[Vampire Diaries] I can't give you happiness

I want to meet someone, desperately.So in the darkness of night, I rushed out the door.I stood blankly on the street, watching the feasting and feasting, not worried about which direction Katherine would come from. The wind blew my hair on my forehead, just like my chaotic mood at the moment.I raised my hand unconsciously, and the Taxi stopped in front of me. The driver stuck out his head when he saw me standing still, "Miss, do you want to go?" I just recovered from his question, so I opened the car door in a panic , I am embarrassed to report the address to the driver.

The taxi sped up, passed through the entire town of Mystic Falls, arrived at the exit, and then walked on a quiet road, the surroundings became dark, and the green vegetation on the way added to the tranquility of the night.It was quiet in the car, and the driver was not a talkative person. I was stunned and didn't think about anything. It seemed that the car stopped after only a moment. I turned around blankly and saw that I had arrived. destination.

She opened the door and saw me standing at the door, with her mouth wide open for a long time, and then gave me a big hug excitedly, "My dear baby, this is really a huge surprise, come in quickly." Lexi said He pulled me into the room enthusiastically, "Lexi..." I don't know why I came to her, but I feel very safe just looking at her.

"What's the matter, baby?" She turned her head and waited suspiciously for what I didn't have. I smiled and shook my head, "I just wanted to call you."

Lexi was too busy. She told me that she had been in retreat for a long time, but she still decided to take a day off because of my arrival.

Lexi wanted to arrange night activities for us, but I refused, "Oh, baby, look at your sluggish look, we need some passion to stimulate vitality, don't stay at home, let's go out for a walk."

I pursed my lips, "L, I don't want to go anywhere, I just want to stay in the house, I feel so tired." I begged her to give up the habit of relaxing, seeing my insistence, she spread her hands, "Well , let’s have a long talk.” Lexi put her arms around my shoulders and led me into her bedroom, there was some clutter in L’s bedroom, probably because of the busy time, but I remember that she was a neat person , I hope she won't be embarrassed by the mess I see in the house.

"Wait", just as she was about to step in, she stopped me suddenly, then jumped up and let me go, and rushed to the bed in two quick steps to put the littered underwear into the closet.Then she pursed her lips and turned around, "Okay, come in, please forget everything you saw just now", she winked at me as she said, and I agreed with her understanding smile.

Turn off the lights, take off your shoes without taking off your clothes, lie on the bed, close your eyes and listen to Xingxing Xingxing.Next to it is Lexi's slow breathing, the occasional heat in the coolness, "Baby, what happened?" Her voice was calm and full of worry, I turned my head in surprise, looking at the pixels in the dark She looked extremely low, "How can I see that?"

"Tammy, you are a very easy person to understand, because you are very quiet, if you stop bowing your head, then you have something on your mind. But at the same time, you are also a difficult person to understand, because you are too quiet and don't tell me anything " She also turned her head to face me, strangely, I could suddenly see her bright eyes.

"L, I feel very tired, my body is very tired, and my heart is also very tired. I don't think this is the life I want. I don't want to be like this, but I am being oppressed to move forward." I'm not going to confess to her what happened to me during this period of time, but I think she can understand my fragility.

Lexi wriggled closer to me, her arm against mine, her hand gripping mine, "T, listen to me, life is like this, failures and setbacks, beauty and pain, if it's too much If you are single, then living will lose a lot of meaning.”

"I understand, but L, I don't want such a life, if..." I shook my head anxiously, trying to say that I was not afraid of setbacks, but rather, but I felt at a loss while talking. "My dear, there is no if, you want to say that if it is not like this, then you can face it calmly, right? But if you don't encounter these things, there will be other things. Is another difficulty acceptable to you? If you If you can accept it, is it still difficult? So don’t try to escape, the more you are afraid, the greater the pressure will be, and you will find that the problem is not as difficult as you imagined.”

Yeah, what I can't say if it's because of Lexi's persuasion?This is not the life I want, so what is it that I want?If not this one, will I be satisfied with the other?

I suddenly became enlightened, and sighed, "L, I'm the one who got stuck, and I can't see clearly when standing in the fog, thanks to you."

She smiled, "Which I told you, you know it clearly, you just need someone to encourage you, so my dear Tammy, don't be afraid, please remember that you still have me." The warmth in my heart passed by in an instant, My blood suddenly warmed up, but I was a little embarrassed to face Lexi's affectionate words, so I closed my eyes and wanted to escape for a few minutes, letting the hot blush on my face soak in the dark night wind little by little bottom of my heart. Lexi understands me, so she understands that my quietness is not ungrateful, but a shy escape from the depth of love.With my eyes closed, neither of us spoke, I thought I was about to fall asleep in this tranquility, when suddenly her voice buzzed in my ears, "T, do you have someone you like?" My mind suddenly became clear, and my heart Jumping inexplicably in a panic, I quickly turned my head to look in her direction again, "He, why did you say that?"

"Hehe..." Lexi didn't answer, but chuckled lightly.I don't know why, "Baby, do you know? You said the same thing twice, and the last time you asked me this way, it means that I asked you in your heart. And this time you reacted the same way, so..."

Her joking voice played on my restless heart, making me dare not speak, and I pursed my mouth tightly, thinking that by doing so, I could deny her guess.But obviously enthusiastic Americans are particularly keen on this, Lexi is not going to let me go, "Oh, have I met that person, do you recognize him, how are you doing now? Tell me quickly..." She pointed Poking my arm, urging me.But I don't understand this question myself, so how can I tell her? "I..." opened her mouth, but didn't know what to say, "Oh, is it..." She looked mysterious, "What?" I asked.

"He?" She dragged the word very long, who was he in Lexi's mouth, an evil face suddenly appeared in my mind, he had a pair of brown eyes, his smile was dangerous, and he was moody.No, I shook my head, how could I think of this person, what happened to me today, it's too inexplicable. "What him?" I covered my chest and asked Lexi in a panic, but I was afraid that she would say something that terrified me.

"Damon".

"What, how is it possible..." I clutched my chest and sat up, choking to deny it.

"It's not such a big movement, I'm really deceiving myself." Lexi put her hands on top of her head, changed to a more comfortable position, and lay down comfortably, talking sarcasticly, but I could only keep my mouth shut and no longer speak. "Baby, you have to be brave if you like someone, otherwise it will be someone else's." She also sat up and stood next to me again, encouraging with an experienced tone, "It will never be mine..." I floated out this sentence subconsciously, and I was surprised by my reaction after I finished speaking. How could I say that, I am so strange.

"How do you know if you don't look hard?" She patted my shoulder with strength in her tone.I gently and slowly lay down again, turned my back to Lexi, "L, I'm sleepy".

"Okay, good night." She obviously didn't want to finish, but seeing my resistance, she had to pause.

The next day, I woke up just after dawn, the morning dew made the air moist, and I whispered in Lexi's ear, "Lexi, I'm going to go to class in a hurry. "

She obviously looked uncomfortable after being woken up, with her right arm covering her eyes, "Well, be careful."

It was still too early, and there was no one on the street. I walked slowly along the road, waiting for the car to pass by. It was a little cold in the early morning. I hugged my two outer arms and rubbed each other. In 10 minutes, I saw a car coming towards me. I stopped and waited for it to pass by, but I didn't expect the car to stop in front of me. I was wondering when I saw the window slowly rolling down. , the outline of a handsome man appeared in front of my eyes, it was the face that people will never forget, full of aristocratic temperament, he turned his head and said to me, "Get in the car."

I didn't move, but looked straight into his eyes, he didn't urge me, he put his hands on the steering wheel, and kept his face facing me for me to look at him enough, I looked at him, but actually didn't think about anything, just Look at it this way, that's all.

"I think we need to go to school to ask for leave." He still spoke, but the meaning of the words puzzled me, but my lazy body understood his instructions, walked around to the other side, opened the car door, and sat in it.

"I think you know a lot about me?" He asked politely, and I nodded.

"So do you know my purpose?" He continued to ask, this time I shook my head and looked at him timidly.

"What a quiet child, really different from her." He commented, and my heart trembled, was she the one he was talking about?Who is she, will it be the one I think of?

"However, she is as beautiful as Shinely..." He turned his head and smiled at me, but I was shocked as if struck by lightning, I opened and closed my lips, and finally asked tremblingly, "Who is she? who?"

He smiled mysteriously before replying, "My love."

Immediately, my pupils dilated infinitely, and my whole body stiffened. How could he, how could he, I didn’t know whether I was angry or afraid, my body was trembling and I couldn’t stop it no matter what, I clenched my fists and tried hard to suppress the person in front of me I could see something strange, but his eyes that understood everything left me nowhere to hide.I think the car is too quiet, if I don't say anything, I think I will go crazy, "Why do you want to ask for leave?" My words escaped from between my teeth, and my tone was as normal as possible.

"I can't go to class for a while, don't I need to ask for leave? A good boy must abide by discipline." He taught me like an elder, which made me feel even more uncomfortable. Why did he treat me with such an attitude? He thought he was Who, why would he say something like that.

I asked him to wait in a secluded place, leaving me time to arrange everything by myself. Under the violent mood swings, I returned home. The ups and downs of my chest made me feel pain slowly. I shook my hands and opened the refrigerator door. He took out the medicine bottle and grabbed a handful, no matter how much he had, and stuffed it directly into his mouth.Sitting weakly on the bed, I just wanted to rest and didn't want to do anything. I hunched my back, lowered my center of gravity even more, and stared at the floor with my head lowered. Suddenly, I stood up, feeling flustered and scared.

How did he find me there, so has Lexi been exposed, how much does he know about me?Will he hurt my Lexi?Should I spread out and ask him to give a clear warning, or keep silent in case he would seize the weight of threatening me because of my recklessness.

Ah, my head hurts, how could this happen, Lexi, Lexi, I shouldn't have gone to you.