Dead after eight years [rebirth]

As soon as the sky broke, Cheng Nan kept his promise and got up.And Cheng Shuibei stayed up all night.

Admitting he was sick was as hard for him as it was to live.Fortunately, he met his brother the day he woke up again, otherwise he might not have the courage to survive.

Cheng Shuibei suddenly realized that when Zhang Ci'an woke up that morning and found that he was not around, his first reaction should be that he was looking for death again.How did Zhang Ci'an find Chengxi in despair at that time?

And Professor Zhang, who came home from school, must have felt so sad when he saw the bouquet of flowers with longevity written on it.

Cheng Shuibei didn't feel the joy after "revenge" in his heart, but the pain became more and more painful, and the pain lasted all night.

After packing up, he took his brother to the train station, and the man was already waiting in front of the station alone.

Zhang Ci'an dragged his suitcase and stood in the morning breeze. He hadn't seen him for a few days, but Cheng Shuibei felt that he had lost a lot of weight. It seemed that he could see his thin soul through his skin.

Cheng Nan held his hand and walked forward. When he was about to turn a corner and meet him face to face, Cheng Shuibei retreated.

He is a sick person, Xiaobei who is sick will only hurt Zhang Ci'an.

"Go quickly." Cheng Shuibei pushed his brother out and hid himself behind a tree.

Cheng Nan turned around with a puzzled look on his face: "Don't you want to apologize to him?"

Cheng Shuibei shook his head, what Zhang Ci'an needed was not his apology, what Zhang Ci'an needed was a better Xiaobei.

So, Cheng Nan ran to Zhang Ci'an alone.

Looking secretly at Cheng Shuibei from the shadow of the tree, Zhang Ci'an glanced in this direction with a little disappointment.Afraid of meeting someone's eyes, Cheng Shuibei turned his head like lightning and hid further away.

When it was almost time to check the ticket, Cheng Nan ran back.He motioned Cheng Shuibei to spread his hand, and put a small object in Cheng Shuibei's palm.

It was an unburned firework stick.

"Brother Ci asked me to ask you, can he stay for the New Year's Eve dinner during the Chinese New Year?" Cheng Nan helped others.

Cheng Shuibei looked at the little firework stick in his hand and nodded, wanting to cry and laugh at the same time.

Zhang Ci'an's extravagant expectations of him are just that.

Cheng Nan happily ran out, and shouted to Zhang Ci'an who was still waiting there, "He said, yes!"

can.

Xiao Bei will get better, good enough to accept Professor Zhang's love.

Hearing this "yes", the person who was waiting finally stepped on the road to Yunan with peace of mind.

After returning home, Cheng Shuibei put the firework stick in front of the urn and entrusted his father to keep it safe.He believes that the fireworks will bloom one day.

The next day, under the supervision of Cheng Nan, Cheng Shuibei went to the psychologist recommended by Zhang Cian.

Looking at the other people waiting in line outside the clinic, Cheng Shuibei's heart was beating wildly.

When he was nervous, he wanted to eat an apple, but when he looked down, he saw Cheng Nan take out a big, red apple from his schoolbag.

"Brother Ci said, if you're nervous, eat an apple." Cheng Nan raised his face and smiled, pressing his little hand on Cheng Shuibei's palm and spinning it to comfort him.

Professor Zhang doesn't know anything, Professor Zhang knows everything.

With the courage given by Apple, Cheng Shuibei finally had the strength to push open the door of the consulting room.The patient was a 30-year-old female doctor. Cheng Shuibei had seen the house number before she came in. Her name was Dong Sining.

Dr. Dong graduated from Yunan University. He should be studying for a doctorate at this time. Strictly speaking, he is Zhang Ci’an’s senior sister, because Zhang Ci’an’s supervisor has done interdisciplinary projects on fire safety and psychology. Dr. Dong who has stayed in school for several years.

Cheng Shuibei didn't dare to let go of Cheng Nan's hand, like a child afraid of injections, timidly afraid to go in at the door.

Unexpectedly, Dr. Dong didn't mind: "It's okay, if you need him, he can follow."

Only then did Cheng Shuibei sit down with his brother at ease.

"Don't be afraid, I will keep everything about you secret, and I won't tell him."

Dr. Dong was referring to Zhang Ci'an.Although she was entrusted by someone to come here for consultation, she would not casually tell the person who invited her to come here about the patient's condition.

"Before we talk, would you like a glass of water?" Dr. Dong asked with a smile. After Xiao Cheng nodded, he handed him a glass of warm water, and poured another glass for Cheng Nan.

Perhaps with Cheng Nan's company, Cheng Shuibei gradually lost his fear, and gradually stretched his clenched fists.

Under Dr. Dong's questioning, Cheng Shuibei answered the recent situation, and then went out for a checkup with the list.

In addition to the SDS (Self-Rating Depression Scale), SAS (Self-Rating Anxiety Scale) and MDQ (Mood Disorder Questionnaire), Cheng Shuibei was also given an electrocardiogram, heart rate variability trend and blood tests.

Do it one by one, and Cheng Nan firmly holds Cheng Shuibei's hand when he is allowed to accompany him. When he is not allowed to accompany him, Cheng Nan waits obediently at the door. The faint figure can also feel more at ease.

Under the arrangement of Dr. Dong, Cheng Shuibei performed the examination and produced the results very quickly. After sitting outside the clinic for half an hour, all the examination results came out.

The result was as he had imagined, with severe anxiety and depression.

"You don't have to worry too much. These data can only prove that you are currently in a state of depression and anxiety. After treatment and adjustment, you will get better." Dr. Dong wrote the case at his desk, and at the same time talked about An Cheng Shuibei's heart.

But Cheng Shuibei knew very well that he was just sick.In his previous life, his illness was diagnosed by Dr. Dong, and his resistance to treatment for one or two years in a row finally led to that tragic ending.

Cheng Nan didn't know what the doctor's sister was talking about, but he remembered Zhang Ci'an's words and stayed by Cheng Shuibei's side non-stop.

When Dr. Dong wanted to write something, he stopped writing and discussed with Cheng Shuibei: "Are you willing to accept drug treatment? There may be some side effects, but it will be of great help to your current situation."

"What side effects?" Cheng Nan asked anxiously ahead of him.

Dr. Dong didn't mind being interrupted, and patiently explained to the child: "It varies from person to person, maybe it's because they love to sleep...well, it might also be because they eat a lot and get fat."

"Oh——" Cheng Nan nodded, as if he understood, and then shook Cheng Shuibei's arm, "Cheng Shuibei, you don't have to worry about getting fat, I will eat a lot of meals with you, so we can have a good relationship with Xiao Brother Monkey is the same!"

Cheng Shuibei laughed amusedly, and really believed his words: "Well, the doctor, I want to take medicine so that I can grow into a fat man soon."

"Get better soon," Dr. Dong wrote the last two orders, and returned the medical record to Cheng Shuibei, "Okay, I'm a doctor here, and I can only give you medical advice. But I still have an identity It's a psychological counselor, and I've been in Jiangshuo for the past six months, are you willing to receive psychological counseling other than medicine?"

Would you like it? Every word Zhang Ci'an said to him this year was carried out under the guidance of a professional consultant.Cheng Shuibei even had a vague guess, would Professor Zhang, like him, need to receive psychological counseling from time to time?

Under his brother's affirming and encouraging eyes, Cheng Shuibei took the business card from Dr. Dong.

As soon as he got out of the hospital, Cheng Nan snatched the things in his hand, and said to Cheng Shuibei seriously: "From today onwards, I will supervise you to take the medicine, and you must take one pill. At night, I will sleep against the wall, you If you feel sad and scared, just pat the wall, and I will come when I hear it.”

Cheng Nan has already experienced a parting, and he must work very hard to keep Cheng Shuibei who can be called "family".

At the gate of the hospital, the little monkey waited anxiously on an electric tricycle.

Cheng Shuibei asked him to go to the store by himself in the morning, and the little monkey couldn't sit still when he heard that he was coming to the hospital, so he came to the hospital to wait for someone.

"How is it, Brother Bei, how are you?" The little monkey asked Cheng Shuibei when he saw the figure jumping out of the car hurriedly.

Naturally, Cheng Shuibei didn't intend to tell him the truth, and after making a "shh" gesture with Cheng Nan, he mysteriously bit his ear with the little monkey.

"The doctor said that my place may not be available for a while."

Cheng Shuibei pretended to be serious, then patted the dumbfounded little monkey, and dexterously jumped onto the tricycle: "Let's go, let's go!"

He didn't lie, there was such an item in the side effects of the drug, and with the absence of that person, Cheng Shuibei couldn't use it if he wanted to.

The doctor prescribed heart rate-regulating drugs to Cheng Shuibei for emergency. As for the drugs to treat depression, he needed to increase the dose slowly, take half a tablet for the first five days, and then increase the dose slowly.

Cheng Nan memorized the doctor's orders better than English texts, and called Cheng Shuibei at night to close the shop, and urged Cheng Shuibei to take medicine and go to bed after eating, even Cheng Shuibei's previous bedtime. The former entertainment project - playing Pac-Man with a button phone - was also deprived by Cheng Nan.

Because Cheng Nan exchanged Cheng Shuibei's lady's mobile phone, which had no other functions but to make calls and listen to music.

The child's busyness was useful. Cheng Shuibei couldn't fall asleep at first, but gradually fell asleep when he touched the pillow, and fell asleep without dreams until dawn.

On Saturday, it was time for the psychological consultation that Cheng Shuibei and Dr. Dong made an appointment for.Dong Sining said that one-on-one consultation is best. In view of Cheng Shuibei's situation, it is suggested that Cheng Shuibei choose the consultation location, and he thinks it is safe.

Safety, the only place Cheng Shuibei could associate with this word in his mind was the small courtyard of Cheng's family in the west of the city.

Cheng Nan contacted Uncle En one day in advance, got the key to the small courtyard left by Zhang Ci'an, and handed it to Cheng Shuibei with great care: "Take care well, and I will come to pick you up when it's over."

The children don't know what psychological counseling is, but they only know that the elder sister from last time came to treat Cheng Shuibei, which is called "seeing a doctor".

Cheng Shuibei took Dong Si Ning and pushed open the dusty door of Cheng's small courtyard, went to the main room to tidy up a clean place, and called Dr. Dong to sit down.

"If you want, you can call me Teacher Dong, and don't think of me as a doctor from now on." Dong Sining corrected him.

Cheng Shuibei called out "Teacher Dong", and then cramped into the appearance of a primary school student.

"Don't be nervous," Dong Si Ning sat down on the small bench without any distaste, looked at Cheng Shuibei and asked, "May I know why you chose this place?"

On the wooden bed in the corner, there was no one who coughed and opened the door for Cheng Shuibei who came back at night.

Cheng Shuibei sat on the threshold with arms folded, looking up at the vines that were still luxuriant despite no one taking care of them, and the sunlight leaking through the leaves.

"I don't know if you believe it or not, after a person dies, he will wake up again in a new place with a new identity."

The author has something to say:

I saw a cutie in the comments called Professor Zhang Youyou, hahahahaha that’s how the name Ci’an came about, it’s miserable, and it’s cute