Rebirth of Shaohua

However, the scene was unexpectedly cold. Chu Hua could pretend to be gentle and polite, but he couldn't pretend to be approachable. After a few simple words, the boys looked at him not warmly, although the girls were all red face, but due to shyness, no one took the lead in applauding.At that time, it was Su Shao who was the first to welcome him with a smile on his face and clapping his hands. Su Shao didn't notice the strangeness of the atmosphere, but he acted as if he was unaware of the siege. At that moment, he remembered Su Shao.

This was originally a trivial matter. Chu Hua is not a person who is troubled by how others treat him. For him, even if everyone blames him, he doesn't care. Met once.But that day was very different, looking at Su Shao, he would feel very warm in his heart.

From childhood to adulthood, even if they met for the first time, everyone would think that Chu Hua is a person who does not need help from others. Only Su Shao, who obviously met for the first time, felt that Chu Hua would also need help from others.

In fact, everyone’s feeling is correct, Chu Hua really doesn’t take others seriously, he just listened to the names of the self-introductions of the students, but when it was Su Shao’s turn, he unconsciously listened very seriously , Every word fell into the ears truly.

When he later found out that Su Shao shared a bedroom with him, Chu Hua realized that he had great expectations for it.

But what made him disappointed was that Su Shao had long forgotten that trivial matter at that time, and treated him no differently from others, but Chu Hua couldn't help but always silently pay attention to Su Shao's every move.

Maybe it's because Su Shao looks good when he smiles, maybe it's because of Su Shao's unconscious sincerity when he treats others, maybe it's because of Su Shao's clever mind, in short, when he realizes that he is wrong, his gaze has already Can't move away from Su Shao's body.

This is simply unbelievable, Chu Hua never thought that he would one day fall in love with someone else, not to mention that this person is actually a boy.But if that person was Su Shao, Chu Hua imagined himself living with him, and found that not only did he not have the slightest resistance, but he was also full of anticipation and joy.

He likes Su Shao.

It feels so overwhelming.

But Chu Hua knew that it was wrong for him to do this. Both of them were men, how could it be possible... If Su Shao found out about such a strange emotion, Chu Hua didn't dare to imagine what he would think of him.

So he chose to watch Su Shao silently all the time, and he told himself that when Su Shao found a girlfriend one day, he had to give up and smash his ridiculous delusion.

But in the end, instead of Su Shao's girlfriend, he waited for Zhu He.

He watched helplessly as the person he cared about took someone else's hand and made a promise to be together.

How ridiculous, his timidity made him miss the best opportunity. It's not that Su Shao can't accept a man, but that man is not him.

It was his hesitation that made him give up the opportunity.

Every time I think about it many years later, Chu Hua can only call himself a coward. He was the one who met Su Shao first, but in the end he left Su Shao to Zhu He.

After Su Shao and Zhu He got together, he was opposed by the dormitory. Only he did not change towards Su Shao, so Su Shao and his relationship gradually improved. Sometimes Su Shao would say with emotion: "That's great, Only you have the same attitude towards me."

Chu Hua could only smile wryly.What can I say?Said that I will never discriminate against you in my life, because I am the same as you?This is impossible, let's say, let Su Shao find out that he is the same kind, even if it is for Zhu He, Su Shao will not get so close to him.

During the period when their relationship was the best, Su Shao would sometimes ask him why he didn't find a girlfriend, and which girl he liked. Pretending to be nonchalant, she told Su Shao with a smile that she was not attracted to anyone.

What a false lie, telling the person you like that you don't have a lover.

But what could he do?It is very good to be able to accompany Su Shao as a friend. The phrase "I like you is you" hidden in my heart cannot be said. Su Shao already has Zhu He, and he looks so happy.

Yes, Su Shao looked very happy at that time.So when Zhu He repeatedly asked Su Shao to stay away from him later, Chu Hua did not try his best to keep him. He thought that he was an unstable factor for Su Shao after all. Shao Hao, then he should let go.

In order to completely control himself and not affect Su Shao, he finally chose to go abroad.

It's just that he didn't expect that Zhu He would dare to let Su Shao down so much later.

The news about Su Shao that we got for the first time in so many years turned out to be the news of his death.

At that moment, Chu Hua thought the whole world had collapsed.He suppressed the love in his heart and stayed away from Su Shao. He thought it would make him happy, but he didn't expect such a result in the end.He tried to convince himself it was a bad joke, but his heart told himself calmly and brutally that it wasn't.

Chu Hua left all his work and bought a plane ticket to return home.He suppressed the grief in his heart, visited Su Shao's parents, helped organize Su Shao's funeral, and watched his beloved being cremated to ashes.

During that period of time, he was energetic during the day and sleepless at night. He was as skinny as a ghost, but the real lonely soul never found him, nor entered his dreams.

Yes, Chu Hua, who has always been rational, even preferred to believe those absurd legends at that time. How much he hoped that people would have souls after death, how much he wished that Su Shao could return to the world after the first seven days, and he even thought that if Su Shao came back If so, he is willing to exchange with Su Shao, let Su Shao live with his body, and he can go to the underworld instead of Su Shao.

It's a pity that legends are legends, and they can't be taken as true. Su Shao will never come back if it is true.

As it should be, no one invited Zhu He, or in other words, the name Zhu He has become a forbidden word in the mouths of people related to Su Shao, and no one can mention it. If it is mentioned, everyone will Feeling hatred and sadness, especially Su Shao's parents.

But no one expected that Zhu He would come to the door by himself.

He actually has a face.

What is even more unexpected is that Zhu He actually tried to take Su Shao's ashes away. He kept saying that he was Su Shao's lover and that he should be with Su Shao forever.

Chu Hua felt that his dislike for this person in front of him had reached its peak at that moment, and he couldn't help but do the most disrespectful thing in his life——slapped Zhu He across the face under the eyes of everyone.

He slapped him very hard and loudly, but Chu Hua didn't regret this action at all. He even wondered why he didn't use all his strength.

Regarding Zhu He, Chu Hua felt that no matter how vicious he thought, he would not blame himself.

After Su Shao's funeral, Chu Hua took care of foreign affairs and returned to China completely.He brought the second elder of the Su family into his own home, and he told his parents that these were his lover's parents and their in-laws.

He will take care of them well, just like their own sons.

He will perform filial piety instead of Su Shao, and hope that he can feel at ease in heaven.

Life is so dull and boring. After many years, he is always alone. Chu Hua knows that he will only be alone in this life.

Die alone.

His parents tried to persuade him, even Su Shao's parents couldn't stand it and tried to persuade him, but he declined all the old man's persuasion.

Some people are worth remembering for a lifetime.

The only special day every year is Su Shao's death day. On that day, Chu Hua will pack himself extra solemnly, buy a large bouquet of flowers, go to Su Shao's tomb to visit him, talk to him, talk about the past year Life.

At that time, he would feel that Su Shao was not far away from him. Su Shao was actually sitting in front of him, and he could see him listening with a sincere smile as soon as he looked up.

Even if it was just an illusion, it was enough to comfort him.

The only thing that makes Chu Hua dissatisfied is that every year he visits the tomb, he can see Zhu He.

Chu Hua didn't think that Su Shao would be willing to see Zhu He, and he didn't think Zhu He was qualified to visit Su Shao. Every year they would stalemate for a long time, no matter whether Zhu He begged or abused him, he never gave in.

Later, when Zhu Yao, Zhu He's son grew up, he would come to visit the grave every year.

When Zhu Yao came here for the first time, Chu Hua was very hesitant. He was not sure whether he wanted to stop Zhu Yao. of.At that time, he stood in front of Su Shao's tomb and looked down at Zhu Yao on the side of the road. The person below was small, with tightly pursed lips, and a resolute expression that did not match his age.

At that moment, his heart was suddenly relieved, 'this is still a child' he told himself.He knew that with Su Shao's character, he would never take his anger out on the child, and he also knew that just because the child remembered Su Shao's death day and came to visit him, the child was already different from Zhu He and Liu Weiwei.

In the end, he didn't do anything, he didn't say anything, as if he had never seen Zhu Yao, it was a tacit understanding without words.

Only Zhu He, Chu Hua knew that he would never forgive him in his life, and in his lifetime, he would never allow Zhu He to visit Su Shao's grave on the day of Su Shao's death.

This is what Zhuhe deserves because of his betrayal of Su Shao.

And in this life, he will walk alone alone, which is what he deserves, for the cowardice and love back then.