Heartbeat misses Nick Charlie

Everyone is talking about college.

I don't think I've ever been this excited and impatient about anything in my life.My classmates seem to think so too.This is the beginning of freedom to only do what we want and never be treated like a child again.

But I can actually understand, that is, Charlie should not want to talk about this topic.After all, he won't be able to go to college until a year later.

It's 11 o'clock, and I'm pretty sure Charlie's avoiding me.As usual at the party we're stuck together, but given what happened earlier, I'm honestly a little bit confused.

I found Tao next to him.I greet Tao with a few polite words, but I can feel Charlie staring at me.I squatted down so I could look him in the eye.His eyes are blank and he blinks frequently—well, he's drunk. "Are you OK?"

"I'm fine," he said angrily. "God, you don't need to check my situation every few seconds, just let me go." I felt myself step back a little.It's been a long time since Charlie has spoken to me so harshly, what the hell have I done wrong?I stood up again. "Okay, I'll just go, there's no need to yell at me." He turned his face away. "I didn't yell at you."

"Hmm." I turned and left the sun room, but I still heard what Tao said to Charlie at the end, "What's wrong with you?" Charlie was in the middle of the night, and I hid in the basement, and almost everyone came down to dance.I was hoping these loud techno and Daft Punk songs would drown out the buzzing in my head, but it didn't.I can't help but think I'm a piece of shit, I'm the shittiest boyfriend in the universe.I was standing against the wall, but my body gradually slid to the ground, and the dancing crowd in front of me was blurred by the strobe lights in Harry's house.Why am I so weird and irritable?Why am I like this?

"Charlie!" A voice cut through the music, not Nick's.I looked up to see Aled standing in front of me, wearing a fuchsia jumper, looking at me awkwardly. "Are you okay?" I swallowed, and the word "bad" almost blurted out.I'm not good, I'm not fucking good at all. "Ah, I'm fine."

"You don't look well." Aled frowned. "Is it because of Ellie and Tao?" Am I hallucinating?Maybe my brain conjured up the phrase? "Huh? What happened to them?"

"I want to say, that is, what I said about Ellie and Tao yesterday, I shouldn't have said those words, I'm having a hard time right now." I shook my head, trying to laugh but couldn't. "What the hell are you trying to say, Aled?"

"Ellie and Tao broke up." I jumped up. "What?" Ali's eyes widened. "Oh, oh sorry, I thought you already knew. I just heard about their decision to break up at the end of the summer." I stared at him. "What did you say?" Aled lowered his head. "Well, Tao said that they will continue dating until Ellie leaves, but they think the long-distance relationship is a bit too difficult, and Ellie wants to start over in college."

"Tao didn't take the initiative to tell me. I just found out after chatting with him. I didn't..." Aled did not continue.

I opened my mouth to say something, but the words were blocked.Why do some people break up because they want to go to another place?Ellie and Tao Mingming really like each other, they are exactly the same kind of people, oh my god.

Why would anyone do this?Not me and Nick.Nick wasn't going to want to "start over", he was fine with a long distance relationship and he didn't want to break up with me.

Will he?won't he?Does he want to break up with me?

"I'm sorry, Charlie, I'm sorry," Aled said hastily as I started to cry.

"I'm sorry," I said, though I was sure no one could hear me over the deafening music, and I didn't know who I was apologizing to. "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry."