winter suicide plan

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As soon as we got home and closed the door without turning on the lights, we were dizzy from the kiss. We touched the belt on Tang Fengxing's waist with our hands, pulled out the belt with a "click", and threw it on the ground.Tang Fengxing anxiously kicked off the belt, and untied the rope of my sports pants, exposing my genitals in front of his eyes, my face was instantly hot, and my whole body was in a panic. He touched it for a moment, and it seemed to be done. my sensitive point.

I pinched his waist and said: "Hmm... wait a minute, Feng, let's go to the bathroom to wash up first."

Only then did he pull us closer to the toilet, and the hot water from the shower fell on our skin and landed on the tiled floor, wisps of white mist rose up.Tang Fengxing's face was also a little bit flushed, his ears were red from the hot water, or he was also shy.

He helped me clean my back and in the bathroom he leaned against my back and rubbed his cock between my clamped legs against mine.

The sound of water "dripping" and the sound of friction between the buttocks echoed in the bathroom. It was sluggish and erotic, and the ambiguous feelings drifted like white mist in the bathroom.His movements are still very gentle, restraining himself from being fierce.He slowly kissed the back of my neck with his lips.Although I have already seen the other person's body, I would say something nasty from time to time.I was still very shy when I saw the live ammunition. I subconsciously started to cry from shame, and I still shed tears easily. He wiped my tears and said: "Ah Ning, does it hurt? If it hurts, let's do it again next time." do it."

"No, it doesn't hurt, it's just... a little shy."

Tang Fengxing smiled lightly next to my ear and said, "It turns out that Ah Ning would be shy."

"You mocked me..."

"No, I think Aning is cute."

"Don't judge a man's cuteness!" I cried out angrily.

He turned me around, and the hair that covered my eyes was brushed away by him. With the sound of the dripping water, my hands interlocked with his fingers, and pressed against the separated glass door. The heat from my hands made the glass instantly It fogs up and leaves finger marks on it.We had a long, sweet kiss, and we didn't come out until we ran out of water in the water heater.

I give everything to him and I don't know how to please him in this regard.But he said that every action and expression I made on the bed was pleasing him.I put the so-called ice cream-flavored cover on him with my mouth, it was a bit big, when I put it on, I said inarticulately: "Wuuu...don't grow up with me, Hanguzhu (don't make it bigger, Can't bear it)..."

The jaw was a little numb, and a little bit of saliva dripped out, which he wiped off with a tissue, and came to kiss him.

"Well, it really tastes like ice cream."

"Baby Ah Ning, you are tempting me, that's why, don't blame me."

Oh... am I really his baby?

It should be.

He called out pet names so lightly, he stroked my cheek like a feather, I liked it very much, the soreness like carbonic acid filled my heart.

Is this what it feels like to be loved?

So comfortable, I hope Tang Fengxing can always love me like this.

I suddenly remembered that this bed sheet was washed yesterday, so I hurriedly said: "It was washed yesterday, so it can't be dirty."

"Well, let me wear one for Aning too."

I sat on his crotch, slowly sucked in a head, and then exclaimed, supported his chest, and straightened my waist.He slowly touched the back and said, "Baby, relax, um, yes, take your time."

I am like a child who needs to learn to walk when I was young, and I am learning under the patient guidance of Tang Fengxing.I squinted my eyes from the pain, opened my mouth slightly to exhale, to reduce the pain, I have been busy these months, I have no time to express my desire, and my back has tightened a lot, even though I have dilated, it is not easy to eat Tang Fengxing's dick .

Feeling that the folds on the back of the head are slowly stretched and flattened, it is crispy and numb, and some of the jelly smooth fluid in the back court is squeezed out, and slowly slides down from the thighs to the thighs, and there are some sticky spots on the thighs. trace.

In June in G Province, the air conditioner can be turned on. I am slowly entering the state. The sweat on my body runs down my cheeks. He grabbed my thigh and thrust up and down. The thigh was stained with sweat and other sticky liquids. .It started slowly, and I could smell the sweet and warm coffee-like smell filling the room, and I vaguely saw a candle flickering on the bedside table.The fragrance became more and more intense, and my libido switch was turned on, and I felt that the pleasure of slow movements could not satisfy the body's desire to absorb continuously.

I began to twist my waist and speed up, licking Tang Fengxing's earlobe, wanting to kiss him all over, I bit his lower lip in dissatisfaction and said: "Baby, hurry up, please, later Itchy, so uncomfortable."

I don't know why I feel so hot all over my body, and my tongue is smeared with passion.Tang Fengxing touched the place where the flooded back acupoints were connected: "A-Ning, can you do it?"

"Well, brother, brother, hurry up, I want, give me, fuck me hard, okay?"

"Ah Ning, what did you call me?"

"I graduated one year later than you, so you are my senior brother... um! Don't be so sudden... um!"

"Ah Ning call again, call again."

Tang Fengxing's voice was so low, like a clear guiding voice in a trek, pulling all my nerves.I seem to have taken some aphrodisiac, as if I have the desire to be in heat, like a sticky rice cake being pulled into a long strip, my brain is like a melted candy, I feel like my whole body will melt and become sticky.

I want Tang Fengxing to put out the fire for me.

I want Tang Fengxing to hold me tightly and look at me all the time, but I can only write in his diary

People, it turns out that the more you have, the more greedy you become, and the soreness in your heart begins to add some pessimism and bitterness caused by self-care.

"Senior brother, senior brother... I like you so much, you must not let me die, I will always be very obedient, I will always love you...you have to believe in me, I will work hard to persist in treatment, don't give up on me, okay."

Tang Fengxing grabbed my thigh, pushed it in quickly and hard, slowly getting inward, the stomach began to become strange, it was pulled out wide open and closed, and inserted a hundred times, my panting voice was as lewd as a little girl Yes, throwing away all human dignity, just want to go to cloud and rain with him.

"Well, obedience is not the condition for me to love you. Loving you is the major premise of everything. I will always believe in you, Junior Brother, be good, don't cry. Your face is wet, and your eyes are like a bunny."

I only show my weak self in front of him, and I really hope that I am a little rabbit, because no matter what the little rabbit does, no matter whether it is male or female, it is very cute, and no matter what the little rabbit does, it will not think it is strange or wrong.

Well, I actually really like being praised as cute by Tang Fengxing.

He licked off the tears on my cheeks, and the turbid fluid on my forehead leaked out from the "spring eye". He asked me to look down at the joint between them. The thin white foam made me feel even more ashamed and flustered, so I covered my face and didn't look at it. .

"Oh—be good, don't cover your eyes, let me see you, Aning."

I moved my palm away, and in an instant a kiss landed on my lips, grinding finely, like a reward for being obedient.

Sweat was sticky all over his body, while Tang Fengxing was kissing me, he pushed up hard, crushing my sensitive spots, I broke the embankment in an instant, bent my waist back, curled my toes, and wrapped my arms around his neck , the back acupoint was still being pumped and inserted during the orgasm, and the white turbid liquid splashed on the two abdomens.

My stomach became very strange, as if it was drilled and filled by something, my greasy calf trembled, and in the aftertaste of the orgasm, I couldn't stand up anymore, holding Tang Fengxing's hand and being supported by me, let him feel my stomach The bulge changes as I move up and down.

The taste gradually melted my will, and I wanted more Tang Fengxing's things, and I couldn't help but start to make a soft voice that seemed to be soaked in honey: "Um...um...haha...so comfortable, senior brother, so comfortable , it’s getting bigger here, ah! Senior brother, lighten up, lighten up! Umm...haha..."

I'm very happy, I don't know why, it seems that I have crushed the sandwich fruit candy in my mouth, and the sweet heat is still spreading on my body.After my second orgasm, Tang Fengxing pressed me down and asked me to open my legs. His pressed calf kept coming in and out. I gasped and wanted to ask for a kiss. Of course Tang Fengxing Satisfy me immediately.

I don't know how long I have been doing it, my whole body is floating in the waves, I keep calling him various names, Tang Fengxing's panting sound expands in my ears, the chest is pressed together, I can feel the heartbeat of both sides, never The peace of mind and comfort I have ever had.

In the end, the sheets were still dirty and had to be washed again, but I did it yesterday, and I was hoarse and angry that he didn't do what I asked.He felt aggrieved and said, "You took the initiative to ask me to do it a few more times."

"You wash it yourself."

"Okay, I'll wash."

The memory of calling him senior brother slowly floated up, and I touched my hot face unconsciously: "It's all because of the smell."

"What is the taste?"

"A sweet and warm taste of coffee."

Tang Fengxing picked up something next to him and looked at it. I didn't wear glasses, my eyelids were sore and wanted to droop, and my body was so sore. Tang Fengxing started to lose control after doing it a few times, gnawing and biting, I can see it now To the teeth bite marks on the thighs.

Fortunately, I strengthened my exercise this year, not only for the sake of my body, but also for my mental health.

He put it down after watching it and didn't tell me. I saw his expression was weird and asked him, "What's that?"

"Nothing, ordinary candlelight candles."

"Okay, Tang Fengxing has been with me for a few years, and then he started lying to me."

He quickly lay down and hugged me, and patted my back: "No, this is just an ordinary candle, just to set off the atmosphere."

"Well, I'm sleepy, touch my earlobe."

"Yes." He approached me obediently.

I reached out and touched his soft earlobe, and said in my mouth: "You must...you lied to me...but it doesn't matter, I like you very much, I like your white lies, and I like everything about you .”

The psychiatrist said that I should learn to tell the truth about my emotions, don't lie, don't cover up, this is not a shame, nor is it a mistake.Because he is my lover, everything is in common sense and as it should be.

"A'Ning, come back to my hometown with me this year for the New Year."

"No, tomato needs someone to take care of it."

"It can be fostered in a pet store."

I shrank my head in shock: "No, did you tell them that we are in a relationship! They won't like me, I'm not completely well yet, I'm not likable...you...don't"

"Don't panic, don't tell them now, we will tell them after we buy a house. I don't want you to spend the New Year here alone, it's so deserted."

I was unwilling to go back to my hometown with him for the new year, because I was afraid of how these strangers I had never met would judge me. If they were discovered, would they hate a disgusting person like me...

Tang Fengxing is their child, they must not like me... because his child is with a man...

"Okay, Ah Ning always thinks about the situation by himself. How do you know if you haven't been there? I'm still alone during the Chinese New Year. I will miss you very much." Tang Fengxing rubbed my sore waist.

"Will you really miss me, but there are many people in your place during the Chinese New Year, so you won't be alone."

"Crowds are just lively, it doesn't mean you're not lonely. Ah Ning and my hometown, I want to watch you all the time."

This is my wish too.

As long as Tang Fengxing is around, it doesn't matter if there are too many people, as long as he is by my side.

"Well... I'll think about it." I still hesitated for a while with fear.

"It's okay, there is still half a year."

"What would you think if I refused?"

He hugged me and started to talk endlessly: "I would think so, Chen Shuning, you bastard, I have been secretly in love with you for so long, and I have fed you so much delicious food, put on the rings for me, earlobe I was swollen by you every day. I was always whispered at work by everyone. I have lover bite marks on my ears. Well, it’s actually nice to show off. But now you actually want to reject me! You want me to be your underground Lover, you are ruthless!"

He was still scratching me while talking, I quickly hid, but he continued to scratch me: "Are you sure?"

"Hahahahaha, wait, wait until I think about it first."

"Call senior brother to stop."

"Brother, I love you." I also tactfully added more words that he likes.

Tang Fengxing stopped in an instant and stopped messing around.

"It's okay, I won't force you."

"I know you never force me, I will convince myself, wait for me, okay?"

I touched his earlobe twice, and when he whispered "Well, take your time, I love you." I closed my eyes and entered the dream that was no longer dark, no longer covered in blood and scars, but Soft and sweet dreams.

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In fact, the novel still idealizes this mental illness. If it is to be completely cured, it will not be so fast. It may take a long time and involve many methods. Among them, it will be much more painful than this.

But I hope they can still be good and can go on sweetly.

Notice!The next chapter is our jealous stalk after work!After all, our classmate Xiaofeng has been jealous countless times, so we must balance the water.

Candles are certainly no ordinary candles!guess!