[Vampire Diaries] I can't give you happiness

I have never thought about what it would be like if I saw my father again. I am connected with him by blood. As for his occupation, I only know the word "businessman", but what he did specifically was blocked by someone. In fact The funny thing is that I just can't know it.I once asked my grandma about my father. At that age when I still needed the love of my father and mother, I strongly hoped to be able to face my father day and night.Although I was born with a special child, my understanding could not keep up with the information I received, so I knew that my father hated me for the fact that my mother chose me to give up myself. What is the hate, until many years later I understood Father's love is a luxury to me until I really understand it.For my father, I am both looking forward to and fearing. I closed my fantasy, but I couldn't stop its growth. I was duplicity, and I was self-deceivingly happy to see my father, but because I understood his hatred And being afraid of seeing him and being hated by his closest relatives is a pain that no one can bear.

Now, I have to face my father again, but I'm not ready yet.

"Clause", I falter and stop him.He stopped and waited, "I, I'll go with you, but, can I not let my father see me?"

He looked at me deeply and said, "You will regret it."

I didn't understand what he meant, but before I could ask my doubts, Clause strode forward and walked away, ignoring people.I frowned, and because I was about to see my father's complicated mood, I put this doubt in my heart.

I don't know who arranged it, but they booked a movie theater as a meeting place.In the dim environment, I hid in the projection room and watched Clause slowly walk towards the only person sitting in a certain row in the middle. From my perspective, I could only see the part above his shoulders.However, I am extremely sure that that person is my father who exiled me.

Clause sat down beside him, but his father still maintained the original posture, nothing changed.I couldn't hear what they were talking about, but I just focused all my eyes on the man who made me love and fear at the same time. Looking at his unmoving body, scenes and scenes flowed in my mind, and finally shed tears uncontrollably The stream flowed down until my vision was blurred, and it still made me reluctant to look away.I don't know how long I stood like this, suddenly, my father turned his head and looked in my direction, I squatted down hurriedly, covered my mouth with my right hand, and burst into tears without daring to make a sound, how sad I am, even my own father I dare not meet each other, how sad I am, the person who loved me the most in this life died because of me, and the person who hated me the most in this life is my dearest relative.

I don't know if my father saw me, but when I finally dared to cast my eyes on that position again, I found that only Clause was left.I immediately stood up and looked around, no, no, father, it turned out that he had already left.

I stumbled out of the screening room, walked to Clause's side, and greedily sat where my father had just sat, as if I could still feel his remaining warmth. "What did you tell my father?" I asked.

Clause turned his head and looked at me deeply, his brown eyes were extremely focused, but his expression was full of sadness, "You have a good father."

I don't understand, so I expected him to continue, but the conversation stopped there, my body reacted faster than my mind, I tugged on his arm, trying to ask clearly, but once Clause decides not to talk, then it can be absolutely quiet down.

"If, I also have such a good father..." I complained that he always half-spoken, looked at him with his mouth flattened, and let the movie theater be quiet and cold in the dark, but unexpectedly he said something inconsequential when he didn't expect it , It's just that I don't care about my business, so I don't take it to heart.

Clause allowed me to move freely in City A. When I looked at him in surprise after he announced the amnesty, Clause still didn't respond to me coolly.In fact, since coming to City A, Clause has been immersed in a strange emotion, I can't express it, a little excited, a little worried, a little scared, a little overwhelmed, maybe I think too much, Clause who is as powerful as a god How can I show vulnerability in front of me?

But since I can go where I want, even if I don't understand the reasons for his decision, it doesn't prevent me from changing my impression of him.In the first two days, I was still a little hesitant about this, fearing that Clause might have some conspiracy, but judging from his behavior of leaving early and returning late and hardly meeting me, I should really not be imprisoned in the hotel.

Undoubtedly, I went back to that small town first. The people in the small town didn’t have any special reaction to my sudden departure and return. It was a warm and kind person who took the initiative to greet me, and I just nodded shyly, but went home faster to hide.If it’s a vacation, I’ll just hide in the attic, look into the distance through the skylight, or quietly imagine a world in front of the book, live in it, and comfort myself.Therefore, my disappearance and return have no impact on them at all. After all, they are used to my disappearance, so they ignore any whereabouts of me.

Opening the two old wooden doors, a little dust on the ceiling has fallen on my head. It looks like no one has lived in it for a long time, but the furnishings inside are still the same as when I left, which means that since I locked the door At that moment, no one stepped here again.I gently touched everything I was familiar with along the wooden stairs, climbed to the attic, and sat in my favorite place again. I looked out along the skylight, looked at the blue sky and white clouds, and looked at the green mountains in the distance. Fell asleep.

When I woke up, the sun had already set in the west, and there was a feeling that time stood still, and I suddenly wondered if everything that happened in the past few months was a dream.Finally, touch the bookcase that accompanied me growing up. Because I left in a hurry, I only took away a few books, and the rest remained where they were.I looked at the books standing upright next to each other, checked their names one by one, and each of them could recall the way I read them at the beginning. My hands moved from left to right like playing a piano, and finally , found a strange notebook appeared out of thin air, I am sure it is definitely not my thing, because I remember every inch of the bookcase deeply.

I frowned and took out the notebook, wondering who would put it in.

When I turned over the first page and saw the name inscribed on it, my hand was suddenly so weak that I couldn't grasp it. I let the notebook fall to the ground and collide with the wooden floor, making an old echo.My head went blank for a few seconds, and after taking a few deep breaths, I looked down at the notebook lying on the ground, but I didn't have the courage to pick it up.

At this time, the phone rang, "Where are you?" It was Clause's voice.

I didn't answer directly, but just said, "I'll be right back." Then there was silence, and after waiting for a few seconds, the phone beeped and hung up.This time I didn't hesitate anymore, squatted down, hugged the notebook firmly in my arms, went downstairs, took a last look at the room, locked the door, turned and left.

Clause was waiting for me directly in my room, the curtains were still drawn tightly as I left, he sat on the single sofa, silent, only the very dark shadow made me sure it was him after the sudden shock, Because those eyes that can shine in the dark, like wolves, can't be ignored.

"You said that I can move freely." The moment I plugged in the room card and took off the electricity, I was the first to speak to block any accusations he would have. Clause stood up. "I want you to go somewhere tomorrow," he said.

I silently indicated that he continued, "Go to your house in the small town where you live." After hearing his words, my heart beat faster, what does Clause mean?I still don't speak, waiting for his explanation.Fortunately, he didn't say "I need to get something" like he did a few times before.

"What do I have at home?" I asked, what does he need?Is there any secret in the family that I don't know, but since I don't know, how does Clause know?

"You don't need to know this, get ready, we'll leave early tomorrow morning." He said as he walked, walking directly in my direction, and finally motioned me to get out of the way, he wanted to go out.

I was still fixed at the door, with no intention of moving away, "I just went back today, you tell me what it is, and I will tell you whether it is there or not."

Clause looked down at me calmly, and met my gaze, "A transparent stone."

"Can you be more specific?" This description is too irresponsible. Transparent stones are everywhere.

"A transparent stone that I gave to your mother, so the stone I found in your house is what I'm looking for."

Suddenly, a light flashed across my head. Could it be the moonstone, but hasn't the moonstone been destroyed?Is there a second one in the world?

"However, my mother has never lived there, so if it belongs to my mother, it should not appear in the town. Because of this, I don't think you need to go." I kindly reminded.

"You don't need to worry about this, just follow my orders." After finishing speaking, he motioned for me to get out of the way again.But I was still indifferent, I looked at him seriously and seriously, and said in a deep voice, "Clause, what is my role?" He was stopped by my words, and fell silent.But I continued, "As long as you promise not to hurt my friend, then, no matter what you need me to do, I have no objection, so I hope you can tell me clearly." After I finished speaking, Clause turned and walked out of the window Jumping out, I closed my eyes, waiting for the unknown made me feel really tired.

I put the notebook in my arms in the center of the bed, clasped my hands tightly to give myself strength, and finally decided to open it. I slowly turned it over, and passed the signature on the first page, and then on the next page, when I saw the photo on it, Tears fell down like that suddenly.

"Mom," I choked out.On the first page, my mother's life in her youth was directly facing me, she smiled so brightly and happily.

"Tomorrow is the day to go to the United States. I feel both nervous and excited. I don't know what my persistence will bring me, but I am moved by Brother Si De's support. I swear, when I see a different After the world, I will definitely come back to accompany Brother Si De, and repay him with the rest of my life.” This is my mother’s writing, her handwriting is delicate and slender, and between the lines is written the psychology and decision on the eve of leaving for the United States.

I looked down and saw the records of my mother when she was young, followed by her first visit to the United States, talking about the excitement when she first went to the United States, but the pain when she was rejected by everyone, but my mother is an optimistic and strong person. People, she said, "They don't like me because they don't understand me. If I work hard enough and are good enough, then I will enrich myself and earn myself a sigh of relief, so shinely, come on!" In the passage, I can even imagine my mother's stubborn expression at that time, the tears never stopped since she opened her eyes, Mom, I am one step closer to you.

But, later, when she wrote about the first time she met a person named Clause, I didn’t dare to continue reading, because I vaguely knew that mother’s happiness seemed to be no longer simple from this moment, waiting for her sorrow, It must be related to this person. At this time, I began to resent Clause, why did he appear.