absolutely attracted

Xia Baiwei's sleep was restless, and he kept dreaming repeatedly at night, just like when he first came to England.For a while he dreamed of Bai Junhua, for a while he dreamed of Gu Jinxing, for a while he dreamed of Xia Zhiyu and Xu Yueying, he couldn't tell if it was a nightmare or a sweet dream, the scenes in the dream intertwined with reality, making Xia Bai a little dazed.

When I woke up, there was the sound of dripping rain outside the window, and the sound of rainwater hitting the glass window was muffled, like manic drumbeats one after another.Xia Baiwei couldn't sleep anymore, so he simply turned on a night light, looking at the dim and soft light to let himself go.

Xia Baiwei has complicated feelings about rainy days.He and Gu Jinxing met on a rainy day, and parted ways on another rainy day.

On that rainy day seven years ago, that is, the day when Lin Yueying entered Xia's house, Xia Bai ran away with a little anger and met Gu Jinxing.The umbrella that Gu Jinxing gave him is still hidden in this room.The day the third year of high school left City B, the sky was overcast, accompanied by a few muffled thunder from time to time.When he left, he felt calm and relieved, but when he arrived in England, he suffered from insomnia all night long.In the first half of the semester, he often painted Gu Jinxing secretly, which was meaningless and completely unconscious.Sometimes I draw in class, and sometimes I draw alone in the library.Later, he tore up all those paintings, thinking that no one would know.Unexpectedly, Smith saw it and even told Gu Jinxing.

Subtle footsteps sounded outside the door, Xia Baiwei couldn't help pricking up his ears to listen, and judged that Gu Jinxing must have got up to go to the bathroom, and then went to the kitchen to pour water for a drink.Turning over on the bed, Xia Bai was lying on his side with his back facing the door, trying to reduce the various sounds outside that disturbed him.

After a while, the sound of footsteps came from far to near, and the sound of the doorknob being twisted. Gu Jinxing looked at Xia Baiwei who was tossing and turning on the bed at the door, and said softly, "Why haven't you slept yet?"

Xia Bai sat up slightly, and said in a voice with some grievances that he didn't realize, "It's raining, so I can't sleep."

Gu Jinxing walked lightly to Xia Baiwei's bed and sat down on the carpet, looked at Xia Baiwei who was wrapped in the quilt, and asked, "Do you want to read to you?"

When she was in high school, Xia Baiwei occasionally suffered from insomnia and couldn't sleep. Every time this happened, she would call Gu Jinxing and ask him to read to herself.Generally, after reading for more than half an hour, Xia Baiwei could be coaxed to sleep, and sometimes Gu Jinxing was so sleepy that he fell asleep while reading, and kept talking on the phone all night.Wake up the next day listening to each other's breathing, and then say good morning to each other.

Xia Bai blinked slightly, retracted into the bed, and said to Gu Jinxing, "Okay."

He casually took a book from the bookshelf beside Xia Baiwei's bed, and Gu Jinxing read it accordingly.Gu Jinxing's voice was low and magnetic.Gradually, the noise of the rain beating against the windows became smaller. I don't know if it was because the rain was falling less, or Xia Baiwei's mind calmed down.

It didn't take long to hear Gu Jinxing's voice, and my brain was swept away by sleepiness.It's more effective than sleeping pills, Xia Baiwei thought before falling asleep.

After hearing Xia Baiwei's steady breathing, Gu Jinxing yawned himself. When he was about to turn around and leave, he found that Xia Baiwei's hand was tightly clenched to the hem of his sleeve. eyebrow.Afraid of waking him up, Gu Jinxing had no choice but to give up, and not long after, he also fell asleep lying on the bedside.

White light seeped in from the light blue curtains and shone on his face, Xia Bai frowned slightly, turned over and prepared to continue sleeping.Suddenly, a strong arm wrapped around his waist, and Xia Baiwei's back leaned against a warm chest.

Xia Bai opened his eyes slightly, and turned his head to look at the people around him. Gu Jinxing was still asleep, with his hands on his waist.Looking at Gu Jinxing's sleeping face, his eyes swept over the thick eyelashes and the high bridge of the nose one by one, and finally lingered on Gu Jinxing's lips.Gu Jinxing's lips are very thin. I heard that people with thin lips are the most fickle. Xia Baiwei couldn't help stretching out his hand to trace the shape of Gu Jinxing's lips in the air.

When he noticed that the breath sprayed on his hands was a little unsteady, Xia Bai raised his eyes slightly, and saw that Gu Jinxing woke up at some point and was looking at him quietly.

Suddenly, an awkward and ambiguous atmosphere filled the air. The two people's faces were already very close to each other, and their breaths were intertwined.Gu Jinxing slowly moved closer to Xia Baiwei, as if he was about to kiss him.

Xia Bai sat up slightly, his ears turned red, and he said unnaturally, "It's getting late, it's time to get up."

Talking about throwing off the quilt and getting out of bed, Xia Bai slightly nervously looked at Gu Jinxing, "What are you doing?"

"Good morning." Gu Jinxing rubbed Xia Baiwei's messy sleeping hair, and smiled dotingly.

Under Gu Jinxing's gaze, Xia Baiwei almost ran away in a panic, went into the bathroom and locked the door, looking at herself in the mirror with flushed face and messy hair.Wanting to drill a hole to escape, Xia Bai felt a little ashamed.

But when he was brushing his teeth, he tried to blame Gu Jinxing again.Why did Gu Jinxing sleep in his own bed?Why do you smile and say good morning to yourself?

Yes, it must be Gu Jinxing who has the problem.Xia Bai walked out of the bathroom calmly after washing up, pretending that nothing happened.

It was almost noon when the two of them got up and cleaned up. After lunch, Gu Jinxing suddenly asked Xia Baiwei, "Is your school far from here?"

"It's not far, do you want to go shopping?" Just after finishing speaking, I felt a little regretful, what is there to do in the school.

On the contrary, Gu Jinxing looked very interested, tilted his head and said to Xia Baiwei, "Okay."

This apartment is only two kilometers away from Xia Baiwei's school, and walking there is only a walk after dinner.

During this period of time, there were basically no people in the school. Since mid-December, the students had been on vacation one after another. Xia Baiwei and Gu Jinxing walked quietly side by side on the road. Neither of them spoke, nor did they feel embarrassed.

"Is this where you have classes?" Gu Jinxing asked, pointing to a building.

Xia Bai nodded slightly, "Yes. Next to it is the library."

It has been more than a year since he graduated, Xia Baiwei looked at these familiar buildings, and suddenly felt that time passed so fast.Four years of college seemed to pass without doing anything meaningful.

"How was your university?" Gu Jinxing asked again.

"It's pretty good. The teachers are pretty good, the classmates are pretty good, and I'm living a pretty good life too." In fact, it's not that good. Xia Baiwei feels that his college life can only be described as so-so at best.After all, I was immature at that time. I was alone in a foreign country, and I had nowhere to go, and I was not used to eating.

Going forward is a bridge. Before getting on the bridge, Gu Jinxing suddenly stopped to look at Xia Baiwei, "I came to look for you in the first semester of my freshman year."

Xia Bai stared blankly at Gu Jinxing, his eyes widened, as if he couldn't believe it.

"On this bridge, there is a red-haired boy who is very close to you, the one we met at the last meal."

"What's the relationship with you?"

A boy with red hair?It's Edward.Xia Baiwei suddenly thought that Gu Jinxing's anomaly when he was having dinner in City B was because he had seen himself and Andre behaving intimately when he was a freshman?Was Gu Jinxing jealous then?

Thinking of this, Xia Baiwei felt a little complicated, looked into Gu Jinxing's eyes and replied seriously, "It doesn't matter. It's an ordinary classmate relationship."

The haze in Gu Jinxing's eyes slowly dissipated, he looked into Xia Baiwei's eyes, and knew that he was not lying to himself.

Both walked briskly onto the bridge, Xia Bai stopped slightly in the middle of the bridge, and leaned against the bridge with Gu Jinxing, staring at the two ducks on the lake.

"Come to me, why don't you come to see me." Xia Baiwei's words were light and light, but only he understood how long this question had been in his heart.

It's just that the first thing I wanted to ask was, why didn't you come to me?

Gu Jinxing was silent for a long time, turned his head to look at Gu Jinxing and said, "Didn't you say it? Anyone can do it."

The wind on the bridge was a bit strong, and Gu Jinxing had to squint his slightly red eyes.

"I want to find you, but I'm afraid, you already have another 'Gu Jinxing'."

The surface of the lake was shimmering, the two red-billed and gray-feathered ducks went to nowhere, and the wind blew Xia Baiwei's neck very cold.For some reason, Xia Baiwei suddenly felt a little pain in his chest being blown by the wind.

"I'm sorry." Xia Baiwei looked at Gu Jinxing's red eyes and blurted out subconsciously.

In the evening, the two of them ate at a restaurant near the school. During this time, Gu Jinxing answered several calls, which should be related to work.Xia Baiwei didn't realize until Gu Jinxing answered the phone that Gu Jinxing would not stay here for long, and he would return to City B sooner or later.

Sudden loss of appetite, Xia Baiwei felt that instead of eating at the Michelin restaurant he frequented in college, he might as well go back and eat the food cooked by Gu Jinxing.

After answering the phone, Gu Jinxing came back and sat down, seeing Xia Baiwei's expression of disinterest, "Tired?"

Xia Bai nodded slightly, "Well, why don't you go back."

On the way back, Xia Baiwei kept thinking about how long Gu Jinxing would stay in England.Gu Jinxing was thinking about Xia Baiwei's apology on the bridge in the afternoon, why should he apologize, why should he say sorry.Gu Jinxing didn't want to hear Xia Baiwei say sorry, nor did he want his apology, he just wanted him to be with him.

The two returned to the apartment with heavy thoughts, and when they each finished washing and were about to go to bed, Gu Jinxing called Xia Baiwei who was about to enter the room, "Today is Christmas Eve, right?"

"Xia Baiwei, be safe every year."

Xia Baiwei's eyes were a little sore, and there were many voices of Sui Sui'an, accompanied by the pictures in his memory.Throughout the three years of high school, Gu Jinxing said this to him on Christmas Eve, and after five years, he heard it again.

Xia Baiwei didn't know what hit her weak point, maybe it was the memory, maybe it was Gu Jinxing who said he came to find her, maybe it was Gu Jinxing's injured expression on the bridge, maybe it was the Valentine's Day every year during the four years of university. roses.

Xia Baiwei didn't enter the room, he watched Gu Jinxing seriously look into his eyes, which were a little moist.A choked and weak voice sounded:

"Gu Jinxing, I was wrong."

"I lied to you and myself. There is only one Gu Jinxing in my life, only you."

The night was very quiet, Gu Jinxing heard his own violent heartbeat.

Xia Baiwei suddenly understood his feelings, he didn't want Suisui to be safe, he wanted Suisui to be with Gu Jinxing.