Heartbeat misses Nick Charlie

I haven't seen Charlie for half an hour, and while he's probably still mad at me, I think it's time to go see him again.But what happened to him, made me a little unhappy.I don't feel like I've done anything to deserve his anger.

I found him in the basement, sitting in the corner with Aled.I walked towards him, hoping that his bad temper was gone, but when I pushed through the crowd and came to him, I found his face was full of tears. At this time, I realized that the problem was a bit serious, something must be wrong. what's the matter.

I knelt beside him, and Aled looked at me in panic, not knowing what to do.Charlie looked up at me, and if he'd only been a little drunk, he's dead drunk now.No wonder he's sitting in the basement.

"What's wrong with you?" I yelled, trying to drown out the volume of the music.

He smiled, but it looked very wrong, there must be something terribly wrong. "Are you going to start talking about college again?"

"what?"

"I hate hearing you talk about this, Nick." I squinted at him. "You hate?" He muttered a little more, but I couldn't make out what he was saying.

Then he suddenly grabbed my arm roughly and started kissing me.

I quickly realized that drinking and making out is not fun when one partner is sober, but he kissed deeper.I could feel his tear-soaked cheeks and the booze on his breath.I froze for a few seconds before realizing what was happening, and I blinked to see Aled get up and walk away in a mixture of surprise and sadness.

I gently pushed Charlie away. "do not do that."

"N-k-" Charlie wanted to jump on me again, but I backed away. "You promised me."

"Charlie, you're weird right now."

"I didn't."

"You are really strange." I grabbed his arm and helped him stand up.He swayed a bit and grabbed my arm with both hands. "Come on, let's go upstairs." He didn't speak, and I led him upstairs through the crowd.The upstairs is already empty, and almost everyone is dancing in the basement.I took him into the sun room, which was very quiet except for the sound of rain hitting the glass ceiling, just as I had hoped.

I helped him back into the armchair and squatted down in front of him. "What's going on." He didn't look at me, or maybe he didn't hear me at all. "Charles." I said a little louder, and this time he looked up at me.

"why did you do this?"

"Huh?" He said viciously, shaking his head. "What's wrong with me?"

"One second you were still furious with me, the next second you want to make out with me!" He covered his face with his hands and leaned forward.

"I feel bad."

"Damn it." I stood up, wasting my time. "Why are you such an asshole." He didn't move.

"Can you just say something!" I said.He still didn't respond.

"You're clearly mad at me, why can't you tell me what I did wrong!" He groaned and shook his head.

"Your mother is convinced," I sat down on the sofa opposite.

"Okay, now I really don't know what to do."

"Don't attack me," he muttered.

"I didn't kill you!"

"I still said no." We sat there without saying a word, until a thunderbolt startled me from the sofa.Charlie looked up.

"Break up with me if you want to," he said.It took me a few seconds to understand what he was saying.

"What did you say?" I stood up again, really angry this time.What is he thinking?Which one is this? "What the hell are you talking about?"

"If you want to start over, or say, you're tired of me or something." His eyes became clouded again, and his voice became slurred.Lightning flashed overhead, lighting up the entire room.Why did he say such things?

"Huh? Is this what you want?" I laughed out loud. This kind of thing can't happen. "You want to break up with me, don't you?"

"I just want to. Make you. Happy."

"Liar," I said angrily, and I couldn't control the volume of my voice.

"Ellie and Tao are breaking up."

"So, so are we going to break up too? Don't you even want to try?" Part of my brain wanted to talk to him calmly, but a bigger part was completely overwhelmed by anger, and I didn't even know why I did so.Maybe it's just tiredness, I've had enough of this crap, enough of the bickering about college, and I've only had a few months left with Charlie.

"Why are you saying that, Charlie? If you want to break up with me, just say no." I don't want to hear him say that, I feel like I'm going to throw up.

Charlie just shook his head, staring blankly at the open space next to me.

"Is that why you act like this?" I said. "You want to break up with me, but you don't even have the fucking courage to say it? Are you trying to force me to break up?" He started crying again, his body shaking.But he didn't say anything, and he didn't deny what I said.

"Fuck you," I said, only then did I realize I was crying too.God, I can't even remember the last time I cried.

He finally looked up and yelled at me with all his might. "But I'm the one who got left behind!" He pointed his hand out the window, his voice out of tune. "You're fucking going to college and making lots and lots of new friends, and I'm the only one left behind. We keep saying things are going to be alright, we can video call everyday, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. But it's not going to get any better, is it?" His arms were flailing wildly, his eyes darting across the room. "It ain't gonna get any better, my life's just going to be a mess. I'm going to be stuck in this shitty town all by myself, and you're gonna tell me every day it's the best thing ever. You know Huh, what you're saying makes me feel terrible. It's like you're expecting to get rid of me, like you can't wait to get out of here, get away from me—"

"Enough?!" I yelled back, scratching my hair frantically. "Then what do you want me to do?! Don't you want to go to college?"

"certainly not!"

"But isn't that what you mean?"

"I do not have--"

"You have no fucking right to be angry with me because of this. I'm a year older than you, and I'm going to college this September. This is a fact that cannot be changed." He stared at me with wide eyes, tears in his eyes, But then he put his head down again. "Why are you doing this to me?"

"Brother, what did I do to you?" Charlie looked up again, and when he took his hands away from his face, I saw his eyes were swollen from crying.

"Don't call me brother. You never call me brother." I shook my head angrily and sighed. "You're a real jerk tonight."

"Then you go!" he yelled.It was raining harder and I could barely hear his voice. "Get out!"

"No problem, I'm leaving now." Just like that, I walked out of the room.

Xu Tao was standing at the stairs, he should have heard every word we said.God, it's all his and Ellie's fault, and Charlie wouldn't be here if they hadn't broken up.He doesn't want to break up with me, he doesn't think so.

"He... are you okay?" Tao stammered.He's always been such a crafty bastard, always wearing one of his stupid hats and stupid shirts.I never liked him.

"See what good things you have done?" I quickly walked past him. "Fuck you." He flinched back.I wanted to say a few more words to him, but my mind had gone blank and I hadn't recovered from what Charlie had said.What the hell happened?Obviously everything was fine yesterday, so it can't just end like this.No way.I walked through the laughing crowd in the living room, into the rain, and was drenched by the time I got into the car.I started the car and sat in the car for over 20 minutes, maybe I was afraid to drive home amidst the thunder, maybe I was expecting Charlie to come out of the house and open the door and tell me that everything just happened Drunk nonsense.But he didn't, so I just sat there.