Drug addiction

Tong Yu opened the refrigerator, looked at the fruits that Tong's mother had prepared before leaving, pursed her lips and thought for a moment, then took out strawberries and sunshine grapes...

Gently tear off the plastic wrap, put them into the fruit bowl, Tong Yu looked over the kitchen door, and threw it towards the living room, a variety show was playing on the TV, and the laughter from it entered his ears unsuspectingly , He frowned severely, feeling a little uncomfortable.

After the appointment in the afternoon, Yan Ziqian was always depressed. He would answer whatever Tong Yu asked, and if Tong Yu didn't ask, he would just sit on the sofa blankly, without saying a word...

Tong Yu knew that the crux of his appearance was due to one person, and that was Ms. Liu...

For dinner, Yan Ziqian still ordered the grilled pig's trotters and chicken wings that Tong Yu had promised, as well as several small dishes. In order to coax him, Tong Yu deliberately took two cans of beer and put them on the dining table, but Yan Ziqian shook his head with a smile. Shaking his head, pushing the beer away...

Today's dinner table is extraordinarily quiet, without the usual laughter and laughter, only the sound of swallowing food...

No, there is also the stereotyped love from Yan Ziqian...

'This is delicious' 'Eat more meat' 'Eat this' 'Don't touch your hands'

At that time, Tong Yu bit his lips when he looked at the bowls piled up into a hill, and then looked at Yan Ziqian's handsome face full of thoughts. He really couldn't say no, so he was heartbroken and buried his head. Cooking rice, facing the "good intentions" that fell from Yan Ziqian's chopsticks, he always filled his precarious stomach with the hills in the bowl...

After dinner, Yan Ziqian said he was going downstairs to throw out the trash, and Tong Yu sat on the shoe-changing bench at the entrance and waited for him, but the wait lasted for half an hour...

Tong Yu didn't ask him why it took him so long to come back, because the faint smell of cigarettes on his body had already given Tong Yu the answer he wanted...

The house is very hot, even if the living room window is opened, the room is still very hot, and the fruit just taken out of the refrigerator encounters hot air, and a thin layer of frost will appear on the surface, Tong Yu reached out and pinched it. With a grape in my fingertips, I took out a piece of kitchen paper to wipe off the matte surface, and it immediately returned to its crystal clear appearance...

"Hey..." Tong Yu sighed, but how could Yan Ziqian's frost-covered heart be wiped clean?

Putting the grapes on his fingertips into his mouth, Tong Yu walked out of the kitchen holding the fruit plate in both hands...

Yan Ziqian sat on the sofa watching TV with the remote control in his hand... No, he was in a daze...

The sweet grape juice exploded in Tong Yu's mouth, but he didn't know how to eat, so he gently sat down beside Yan Ziqian, put the fruit plate on the coffee table, and glanced sideways. With that handsome face still full of worries, Tong Yu sighed, and then blatantly rubbed into his arms...

When Yan Ziqian came to his senses, Tong Yu had spared no effort to climb his shoulders with his arms. He smiled lightly, wrapped his long arms around his chest, and then opened his mouth, gladly accepting the words from him. The round and plump grapes falling from the daughter-in-law's fingertips...

Tong Yu's side face rubbed against Yan Ziqian's generous shoulder, and hesitantly asked, "Brother Qian, what's wrong with you?"

Hearing his question, Yan Ziqian was slightly taken aback, raised his hand to turn down the volume of the TV a lot, and then smiled very calmly, "I'm fine, my treasure..."

Tong Yu bit her lip hard, raised her head to see the forced smile on his face, her heart ached to the extreme...

He didn't know how much courage he had used to suppress the tears that were about to burst out, he raised his hand to caress the broken hair on Yan Ziqian's forehead, and Tong Yu's trembling thin lips finally opened, "Tell me. ..”

Yan Ziqian looked at Tong Yu's phoenix eyes glistening with tears, and the pain suddenly swept through his heart. He frowned, but still used a smile to cover up the sadness that was about to be hidden, and then asked coquettishly, "Why? La?"

"Brother Qian, don't be unhappy, I will be unhappy if you are unhappy..." Tong Yu kissed his lips for a moment, but then shook her head to deny her words, "No, if you are unhappy, then I will sad..."

After listening to his words, Yan Ziqian licked his lips, frowned and dodged Tong Yu's gaze, pretended to calmly grab his little cold hand and put it in his warm palm, and then spoke softly to him. Said, "Baby, I feel so uncomfortable..."

"Is... because of... Ms. Liu?"

"Hmm..." Yan Ziqian nodded slightly with a mocking smile on his lips.

Tong Yu's thin lips parted slightly, and he was stunned for at least three seconds before tentatively asking, "What did Ms. Liu tell you today, and why did you become like this?"

"She didn't say anything..." Yan Ziqian was really amused this time, he sighed and continued, "She was listening to me most of the time..."

"Then what did you tell her?" Tong Yu didn't understand the meaning of his smiling face.

Yan Ziqian thought for a moment, and then recalled, "I talked a lot, Dad, Aunt Fang, you, me, and Simba..."

"It's our family of five..." Tong Yu responded with a smile as a matter of course, but for a moment he seemed to understand it and said, "You tell her this, she will be very angry..."

"What can she do if she is angry? What I said is the truth, she must let me tell the truth..." Yan Ziqian sighed as if he was a little angry, "Besides, she was the one who asked me how I was doing. good..."

"Don't be angry..." Seeing that he was agitated, Tong Yu quickly stretched out her little cool hand to stroke his chest twice, and rubbed her little face together again, "Brother Qian, don't be angry. ..”

"Daughter-in-law, I'm not angry..." Yan Ziqian pulled his little cold hand to his lips and kissed it, and murmured with a gloomy expression, "I just got into the corner of the horns, and I know I can't stay in the horns of the horns." It's been too long, but I just can't get out..."

"Then tell me..." Tong Yu looked at him with shining eyes, boldly sat on Yan Ziqian's lap, hooked his right arm around his neck, and left a string on his cheek. A string of tender kisses mixed with warmth, "See if I can pull you out..."

Yan Ziqian smiled lightly, bit his collarbone which was not covered by his collar, hugged his waist, rubbed his furry head against his neck, gently closed his eyes, two lines of hot tears But it slipped from the eyelids without warning...

Feeling the burning sensation of the hot breath from his mouth hitting his collarbone, Tong Yu frowned fiercely, the hand on his shoulder hesitated for a moment, then covered the back of his head, gently rubbing it comfortingly ...

Tong Yu pursed his lips, such words made Ziqian feel distressed...

"Brother Qian, tell me, I'm your boyfriend, if you don't tell me, who are you going to tell?"

Yan Ziqian sniffed hard, then buried his whole face between Tong Yu's neck, and suddenly said out of nowhere, "Bao, I'm a very useless person and a very failure People, right?"

Tong Yu's frown deepened now, he nodded slightly, looked at Yan Ziqian's slightly trembling hair, and replied in an unusually firm tone, "Of course not..."

"Then why doesn't Ms. Liu want me?"

"This..." Tong Yu didn't understand what he meant, he frowned and shook his head, "This is totally two different things..."

"Really?" Yan Ziqian asked back, then raised his handsome face covered with tears, his eyes were already filled with misty water vapor, he stared blankly at Tong Yu and asked, "Why did she throw me away?" ? Why have you ignored me for ten years? Why didn’t you even look at me? Isn’t she my real mother? Why is there a real mother who is so cruel to her children? I will miss her when she is gone, and I will Sad, I will cry...doesn't she know..."

Tong Yu licked his lips, and responded as a matter of course, "This is Ms. Liu's problem, it has nothing to do with you..."

"No, this is my problem..." Yan Ziqian gritted his molars and denied him, his eyes became more fierce, "This is all my fault..."

"It's not your fault..." Tong Yu's voice raised a lot, he looked seriously at Yan Ziqian's expression that was close to collapse, his nose was sore, tears fell like beads with a broken thread ...

Yan Ziqian lowered his eyelids, the tears in his eyes burst completely, he pursed his lips to suppress the grief in his heart, and murmured, "I told her that she didn't want me because she didn't love me, but why didn't she love me?" Me? There is no one in this world who doesn't love good people, so she doesn't love me, she doesn't want me because of me in the final analysis, because I am a useless person, useless...I don't deserve her at all Love, that's why she left so easily..."

Tong Yu didn't want to see Yan Ziqian fall into extreme self-denial, so that Brother Qian would make him feel strange, so he desperately shook his head and denied, "Brother Qian, you can't think like this, Ms. Liu decided to leave back then, no matter what she faced Like you, she will leave, these are her faults, and have nothing to do with you...and you were only eight years old..."

"Speaking of this..." Yan Ziqian suddenly smiled when he heard Tong Yu say this, and wrapped his arms around Tong Yu's waist even tighter, "Bao, do you know? It was a long time after Ms. Liu left." For a while, I was surrounded by a feeling of fear, I was afraid that someone would leave me again, so I went to please everyone, I was very tired, very tired..." Speaking of this, Yan Ziqian licked Lips and forehead pressed against Tong Yu's chin, frowning continued, "But then I found out that no matter how good I am, there are still people who don't like me, criticize me, point fingers..."

"What happened later?" Tong Yu's cold little hands patted his broad back rhythmically, just like treating a newborn baby, but in fact, Yan Ziqian at this time was even more fragile than a newborn baby ...

"Later, I didn't please. I was cold to everyone, and I did the opposite. Maybe this is also a kind of self-protection..." Yan Ziqian said, but in the next second his tone was in vain. Added a bit of ridicule "But the more I am like this, the more everyone likes me..."

Hearing this, Tong Yu couldn't tell whether he was sad or heartbroken, he just smiled at the corner of his mouth, and sighed hard, "Yeah, what a strange person..."

"It's not surprising..." Yan Ziqian still smiled, but he was denying him calmly.

Tong Yu listened carefully to every word that slipped out of his mouth, the hand patting his back suddenly stopped, and then silently clenched into a fist...

"Bao, sometimes I feel like I'm a little psychopathic..." Yan Ziqian suddenly raised his tearful eyes to stare at Tong Yu with a sad face, and continued with a beautiful arc at the corner of his mouth, "Today...today I put Ms. Liu scolded and cried, but when I saw her crying, I was suddenly very happy. I felt that I had regained a victory...but the next second, I felt that I was very weak, and I could only rely on this kind of hurt her heart. Only in this way can we get a psychological balance...and Dad..." He pouted and sighed, the smile on the corner of his mouth froze, "After Ms. Liu left, Dad treated me better, and he rarely asked me , grades, social relations, hobbies... are very tolerant, but sometimes I will think wildly, in fact, his tolerance is a disguised form of giving up, he has already given up on me, and he is too lazy to care about me..."

"Yan Ziqian!" Tong Yu couldn't listen anymore, he probably wanted to lose his temper, but when he looked at the big dull eyes in front of him, he couldn't bear it anymore, so he had to sigh and give up. He licked his lips lightly twice, thinking about how to speak...

"Baby, and you..." Yan Ziqian's smile completely disappeared at the moment, he frowned, and looked at Tong Yu as if he was holding back tears, "You have taken care of me for so long in terms of study, studying and going to class every day I'm already very tired, and I still have two hours to answer my questions, facing my various questions... I know you are very tired, so I'm sorry Bao, it's my fault, I don't know anything, If you can't do anything well, you will only cause trouble for others and become a burden for others..."

Tong Yu pursed his lips hard, and there was a little anger in his eyes. He closed his eyes, but then hot tears came out of his eyes, "Yan Ziqian, am I just an outsider to you? And me Mom, and Uncle Yan, we are all just outsiders to you, aren't we?"

After hearing Tong Yu's words, Yan Ziqian's self-pitying mind was finally cleared up a little. He shook his head lightly, and stroked Tong Yu's tear-soaked cheek with his fingertips, as if his heart had been severely grabbed. He gasped in pain.

Tong Yu raised his eyes and looked straight at Yan Ziqian's furrowed brows. He licked his lips and said as if he had taken great courage, "Yan Ziqian, let me tell you something..."