Shiva

[Samara].

Seventh day.

The biological clock is loud and powerful. When I opened my eyes, I only felt that my hands and feet were sore and limp.Shen Xu circled me from behind and said good morning with the voice in his dream.

"Good morning." I turned over carefully and approached him, "I still want to go to the Ganges bath today."

Even in the dazed early morning, Shen Xu can see through my lame tricks, "It will be too late to see Shiva."

I wanted to stretch in his arms, and said tentatively, "If it's too late, it's tomorrow."

"Tomorrow you will say the day after tomorrow." Shen Xu grabbed a piece of clothing and covered my face, "Come on, Xiaojin, put on some clothes, and then we set off for the airport."

There was an ambiguous dark color in front of me, I lay quietly under my clothes, my nose sore, "Shen Xu, can you listen to me once..."

The bargaining that was doomed to fail, Shen Xu saw that I didn't want to move for a long time, turned over and sat on my crotch, and helped me button my shirt one by one with his head down. When it was down, there was an extra grain on the right side, so I unbuttoned it and buckled it again.

I couldn't be happier, but he seemed more distraught than I was.

God created the world in six days and rested on the seventh day, so he didn't visit Rishikesh?This city hidden under the foothills of the Himalayas and dedicated to long practice?

Because it is so beautiful and has a calmness that is difficult to obtain in other cities in India. Compared with the Yingying Temple of the Taj Mahal, Rishikesh’s introverted temperament is simple and precious. Touching the ground, the lowest temperature in the area near the snow-capped mountains dropped to [-] degrees. I held Shen Xu's hand, not willing to let go for a second.

Like turning into a little mermaid, the gloomy premonition weighed on me, every step I took was on the tip of a knife, the wind blowing from the Ganges River brushed my face, a little bit of fishy moisture, and changed the outline of Shen Xu's face. Dim and far away, I looked at him, and he looked at a pewter-blue building with a white top and golden tip, showing an enamel-like luster under the occasional sunlight between the clouds.

We walked to see the statue of Shiva, passing through the returning pilgrims, and they were indifferent to each other, perhaps because of their own obsessions.

The [-]-meter road is like a deep illusion. There are [-] sands in the Ganges River. I am one of them. At the feet of Shiva, be a pair of persistent and determined believers.

So we saw him, and his unchanging face for the century.

"Xiao Jin," Shen Xu inhaled lightly, for fear of disturbing anyone, "We're here."

Shiva sits cross-legged on the long river, his clean face is unadorned, but still shockingly beautiful, his calm and agile expression is like the joint of spirit and flesh, his bare skin seems to return from the ashes of a burning fire, full of vitality full.

In the library of the university in the afternoon, my fingers stopped on the last line of typeface, which reads "Shiva willingly swallowed a poisonous boa constrictor in order to save mankind, and his neck has since turned black... "

"Shen Xu, hey, Shen Xu." I called him softly, pushed the book over, "I found it."

My boyfriend leaned over to me, chanting silently, the air conditioner in the room was fully turned on, and the shadows of the trees were dancing outside the window. It was the summer when everything grew. I looked at his face, seeing the smallest detail, seeing There is no end to beauty.

"That's right..." Shen Xu nodded.

"The venom has corroded the blood vessels and skin, Shiva must be in great pain." I shrank my neck empathetically, but Shen Xu was noncommittal.

"Isn't it?" I asked him, "Extremely painful."

Shen Xu shook his head slightly, and closed the book: "I think it's a kind of relief."

"Relief..." I stared at the black-and-white pictures in the appendix. Shen Xu said this. When I looked at Shiva again, he suddenly shrouded in an aura of returning from the underworld. Incarnate into immortality.

The wind was blowing in Rishikesh, I looked at Shiva, turned my head, and saw myself in Shen Xu's eyes.He was very close to me, his pupils constricted because of concentration, as if it was not Shiva but me who confused him at this moment.

I touched his lips.Just one touch will be captivatingly soft.

"Do you want to take a picture with Shiva?" After a short kiss, Shen Xu still stayed where he was, with his head tilted slightly to the left, maintaining a posture leaning towards me, his Adam's apple rolled, and then hurriedly lowered his head to adjust the aperture of the camera , I took the strap off his neck and said without hesitation: "You always shoot me, and let me shoot you once."

Shen Xu obviously hesitated, but in the end he handed the camera to me, "Click here."

"it is good."

I walked a few steps with the camera in my hand, and it wasn't long before I started to miss his lips, so I quickly walked back to Shen Xu again, and clasped the back of his neck.I moved a little eagerly, Shen Xu was stunned for a moment, and then hugged my waist tightly so that we could kiss like no one else, inseparable.

"Shang Jin, I love you the most in my life." He said.

His lips and the tip of his tongue were so tender, and the response to my embrace was so warm, as if... as if it was our last kiss.

The crowd was getting more and more crowded, I walked backwards, not willing to let Shen Xu leave my sight for a second, but he just stood there, not going anywhere, when I quickly raised the camera, he seemed to be smiling.

The shutter sounded, and Shen Xu stayed at Shiva's feet, flapping his wings in the wind with his eyes full of love and his clothes turned up at a corner.

"Shen Xu, after watching Shiva, where shall we go?"

"Shen Xu, I'll listen to you. You can go wherever you say. I'll refund the ticket. We still have a lot of places we haven't gone together."

"Shen Xu? Shen Xu?"

I put down the camera, but there was no longer Shen Xu, it was empty, and the gap was quickly filled by the white-robed practitioner later, I was dazed, and walked a few steps in the direction where he had existed.

The sudden parting was like a knife cutting my heart back and forth, abandoning my calmness, something was leaving my body inch by inch, and drifted behind me in vain.

He seems to have never existed, and seems to be everywhere, and he seems to say——

"—don't look for me."

"Don't come to India to find me."

"Shen Xu!" I yelled unwillingly, trying my best to push through the crowd, and the exclamation suddenly sounded. I staggered, my eyes dimmed, and I was knocked down by a rickshaw.The skin on my elbow was scratched, but it didn’t hurt. I quickly stood up and continued to run. I could find what I could find, I could find him. Shen Xu just got lost, he didn’t disappear. When I searched all the places, can see him.

The ground under my feet became soft, and my steps froze. I realized that I had chased to the Ganges, and my voice was so hoarse that I could hardly make a sound.

"Where are you......"

The sand in my hand slipped through my fingers, I turned my head, Shiva seemed to be thousands of miles away from me, I stared straight at him, tears welled up.

"do not leave Me."

Shiva was silent amid the uproar, and then his shape gradually changed, becoming thinner and shorter—becoming a man of flesh and blood.

Age spots showed on her bare skin, her neck was still black and her silvery hair was tied with a hood, and she smiled at me, exhaling warm breath, and beckoned me to say something.

The scenery changed in an instant, and I stood in front of the pancake stand, staring at the Chinese signboard in a daze.

"Six yuan." The old lady cut off a piece of cake and wiped her hands.I heard the sound of cars, footsteps, and indiscriminate conversations, circling around like flies.

Oh, it was just a dream.

I shook my head and paid the bill as if I had just woken up. The old lady tore a newspaper and wanted to help me wrap the sauce pancakes. My nerves jumped, and I suddenly turned away, "No! Don't want this."

The old lady looked down, smiled apologetically, threw the newspaper aside, and replaced it with a plastic bag.

The elevator went up dizzyingly. I entered the house with my first foot, and then I received a message from the head of the department, saying that my leave note was approved. If I need it, it doesn’t matter if I ask for a few more days.

As if my brain was filled with paste, I didn't understand until the third time I read it, and replied: [Thank you, team leader, I will return to work on time. ]

[You alone...can you do it? ]

[My boyfriend is with me. ] I was typing while eating the cake, [he will be home soon. ]

After exiting the chat page, there were two unused air tickets lying in the electronic card wallet. My boyfriend hadn’t come back yet. I took a mouthful of the soy sauce biscuit and chewed it slowly.

On August [-]th, the plane was delayed for half an hour, and my boyfriend let me go.

The temperature in Delhi was steaming, and I dragged my luggage among the crowd, looking for the transfer station in a daze.

Near the afternoon, I stood between two khaki buses to make a choice and chose the left.

I met a man in the car, he was only carrying a travel bag, wearing a light-colored plaid shirt, clean, with a tall and straight Asian face.

Ha, how lucky I was, he said softly that he was also Chinese.

"My name is Shen Xu."

He smiled warmly, the sun shining brightly on half of his eyelashes.

As before, it terrified me.

———The End————