[Vampire Diaries] I can't give you happiness

Do you want to continue?I asked myself repeatedly, and I raised my hand many times to turn over the thin paper, but it was so heavy that I couldn't succeed.I already know the result, reading my mother's diary seems to be counting down her life, how cruel it is.If my own shadow appears at the end of the diary, how can I deal with myself? This diary records a woman's life, but her short life was ended by her own flesh and blood, and the culprit is me.Mom, you are so beautiful, is that why God took you from us?I squeeze my eyes together, eyelashes wet with tears again, and I look at my wrist, hoping it will have a consciousness of its own and let me escape this difficult decision.I still put down my hands weakly, and I went to the window and pulled the curtains with a slam. The window was wide open when Clause left, and the cold wind at midnight blew my mind down, slowly calming down my emotions. The air dried my tear stains, and the sound of pages turning behind me was the wind, which messed up my notebook.After I calmed down, I seemed to have gained a lot of courage. I firmly picked up the notebook, sat on the sofa, and started from that page.

"Clause is a charming man, and although I try to control my expression, I can't ignore the pounding of my heart. He looks at me and smiles meaningfully, which almost makes me give up. Oh, Shinely, You can't do this, I'm too sorry for Brother Si De."

The mother was indeed attracted by him, but fortunately, it was only the pure and sudden freshness, the kind of excellence that was different from traditional Chinese men that hypnotized her.It is undeniable that Clause's mystery is like the other side of the night, with the temptation of hell, coupled with his aristocratic temperament, all these have reproduced for the young ladies an elegant image of a European hegemon from a distant era.However, although her mother loves him deeply because of her father, she can't help but like him, just like a friend.His erudition made his mother determined to alienate him and finally had to accept such a new friend.

"I don't go to the ball because no handsome man invites me. Just kidding, it's because I'm not used to being intimate with men. Oh, I'm a real Chinese girl. But because Clause Thanks to Tina's help, I gradually integrated into their world. I declined Clause's invitation, but I still decided to participate, but I didn't have a partner. This may be a special decision."

Mother danced with Clause, he taught her the graceful waltz, the lights were on that night, he made her the star of the night.Although mother's reason is resisting, she can see that she is very happy.A pair of brown eyes appeared uncontrollably in my head. Looking at the diary, I seemed to bring myself into it. The nod was out of my head, and I absolutely refused to admit that I was thinking about that person.

In the days that followed, they got along very happily. They often went out together, had picnics on the grass, sang together, and read books by the lake.They don't know Clause's specific occupation and he is not a student, but he will suddenly disappear for a long time, but every time he returns, they are happy, so after a year, there is Tina in the relationship at first and occasionally Other friends participated, but later Tina decided to quit unhappy, "I asked her why she always doesn't like to go out with us, Tina said, 'Can't you see that Clause is pursuing you? Why do you have to pretend to pull me away? Go in', she said sourly, and I belatedly realized she was in love with Clause, I should have known, I looked at my friend and said apologetically, 'Tina, I didn't...', but she interrupted immediately, 'Okay, don't say any more', and then she ran out crying."

It can be seen from this that the quarrel Tina mentioned should have started from that quarrel, but what happened later made their relationship continue to deteriorate. Is it because of this?In the following days, my mother rejected Clause's invitation. She needed to take a good look at herself. If she hurt her friend, would she hurt her father in the end?

It's just that Clause is obviously a proactive person. He made it clear his intention to pursue his mother, but he still didn't give up after being rejected.This made mom a headache, and she was so stupid that she could only avoid him by not meeting him to dispel his thoughts, but Clause seemed to know magic, no matter where she was, he could always find her.The result of this chasing after me is the deepening gloomyness in Tina's eyes.Mom asked Tina many times to explain, but she always failed under Clause's deliberate coincidence.

Mother finally lost her temper, and I can imagine her losing her temper.Clause didn't show up again in the next few months. While she felt lost, she felt relieved that she had lost a friend. There was also an invisible depression that made her dare not face it.

The relationship between mother and Tina has finally eased, which makes her very happy.Already a senior, approaching graduation, the pressure of study is getting heavier, and Clause also fades away from their conversation.

"Tina asked me, 'Shinely, are you really okay with Clause? You know I don't want to be taken for a fool by good friends.' Getting my nod, she gave me a trusting hug."

Then why did Clause come back?Is there something in my mother that he must have, or does he really love my mother?Oh, no, the latter speculation is too unimaginable. I would rather believe that there is something special about my mother than that she has any emotional connection with Clause.I frowned, and continued to scroll down intently. On one page, there was only a short sentence, "Clause, I'm back again." Hands with heavy strength.My heart was suspended little by little, and it could be seen that my mother was not as indifferent to Clause as she thought, she just lied to herself.

She didn't see the change in herself, but she could see the revived fire of love in Tina's eyes. Clause did contact them, and this time he restrained himself and showed no special intentions towards his mother, which made Tina very happy.They resumed their old life again, Clause accompanied them to and from the library and the dining room, and when they were writing hard, he sat quietly with a book and devoted himself completely.

Clause is handsome, even his reading posture is so graceful, sometimes my mother raises her head subconsciously, but she can always meet his smiling eyes.

Tina has something to leave school, but mother can't refuse Clause's invitation too deliberately, because he said they are friends.In the night, they sat by the lake and looked at the reflected lights, but Clause suddenly talked about his past. He said that he had a cruel childhood, which made his mother feel very distressed.By some coincidence, she held Clause's hand, God knows she just wanted to comfort him, but for some reason, and she didn't know who was first, maybe it was the bewitchment of the night, but she hugged and kissed him together.

"'Ah...' This scream woke me up. I turned around and saw Tina's angry eyes. I closed my eyes and felt extremely tired. I didn't explain to her because I didn't even understand myself. Dare to face it."

Turns out, that's what really broke Mom's relationship with Tina.

The mother said that she warmed the transparent stone that Clause gave that night with her hands, and she seemed to be able to see his deep eyes. She thought she should make a decision.I finally believe that my mother really owned the moonstone, but why did Clause give it to her?

Seeing this, I stopped because I couldn't see what decision she made.Although there was me later, which side of the decision did I come from?If, oh no, I dare to go any further, it will break me.My heart began to ache, protesting my heavy grief.I covered it, curled up my body, and wept silently.

I fell asleep with my laptop in my arms, but it didn't affect being woken up by him early in the morning.I hid the notebook and patted my face with cold water, hoping to cover up my gaffe, but luckily he didn't care about my appearance.

I'm back in town again, this time unlike yesterday, and the neighbors are very curious about my return, because I have a foreign man like Clause who can't be ignored, and they speak with a thick accent , "Rui Xue, are you back?" Listening to my Chinese name, I was in a trance for a moment.But I'm still the old me, and they're used to my shyness.

Clause stood in the middle of the room, his arms outstretched and his eyes closed, ordering me to be quiet.I felt that the air around me stopped flowing, and I watched his strange behavior nervously, not letting go of his expression.After a long time, he finally opened his eyes, but he looked at me like a ray, "Why not."

I replied, "I remember I told you last night that there are no transparent stones in my house. Why do you think there will be what you want here?"

"Your father told me he put everything I wanted in here."

"Father?" I asked suspiciously. I came back yesterday, and nothing has been moved here. Why did my father lie to him?

"It seems that he is not honest enough with me."

"No, my father must be telling the truth, otherwise, let's find out more?" Clause was angry, and I was really afraid that he would cause trouble for my father, so I immediately defended it.He looked into my eyes intently, "I can't feel it."

"Perhaps, perhaps..." It turned out that he was feeling the moonstone just now, "Maybe what father told you is just a clue, there is no transparent stone here, but there are clues to the transparent stone, yes, it must be like this." I breathed out To appease him, suddenly, my head flashed, notebook, so should I tell him?Or let him disturb his father's life again?My expression is very tangled, but fortunately his attention is no longer on me, otherwise I am afraid that I have already explained everything by not calling myself.

"It seems that there won't be any harvest today." He squinted at me, and walked out without staying.

"You won't trouble him, will you?" I needed his assurance, he was chased tirelessly by me, and finally said perfunctorily, "If he doesn't play tricks..."

Then I was silent, I thought I need to go back and read the entire notebook immediately, I can no longer be swayed by emotions, I must find out the truth of everything, and then make a decision.

I was relieved that Clause had left me alone again, and I was terrified I'd give away the secret in front of him.I walked through one block after another with a heavy heart, approaching the hotel, and the spicy smell I love wafted in the air.Dragging my exhausted body, I pushed the revolving door of the hotel. I ignored all the people and things around me, but suddenly I heard someone calling my name.

"Tammy", I turned my head subconsciously.

The first thing I saw was the corners of his mouth, and then he slowly put down his sunglasses, revealing those smiling brown eyes. The moment I saw him, I felt that I was in an unreal world, maybe it was me Unreal, maybe he, how did he appear here, how did he find me, "Damon?" I said, hoping to break the illusion with my voice.He pulled me closer and hugged my stiff body, "Baby, do you miss me?"