The Joy of Her Two Worlds [Rebirth]
Chapter 077
From my aunt, I learned what happened during this time.
The aunt said that her grandma was always worried about when she would be able to pay off so much money?She couldn't eat and couldn't sleep, but the only way she could think of to make money was to work, chopping firewood and selling it for some money, so she went to chop firewood.
There is a factory in the town that asks someone to press the lids of small toys. Three cents a penny. Grandma also does this. Others say that the purple-blue hay in the mountains costs [-] cents a catty. She also does it. She has been thinking How to make some money.
She said that if she saved more money, when Qin Sishao grew up, she would be able to pay back less.
Aunt and Qin Sishao talked a lot about grandma, but at the end, aunt hesitated to speak, and finally just asked her when she would go back to school?
Qin Sishao has not yet arrived for the winter vacation, and still has classes to attend.
Qin Sishao said she didn't know.
She has read books for so many years, and for the first time, she became tired of studying, and for the first time, she had the idea of not reading.
After she got home, she took a small bench and sat next to her grandpa to talk to her grandpa. Grandpa told her to go back to school tomorrow, saying that she was too late this semester, and said that when she was admitted to university, she would visit grandma's grave. Grandma will be very happy.
Qin Sishao nodded with a sob, looking at her grandpa's vicissitudes of life, she couldn't say that I don't want to study anymore.
The next day, she went to school.
After the winter vacation, she went home.
The bacon and sausages smoked by her grandfather after she left home were hung on the stove at home. There were still fish left in the pond. She and her grandfather drained the water together, fished out all the fish, and sold them in the town.
This year's New Year, she and her grandpa were the only two people in the family. Grandpa attached great importance to the Spring Festival. On New Year's Eve, he cooked a table of dishes, filled three bowls of rice, poured three glasses of drinks, and said to the seat where grandma used to sit.
"It's Chinese New Year."
She had a New Year's Eve dinner with her grandfather, watched the Spring Festival Gala together, and kept vigil very late. She went back to her room to sleep, and the tears she had held back for a long time finally fell out.
This Spring Festival, she paid New Year's greetings at some relatives' homes in the village, and then began to read books and write novels.
She spends more and more time writing novels. Qin Sishao's goal is no longer Qingbei, but a university in Nancheng. As long as it is a university in Nancheng, it is close to home. She doesn't worry about grandpa, and it will be convenient for her to go home in the future. Or she bought a house earlier and brought her grandpa to live in Nancheng.
She made money early in her novels, and compared to many authors, she is so lucky. The money she earns can support herself and her grandfather.
She told Grandpa that he didn't need to farm the land, he didn't need to weave farm tools to make money, and he could earn less money than she did in a day. All he needed to do was rest, go to the village to play, chat with people, or play cards. .
In the summer vacation of the second year of high school, she returned to her hometown.
The moment Qin Sishao saw his grandpa when he got home, he felt that he was very lonely and lonely.
He lives alone, except watching TV and listening to some sounds every day.
Most of the time he just sits at home in a daze, or works in the field, and he doesn't like to go out.
Qin Sishao's condition was not very good at that time, she became more and more silent, except that she had to communicate with others, she would not speak if she could.
She stays in the room every day to do test papers, write novels, and go downstairs to cook and eat when the time comes.
People become more and more afraid of loneliness when they get old, and the silence at home is terrifying every day.
Grandpa went to the town and bought a litter of little fluffy chickens and ducklings. They were too small for him to let out, so he locked them in the yard and fed them green vegetables and rice every day. Talk to chicks and ducklings for a long time.
Sometimes when Qin Sishao heard her grandfather talking to them, she wanted to cry, but she kept crying, but she couldn't make a sound.
She asked grandpa to go out for a walk and play in the village. She took him out to play and talked with him, and he felt better.
But it was so unexpected. When grandpa was eating one day, he was talking to her happily. He said that the chickens and ducklings he raised had grown up a lot, and they would be able to lay eggs in half a year. After he said this sentence Also laughed, and he laughed a lot.
Then, he died suddenly.
Suddenly, Qin Sishao didn't even react.
When she realized that the rice bowl in her hand fell to the ground, she was not afraid at all, but sad, and she will be alone in the future.
She also wanted to die.
Why does she want to live in this world?
She thought about a lot of things, and was scolded when she was a child, and she didn't deserve to live.
She used to think it was good to be alive, how beautiful the world was.
Now, she feels that this wonderful world has nothing to do with her.
But she just shed tears, walked outside while crying, and called some relatives in the village to come over.
They are elders, knowing that she is a child and can't deal with grandpa's affairs well, so they contacted grandpa's children.
This time, everyone said that they were busy with work and didn't want to go home, and said that since Qin Sishao was at home, let her handle it.
Listening to their quarrel on the phone, Qin Sishao began to wonder if her grandparents would live long if she was drowned and buried alive. She hated herself to the extreme and felt that she was not worthy of anything.
If they didn't come back, the relatives had no choice but to ask someone to come over and give the grandfather medicine to ensure that the corpse would not rot or stink.
They all came to her house and sat together to watch the time. The funeral still had to be done. They asked Qin Sishao, did her grandfather leave any savings?It has to be used for funerals, and she can borrow money for her future tuition fees.
Qin Sishao said yes, and grandpa wrapped it in cloth and put it in his padded jacket. There were hundreds of dollars, dozens of dollars, one dollar, and ten cents. They counted them, and they were almost 2 yuan.
Most of this money was Qin Sishao's money given to grandpa in the past six months, and he let him use it as living expenses. He was reluctant to use it, saying that she was too young and it was not easy to make money, so he saved it for her.
2 yuan is not enough for a funeral. Qin Sishao said that she has money, so she asked them to discuss what they need to buy, and made a list for her. No matter how much money, she would pay.
Grandpa's funeral was very simple, and relatives wanted to save some money for her. They looked at her with sympathy, and finally said that they should study hard and get into a good university.
She didn't speak, just nodded.
After grandpa was buried, she was the only one left in the family, and there were a bunch of chickens and ducklings, which she raised for many days.
It is too hot in summer, and she fetches water every day to water several vegetable fields.
After the summer vacation, she is going back to school.
She gave the food that could be eaten at home to her relatives, including chickens and ducklings, and said that they would pick the vegetables in the vegetable field if they wanted to eat them. She should not come back until the Chinese New Year. She cleaned up again and went to I went to the forest where my grandparents were buried and burned a bunch of paper money for them.
After she got home, she locked the door, put the key in her schoolbag, and left with her schoolbag on her back.
Life in the third year of high school is much more hectic than that in the second year of high school. Qin Sishao would be very tired of facing endless test papers every day. Her grades were no longer that good, and she was replaced early in the first grade.
Even, with her current grades, she couldn't even get into grade [-].
In class, I was distracted, in a daze, and sometimes fell asleep.
The teachers didn't want to care about her very much, she was too silent, she just nodded or lowered her head when the teacher talked to her, it was too tiring to communicate with her, the patience of the teachers was gradually exhausted by her.
Qin Sishao has no friends, not even a close classmate.
Everyone knows that she has a withdrawn personality. She never takes the initiative to talk to people, and her classmates will not look for her either.
The only thing that comforted Qin Sishao was that her novels were getting better and better. In the third year of high school, she had already saved enough money to buy a house in Nancheng.
But what's the point of those?Grandma is gone, grandpa is gone.
She dreamed of buying a big house and bringing her grandparents to live with her. When she saved enough money to buy the house, the two old people were gone.
There is only one person she cares about in this world, but she is far away abroad, and now she has no ability to find Jiang Chi.
Qin Sishao began to think, she found Jiang Chi, does Jiang Chi still remember her?Would you still consider her a friend?
People like her are not liked at all.
How could Jiang Chi remember her and like her?
The third year of high school was very difficult for Qin Sishao. She was either tired of studying or tired of the world. Every day when she did a good job on the questions, she would suddenly cry.
The teacher thought she was under too much pressure, and the school also attached great importance to the mental health of the students. The psychology teacher always talked to her and asked her to take medicine and cooperate with treatment.
They all said she was sick, she was sick.
But she felt that she was not sick, she just didn't want to live, and couldn't find the meaning of her life in this world.
But she still cooperates with them, she receives treatment, takes medicine every day, she is still unhappy.
After the college entrance examination, it was not long before her birthday. She was already in her hometown at that time, and she stayed at home to write novels.
On her birthday, she went to the town to buy a small birthday cake, inserted eighteen candles, and after blowing them out, she made a wish.
She hoped that she could find Jiang Chi one day in the future.
It was the first time she had a birthday cake, the first time she had a birthday cake, and she ate it all.
After eating, she lay on the bed in a daze. She thought about a lot of things, but she didn't seem to think about anything.
In a few days, the results came out.
656 points.
This score is considered a good score in many people's minds, but Nancheng No. [-] Middle School has a lot of students with a score of [-] or above this year, plus a bunch of students who were recommended to Tsinghua University and Peking University.
Qin Sishao chose the computer department of Nancheng University.
Her idea is very simple. Computer science is a popular major. It is easier to make money than other majors in this era. She has to work hard to make money, and then go abroad to find Jiang Chi.
Jiang Chi is the only hope left in her life.
Jiang Chi didn't remember her anymore, so she just watched Jiang Chi from a distance, she didn't disturb Jiang Chi, she was very happy to see Jiang Chi.
After college started, she didn't join any clubs, never skipped classes, and wrote novels most of the day.
She is earning more and more money, but her whole body is always suddenly sad. She has been receiving treatment, trying to get herself out, but she can't. The girls in the dormitory said that she was stupid when writing novels, and called her Stop writing.
When it was senior year, Qin Sishao read one novel after another that she wrote.
Readers commented that a person with such warm words and stories must be a warm and sunny girl in reality.
Qin Sishao said in her heart, no, she is not sunny at all, she is not warm at all.
That warm and sunny girl is called Jiang Chi, and she is her little sunshine.
But little sun has been away for many years, she doesn't know where her little sun has gone, and doesn't know if her little sun still remembers her?
She wrote so many warm stories, which can heal and warm others.
But those stories did not heal her, the creator.
Qin Sishao has already realized that the pain in her heart cannot be healed in this lifetime.
Not long after, she posted on Weibo saying that she had closed her pen and was not going to write anymore.
If one day, she can love this world again, she will continue to write.
When she had the idea of writing novels, she thought she would write for the rest of her life, and she would not stop until she was too old to type with her fingers or see with her eyes.
At that time, she never imagined that this hobby, which she thought she would stick to for a lifetime, would end when she was 22 years old.
When her classmates were busy looking for a job, Qin Sishao had been seeing a psychologist. She would actively receive treatment every day, and she would take medicine.
She bought a house in Nancheng, a very big house with her room, grandparents' house, and Jiang Chi's house, as well as a study and two cloakrooms.
Qin Sishao started to go abroad, she first went to country M, she traveled to many cities in that country, she went many times, but she did not find Jiang Chi, she even found out which school Zhao Changning and Su Banxia were in, but she Still haven't found Jiang Chi.
She didn't give up, and went to neighboring countries and regions to find Jiang Chi, but she still couldn't find Jiang Chi.
Qin Sishao has been looking for Jiang Chi abroad for the past three years. She has no intention of looking at different customs and customs. She just wants to know where Jiang Chi is and how is she doing?She didn't expect Jiang Chi to remember her anymore, as long as she could see Jiang Chi, it was enough.
But she couldn't find Jiang Chi, and her visa expired, so she had to go back to China.
After she returned to Nancheng, she thought that she would always live in this city in the future. This city that Jiang Chi liked so much before the age of 15, would Jiang Chi miss Nancheng someday in the future, even if this place made Jiang Chi feel like Chi is sad, but Jiang Chi may come back.
Her mother began to introduce her to someone. When she saw a man with a good family background, it was my daughter who was so beautiful. She graduated from a famous university and had very good genes.It's just that the dowry requires a lot, at least hundreds of thousands. She doesn't care about the man's character and academic ability, as long as the family can afford hundreds of thousands.
Qin Sishao didn't want to go, she watched her mother behaving badly in front of her coldly, she had no feelings for them at all.
Likewise, they have no feelings for her.
Why did she go on a blind date?
Because, she saw someone chatting in the high school group, saying that Jiang Chi was back.
Jiang Chi is back.
She wanted to see her so much, but she didn't dare to see her.
She doesn't like herself now, and Jiang Chi won't like her either.
She went on a blind date because she suddenly wanted to go, but she regretted it when she got there. She looked at the man sitting opposite him.
The man is very enthusiastic, saying that he is rich, as long as she marries him and stays at home to give birth and take care of the children, he will give the bride price to her parents.
Qin Sishao didn't speak, she was just thinking, it's only a few hundred thousand.
With such a small amount of money, her parents must think that selling her for hundreds of thousands is very profitable.
When she was young, she felt that one yuan was a lot, and when she was older, she felt that 100 yuan was a lot, but when she was able to make money, these hundreds of thousands were nothing in her eyes, and she had already earned many hundreds of thousands.
The man was still saying, looking at her eyes, he already regarded her as his property.
She is not a person, but an object.
A tool that he spent money on to bring home and take care of his children, her value lies in this.
Qin Sishao wanted to laugh, but couldn't.
She finally knew the reason why she could never forget Jiang Chi all these years.
Many people have chased her and said they like her, and some men said they would chase her for the rest of their lives, and they would be with other women within a month.
Why did she never love them, nor was she moved.
Because of the way they looked at her, she couldn't feel love.
It is also possible that she later lost the ability to love her, and could not find other people's love for her.
But Qin Sishao felt that she was right, those eyes were just like the man in front of her, not to mention love, she couldn't even feel the most basic respect.
The way Jiang Chi looked at her was different from the way they looked at her.
Jiang Chi's eyes were particularly bright when he looked at her.
Every time, she could see the warm smile in Jiang Chi's eyes, and the light that was brighter than the stars in the sky.
Jiang Chi would sympathize with her, take pity on her, respect her, and hate her, and she would cling to her, leaning against her and whispering to her, wanting to share everything with her.
She would be afraid that she would be alone, so she would go to school to spend the Mid-Autumn Festival with her, and would ask her to watch the fireworks together.
Qin Sishao's eyes were already moist, until a woman's figure flashed in front of her, she thought she was delusional.
The young woman had exquisite makeup, a red dress, and long curly wine red hair. She was bright and flamboyant, making people feel domineering and powerful. She walked towards her, picked up the glass of water on the table and poured it on the man opposite her. head, tell him to roll.
Then, she looked at her, hooked her lips and smiled: "Are you going to marry me?"
Qin Sishao stared blankly at the delicate and bright woman opposite him, whom he hadn't seen in ten years, compared to 15 years old, Jiang Chi is more beautiful and charming now.
At the age of 15, she is an immature Huaguduo.
25-year-old Jiang Chi is a delicate red rose with thorns.
Qin Sishao just looked at her, she looked at Jiang Chi for a long time, the man rushed up to strike, Jiang Chi directly grabbed a chair and smashed it on his head, the movement was clean and neat, Qin Sishao thought it was very cool for her to hit the head.
Her eye sockets gradually became moist, and she nodded.
Jiang Chi gave money to that man and her mother.
Jiang Chi took her to a small country to get a marriage certificate. They didn't play there, and returned home after getting married.
As soon as he returned to China, Jiang Chi asked her to move in with her.
The little princess back then was still the same as before. She lived in a big house, had a lot of beautiful clothes, and was even more beautiful than before.
Qin Sishao moved to the house Jiang Chi bought in Nancheng.
However, Jiang Chi always disappeared. She had to take care of her aunt and brother, and play with friends outside. She always drank and sometimes didn't go home for a long time.
Jiang Chi didn't come home, Qin Sishao was looking forward to her coming home, but also afraid of her coming home.
She wanted to see Jiang Chi, but she was also afraid that Jiang Chi would hate her now.
Jiang Chi must hate her. How could someone like her?
Jiang Chi married her because the little princess thought it was fun, not because he liked her.
Qin Sishao's illness worsened again.
Once, Jiang Chi came back again, she looked at Jiang Chi cautiously, stood aside and dared not speak, Jiang Chi was very fierce, she spoke very loudly, but she hadn't talked to anyone for a long time, she was even Gradually losing the ability to speak, she was just silent.
Jiang Chi had an argument with her, and she went out.
After a long time, Jiang Chi came back, and when he got home, he tied her hands with a rope, and she pulled her to the bed to take off her clothes, Qin Sishao already guessed what Jiang Chi was going to do.
No matter what Jiang Chi did to her, she would never blame her.
It's just that she hopes that this kind of thing is not out of desire.
Rather, because he loves her, Jiang Chi desires her.
But how could anyone love her?She doesn't deserve to be loved at all.
Qin Sishao just kept crying until Jiang Chi stopped to look at her, she saw the helplessness in Jiang Chi's eyes, she got up and put on her clothes, she was silent for a moment and said, "Whatever you want, anyway, I'm right."
She let her loose the rope and left.
Not going home for several months, Qin Sishao stayed at home alone for many days, reading books every day, buying vegetables and cooking, occasionally exercising and cleaning.
The last time Jiang Chi came back was when they were married for two years, and she handed her a divorce agreement for her to sign.
Qin Sishao didn't read the specific content, she just stared blankly at the five words.
divorse agreement.
Their marriage is invalid in the country.
So this marriage recognized by a small country will no longer exist.
Jiang Chi doesn't want her anymore.
Qin Sishao was so sad, so sad.
Everything was as she thought, Jiang Chi felt that marrying her was no longer fun, and she didn't want her anymore.
How much she wanted to tell Jiang Chi that as long as she didn't get a divorce, she could do whatever she asked.
But what's the use of talking, it will only make Jiang Chi hate her even more.
She didn't want Jiang Chi to hate her, even, in her own heart, she hoped that Jiang Chi would like her a little bit.
Qin Sishao signed it without saying a word. She put down the divorce agreement and went upstairs to pack her things. Before leaving, she looked at the place where she had lived for two years.
This is her and Jiang Chi's home.
Jiang Chi seldom returns home.
Two years is really short, and she has not had a home for many years.
She had owned this home for two years, and now it's gone.
Qin Sishao went to the house she bought before. She didn't live there for two years, and she didn't come back to see it. The house had accumulated a layer of dust. She cleaned it all night, couldn't sleep, and sat on the floor in a daze.
What is Jiang Chi doing at this time?
Until the phone rang, it was an unfamiliar number.
She is especially afraid of the phone ringing, and even more afraid of talking to strangers.
She dared not pick it up until the police came to her door.
She looked at the uniforms they were wearing, she opened the door, she didn't know what was going on, she had done nothing wrong.
They told her that Jiang Chi was dead.
As Jiang Chi's wife, she left that villa last night, so she has become a suspect.
Her mind was in a mess, and Jiang Chi died.
There are only these four words in her mind.
The results of the investigation came out quickly. After the case was closed, Jiang Chi's funeral was handled by Jiang Ping An because of the fact that her marriage was not recognized. She went to Jiang Chi's funeral and looked at the confident woman with a bright smile in the black and white photo.
She also died.
Qin Sishao thought it was her fault, why did everyone she cared about die?Why wasn't she the one who died?
She also wants to die.
If it was her who died, Jiang Chi would not have died.
She went home and planned to commit suicide at home, but she was afraid that her death would scare the neighbors. She thought of many ways to die, what should I do if I hurt others?
Su Banxia asked someone to give her a notebook.
She recognized the notebook when she saw it. It was the notebook she gave Jiang Chi 12 years ago.
It was issued by the school, and she also has an identical copy. She took notes on that one, but she doesn't know where to put it.
Qin Sishao held the notebook, she thought, why didn't Jiang Chi throw away the notebook?She couldn't be short of a notebook.
She opened the notebook anyway, the date on the first page was 12 years ago, Jiang Chi wrote the year, month, day, and the weather.
She writes very loosely, sometimes writing several pages a day, and sometimes writing dozens of words for several months.
【Today is my first day in country M. I can't sleep in bed. I traveled to this country twice before I was ten years old, but I have no memory. 】
【My aunt’s friends and classmates are very nice and enthusiastic. They helped us a lot, and I like them very much, but I don’t like this country and want to go back to China. 】
[Seeing my grandpa and grandma crying today, I know they also want to go home. 】
[Should I hate the city of Nancheng?No!I hate some of the people who live there, but I love the people there too. 】
[My glass bottle was thrown away by Huang Panyun, and my first love was also lost in the same way. I wrote on it that Jiang Chi wanted to be with Qin Sishao forever. I originally wanted to use this glass bottle to confess my love to Qin Sishao after the college entrance examination. For three years, I will work hard to make Qin Sishao fall in love with me. 】
[There is nothing in my world. I thought of what my physics teacher said in a class, and my classmates asked questions. I didn't expect it to be true to me. 】
【My brother lost his temper again today and dropped a lot of things. I persuaded him for a long time. He told me that he didn't want to live like a disabled person. He said that the doctor shouldn't save him, but he died. What about my aunt?What should I do with my grandparents?The five of us depended on each other in a foreign country. 】
……
[I met two idiots who scolded me, thinking that I couldn't understand English. 】
[I heard gunshots for the first time today. I thought it was firecrackers at first, until my aunt said it was gunshots. 】
【What is Qin Sishao doing now?I decided to finish high school here and return to China to study in university. 】
[I came back from school today and saw my aunt swearing at people at home. It has been three hours and she is still swearing. I am afraid. 】
【My aunt was sent to the hospital by my uncle and aunt. I want to support this family. 】
【Auntie's illness is getting worse. Oil splashed on her body while cooking today, causing two blisters. It hurts a lot. I'm really useless. Qin Sishao has never complained about suffering or being tired. I want to learn from her. 】
【The only comfort recently is that my brother has a better temper. He didn't scold me today, and said he loves me and this family very much. 】
[Moved, to live in the small country that my grandfather likes. 】
[I can’t understand the language of that country, and the locals don’t speak English very well, so it’s tiring to communicate with them. 】
[I moved again, when will I be able to stabilize?Qin Sishao has already passed the college entrance examination at this time, but I haven't finished high school yet, and I haven't gone to school for a long time. 】
……
【Did Qin Sishao go to Tsinghua University or Peking University?If I hadn't gone abroad, if these things hadn't happened at home, I think I could have been admitted to these two schools, because I have better educational conditions than most people. 】
【It’s finally settled. I bought the house today. I hope my brother and I can finish high school and stay in this small country to study in university. The language here is really difficult to learn, and everything has to start all over again. 】
[Brave Jiang Chi, learn from Qin Sishao, not afraid of difficulties. 】
[It was robbed. 】
[He was robbed again. 】
[The experience of being robbed is coming, money is not important, life is the most important. 】
【I finally graduated from high school, but unfortunately I can't go back to China to study in university. I don't want to be Qin Sishao's junior, I will be laughed at. 】
【I'm so good, the food I cook is delicious.When I go back to China, I will make it for Qin Sishao, will she still remember me? 】
[Some discrimination is really scary, but luckily you have money. 】
[I saw a young couple kissing today. The two girls are so pretty. I hope that one day Qin Sishao and I can also become a couple. 】
[Very annoying, someone chased me again, was rejected, and he followed me home, I was very scared. 】
[My aunt has returned home, and her condition seems to have improved a lot, but she has become very timid and dare not go out, saying that people outside will harm her. Thinking of my former aunt, I am very sad. In my heart, my aunt is the most beautiful woman in the world. Amazing people. 】
[Grandpa is sick, and my grandmother is taking care of him. They told me about my life experience. It turns out that the love story of my parents is a fairy tale they made up. For the sake of me growing up happily, why didn’t it be that man who died?I think of my mother whom I have never met, who loves me very much. 】
[Grandpa passed away, she said she hoped that I would grow up and take him home. 】
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[Grandma passed away, she told me that she was homesick, and she also said she was worried about us. My brother cried and said he would cheer up and take good care of me and my aunt. Now I just hope that my brother will lose his temper less and not expect him to comfort me me. 】
[Today my aunt is more awake, and told me that she has worked hard, and she also said that she loves me and is happy. 】
[Why haven't you graduated from university yet? 】
[Finally graduated, I want to settle accounts with that pair of dogs, killing people is illegal, I dare not do it, then no one will take care of my aunt and brother. 】
[I have discussed it with my brother, he also wants to return to China. 】
[Grandpa and grandma are looking after the cemetery. 】
[I'm going back to my country recently, and I have a lot of things to deal with. 】
[I'm in Nancheng, I'm so busy. 】
[I heard about Qin Sishao from others, how her grades dropped so badly, they said she fell in love early, so she likes men. 】
【Thinking about it all night, I still really like Qin Sishao. 】
[I've lived a really tiring life for the past ten years. I think about my family every day, but I don't think about myself. I want to be a selfish person. 】
【Why can't I play tricks and snatch Qin Sishao over?I'm going to grab it. After living for 25 years, I have been tempted by her alone. 】
【She was on a blind date. That man is fat and ugly, and he doesn't respect others. Qin Sishao and I combined are not as heavy as him. It feels so good to beat him, just pay a little money. 】
【She actually nodded, she actually agreed to marry me!So happy! 】
【Why does she want to marry me?Just because I gave her mom money?Alas, money bought marriage, but not the love I was looking for. 】
[Certificate, I'm married!Happy to fly! 】
【Qin Sishao doesn't love me, I feel sad. 】
[I showed her a nice dress, but she didn't even look at me, she didn't love me. 】
【I've decided that if I want to fight her coldly, isn't that just cold violence?Who is afraid of whom. 】
[She doesn't contact me, I'll go home. 】
[Did something bad, I shouldn't have run away in sleep, but she cried, I was scared, I was so timid. 】
[It is said that people cannot withstand temptation, so I still intend to test it. 】
[I'm so angry, as long as she says a word to me, I won't get a divorce. She doesn't love me, and she doesn't even say a word to me. 】
When Qin Sishao saw this, the date stayed on the night she and Jiang Chi divorced, and the next few pages were blank, and Qin Sishao burst into tears.
In the past ten years, Jiang Chi has been thinking about her and loving her.
But Jiang Chi died.
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Qin Sishao locked herself in the room, she was so hungry that she ate and drank water, she read a lot of books, and also searched a lot of information on the Internet.
She is not a superstitious person, but now she understands those who believe in it, because it will make herself feel better, so that she can be comforted.
She knew very well what kind of women lived in that temple in Yunwu Mountain, they were abandoned by their families and homeless.
They lived there, farmed the land, and sometimes went down the mountain to find some work to support themselves.
It is inconvenient to go up and down the mountain there, but it provides them with a place to live.
They have lived there for a long time, and we all have a common experience. They have gradually fallen in love with it and regard it as their home.
They have a home.
But she has no home.
She will never have a home.
Qin Sishao walked to Yunwu Mountain, and she went to the temple in the backyard. When worshiping Buddha, she thought, it would be great if there was an afterlife, and she wished to exchange her life for Jiang Chi's life.
She hopes that the little princess will always be safe and happy, that there will always be many people who love and protect her, and she is one of these many people. The little princess does not need to suffer a little bit of suffering in this world.
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The aunt said that her grandma was always worried about when she would be able to pay off so much money?She couldn't eat and couldn't sleep, but the only way she could think of to make money was to work, chopping firewood and selling it for some money, so she went to chop firewood.
There is a factory in the town that asks someone to press the lids of small toys. Three cents a penny. Grandma also does this. Others say that the purple-blue hay in the mountains costs [-] cents a catty. She also does it. She has been thinking How to make some money.
She said that if she saved more money, when Qin Sishao grew up, she would be able to pay back less.
Aunt and Qin Sishao talked a lot about grandma, but at the end, aunt hesitated to speak, and finally just asked her when she would go back to school?
Qin Sishao has not yet arrived for the winter vacation, and still has classes to attend.
Qin Sishao said she didn't know.
She has read books for so many years, and for the first time, she became tired of studying, and for the first time, she had the idea of not reading.
After she got home, she took a small bench and sat next to her grandpa to talk to her grandpa. Grandpa told her to go back to school tomorrow, saying that she was too late this semester, and said that when she was admitted to university, she would visit grandma's grave. Grandma will be very happy.
Qin Sishao nodded with a sob, looking at her grandpa's vicissitudes of life, she couldn't say that I don't want to study anymore.
The next day, she went to school.
After the winter vacation, she went home.
The bacon and sausages smoked by her grandfather after she left home were hung on the stove at home. There were still fish left in the pond. She and her grandfather drained the water together, fished out all the fish, and sold them in the town.
This year's New Year, she and her grandpa were the only two people in the family. Grandpa attached great importance to the Spring Festival. On New Year's Eve, he cooked a table of dishes, filled three bowls of rice, poured three glasses of drinks, and said to the seat where grandma used to sit.
"It's Chinese New Year."
She had a New Year's Eve dinner with her grandfather, watched the Spring Festival Gala together, and kept vigil very late. She went back to her room to sleep, and the tears she had held back for a long time finally fell out.
This Spring Festival, she paid New Year's greetings at some relatives' homes in the village, and then began to read books and write novels.
She spends more and more time writing novels. Qin Sishao's goal is no longer Qingbei, but a university in Nancheng. As long as it is a university in Nancheng, it is close to home. She doesn't worry about grandpa, and it will be convenient for her to go home in the future. Or she bought a house earlier and brought her grandpa to live in Nancheng.
She made money early in her novels, and compared to many authors, she is so lucky. The money she earns can support herself and her grandfather.
She told Grandpa that he didn't need to farm the land, he didn't need to weave farm tools to make money, and he could earn less money than she did in a day. All he needed to do was rest, go to the village to play, chat with people, or play cards. .
In the summer vacation of the second year of high school, she returned to her hometown.
The moment Qin Sishao saw his grandpa when he got home, he felt that he was very lonely and lonely.
He lives alone, except watching TV and listening to some sounds every day.
Most of the time he just sits at home in a daze, or works in the field, and he doesn't like to go out.
Qin Sishao's condition was not very good at that time, she became more and more silent, except that she had to communicate with others, she would not speak if she could.
She stays in the room every day to do test papers, write novels, and go downstairs to cook and eat when the time comes.
People become more and more afraid of loneliness when they get old, and the silence at home is terrifying every day.
Grandpa went to the town and bought a litter of little fluffy chickens and ducklings. They were too small for him to let out, so he locked them in the yard and fed them green vegetables and rice every day. Talk to chicks and ducklings for a long time.
Sometimes when Qin Sishao heard her grandfather talking to them, she wanted to cry, but she kept crying, but she couldn't make a sound.
She asked grandpa to go out for a walk and play in the village. She took him out to play and talked with him, and he felt better.
But it was so unexpected. When grandpa was eating one day, he was talking to her happily. He said that the chickens and ducklings he raised had grown up a lot, and they would be able to lay eggs in half a year. After he said this sentence Also laughed, and he laughed a lot.
Then, he died suddenly.
Suddenly, Qin Sishao didn't even react.
When she realized that the rice bowl in her hand fell to the ground, she was not afraid at all, but sad, and she will be alone in the future.
She also wanted to die.
Why does she want to live in this world?
She thought about a lot of things, and was scolded when she was a child, and she didn't deserve to live.
She used to think it was good to be alive, how beautiful the world was.
Now, she feels that this wonderful world has nothing to do with her.
But she just shed tears, walked outside while crying, and called some relatives in the village to come over.
They are elders, knowing that she is a child and can't deal with grandpa's affairs well, so they contacted grandpa's children.
This time, everyone said that they were busy with work and didn't want to go home, and said that since Qin Sishao was at home, let her handle it.
Listening to their quarrel on the phone, Qin Sishao began to wonder if her grandparents would live long if she was drowned and buried alive. She hated herself to the extreme and felt that she was not worthy of anything.
If they didn't come back, the relatives had no choice but to ask someone to come over and give the grandfather medicine to ensure that the corpse would not rot or stink.
They all came to her house and sat together to watch the time. The funeral still had to be done. They asked Qin Sishao, did her grandfather leave any savings?It has to be used for funerals, and she can borrow money for her future tuition fees.
Qin Sishao said yes, and grandpa wrapped it in cloth and put it in his padded jacket. There were hundreds of dollars, dozens of dollars, one dollar, and ten cents. They counted them, and they were almost 2 yuan.
Most of this money was Qin Sishao's money given to grandpa in the past six months, and he let him use it as living expenses. He was reluctant to use it, saying that she was too young and it was not easy to make money, so he saved it for her.
2 yuan is not enough for a funeral. Qin Sishao said that she has money, so she asked them to discuss what they need to buy, and made a list for her. No matter how much money, she would pay.
Grandpa's funeral was very simple, and relatives wanted to save some money for her. They looked at her with sympathy, and finally said that they should study hard and get into a good university.
She didn't speak, just nodded.
After grandpa was buried, she was the only one left in the family, and there were a bunch of chickens and ducklings, which she raised for many days.
It is too hot in summer, and she fetches water every day to water several vegetable fields.
After the summer vacation, she is going back to school.
She gave the food that could be eaten at home to her relatives, including chickens and ducklings, and said that they would pick the vegetables in the vegetable field if they wanted to eat them. She should not come back until the Chinese New Year. She cleaned up again and went to I went to the forest where my grandparents were buried and burned a bunch of paper money for them.
After she got home, she locked the door, put the key in her schoolbag, and left with her schoolbag on her back.
Life in the third year of high school is much more hectic than that in the second year of high school. Qin Sishao would be very tired of facing endless test papers every day. Her grades were no longer that good, and she was replaced early in the first grade.
Even, with her current grades, she couldn't even get into grade [-].
In class, I was distracted, in a daze, and sometimes fell asleep.
The teachers didn't want to care about her very much, she was too silent, she just nodded or lowered her head when the teacher talked to her, it was too tiring to communicate with her, the patience of the teachers was gradually exhausted by her.
Qin Sishao has no friends, not even a close classmate.
Everyone knows that she has a withdrawn personality. She never takes the initiative to talk to people, and her classmates will not look for her either.
The only thing that comforted Qin Sishao was that her novels were getting better and better. In the third year of high school, she had already saved enough money to buy a house in Nancheng.
But what's the point of those?Grandma is gone, grandpa is gone.
She dreamed of buying a big house and bringing her grandparents to live with her. When she saved enough money to buy the house, the two old people were gone.
There is only one person she cares about in this world, but she is far away abroad, and now she has no ability to find Jiang Chi.
Qin Sishao began to think, she found Jiang Chi, does Jiang Chi still remember her?Would you still consider her a friend?
People like her are not liked at all.
How could Jiang Chi remember her and like her?
The third year of high school was very difficult for Qin Sishao. She was either tired of studying or tired of the world. Every day when she did a good job on the questions, she would suddenly cry.
The teacher thought she was under too much pressure, and the school also attached great importance to the mental health of the students. The psychology teacher always talked to her and asked her to take medicine and cooperate with treatment.
They all said she was sick, she was sick.
But she felt that she was not sick, she just didn't want to live, and couldn't find the meaning of her life in this world.
But she still cooperates with them, she receives treatment, takes medicine every day, she is still unhappy.
After the college entrance examination, it was not long before her birthday. She was already in her hometown at that time, and she stayed at home to write novels.
On her birthday, she went to the town to buy a small birthday cake, inserted eighteen candles, and after blowing them out, she made a wish.
She hoped that she could find Jiang Chi one day in the future.
It was the first time she had a birthday cake, the first time she had a birthday cake, and she ate it all.
After eating, she lay on the bed in a daze. She thought about a lot of things, but she didn't seem to think about anything.
In a few days, the results came out.
656 points.
This score is considered a good score in many people's minds, but Nancheng No. [-] Middle School has a lot of students with a score of [-] or above this year, plus a bunch of students who were recommended to Tsinghua University and Peking University.
Qin Sishao chose the computer department of Nancheng University.
Her idea is very simple. Computer science is a popular major. It is easier to make money than other majors in this era. She has to work hard to make money, and then go abroad to find Jiang Chi.
Jiang Chi is the only hope left in her life.
Jiang Chi didn't remember her anymore, so she just watched Jiang Chi from a distance, she didn't disturb Jiang Chi, she was very happy to see Jiang Chi.
After college started, she didn't join any clubs, never skipped classes, and wrote novels most of the day.
She is earning more and more money, but her whole body is always suddenly sad. She has been receiving treatment, trying to get herself out, but she can't. The girls in the dormitory said that she was stupid when writing novels, and called her Stop writing.
When it was senior year, Qin Sishao read one novel after another that she wrote.
Readers commented that a person with such warm words and stories must be a warm and sunny girl in reality.
Qin Sishao said in her heart, no, she is not sunny at all, she is not warm at all.
That warm and sunny girl is called Jiang Chi, and she is her little sunshine.
But little sun has been away for many years, she doesn't know where her little sun has gone, and doesn't know if her little sun still remembers her?
She wrote so many warm stories, which can heal and warm others.
But those stories did not heal her, the creator.
Qin Sishao has already realized that the pain in her heart cannot be healed in this lifetime.
Not long after, she posted on Weibo saying that she had closed her pen and was not going to write anymore.
If one day, she can love this world again, she will continue to write.
When she had the idea of writing novels, she thought she would write for the rest of her life, and she would not stop until she was too old to type with her fingers or see with her eyes.
At that time, she never imagined that this hobby, which she thought she would stick to for a lifetime, would end when she was 22 years old.
When her classmates were busy looking for a job, Qin Sishao had been seeing a psychologist. She would actively receive treatment every day, and she would take medicine.
She bought a house in Nancheng, a very big house with her room, grandparents' house, and Jiang Chi's house, as well as a study and two cloakrooms.
Qin Sishao started to go abroad, she first went to country M, she traveled to many cities in that country, she went many times, but she did not find Jiang Chi, she even found out which school Zhao Changning and Su Banxia were in, but she Still haven't found Jiang Chi.
She didn't give up, and went to neighboring countries and regions to find Jiang Chi, but she still couldn't find Jiang Chi.
Qin Sishao has been looking for Jiang Chi abroad for the past three years. She has no intention of looking at different customs and customs. She just wants to know where Jiang Chi is and how is she doing?She didn't expect Jiang Chi to remember her anymore, as long as she could see Jiang Chi, it was enough.
But she couldn't find Jiang Chi, and her visa expired, so she had to go back to China.
After she returned to Nancheng, she thought that she would always live in this city in the future. This city that Jiang Chi liked so much before the age of 15, would Jiang Chi miss Nancheng someday in the future, even if this place made Jiang Chi feel like Chi is sad, but Jiang Chi may come back.
Her mother began to introduce her to someone. When she saw a man with a good family background, it was my daughter who was so beautiful. She graduated from a famous university and had very good genes.It's just that the dowry requires a lot, at least hundreds of thousands. She doesn't care about the man's character and academic ability, as long as the family can afford hundreds of thousands.
Qin Sishao didn't want to go, she watched her mother behaving badly in front of her coldly, she had no feelings for them at all.
Likewise, they have no feelings for her.
Why did she go on a blind date?
Because, she saw someone chatting in the high school group, saying that Jiang Chi was back.
Jiang Chi is back.
She wanted to see her so much, but she didn't dare to see her.
She doesn't like herself now, and Jiang Chi won't like her either.
She went on a blind date because she suddenly wanted to go, but she regretted it when she got there. She looked at the man sitting opposite him.
The man is very enthusiastic, saying that he is rich, as long as she marries him and stays at home to give birth and take care of the children, he will give the bride price to her parents.
Qin Sishao didn't speak, she was just thinking, it's only a few hundred thousand.
With such a small amount of money, her parents must think that selling her for hundreds of thousands is very profitable.
When she was young, she felt that one yuan was a lot, and when she was older, she felt that 100 yuan was a lot, but when she was able to make money, these hundreds of thousands were nothing in her eyes, and she had already earned many hundreds of thousands.
The man was still saying, looking at her eyes, he already regarded her as his property.
She is not a person, but an object.
A tool that he spent money on to bring home and take care of his children, her value lies in this.
Qin Sishao wanted to laugh, but couldn't.
She finally knew the reason why she could never forget Jiang Chi all these years.
Many people have chased her and said they like her, and some men said they would chase her for the rest of their lives, and they would be with other women within a month.
Why did she never love them, nor was she moved.
Because of the way they looked at her, she couldn't feel love.
It is also possible that she later lost the ability to love her, and could not find other people's love for her.
But Qin Sishao felt that she was right, those eyes were just like the man in front of her, not to mention love, she couldn't even feel the most basic respect.
The way Jiang Chi looked at her was different from the way they looked at her.
Jiang Chi's eyes were particularly bright when he looked at her.
Every time, she could see the warm smile in Jiang Chi's eyes, and the light that was brighter than the stars in the sky.
Jiang Chi would sympathize with her, take pity on her, respect her, and hate her, and she would cling to her, leaning against her and whispering to her, wanting to share everything with her.
She would be afraid that she would be alone, so she would go to school to spend the Mid-Autumn Festival with her, and would ask her to watch the fireworks together.
Qin Sishao's eyes were already moist, until a woman's figure flashed in front of her, she thought she was delusional.
The young woman had exquisite makeup, a red dress, and long curly wine red hair. She was bright and flamboyant, making people feel domineering and powerful. She walked towards her, picked up the glass of water on the table and poured it on the man opposite her. head, tell him to roll.
Then, she looked at her, hooked her lips and smiled: "Are you going to marry me?"
Qin Sishao stared blankly at the delicate and bright woman opposite him, whom he hadn't seen in ten years, compared to 15 years old, Jiang Chi is more beautiful and charming now.
At the age of 15, she is an immature Huaguduo.
25-year-old Jiang Chi is a delicate red rose with thorns.
Qin Sishao just looked at her, she looked at Jiang Chi for a long time, the man rushed up to strike, Jiang Chi directly grabbed a chair and smashed it on his head, the movement was clean and neat, Qin Sishao thought it was very cool for her to hit the head.
Her eye sockets gradually became moist, and she nodded.
Jiang Chi gave money to that man and her mother.
Jiang Chi took her to a small country to get a marriage certificate. They didn't play there, and returned home after getting married.
As soon as he returned to China, Jiang Chi asked her to move in with her.
The little princess back then was still the same as before. She lived in a big house, had a lot of beautiful clothes, and was even more beautiful than before.
Qin Sishao moved to the house Jiang Chi bought in Nancheng.
However, Jiang Chi always disappeared. She had to take care of her aunt and brother, and play with friends outside. She always drank and sometimes didn't go home for a long time.
Jiang Chi didn't come home, Qin Sishao was looking forward to her coming home, but also afraid of her coming home.
She wanted to see Jiang Chi, but she was also afraid that Jiang Chi would hate her now.
Jiang Chi must hate her. How could someone like her?
Jiang Chi married her because the little princess thought it was fun, not because he liked her.
Qin Sishao's illness worsened again.
Once, Jiang Chi came back again, she looked at Jiang Chi cautiously, stood aside and dared not speak, Jiang Chi was very fierce, she spoke very loudly, but she hadn't talked to anyone for a long time, she was even Gradually losing the ability to speak, she was just silent.
Jiang Chi had an argument with her, and she went out.
After a long time, Jiang Chi came back, and when he got home, he tied her hands with a rope, and she pulled her to the bed to take off her clothes, Qin Sishao already guessed what Jiang Chi was going to do.
No matter what Jiang Chi did to her, she would never blame her.
It's just that she hopes that this kind of thing is not out of desire.
Rather, because he loves her, Jiang Chi desires her.
But how could anyone love her?She doesn't deserve to be loved at all.
Qin Sishao just kept crying until Jiang Chi stopped to look at her, she saw the helplessness in Jiang Chi's eyes, she got up and put on her clothes, she was silent for a moment and said, "Whatever you want, anyway, I'm right."
She let her loose the rope and left.
Not going home for several months, Qin Sishao stayed at home alone for many days, reading books every day, buying vegetables and cooking, occasionally exercising and cleaning.
The last time Jiang Chi came back was when they were married for two years, and she handed her a divorce agreement for her to sign.
Qin Sishao didn't read the specific content, she just stared blankly at the five words.
divorse agreement.
Their marriage is invalid in the country.
So this marriage recognized by a small country will no longer exist.
Jiang Chi doesn't want her anymore.
Qin Sishao was so sad, so sad.
Everything was as she thought, Jiang Chi felt that marrying her was no longer fun, and she didn't want her anymore.
How much she wanted to tell Jiang Chi that as long as she didn't get a divorce, she could do whatever she asked.
But what's the use of talking, it will only make Jiang Chi hate her even more.
She didn't want Jiang Chi to hate her, even, in her own heart, she hoped that Jiang Chi would like her a little bit.
Qin Sishao signed it without saying a word. She put down the divorce agreement and went upstairs to pack her things. Before leaving, she looked at the place where she had lived for two years.
This is her and Jiang Chi's home.
Jiang Chi seldom returns home.
Two years is really short, and she has not had a home for many years.
She had owned this home for two years, and now it's gone.
Qin Sishao went to the house she bought before. She didn't live there for two years, and she didn't come back to see it. The house had accumulated a layer of dust. She cleaned it all night, couldn't sleep, and sat on the floor in a daze.
What is Jiang Chi doing at this time?
Until the phone rang, it was an unfamiliar number.
She is especially afraid of the phone ringing, and even more afraid of talking to strangers.
She dared not pick it up until the police came to her door.
She looked at the uniforms they were wearing, she opened the door, she didn't know what was going on, she had done nothing wrong.
They told her that Jiang Chi was dead.
As Jiang Chi's wife, she left that villa last night, so she has become a suspect.
Her mind was in a mess, and Jiang Chi died.
There are only these four words in her mind.
The results of the investigation came out quickly. After the case was closed, Jiang Chi's funeral was handled by Jiang Ping An because of the fact that her marriage was not recognized. She went to Jiang Chi's funeral and looked at the confident woman with a bright smile in the black and white photo.
She also died.
Qin Sishao thought it was her fault, why did everyone she cared about die?Why wasn't she the one who died?
She also wants to die.
If it was her who died, Jiang Chi would not have died.
She went home and planned to commit suicide at home, but she was afraid that her death would scare the neighbors. She thought of many ways to die, what should I do if I hurt others?
Su Banxia asked someone to give her a notebook.
She recognized the notebook when she saw it. It was the notebook she gave Jiang Chi 12 years ago.
It was issued by the school, and she also has an identical copy. She took notes on that one, but she doesn't know where to put it.
Qin Sishao held the notebook, she thought, why didn't Jiang Chi throw away the notebook?She couldn't be short of a notebook.
She opened the notebook anyway, the date on the first page was 12 years ago, Jiang Chi wrote the year, month, day, and the weather.
She writes very loosely, sometimes writing several pages a day, and sometimes writing dozens of words for several months.
【Today is my first day in country M. I can't sleep in bed. I traveled to this country twice before I was ten years old, but I have no memory. 】
【My aunt’s friends and classmates are very nice and enthusiastic. They helped us a lot, and I like them very much, but I don’t like this country and want to go back to China. 】
[Seeing my grandpa and grandma crying today, I know they also want to go home. 】
[Should I hate the city of Nancheng?No!I hate some of the people who live there, but I love the people there too. 】
[My glass bottle was thrown away by Huang Panyun, and my first love was also lost in the same way. I wrote on it that Jiang Chi wanted to be with Qin Sishao forever. I originally wanted to use this glass bottle to confess my love to Qin Sishao after the college entrance examination. For three years, I will work hard to make Qin Sishao fall in love with me. 】
[There is nothing in my world. I thought of what my physics teacher said in a class, and my classmates asked questions. I didn't expect it to be true to me. 】
【My brother lost his temper again today and dropped a lot of things. I persuaded him for a long time. He told me that he didn't want to live like a disabled person. He said that the doctor shouldn't save him, but he died. What about my aunt?What should I do with my grandparents?The five of us depended on each other in a foreign country. 】
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[I met two idiots who scolded me, thinking that I couldn't understand English. 】
[I heard gunshots for the first time today. I thought it was firecrackers at first, until my aunt said it was gunshots. 】
【What is Qin Sishao doing now?I decided to finish high school here and return to China to study in university. 】
[I came back from school today and saw my aunt swearing at people at home. It has been three hours and she is still swearing. I am afraid. 】
【My aunt was sent to the hospital by my uncle and aunt. I want to support this family. 】
【Auntie's illness is getting worse. Oil splashed on her body while cooking today, causing two blisters. It hurts a lot. I'm really useless. Qin Sishao has never complained about suffering or being tired. I want to learn from her. 】
【The only comfort recently is that my brother has a better temper. He didn't scold me today, and said he loves me and this family very much. 】
[Moved, to live in the small country that my grandfather likes. 】
[I can’t understand the language of that country, and the locals don’t speak English very well, so it’s tiring to communicate with them. 】
[I moved again, when will I be able to stabilize?Qin Sishao has already passed the college entrance examination at this time, but I haven't finished high school yet, and I haven't gone to school for a long time. 】
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【Did Qin Sishao go to Tsinghua University or Peking University?If I hadn't gone abroad, if these things hadn't happened at home, I think I could have been admitted to these two schools, because I have better educational conditions than most people. 】
【It’s finally settled. I bought the house today. I hope my brother and I can finish high school and stay in this small country to study in university. The language here is really difficult to learn, and everything has to start all over again. 】
[Brave Jiang Chi, learn from Qin Sishao, not afraid of difficulties. 】
[It was robbed. 】
[He was robbed again. 】
[The experience of being robbed is coming, money is not important, life is the most important. 】
【I finally graduated from high school, but unfortunately I can't go back to China to study in university. I don't want to be Qin Sishao's junior, I will be laughed at. 】
【I'm so good, the food I cook is delicious.When I go back to China, I will make it for Qin Sishao, will she still remember me? 】
[Some discrimination is really scary, but luckily you have money. 】
[I saw a young couple kissing today. The two girls are so pretty. I hope that one day Qin Sishao and I can also become a couple. 】
[Very annoying, someone chased me again, was rejected, and he followed me home, I was very scared. 】
[My aunt has returned home, and her condition seems to have improved a lot, but she has become very timid and dare not go out, saying that people outside will harm her. Thinking of my former aunt, I am very sad. In my heart, my aunt is the most beautiful woman in the world. Amazing people. 】
[Grandpa is sick, and my grandmother is taking care of him. They told me about my life experience. It turns out that the love story of my parents is a fairy tale they made up. For the sake of me growing up happily, why didn’t it be that man who died?I think of my mother whom I have never met, who loves me very much. 】
[Grandpa passed away, she said she hoped that I would grow up and take him home. 】
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[Grandma passed away, she told me that she was homesick, and she also said she was worried about us. My brother cried and said he would cheer up and take good care of me and my aunt. Now I just hope that my brother will lose his temper less and not expect him to comfort me me. 】
[Today my aunt is more awake, and told me that she has worked hard, and she also said that she loves me and is happy. 】
[Why haven't you graduated from university yet? 】
[Finally graduated, I want to settle accounts with that pair of dogs, killing people is illegal, I dare not do it, then no one will take care of my aunt and brother. 】
[I have discussed it with my brother, he also wants to return to China. 】
[Grandpa and grandma are looking after the cemetery. 】
[I'm going back to my country recently, and I have a lot of things to deal with. 】
[I'm in Nancheng, I'm so busy. 】
[I heard about Qin Sishao from others, how her grades dropped so badly, they said she fell in love early, so she likes men. 】
【Thinking about it all night, I still really like Qin Sishao. 】
[I've lived a really tiring life for the past ten years. I think about my family every day, but I don't think about myself. I want to be a selfish person. 】
【Why can't I play tricks and snatch Qin Sishao over?I'm going to grab it. After living for 25 years, I have been tempted by her alone. 】
【She was on a blind date. That man is fat and ugly, and he doesn't respect others. Qin Sishao and I combined are not as heavy as him. It feels so good to beat him, just pay a little money. 】
【She actually nodded, she actually agreed to marry me!So happy! 】
【Why does she want to marry me?Just because I gave her mom money?Alas, money bought marriage, but not the love I was looking for. 】
[Certificate, I'm married!Happy to fly! 】
【Qin Sishao doesn't love me, I feel sad. 】
[I showed her a nice dress, but she didn't even look at me, she didn't love me. 】
【I've decided that if I want to fight her coldly, isn't that just cold violence?Who is afraid of whom. 】
[She doesn't contact me, I'll go home. 】
[Did something bad, I shouldn't have run away in sleep, but she cried, I was scared, I was so timid. 】
[It is said that people cannot withstand temptation, so I still intend to test it. 】
[I'm so angry, as long as she says a word to me, I won't get a divorce. She doesn't love me, and she doesn't even say a word to me. 】
When Qin Sishao saw this, the date stayed on the night she and Jiang Chi divorced, and the next few pages were blank, and Qin Sishao burst into tears.
In the past ten years, Jiang Chi has been thinking about her and loving her.
But Jiang Chi died.
……
Qin Sishao locked herself in the room, she was so hungry that she ate and drank water, she read a lot of books, and also searched a lot of information on the Internet.
She is not a superstitious person, but now she understands those who believe in it, because it will make herself feel better, so that she can be comforted.
She knew very well what kind of women lived in that temple in Yunwu Mountain, they were abandoned by their families and homeless.
They lived there, farmed the land, and sometimes went down the mountain to find some work to support themselves.
It is inconvenient to go up and down the mountain there, but it provides them with a place to live.
They have lived there for a long time, and we all have a common experience. They have gradually fallen in love with it and regard it as their home.
They have a home.
But she has no home.
She will never have a home.
Qin Sishao walked to Yunwu Mountain, and she went to the temple in the backyard. When worshiping Buddha, she thought, it would be great if there was an afterlife, and she wished to exchange her life for Jiang Chi's life.
She hopes that the little princess will always be safe and happy, that there will always be many people who love and protect her, and she is one of these many people. The little princess does not need to suffer a little bit of suffering in this world.
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