Dead after eight years [rebirth]

Xu is to prove what Cheng Shuibei said yesterday, when the sunny day suddenly began to be covered by dark clouds, the eyes were about to rain

Cheng Shuibei forgot how he walked home from the hotel.

When he opened the door, Cheng Nan was taking milk from the refrigerator.

"Cheng Shuibei, where did you go last night? I can't get through to you, and I can't get through to Brother Ci." Cheng Nan asked the absent-minded Cheng Shuibei while heating the milk.

Last night, Zhang Ci'an thought it was too noisy, so he turned off their mobile phones. Cheng Shuibei thought, if he had heard his brother's voice at that time, he might not have been so crazy.

Cheng Shuibei could only lie: "I went to Grandma Hou's house yesterday to help her with work, so I didn't come back too late, and my phone was dead. I know I was wrong, can you forgive me?"

"Okay." Cheng Nan handed the warm milk to Cheng Shuibei, "You drink it first, and I'll heat up another cup."

Seeing his elder brother's skillful and busy figure, Cheng Shuibei couldn't bear it.

After losing his father, Cheng Nan spent half a year here day and night with Zhang Ci'an, and finally made this place his home, but he wanted to leave with his brother.

"Cheng Nan."

After his brother raised his head and drank the milk in one gulp, Cheng Shuibei finally plucked up the courage: "We may have to move."

"Why," Cheng Nan was a little unbelievable, "I lived well, why did I move, brother Ci will follow us to the new home?"

No, they moved only to avoid Zhang Ci'an, how could they bring Zhang Ci'an with them.

Cheng Shuibei walked up to his brother, held his hand and discussed, "It's like this, your brother Ci is going to study abroad soon, so this house will not be rented, we have to find a new place."

What he said was the truth, but he concealed the unspeakable part in his own mind.

When Cheng Nan heard that he was really going to move, he was a little downcast, but he accepted it after a while.

"Can you move near our school, so that you don't have to trouble Uncle En to pick me up." Cheng Nan carefully discussed with Cheng Shuibei.

"Okay." Cheng Nan was too sensible, and Cheng Shuibei couldn't refute him.That's it, living in the west can take care of each other with the little monkey's family.

After convincing his brother, Cheng Shuibei immediately started looking for a house.Contact in the morning, view the house at noon, and pay the deposit in the afternoon to move.

Their new home is located in the old community near Chengnan School, and Cheng Shuibei only plans to rent it for one year.Because Cheng Nan will be going to middle school next year, he will redouble his efforts to buy a new house at that time, and even buy it in the city, closer to the middle school.

Cheng Nan put on the schoolbag he had carried from the west of the city, hugged his father's ashes, and followed Cheng Shuibei out of the place where he had lived for more than half a year.

Cheng Shuibei put the house key on the cabinet in the entrance, and put down together with half a year's rent calculated according to the market price.

"Goodbye."

The brothers waved goodbye and left the safe haven where they had spent a moment of safety.

After they moved, Cheng Shuibei made an agreement with his elder brother not to tell Zhang Cian where they lived on the grounds that he didn't want to disturb Zhang Cian's study.Professor Zhang couldn't get any information from the undercover agent, so he came to the bookstore every day to guard.

Cheng Shuibei was able to persuade him with good intentions at first, but Professor Zhang was so stubborn that he couldn't drive him away with a word or two.Slowly, Cheng Shuibei began to ignore him.

Just like he ignored himself in the first place.

Cheng Shuibei firmly believed that Zhang Ci'an was just a whim, and sooner or later he would figure it out.

Sure enough, half a month later, about Zhang Ci'an was obsessed with other things, so he stopped coming.

Cheng Shuibei downloaded the scripture of confession from the Internet, and copied it stroke by stroke in his notebook.He thought, he had to pay for his sins by himself, why bother to involve others.

He copied scriptures for himself and also for Cheng Wenqiu.There was an ancient temple on a nearby mountain, and Cheng Shuibei even offered incense to his father there.

At the end of June, the results of the college entrance examination were released, and the news of Zhang Ci'an, the provincial champion, was overwhelming in the small city of Jiangshuo. Even the sales of Dou Shuyi's books increased several times.

A genius is a genius, he was worried in vain.

Cheng Shuibei went back to his old work, carefully cutting out newspapers with Zhang Ci'an's message in his free summer noon, and inserting them one by one into the poetry collection that wrote "Bread Dip in Salt".

Later, it was reported that even though another top2 university offered hundreds of thousands of scholarships and the conditions for the selection of academician tutors, Zhang Ci'an insisted on choosing his original aspiration, Yunan University.

I just don't know if Professor Zhang will study fire this time.

Before Zhang Ci'an went to Yunan, he visited the bookstore and left behind the address he had decided on in Yunan.Cheng Shuibei threw it into the trash can in front of him.

At that time, Cheng Nan, who was participating in the physics competition summer camp, just came back and bumped into him, so he made an appointment with his loving brother to see him off the next day.

Cheng Shuibei wanted to refuse, but his brother looked at him with clean and clear eyes full of expectation, and he had no reason.

"Well, tomorrow you have to get up early, and I'll take you to the station."

There is no airport in Jiangshuo, so Zhang Ci'an has to take the train to Wuning before he can transfer to Yunan by plane.

Cheng Nan happily agreed, and even Zhang Ci'an made an exception and was allowed to stay and talk to his brother for a while.

After Zhang Ci'an left, Cheng Shuibei picked up the note with the address in the trash can in embarrassment.

When returning home at night, Cheng Shuibei drove his brother west on a small electric donkey.

The evening wind was blowing, and Cheng Shuibei couldn't remember how he felt when he hummed "Shake All the Way".

"Tomorrow your little monkey brother will come to visit the store, we have to go early and come back early, don't delay him going to the west of the city to help grandma get the goods, you know?" Cheng Shuibei told Cheng Nan in the back seat who was tightly clutching the hem of his clothes.

"Understood." Cheng Nan seemed to be uncomfortable sitting, and shook his body.

As a result, Cheng Shuibei was unsteady and almost fell into the flowers in the middle of the road.

"I'm sorry." Cheng Nan apologized wearily.

Cheng Shuibei wouldn't mind this, he helped the car and continued westward: "It's okay, you sit still. I'll put a cotton pad in the back tomorrow to make sure it's more comfortable than Uncle En's BMW."

Cheng Nan didn't speak. After being silent for a long time, he suddenly said "I'm sorry".

Cheng Shuibei: "Huh? What's wrong?"

"I shouldn't have lied to you with Brother Ci. Cheng Shuibei, I know I was wrong. Don't ignore Brother Ci." Cheng Nan said excitedly, as if he could cry at any time.

But Cheng Shuibei didn't dare to stop, and didn't dare to look back, so he could only answer in the night wind that blew past many people: "It's okay, I didn't blame you or him."

But Cheng Nan didn't believe it.

No one knows what the two geniuses talked about on the second floor during those 10 minutes in the afternoon.

Cheng Shuibei's heart was in a mess, he just hoped to get home soon and do something to calm himself down.

And Cheng Nan in the back seat really started crying.

"I didn't mean to lie to you. Brother Ci said that you have a serious illness, but you don't go to see a doctor. He also said that if I follow the method he taught, you will be happier and your illness will be better." It will be better."

Cheng Shuibei suddenly remembered his illness. Before jumping off the building, a doctor told him that he was ill, the same illness as Cheng Wenqiu.Zhang Cian made an appointment for him with a professional psychiatrist, but Cheng Shuibei never saw him, and only when Professor Zhang urged him would he be stared at to take two tablets of "Escitalopram Oxalate".

he is sick.

The thorns in Cheng Shuibei's heart that he was avoiding grew wildly, piercing through the barriers built up by people's meditation, and piercing into his soul.

"Obviously it was like this before, obviously you are very happy, why did it become like this again, did I do something wrong..."

Cheng Shuibei wanted to say something to comfort his brother, but all he could say was "no".

"Cheng Shuibei, don't cry secretly at night."

Did he cry secretly at night? How could his elder brother know about it? Did Zhang Ci'an know about it?

Cheng Shuibei parked the little eDonkey on the side of the road, squatted down and hugged himself, losing all his strength.

Zhang Ci'an approached him to help him heal his illness, but he said that, Zhang Ci'an must be very sad.

Cheng Nan squatted with him, trying hard to pull Cheng Shuibei's hand into his arms. He was already 11 years old, and he was not as tall as the girls in his class. He always stood in the first row of the queue, and his strength was weak. .

But Cheng Nan wanted to work hard to become a man, and he promised Grandpa Zhang.

"Cheng Shuibei, don't blame yourself. You are just sick like your father, and you will get better." Cheng Nan tried his best to comfort the out-of-control Cheng Shuibei, staggered, and wanted to hug Cheng Shuibei and pat him back to comfort him.

When this person slept on the same bed with him, he would often have nightmares, sometimes calling him "Dad", sometimes calling him "Brother", and more often calling him by a name called "Cian".

Later Cheng Nan met Zhang Ci'an and learned about Cheng Shuibei's illness from him.Just as he tried his best to make troubles like making his father fall in love with the world, Cheng Nan also wanted to keep Cheng Shuibei in good condition.

Cheng Nan recalled what brother Ci had said, and began to sing softly, singing the song "The mountains and rivers are beautiful and the sun is high, so the wind is blowing" that Cheng Shuibei often hums.

The little boat came over, and it swayed all the way...

This song was taught to him by his mother.When Cheng Nan was a child, his mother would hold him and sit on the porch and sing this song about the boat shaking. Cheng Nan didn't know what it meant, so he babbled and learned to sing.

Later, when her mother left, Cheng Nan forgot how to sing this song.But Cheng Shuibei hummed it unintentionally. Brother Ci said that this song can make Cheng Shuibei no longer afraid.

The ballad from his mother seemed to have really worked, and Cheng Shuibei's trembling body gradually calmed down.He raised his head in the night and hugged his brother's small body.

Even his elder brother said he was sick, Cheng Shuibei thought, maybe he was really sick.

Sometimes he felt as if he could see the dim light, and sometimes he was in the dark, and there was no one to redeem him.

But Zhang Ci'an chased after him, took Cheng Nan with him, and asked him to cook a hearty egg.

In the dark, Cheng Shuibei thought: I'm probably still useful.

Then he looked up and saw the light, coming from the man's direction.

"Well, I'll be fine. I'll go to the doctor and follow the doctor's instructions to take the medicine on time."

Cheng Nan hooked him up, saying that the one who repented was a puppy.

"Okay," Cheng Shuibei wiped away tears, "Tomorrow we have to get up very early to meet brother Ci, and I apologize to him, okay?"

The sweet-scented osmanthus tree that has not yet bloomed was hung on the crescent moon, and the two finally rode a small electric donkey and headed towards the warm little home in the west.

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