a spell, about to break all my pretense.

"You, you shouldn't be following me..." My breathing is messed up, I urgently need to say something to disturb my thoughts, I can't go on anymore, it seems like letting it go, something will break, and I have a hunch , That would make me more painful than now, but after I said this, I tapped my lips with my index finger in a panic, why did my tone have such deep concern, and why did I have to show my concern.I looked at him stiffly, thinking that I would see the sarcasm, but I was surprised to find that there was a faint smile in his eyes, so shallow that even he himself could not find it.

He joked, "So you mean, even if I don't follow you, you will tell me everything, right?"

I bit my lip, his seductive flirting made me feel a nameless sweetness in my heart, but when I thought that this was his habitual trick, I could only bite myself hard and let myself get out of here Waking up quickly from a dream.

I couldn't be alone with him anymore, so I turned my back, "We went to find the moonstone, but we couldn't find it." I tried to keep the story short in a flat tone.Sure enough, he stopped acting when he heard about Moonstone, "Oh, didn't find it? But I think we might try harder."

"What?" I didn't know what he meant.

He stood up, walked towards me step by step, and finally stopped close to me, looked down into my eyes, and lightly brushed my hair, "Baby, your clothes are messed up, tidy up, let's go out."

I took a step back and looked at him warily, "Where are you going?"

"You'll know when you change your clothes." He blinked, looking playful.

I stopped trying to know the plan ahead of time from him, so I said, "Okay, please go out first." He asked in bewilderment, "Why are you going out?" I suppressed my shame and almost gritted my teeth, " You are not asking me to change clothes, so please go out first."

"Oh..." He made a long sound, I thought he was just proud of playing tricks on me, but unexpectedly his next words made me blush from head to toe, I didn't even have the courage to look at him again, he said "What are you afraid of? Anyway, it's not like I haven't seen your naked body before." He pressed his chest and pressed against me again while talking. I was so nervous that I stretched out my hands to push back, but he pressed my hands on his heart The position, just this one, made my embarrassment a little bit less, I boldly looked up at him, revealing the pity that I didn't even realize, my eyes made his expression less joking and serious, Damon his The chest was peaceful, there was no beating of the heart, the cold skin brought me a deep sadness, I suddenly had the courage to look at him, in his long eternal life, I was just a small fragment, He should have been completely forgotten shortly after my death, but in my short life he was very important.Yes, it’s important. It’s the first time I’ve faced this feeling. I’ve been avoiding the importance of Damon to myself. Whether it’s hate, fear, temptation, sadness or pain, or occasional joy, it’s him who makes me feel so important. My originally peaceful life has these flavors, so I want to let myself just look at him like this, as if I want to carve his mold into my heart and bring him into the grave.

I lowered my head, then raised my head and smiled brightly at him, "Wait for me a moment." My tone became brisk.Taking out my clothes, I walked into the bathroom.The ambiguity just now was not intentional, but I was too shy to forget that he was just joking, and I also forgot that I could go into the bathroom to change clothes.

When walking on the street, Damon still looked wrong, and occasionally I could catch his probing eyes, but when I focused on him, he suddenly jumped like a discovered child. turned away.

Seeing that he seemed to have forgotten his purpose, I kindly reminded him, "Where are we going? We can't keep walking aimlessly like this." At this moment, he seemed to wake up and took a deep look at me.There happened to be a Taxi coming, and he stopped it. When he asked me to translate the destination, my heart became uneasy.

Along the way, the roadside scenery changed, why did Damon go to my father?

And me, what should I do?Why did fate push me in another direction when I decided not to see him?Father, how will you treat me after all?