The little mute took my cub

Lu Ran sighed, and said, "Why do you all like to force me to read this diary? Didn't I tell you? The diary was written for fun when I was young..."

However, He Yinan pursed his lips and looked up at him.

Lu Ran had no choice but to take it and flip through a few pages.

The words in the diary are crazily scribbled, and almost every page repeats a certain word or sentence meaninglessly.

Lu Ran didn't look carefully, but turned to a certain page in the diary that was filled with the word "hate", and a bright red, bloody knife was drawn at the end of that page.

Lu Ran looked flustered, his heart seemed to be gripped by an invisible big hand, and he couldn't breathe well, so he threw the diary aside.

Seeing that Lu Ran suddenly dropped the diary to the ground, He Yinan moved closer to gesture to Lu Ran:

【sorry. 】

【I don't expect you to forgive me. 】

[I just want to say sorry to you. 】

Lu Ran frowned and shook his head, sat on the edge of the bed, rubbing his swollen temples repeatedly with his hands.

After the headache subsided, Lu Ran patted the edge of the bed, signaling He Yinan to sit over.

He Yinan shook his head, and only gestured to him: [I'm sorry. 】

Lu Ran sighed again.

He didn't read the diary carefully at all, let alone understand why He Yinan apologized.

In fact, he didn't really want to read it seriously, because he could tell from He Yinan's reaction that there were too many painful memories about He Yinan and him hidden in the diary.

Maybe because of the evasive mentality, Lu Ran thinks it’s good to forget, it’s better to be happy, and don’t hold on to the past.

However, this diary obviously became a knot in He Yinan's mind that he couldn't solve.

He Yinan didn't dare to get close to Lu Ran, but leaned against the wall, raised his wet eyes to look at Lu Ran, then lowered his head, bit his lips tightly, put his hand on Shen Long's stomach, and looked a little standing Uneasy.

Seeing that He Yinan's face was pale, Lu Ran walked over and forced He Yinan to sit on the side of the bed, and reached out to touch He Yinan's round belly.

He Yinan's stomach was not as warm and soft as usual, but now it was like a hot stone, it was still contracting and convulsing, and the child kept kicking inside.

Lu Ranguang feels pain even if he touches it...

Is this the tire gas?

However, He Yinan didn't seem to realize it, and only raised his misty eyes to look at him when his stomach contracted severely.

Lu Ran's heart ached to death, and he asked, "Does your stomach hurt badly?"

He Yinan rubbed his stomach, frowned, "hissed" for a few breaths, nodded to him, then took out a medicine box from the drawer with difficulty, poured the last pill inside into his mouth, and looked up. Swallowed with water at first.

Lu Ran saw the words on the medicine box clearly:

【Thousand Gold Baotai Pills】

It seems that this is not the first time, no wonder he sometimes sees He Yinan's face pale in the morning.

It must be that He Yinan thought a lot during pregnancy and liked to think wildly. He often secretly hid in the room to feel sad, and he didn't tell him when he was pregnant.

Seeing that He Yinan's complexion improved after taking the medicine, but he was still frowning in pain, Lu Ran asked again: "Should we go to the hospital for a checkup first?"

He Yinan's eyes lost focus due to the pain. Hearing his words, he suddenly took a breath, his thick black eyelashes trembled a few times, and quickly gestured with a pale face: 【Don't drive me away. 】

It is true that He Yinan's little brain is spinning a little fast, and Lu Ran can hardly keep up with He Yinan's brain circuit.

Lu Ran smiled softly, pinched He Yinan's fair face, and said warmly, "I didn't drive you away, I meant that I would go with you."

He Yinan still didn't believe him, as if he was afraid that he would find out, he only dared to inhale gently and quietly in pain, and then gestured to him:

[No need to go to the hospital, this anti-fetal medicine is very effective, and the pain will disappear soon after taking it. 】

[Tomorrow... drive me away again. 】

Seeing He Yinan's gloomy eyes, Lu Ran sighed.

So, he had to return his gaze to the diary that was casually thrown on the ground.

——The source of He Yinan's anxiety.

Lu Ran never thought that a simple diary would suddenly turn into a scourge that would devour their ordinary and happy life.

Lu Ran simply regretted it.

What kind of diary are you writing at a young age?

Lu Ran gently covered He Yinan's round belly with his big hand, let He Yinan lean on his shoulder, kissed the top of his soft hair, and said softly: "It's okay, I don't blame you , Nan Nan."

He Yinan obviously didn't believe his words, and still looked at the diary anxiously.

Lu Ran was completely at a loss.

He suddenly realized that this diary had become like a thorn in He Yinan's heart.

If this issue is not confronted head-on, the distance between the two will grow larger and larger until it is irreparable.

Some things can't be avoided, and you have to face them sooner or later.

Lu Ran made up his mind, asked He Yinan to sit down, and bent down to touch the diary.

The diary happened to fall on the bottom of the bed, Lu Ran reached out to touch it, and accidentally poked the edge of the diary with his fingertips, and the diary went deeper under the bed with a "swoosh".

The diary slipped quite deep, and when Lu Ran took it out, he also found a dilapidated small box.

Lu Ran felt a little strange, he hadn't seen this box before.

However, He Yinan discovered the contents through the top cover of the box.

His breathing became short of breath, and he gestured:

[Is there a photo of my aunt in it? 】

【May I take a look? 】

"Huh?" Lu Ran bent down to look through the box, but he was surprised to find that it seemed to contain his mother's relics.

He Yinan pursed his lips and looked at him, a little nervous.

"It's all my mother's relics inside."

Lu Ran followed He Yinan's gaze and found the photo, and He Yinan cherished it very much.

Although he didn't understand why He Yinan was so nervous, Lu Ran still explained: "This should be the last photo she left before her death."

In the photo, his mother was wearing a blue striped hospital gown, lying on the hospital bed, with countless needles pierced on her body, her face was haggard and pale, looking weakly at the camera and smiling gently.

There are still many photos in the box, all of which are mother lying on the bed sickly, but her gentle and beautiful face is getting more and more haggard day by day.

He Yinan looked at Lu Ran worriedly, and seeing that Lu Ran's expression was normal, he slowly asked him with gestures: 【Did Auntie get sick during that time? 】

Lu Ran's mood suddenly became a little heavy, and he felt that his dusty memory was slowly waking up.

Pain like a head burst.

"My head hurts a bit." Lu Ran covered his head vigorously, let out a few deep breaths, clenched his teeth, and the veins in his neck burst.

He Yinan was so anxious that he squeezed out vague syllables from his throat. He was at a loss and had no way to sign to Lu Ran, so he could only reach out and hug Lu Ran tightly, and use his hands to help Lu Ran breathe on his back.

Lu Ran felt dizzy in his mind, and he suddenly remembered many things.

When he was a sophomore in high school, his father Lu Junfeng failed in business and owed a lot of money outside.

Since then, Lu Junfeng has never been motivated again, and he is decadent at home every day, and the money owed by the family is getting more and more.

The burden of life fell on his mother. In order to support him in studying, his mother worked three jobs a day, and became haggard and gradually fell ill.

Life plummeted and he was extremely depressed. The pressure of his studies and life caused his own personality to change. He gradually became gloomy and withdrawn, and he didn't like to talk.

More and more memory fragments poured into the brain.

Lu Ran felt that he was about to pass out from the pain, his consciousness was about to fall into chaos, and he couldn't even find himself.

No wonder, I always don't want to remember the past.

Lu Ran felt as if he was about to change back to his former self, that extreme, dark and withdrawn person...

Fortunately, at this time a thin but warm body came over and hugged him tightly, and a warm ball pressed against his abdomen, the little thing inside was moving lazily, gurgling, and Cute and cozy.

Lu Ran exhaled, woke up from the chaos, and barely raised his arms to wrap around He Yinan's waist.

He Yinan immediately raised his eyes to look at him, with anxiety and worry in his clear eyes.

Lu Ran smiled, touched the back of He Yinan's head, and said.

He Yinan let go of his arms and pursed his lips to look at him.

Lu Ran relaxed for a while, stretched his eyebrows, and looked at the cardboard box again. He carefully recalled the past, and said bitterly: "My mother got liver cancer back then, and she was hospitalized every day, spending a lot of money. Do you remember?"

At that time, he already knew He Yinan, he was a senior in high school, and He Yinan was in junior high school.

Surprise flashed in He Yinan's eyes, and he gestured: 【You didn't tell me this before. 】

Lu Ran recalled that during that time, due to changes in his family, he gradually became gloomy, negative, moody, and many friends he knew before left him.

He also began to deliberately distance himself from He Yinan. He felt that He Yinan couldn't help him.

Lu Ran felt that He Yinan was just a little mute, who couldn't speak a word, was pitifully bullied, and a child who could enjoy eating chicken legs for a long time, how could he help him?

Moreover, at that time, his personality was very bad, no one should want to get close to him.

So he felt that as long as he ignored He Yinan, He Yinan would not come to him.

Lu Ran didn't want to talk about this, so he poked He Yinan's sore spot and said, "Maybe I forgot to tell you."

He thought for a while, and then said in a hoarse voice: "At that time, I was about to take the college entrance examination, and my mother's illness became more and more serious. The savings we had accumulated were almost used up. I thought I would stop studying and go to work to earn money. But my mother refused to let me go. I don’t remember clearly what happened afterwards, my mother seems to have passed away, maybe because she was too seriously ill.”

Seeing that He Yinan was sad, Lu Ran reached out and squeezed He Yinan's palm.

He Yinan lowered his eyes, his fingertips resting on his stomach trembled slightly, and shook his head at Lu Ran.

He Yinan looked at Lu Ran for a while, sniffed, then shook his head, mustering up the courage to confess:

[No, that's not the case, you remember wrongly. 】

【Do you still remember the story of Xiaohe and Brother Xiaohuo? 】

【I am Xiaohe, Auntie died because she saved me...】