winter suicide plan

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Chen Shuning's perspective

I found out that Tang Fengxing didn't return home at night.Well, it's not a big deal to be away for a few nights, um, it's not a big deal, it's not a big deal.I brainwashed myself for half an hour, only to find that not a single page of the verdict in my hand had been moved.I dropped my pen and started thinking.

Could it be because I was busy with a case before, didn't eat well, and made him angry again?

No, I recently had lunch with him in a nearby street.

Is it because I look too depressed recently and he doesn't like it?

Is it because I didn't sleep at home very much before, and I was not active in any way, so he has no interest in me?

Is he just greedy for my body?

I grabbed the pen and poked around in the notebook, unconsciously writing Tang Fengxing's name.I quickly painted it out, when did I fall in love with my brain so much.No, I'm not a love brain, I want to work.Tang Fengxing is not such a superficial person.

I picked up the pen again, flipped through it for a while, and found that the materials given by the intern were missing, so I quickly kicked the sleeping intern next to me and asked him to bring me the missing materials.

The intern searched for a long time but still couldn't find it. He rubbed his messy hair and said he couldn't find it.

I can't bear it anymore, I can bear it, I can't even find the information, what do I do to eat, is this office supporting idlers?

I took a big step, gritted my teeth to hold back my anger, and pulled the intern by his collar in disgust, like a chicken, and threw him into the reference room, insisting that he find it for me.

I think back when I was an intern, how could I have been so slack, for fear that others would think that I was suspended from school for half a year and would not recruit me. Fortunately, in the past few years, my emotions were occasionally relieved by drugs, and I began to accept some light legal cases. For some larger criminal cases, it is slowly saving money and getting through step by step.

I jumped up when I got angry, and he rubbed his eyes and asked if I was off work.I looked up, and at eleven o'clock in the evening, I consciously worked an overtime class because of this intern's case.Tang Fengxing sent me a message telling me to go to bed early, he will be back later today.

I stood up, picked up my suit jacket, slapped the table hard, put my hands on the table, and looked down at the intern: "Intern, you are not familiar with the materials, right? Put the 55- 70’s files will be sorted out before leaving.”

"Brother, it's eleven o'clock."

"I want to see the report you compiled on my desktop tomorrow. If you don't have you, I'm going to pack up and leave. There are no idlers here."

"elder brother--"

"Recently, your state is very problematic. Do you think you can relax in the last few days of the internship period? You can't tell the laws and regulations involved in some of the cases you asked. Most of the judgments were revised by me. The cases you took over I sent you materials and information, saying that it is a two-person cooperation, and I will guide you. You didn’t sort it out for me at all, and the little fish that came a few later than you learned faster than you. If you want to be lazy, don’t come to this position. Choose a leisurely clerical job, why waste time with me. Oh, I didn’t stop you, you said to follow me at the beginning. Do you understand, then call brother to sort out everything after 70.”

"What are you doing so late, are you targeting me on purpose?" Qin Mo closed the door angrily.

"What qualifications do you have for me to target?"

"Chen Shuning, what are you talking about? I obviously graduated from S University. I am one of the five colleges and four departments. You don't even have five colleges and four departments. You are just an ordinary comprehensive college. What qualifications do you have to point me out?" Qin Qin Mo seemed to pour out all his dissatisfaction with these days, and pushed me violently.

I was very upset at first, this push and push made me angry, and this kid insisted on arguing with me. I threw the file folder on the desktop, and there was a loud noise in the quiet office.

"Yes, you are one of the five courtyards and four departments. You are powerful. I'm trash. I can't afford to serve you. I'll get out. You can sit in this position. You can sit. I don't care about the case. You can complete it by yourself. Is it done?"

I picked up my coat and walked out of the office. When I was leaving, the soda cans beside me felt in the way.What kind of good intentions are like the liver and lungs of a donkey, and a dog biting Lu Dongbin does not recognize a good heart.

Fuck it pissed me off.I walked around like crazy, and walked to the office where Tang Fengxing worked without knowing it.I stood in the opposite block, looking at the bright lights inside, thinking that Tang Fengxing could come out and go home with me.I touched my pocket, damn it, I was so angry that I didn't take my phone.

I touched my pocket, but there was no cigarette, Tang Fengxing wouldn't let me smoke.As soon as I turned my head, I bumped into the street light next to me. I knocked off my glasses and had to look for them.I rubbed my sore forehead, enduring the physical pain and tears falling down.I'm 27 years old. What's the point of talking to someone who just graduated? He's young and energetic. What I said is not good. No one saves face. If he compares himself with others, it's normal to be disobedient.

Didn't expect me to be so bad in front of him?Have I been performing poorly lately?I think it's normal, and I'm taking good care of people, so why worry...

Hmm... It's really that I'm too bad, not to mention graduating late, and I barely passed the final defense because the examiner kept staring at me because I didn't get used to it.It's true that my education is not as good-looking as his, and I'm still angry with the intern, saying that he has no qualifications, etc., I really suck.

Is it because Tang Fengxing also thinks I'm bad, and finds that I'm not as good as he imagined, I don't speak well, I'm not active in sex, and I'm not as cute and cute as a woman, and I will act like a baby. When I go home, I have to accept me Good and bad moods, so he has no enthusiasm...

Standing outside alone, wandering and thinking about it, the more he thought about it, the more angry and sad he became, and he began to dig into the corners, barely stopping himself from continuing to develop and think in a bad way.My chest was congested and I wanted Tang Fengxing to comfort me.

I don't care about 21, what's the matter if Tang Fengxing doesn't go home these few nights?

I went in and asked Li Jingyuan who was still typing outside: "Where is Tang Fengxing?"

Li Jingyuan was taken aback: "Damn it, what wind brought you here, why don't you usually see you here? Come to check the post?"

Although I'm joking, my heart can't help but feel like it's falling down. It's not that I don't have confidence in Tang Fengxing, I have no confidence in me... myself.

"Check out the P, we're just going home together. If you know, just shut up." I looked at Tang Fengxing's desk with a guilty conscience.

I... haven't been here much?Thinking about it carefully, I don't like to move around very much, and it's Tang Fengxing who comes to see me more often.It seems that I am not active enough and enthusiastic enough, so Tang Fengxing doesn't want to go home to see me anymore?

"Hey, he should be over there in the kitchen. You smell like gunpowder, did the couple quarrel?" Wu Huawen was packing up his things and preparing to leave.

I heard the direction, ignored them, and walked directly inside.They set up a separate small kitchen here, saying that they are considerate of the employees and don't always eat takeaway.I looked through the glass window, and there were two figures inside, Tang Fengxing and a woman with curly hair.Tang Fengxing was talking and laughing with that woman all the time, showing her the things in his hand from time to time, enjoying himself.If you don't go home, you will cook in the kitchen with other women late at night.

A wave of grievance really rushed into my brain, and my mind was full of wanting to ask him, why didn't he go home, did I really become bad, so are you looking for someone else?

I walked in with big strides, Tang Fengxing heard the footsteps, his smile changed suddenly, became stiff, blocking things behind him unnaturally.He asked me: "A Ning, didn't I tell you to go to bed early?"

I didn't bother to talk to him, avoided this question, turned around and looked at the surprised man opposite, the woman with curly hair asked, "This is..."

I immediately showed the ring on my hand, took Tang Fengxing's hand, and said to the ring exactly: "I am his boyfriend, Chen Shuning. Excuse me, this lady, you are looking for my family in the middle of the night. You have something very important and you can't leave it until now." Do you want to solve it tomorrow?" I deliberately bit down on the words "boyfriend" and "my family".

Tang Fengxing's ears turned red after hearing my words, and I held his hand tightly subconsciously, no matter how hard I used it, only later did I realize that I had squeezed Tang Fengxing's wrist red.

At that time, I only thought: if someone snatched my head, my lungs would explode in anger. I can't see the ring, can I?

The woman in front of her smiled: "Tang Fengxing, did your boyfriend misunderstand something? I'm his colleague, and my name is Tao Tu. Let Tang Fengxing explain to you clearly, someone is here to pick me up, so I'm leaving first. "

In an instant, anyone with a discerning eye knew what I had misunderstood. Tao Tu lit up his ring for me when he left, and pretended to be angry and said: "I have a bad couple, too! Slightly!" Finally, he left with a sweet smile.

I was stunned at the scene, and Tang Fengxing laughed out loud.I really seem to have misunderstood something, and I even made a fool of myself, saying such childish things...

God, shame to death!

It seems that if it involves the person I like, it will provoke my nerves at any time, cut off all the neurons in charge of my IQ, and become an imbecile in love.

To put it simply, I, Chen Shuning - I am in love!

Extremely ashamed, he covered his head with the outside in a panic, squatted down, his whole body was terribly ashamed, his face was hot with embarrassment, and he didn't dare to look at Tang Fengxing at all.

"Ah Ning, it's okay, don't be bored."

I felt Tang Fengxing hug me, picked me up and put me on the dining table next to me.I still didn't dare to look at him, he quietly lifted up a corner of his clothes, my eyes were exposed, and I didn't dare to look at him at all.

"I... didn't mean it, I didn't mean that, that me... don't look at me!" I couldn't organize a sentence at all, and wrapped the clothes around my own head again.

Tang Fengxing touched my head through the clothes: "I know what Aning means, are you jealous?"

I said in a muffled voice: "It's not, it's because you haven't gone home to sleep, it's been several nights."

"So you doubt me..."

I quickly tore off my clothes and blocked his mouth, and said in a low mood: "No, I didn't doubt you. I have always been unconfident in myself. You just smiled so happily, as if I couldn't give you that happiness. I just returned Suspicious of others, always can't control my emotions, I vent my anger on others, I am angry at myself, I... feel like a bad person, so bad, I don't think I am worthy... huh …”

Tang Fengxing pulled my hand away when I was talking, and kissed me eagerly, blocking my continuation.I grabbed his skirt and tried to escape.

"Tang... Fengxing, wait... um, wait a minute..."

I was provoked by him with my tongue, and gently stroked the soft head of the palate, and my waist shivered sensitively and softened.

"Um...don't...you make me... finish...uh..."

"Kiss until you can't talk."

In the end, he was dizzy from being kissed, and Tang Fengxing finally recovered after he was placed in the passenger seat.After returning home with him, I hid directly under the blanket, and he explained it to me outside.

He is learning how to make desserts from Tao Tu. She made a piece of mango mille-feuille that he brought home that time. Seeing that I ate very happily, she wanted to make a big one for my birthday cake. I learned from Tao Tu for several times. One night, because I was afraid that there would be no surprises when I came home to do it.

Ah, and I spoiled a well-planned surprise, and I'm a bad guy, after all.

After listening, I was willing to show my eyes from under the quilt, tears kept rolling in my eyes: "I'm sorry, you can help me apologize to that person tomorrow. I... thought I..."

I was about to speak out, but I was so kissed by Tang Fengxing that I couldn't find Bei. I couldn't organize any words of frustration, so I could only breathe dizzily in his arms.

"How can there be so many thoughts, Aning, I wake up every day and feel that I like you a little more. Don't tell me any more depressing words. You are not a bad person, and you have nothing to apologize for. You are just a jealous little jealous, okay?"

I just got out of my head: "Really, but my interns don't like me, so it's bad for me to say that."

I told him the stupid things about me arguing with Qin Mo, running out without my phone, and bumping into a pole, and I felt even more ashamed.

"Hey, Ah Ning, no one will only be liked or hated. Some people like it and some people hate it. Although I don't know what happened between you, if it's a quarrel, find the source of the incident and quarrel, and solve the problem. It's not human at all. The problem is just an incident. The words may also be out of anger, and you don't really think that he is like this, do you?"

"Don't you really think that's bad for me? You obviously have no right to accuse him."

"Isn't this the performance of the person in charge?" Tang Fengxing asked me back.

"I also feel that I am responsible."

"Well, yes, Ah Ning is responsible. Is it right to say those things because I want him to be good? It's not aimed at him. Being responsible is a good quality. Don't accuse yourself of being a bad person. Maybe your way, he didn't If he can accept it, maybe in another way, he will accept it?"

Then I got out slowly, kissed him and said, "Well, maybe I was too strict with him, next time I...be gentler?"

"No, just be strict with lazy kids like him, just be gentle with me, vinegar essence." Tang Fengxing scratched my nose.

"Obviously you want to prepare a surprise for me, but I..."

"Then what are you going to do? I've been preparing for several nights, and the dark circles under my eyes have come out."

"Then I'll pretend I don't know, and when you send me off, I will definitely be very surprised!"

He rubbed my bumped forehead and said, "Is it stupid? It's not enough."

I kissed him and said, "Is this enough?"

"Not enough, I want to hear you say it again, you are my boyfriend, Chen Shuning, you were really handsome at that time, boyfriend." Tang Fengxing pinched my face.

I immediately covered my face and wanted to hide under the blanket: "Please don't recall it to me, it's too embarrassing!"

Tang Fengxing grabbed my ankle, lifted my legs up, turned on the bedside lamp and said, "Boyfriend, use your body to compensate me, okay?"

I covered my eyes, my face was hot and I had to nod.

Red waves rolled overnight.

Exhausted and sticky, I recovered from the kissing giddy and asked him, "Is that enough now?"

He licked my swollen lips and said, "Not enough, but more."

"Ah, I can't do it."

"A-Ning, have confidence in yourself."

Pull the lights!

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Some cliché jealous rotten stalks!Let's have fun, judges!