Rebirth of Shaohua

He felt a little sad for a moment, but when he thought of his mother who was still in prison and Su Shao lying underneath, his phrase 'pay attention to your body' was stuck in his throat and he couldn't get it out.

In the end, he just said dryly: "I'm leaving." He turned around and got into the car without looking back, and never looked back at the aging man behind him.

Some things would have been better if they hadn't happened back then, and some people, it would have been better if they hadn't met back then.

32. Zhuhe Fanwai

In the general manager's office, Zhu He gently handed in his resignation letter.

The blond-haired, blue-eyed German in front of him had a very regretful expression. He tried repeatedly to persuade Zhu He to stay, and kept trying to improve his salary to impress Zhu He. Unfortunately, Zhu He had already made up his mind, and he politely refused.

In the end, the Germans had to shrug their shoulders regretfully, gave up this meaningless action, and instead wished Zhuhe a smooth journey in the future.

Zhu He responded with a smile.

After leaving the office building, Zhu He let out a deep breath.He has lost count of the number of times this has happened over the years, and he has always been like this, resigned after working in each place for a while, and then left to start again in another place.

Over the years, he has visited almost all the bigger countries.

He can't stay in one place safely, he doesn't feel at ease.

He's in his 30s, doesn't have a fixed home, and doesn't have a lover or child, and he's always been like this.Although the salary is high, his life is very poor. He remitted all the money back to China and sent it to his parents to make up for his unfilial piety of not being able to be with them often.The money he left for himself every month was barely enough to eat and wear. He was like an ascetic monk, watching the right and wrong around him with cold eyes.

Whenever a colleague who has begun to get acquainted proposes to introduce him to a girlfriend, he always tactfully refuses, telling them that he already has someone he likes.

Colleagues always didn't believe it, they thought it was probably just an excuse, because they had never seen anyone around him, but when he repeated it repeatedly, gradually, no one mentioned this kind of thing anymore.

This is very good, and he didn't lie, he really already has someone he likes, or to be precise, someone he has loved for a lifetime.

Although he will never get this person, and he dare not even meet him.

Over the years, he has been wandering abroad, but rarely returned to China.When he returned to China, he just left to visit his parents and never stayed.Because he didn't dare, he was afraid that if he stayed for a long time, he wouldn't want to leave, and if he didn't want to leave, he would develop further thoughts that he shouldn't have, and if he wanted to get closer to that person, he couldn't help but move. to his surroundings, and even finally couldn't help but appear in front of him, disrupting his life.

Although he clearly knew that it would be best for him not to appear in that person's life.

Su Shao, Su Shao.He would silently say this name countless times in his heart every day, and he prayed countless times to God to allow him to see him again in his dreams. It is good to repeat that experience, even if it is torture, it is sweet torture, but it is useless. I never dreamed of Su Shao.

He used to think that his junior year was a hell on earth, but now that he thought about it, the days when he could see Su Shao all the time and dream of Su Shao every day were obviously heaven.

People say that they think about it every day and dream at night. Obviously, Su Shao is what he thinks about during the day, but in his dream he can dream of his parents, Liu Weiwei who hates him and has never met him in this life. He dreamed of the child he was ashamed of, and dreamed of Su Shao's parents who hated him, but he couldn't dream of Su Shao alone.

This is probably punishment, Zhu He always thinks so.

So now he can only look at the photos of Su Shao that he secretly took and chat.He developed a lot of photos, big and small photos of Su Shao were pasted on the wall, filling every inch of his life.However, he saved more photos in his mobile phone, so that he can see Su Shao anytime and anywhere.No matter how many mobile phones have been changed, there is never a single photo of Su Shao in Zhuhe's memory card.

Now, as long as he recalls the words he swore to Su Shao that his previous life was a misunderstanding when he lost his memory, he would feel ashamed. He didn't even dare to guess what Su Shao thought of him at that time.

Regardless of whether it was the previous life or this life, he failed to leave Su Shao with a good relationship.

Many times, when he is free, Zhu He can't help but think wildly. He thinks that if he hadn't betrayed Su Shao in his previous life, what would it be like if the two of them grew old together in the end, what would it be like? I got all the memories from the beginning, I didn't do those ridiculous things self-righteously, but tried my best to make up for the scars in Su Shao's heart, to atone for sins, will Su Shao be soft-hearted and forgive him, then what are they like now? scene.

Knowing that it was impossible, he couldn't help thinking about it over and over again.

He kept asking himself why he did that in his previous life, and the result was that he didn't know.Obviously having Su Shao is already very happy, but there seems to be an insatiable hole in his heart that feels that it is not enough, so he wants to make himself better, whether it is career status or ability, but he chooses the one that is the lowest. The way of the road depends on women.

His mind seemed to be stuffed with paste, and he actually felt that he worked hard to climb up to live a better life with Su Shao. The woman is in the palm of his hand, and he will not be exposed. Trying a living person as a marionette in his hand, he actually thinks that Su Shao can accept the child he had with another woman as the continuation of two people's lives, even if it is obviously Evidence of betrayal.

He hurt Su Shao, hurt that innocent woman, and cut off his own path to happiness.

In the end there was such a tragedy.

He is essentially such an irresponsible scum.

So in the end, when he lost Su Shao, he deserved to be heartbroken, and when he knew that Su Shao was killed by his wife, he deserved to be overwhelmed with pain, and he deserved to go to hell.

Those two people were killed by him to that point.

But now he is still alive and well.

Now as long as he thinks, fame, status, money, and rights are all within his reach. Because of the memory of two lifetimes, he has such information and ability as a businessman, but at this time he just wants to make a silent laugh at himself. , he is only worthy of bumping and wandering in this life.

Not worthy of a lover, let alone being loved.

After a long time, Zhu He found that he was a bit self-abuse, but he didn't want to correct it at all. Instead, he was excited as if he had discovered a new world, because he finally knew how to vent the suppressed love in his heart.

He started to engrave words on his arm, using a small sharp blade to draw Su Shao's name over and over again. The heat from the blood made him feel that he still had meaning in his existence, and the feeling of his flesh and blood being stirred made him morbidly satisfied, and After the engraving, he looked at the rows of Su Shao's names on his arm, and he felt that he had sustenance.

This became his daily routine. He had to deepen the wound as soon as it started to heal and engrave it on the original place again. Repeated this several times until the wound was almost pierced into the bone and Su Shao's name was extremely obvious. Will start over in another place on my body.

It feels like the hole in my heart is being filled.

He began to wear long sleeves regardless of the season, not to cover up his wounds, but because he found that he didn't want Su Shao's name to be seen by others at all.

Only by covering it can he feel at ease.

At least this is his own Su Shao.

After a hundred years from his parents, he will never return to China, and he will go further afield.With a person in my heart, I wandered for a lifetime, wherever I went, I couldn't walk anymore, and that was the place where his bones were buried.

The author has something to say: Keke, this chapter is relatively short~

Because for Zhuhe, I think this is enough, and I don’t need to write too much.

Well, yes, originally this story is over here, but I remember two girls said that they wanted the episode of Chu Hua from the previous life, so girls, are you still there?If you still want to watch it, Ah Qi will try his best to draw out a chapter of Chu Hua's episode~

By the way, I wish all the little angels who read the article a happy Chinese Valentine's Day ~ pull them into their arms and give them a kiss ~

33. Extra Story of Chu Hua in the Past Life

If life could be repeated again, he would never keep that feeling in his heart again, and let Su Shao fall into the quagmire with Zhu He.

Chu Hua knew that he was abnormal since he was a child. His feelings were relatively indifferent. Whether it was for family or friends, he was always on the sidelines and couldn't put himself into it well, so that the relationship between him and his parents was weak. There are almost no friends.

As for love, since he grew up to 18 years old but never fell in love with anyone, he never had the illusion that his peers should have.

Occasionally, Chu Hua heard his parents worrying about this in a low voice, saying that he was afraid that he would be alone for the rest of his life, but Chu Hua didn't care about it. It was really hard for him to imagine that there was another intimate person in his life. , in fact, he kept telling himself that it would be good to live like this for the rest of his life.

Unexpectedly, the word became a prophecy, and in the end he was really lonely all his life.

Meeting Su Shao was an accident that he had never imagined. Some things were unclear, but he was gradually attracted to Su Shao.

He still remembers the first time he met Su Shao, it was the first day of the university, everyone was nervous and looking forward to introducing themselves, when it was his turn